The Sweetest Thing In the World

Min Yue wept silently, sitting alone at the door and waiting.

The doctor on night shift got off the operating table and told her that the operation went well and the patient was in good condition, so there was no need to worry. She shook her head, indicating that she would continue to wait.

It wasn't until the door of the operating room opened and the anesthetist pushed the patient out to send him back to the SICU that Min Yue finally felt relieved.

After crying for a long time, my head was a little lack of oxygen. Min Yue walked back to the lounge in a daze, climbed onto the upper bunk of the bunk bed, lay down, pulled the quilt away, something fell out and hit her calf.

Min Yue turned on the bedside lamp and saw that it was a pennant sent by the family members of the 7-bed patient in the intensive care unit. She hid it under the quilt and forgot to hand it over to Xu Mai.

On the dark red pennant, there are two golden lines of "Healing the wounded and saving lives, noble medical ethics", and the far right column reads "Gift: F University First Affiliated Hospital, Dr. Xu Mai and his team".

Min Yue stared at the word "team" for a long time.

In the eyes of the patient, he is in the same team as Master, but in fact... his level is far from being able to enter that team.

The current self will only discredit Master.

Min Yue climbed out of bed, folded the pennant, put it in the locker and locked it, planning to hand it to Xu Mai tomorrow.

Only the master is worthy of the words "saving the dying and healing the wounded, with noble medical ethics".

A heart gradually sank, like falling into a bottomless trench.

Min Yue lay back on the bed, lifted the quilt, and covered her face.

In the morning meeting on the second day, the doctor on the night shift focused on the rescue process and follow-up treatment plan of the 5-bed patient in the SICU last night.

After hearing this, Director Zheng's expression was very bad, he pointed to the responsible doctor seriously, and said, "Come with me."

Everyone present looked at each other in blank dismay. The attending physician had already had two serious complications during the operation performed this month. It seemed that the director was going to severely criticize him.

Min Yue didn't care about other people's affairs, and together with Deng Sang, they squatted in the corner to pack mushrooms.

Chen Sitian approached, bumped her shoulder, and said, "Why are you so depressed, are you so scared?"

Min Yue looked down at her toes, but didn't speak.

Seeing that she was not in a good condition, Chen Sitian said in relief: "I heard that you were the only one present last night? Cardiac tamponade is indeed more dangerous, but puncture is the strength of the cardiology department. We don't have much contact with it, and many attending doctors did not do it by themselves. However, you will not be normal, don't blame yourself too much."

Knowing that she was trying to comfort her, Min Yue couldn't easily excuse herself.

She has already officially worked in the clinic, and is no longer an intern who has not graduated. She can leave everything to the teacher, let go, and hide behind others.

Sooner or later, she will become someone's responsible doctor. She has to be responsible to those who trust her. She can't ask others for help in everything. When an accident occurs, she has to stand up and save people against the clock.

There is no time for hesitation, no room for retreat.

Chen Sitian was too tolerant towards her, if she did not do well, she would encourage her; if she did poorly, she would comfort her. Min Yue has always been very grateful for her kindness, but at this moment, Min Yue realized that these things alone are not enough.

She needs someone to criticize her strictly and point out her shortcomings, lest she be complacent and self-contained.

Xu Mai is such a person.

She will not cover up her mistakes, but point out on the spot, teach the correct approach, and then lead herself to move forward step by step.

She needs such a master.

She needs pulse.

There is nothing to do after the shift. The doctors who are off the night shift can go home to rest. Others have left one after another. Min Yue is still working in the duty room.

"Master, I've finished writing yesterday's surgery record, and I need your signature." Min Yue was very frustrated and couldn't speak louder than usual.

Xu Mai took the notebook, checked it, and pointed out a few things that needed to be revised.

Min Yue responded dully, turned around to find an empty table, and wrote quietly on her stomach, but was stopped by Xu Mai.

Xu Mai pointed to his desk. "Write it here."

"it is good…"

Min Yue moved a chair with low eyebrows and sat down beside Xu Mai.

After writing a few lines, the pen ran out of ink. Min Yue reached for the ink bottle, and when she raised her eyes, she found that Xu Mai was looking at her quietly.

"Is there anything to do at noon?" Xu Mai asked.

Min Yue shook his head.

"Then teach you about pericardiocentesis later."

"Okay, Master."

Correct the operation record and ask Xu Mai to sign it after reviewing it. Afterwards, he helped a few patients to complete the discharge procedures, and when he was done, he looked back and saw that Xu Mai had left the duty room at some point.

Thinking that she might be going for ward rounds, Min Yue first took out the simulation model for practicing pericardiocentesis and moved it to the lounge.

There have always been very few female doctors in the Department of Cardiac Surgery, so the lounge area is not large, only a dozen square meters. After putting down a locker and two bunk beds, there is not much space left.

There is a small square table next to the window, which is used to put water cups, paper towels and other odds and ends of daily necessities. After Xu Mai entered the cardiac surgery department, he placed a narrow simple desk next to the wall opposite the locker and behind the lounge door.

According to Chen Sitian, Xu Mai almost used the lounge as his home in the first two years of his employment and rarely left the hospital. She always sits on the chair behind the door and reads documents. At the most exaggerated time, the documents piled up on the table and desk are nearly as high as the top bunk.

To this day, when Chen Sitian talked about this incident, he was still amazed, and lamented that the quality of the more than 200 yuan desk purchased online was so good, and so many books did not collapse.

Later, Xu Mai bought a house and moved those books back to his home, and this table was vacated.

After Min Yue knew that it used to be the master's desk, she was very careful when using it. Put the lunch box in front of it, spread two layers of newspaper first, and wipe it with a damp rag several times after eating, for fear of leaving oil stains.

Under Min Yue's care, this table became the second cleanest place in the rest room - the first was Xu Mai's bed.

Min Yue gently put the simulation model on the desk, went to the nurse's station to find a set of equipment for pericardiocentesis, and placed it next to the model.

Time passed minute by minute, Min Yue was so sleepy waiting, Xu Mai still didn't show up.

She didn't get enough sleep for two nights in a row, and even though she was young, her body couldn't handle it anymore. Thinking of taking a nap before the master came, Min Yue squinted her eyes on the table, and fell asleep until sunset.

Chen Sitian opened the door and came in. He didn't pay attention to the person behind the door, and bumped into Min Yue's chair with a bang. The latter was startled awake, and turned his head in shock to see what was going on.

"Little Mingyue?" Chen Sitian turned sideways and squeezed in through the crack of the door. Seeing Min Yue's sleepy eyes and a few red creases on his face, he asked strangely, "Why are you sitting here?"

Min Yue rubbed her eyes and yawned, and replied inarticulately: "I fell asleep."

"You have slept for a long time, the sun has already set." Chen Sitian took off his white coat and hung it on the hook behind the door.

Min Yue stared in shock. "Is the sun going down?"

She turned her head to look out the window in a panic, only to see that the sky had faded into a deep blue, and the soft, warm light from the street lamps stained the window panes yellow.

She took out her mobile phone and saw that the "AM" on the screen had changed to "PM". The huge Arabic numerals clearly told her that it was past six o'clock in the afternoon.

"I fell asleep!" Min Yue scratched her head angrily, "Has my master left? Where is she?"

"I came to the emergency department at noon. There was a car accident and my heart ruptured. Master Mo went to the surgery to help someone repair it. I guess he should be back by now."

While talking, Chen Sitian changed his clothes, turned his head and saw the human body simulation model behind Min Yue, and asked, "I won't go home after night shift, how about practicing this?"

Min Yue sat back on the chair and poked the model's muscular belly. "Not yet, wait for Master to teach me..."

Seeing that she was unhappy, Chen Sitian understood that the impact of last night's incident had not disappeared, otherwise she would not be in a hurry to practice pericardiocentesis.

I wanted to comfort her again, but just as I opened my mouth, the phone rang.

Chen Sitian glanced at the name on the caller ID, raised the phone to his ear, and said goodbye to Min Yue quickly before connecting: "Don't try too hard, Xiao Mingyue, go home early, I'm leaving first."

After speaking, he turned around and went out, closing the door behind him.

Through the thin door, Min Yue heard her tired voice that gave goosebumps: "Tongtong, off work? I just changed my clothes, now I'm going to find you..."

Min Yue felt strange, Tongtong? Who is it again? She thought that Chen Sitian was chasing Shen Fei passionately, did she misunderstand?

Just as he was guessing wildly, the door of the lounge was pushed open again. This time Min Yue learned to be smart, and when he heard the sound of the door lock turning, he hurriedly shouted: "There is someone behind the door!" to myself.

The wooden door slowly opened a narrow gap, revealing a face wearing a mask and hat.

Looking down, seeing a pair of clear eyes, Min Yue suddenly jumped up and shouted in a panic: "Master..."

"It's you." Xu Mai walked sideways into the room.

She just came back from the operating room, with a faint smell of disinfectant. It seemed that he had just taken a shower, the tips of his hair were wet, and there was an arc of wetness on the shoulders of his white coat.

She took off her white coat and hung it behind the door, took off her mask and threw it into the trash can, took off her hat, and her long, shiny black hair with water stains fell down and covered her shoulders.

Xu Mai opened the cabinet, took a towel, dried his hair carefully, then put the towel on the hanger, and hung it under the air outlet of the air conditioner to dry.

Turning around and looking back, her clear eyes collided with Min Yue.

Min Yue swished his eyes away. "Master, the air conditioner is turned on in the room, and if the hair is not dried, it is easy to catch a cold."

"It's okay, let's play later." Xu Mai came over, stared at the model on the table and said, "I'll teach you first."

"Okay..." Min Yue obediently pulled a chair over to let Xu Mai sit down, but the latter pressed Min Yue's shoulder and let her sit down.

Xu Mai stood behind her and asked softly, "Do you probably know what to do?"

Min Yue memorized the textbook rigidly: "Let the patient sit or half-recumbent, knock out the heart dullness boundary, generally choose the left sternal border, the right sternal border, the apex of the heart and the xiphoid process as the puncture points."

After hearing this, Xu Mai motioned her to pick up the puncture needle, and then explained: "The last two puncture points you mentioned are the most commonly used ones, you should practice these two first."

"If the puncture is from under the xiphoid process, the needle should form an angle of 30° to 45° with the abdominal wall, and insert the needle from this position." Xu Mai pointed at the angle between the xiphoid process and the left costal arch.

"If the puncture is from the apex of the heart, then from this area..." Xu Mai drew a circle around 2 centimeters away from the dullness in the fifth and sixth intercostal spaces on the left.

"You should try to insert the needle from under the xiphoid process first."

"it is good."

Min Yue held her breath and concentrated, carefully inserted the needle into the position Xu Mai pointed out just now, pushed it forward carefully, tried several times up, down, left, and right, but still couldn't find the feeling of the needle tip entering the pericardial cavity.

Frowning suspiciously, just about to ask Xu pulse, he suddenly felt a heat on his hand.

Lowering his gaze, he saw Xu Mai holding his right hand holding the needle.