The Wonderful Daily Life of Nogizaka

Outside the balcony, Baiyunshan is looking down at himself.

He felt that he was really wrong, so wrong. He knew clearly that Gao Shan was smiling all over as he stood there, and even the most horrific stories would be told in a funny way. How could he let her speak with confidence?

What? You should handle this kind of thing by yourself! You should do it by yourself no matter what! But unfortunately, since you have promised not to end, there is no chance to go back on it, which means that tonight there is really going to be a lot of bleeding...

..

Alas, there is no other way. Just save some money and just go to the store manager to get food recently. His old man probably won't care -

So we still talk about money! Money, money, money! We are short of money!

Baiyunshan rubbed his temples irritably. In the past, he didn't feel that he was short of money, but after meeting these little idols, he realized that money seemed to be worthless. These people tasted really horrible.

I'm afraid only Sony's dad, who has a deep foundation, can afford it!

Baiyunshan, who was letting his thoughts wander endlessly, suddenly paused. The door behind him was gently pushed open and then closed again, and then a figure stood next to him.

"Baiyun Sang."

"Hashimoto."

The two of them said hello, and the man leaned on the balcony calmly, resting his chin on his hands, as if he was relaxing.

Baiyunshan subconsciously glanced at the private room behind the door. Lively chatter and laughter were still coming from inside, and it seemed that nothing happened.

"What's wrong? Hashimoto."

"No, I just wanted to come out and get some air."

"Oh, that's how it is."

Baiyunshan nodded. He could tell that the girl seemed to be worried, but it was difficult to ask directly in this atmosphere.

He rubbed his hands unconsciously, then changed the subject and said, "By the way, Hashimoto, are you not sleeping well? It's hard to get up like this every morning."

"Uh... That's not true. I just have less time to rest during the day, so I sleep longer at night and it's harder to get up the next day."

"Huh? Don't you take a break during the day? Don't you have the habit of taking a nap?"

"Yes, in the past it was because I had to work, but then I gradually got used to it, and I actually don't like taking naps either."

"Why?"

Hashimoto Nanami was silent for a moment, and then explained.

"One day when I was a child, I took a nap and woke up in the evening. The room was dark, with only the light outside the window shining on the wall, and there was no sound around. I was very scared at that time, felt hungry and

I was lonely, but I called my mother loudly but got no response. At that time, I felt as if I had been abandoned by the world."

"From now on, I don't like taking naps anymore."

While telling these past events, the girl seemed to be telling someone else's story, her face looking very plain.

However, Baiyun Mountain can still find the deep loneliness and loneliness hidden in the girl's eyes. This is the loneliness covered by cultivation and character, just like the snowflakes under cotton. A person is friendly to others, talks, laughs, and does things on weekdays.

She likes things, stays away from things she hates, and seems gentle and approachable, but this does not mean that she is not lonely.

Loneliness is engraved in the bones and has nothing to do with personality.

Baiyunshan suddenly felt that the two of them were actually very similar.

The corners of his mouth curled up, and then he said: "So Hashimoto, you will be lonely too."

Nana Hashimoto replied seriously: "Loneliness is human nature, isn't it? Language cannot communicate all emotions, because language is always lacking, language can only be explained with words, and this will inevitably happen

There are many ambiguities and misunderstandings, and therefore one person can never understand another person, because complete communication between people cannot be achieved. We are all in a realm where we seem to understand each other but are actually strangers.

And it will stay for a long time.”

Baiyun Mountain was speechless and laughed.

"When you answered like this, I suddenly felt like I was back in college."

He touched his eyebrows with his fingertips, thought for a moment, and then said: "When I was in college, I took a philosophy teacher's class. On the first day of class, the teacher asked me a question. He asked me, do you

What does the world look like in your eyes? Do you know how I answered him?"

Nana Hashimoto shook her head.

"Before that, I would like to ask you first, what do you think of this world?"

Hashimoto Nana was stunned for a moment, then frowned and thought for a moment, then said: "I think the world we live in may be hell."

Baiyunshan suddenly froze and looked at her blankly.

"What's wrong? Baiyun-sang? Is my answer strange?" the girl asked him in confusion.

"No, no."

Baiyunshan came back to his senses, then smiled bitterly, shook his head and sighed: "To be honest, you might find it strange if you said this to others, but I am just the opposite. I thought I was the only one in the world who thought this way.

It turns out you think so too!"

"Eh?" Nana Hashimoto was suddenly stunned.

Baiyunshan leisurely explained his statement: "This is what I thought at the time: In ancient times, it was a common human understanding that people would exist in another form after death, that is, ghosts, and ghosts.

We have never found ghosts or phantoms in this world, which can be understood as their non-existence, but it can also be understood as another answer, that is, we are actually ghosts!"

"When people die, they become ghosts. When ghosts die, there is nothing. Therefore, when we die, we are truly dead and will not exist in other forms. Death is the final end for us, because we are originally ghosts.

Our birth actually represents our death in another world, that world is where people really exist, and we are all just ghosts."

"Since it is a ghost, then of course this world is hell."

"If you think about it carefully, it seems quite consistent. Since we were born in this world, we have been tortured in hell. We have to endure a steady stream of pain. Birth, old age, illness, and death. Too hot will cause pain, and too cold will cause pain.

It will also be painful, sharp will be painful, thick and dull will also be painful. The meaning of the physical existence seems to be to feel the existence of pain, and it will continue to age. From the moment you are born, you are rushing to die, and you can only watch.

He was watching but unable to do anything to stop it. This is actually a kind of pain, a mental pain."

"And everything you own will be lost, time, money, feelings, knowledge, memory, none of it belongs to you. Time will pass, money is just a short-term meaning given by human beings, feelings will gradually become dull, and knowledge will also

Gradually forget, the memory will also be erased. You can only watch them pass away, or you pass away, and then your descendants will continue this process, and the cycle will continue. As long as hell is not destroyed, it will never end, and it will be endless.

Bear the suffering.”

"This is simply like the endless hell that Buddhism talks about."

He told a lot of thoughts in one breath, then he was silent and thought for a long time, then shook his head and said with a smile: "But after all, this was just an idea at the time. It seems unrealistic now, doesn't it?"

"..."

Hashimoto Nanami looked at him with her beautiful eyes slightly widened, as if she still hadn't come back to her senses.

It wasn't until another half minute passed that the girl let out a long breath, and then asked, half sighing and half questioning: "Baiyun Sang, what did you study in college?"

"Faculty of Literature, Chuo University, Japan."

He grinned, showing his neat white teeth: "Learn how to win 37 million with 20 yuan in one night."