The Words of the Number One

Gu Ling was at a loss.

"How can this be…"

"Didn't Shen Baiwu tell you? I was poisoned and fell into a serious illness. After the illness, the root of the disease remained."

"Then you...then can you still play the piano?"

Ji Yu smiled slightly, and put her trembling hands behind her back: "The 'normal' songs are barely okay, but my own songs are not good at all."

His smile is as perfect as a mask.

I remembered that when he played the piano at Muyun that day, he said that he would stop playing. He never used a sword but a dagger. It was not that he didn't want to, but that he couldn't.

That's why he burned his most beloved piano and music scores, broke his sword and recast a dagger.

Gu Ling said that Ji Yu's hands were specially made for playing the piano, and they were the most dexterous hands in the world. From a genius to a cripple, how painful must Ji Yu be for such a proud person? His pain is far greater than Aoya's.

Ji Yu raised her chin slightly, motioned Gu Ling to put down the sword in her hand, and said with a relaxed smile: "Why do you still fight when you get excited, thinking that you can get back together after fighting like you did when you were a child? How old are you? "

Gu Ling threw the sword and couldn't control his emotions anymore, squatting on the ground with tears streaming down his face like a child: "Why you! Ji Yu why... why didn't you say anything, why didn't you tell me, it's been eleven years, A whole eleven years!"

Ji Yu's smile gradually faded, her eyes darkened. He took two steps forward and stood in front of Gu Ling, knelt down and looked into Gu Ling's eyes, and said in a cold voice, "Why should I tell you? Gu Ling, you came here specially to Shen Baiwu, and you just wanted to dig me out. Now that you know about the past in Yan Country, you are satisfied? Why do you want to know these things? You just want to find some reason to excuse me, so as to forgive me for killing your brother, right? "

"You fucking..." Gu Ling grabbed Ji Yu's skirt, his eyes were red.

Ji Yu let Gu Ling grab her skirt and said indifferently, "It's not necessary, Gu Ling, it's really not necessary, you don't have to forgive me. If you want to take revenge, I can do it on my own merits. The bad things I have encountered are not the same as yours. , what does it have to do with your brother?"

"After you know these things, will you regret that you hated my father deeply and stood by my side to fight against him? You can't do it. You swore to be loyal and repay his kindness with your life, didn't you? Now when you calm down, you won’t think he’s wrong. He’s trying to revive the Zhou royal family. So what if such a glorious wish is extreme? So what if you sacrifice me, my brother, my sister, and my mother? what."

"It won't be long before you will try to persuade us to understand each other and get back together again. Pooh, Gu Ling, stop disgusting me."

"He's not a good person, and I'm not a good person either. If I were you, I'd turn my face and leave and stay away from everyone in Ji's family. Just watch us dog eat dog."

Ji Yu spit out sarcasm smoothly, and Gu Ling gradually let go of his grip on the lapel of his shirt. He looked at Ji Yu in confusion and pain, as if he had a stomach full of words but didn't know what to say.

I hid by the door and watched this scene from a distance, only to think that it was Ji Yu who suffered the most, but he was much more comfortable than Gu Ling, at least it seemed so.

Nothing in this world seems to be able to defeat Ji Yu.

He lost everything, everything he loved was gone, but he still lived high and high, making everyone look up and envy him. He would never give up on himself as weakly as Shen Baiwu, all the painful pains he had suffered were buried without a trace, he could turn around and talk and laugh happily after killing himself one second.

Even if this person goes through a thousand calamities and is burned to ashes, he will still have the stubbornness and pride of immortality, stand up from the ashes and laugh at the world fiercely.

Ji Yu calmly tidied up her wrinkled skirt, and said flatly, "I've said all I need to say, you can go. I hope that the next time I see you, you will make up your mind to kill me."

After saying that, Ji Yu turned around and prepared to leave, but Gu Ling grabbed his sleeve and said in a trembling voice, "Ah Yao."

Something quickly passed through Ji Yu's eyes, he closed his eyes and then opened them again, and when he turned to look at Gu Ling, he put on a mask that seemed to be a smile but not a smile.

The bells under the eaves in the courtyard jingle, like the laughter of a child who doesn't know the suffering of the world. Ji Yu smiled beautifully, her back was so straight that it was tense, and her purple hairband was flying in the wind in the blurred light of dusk. He said the most decisive conclusion so gently and unquestionably.

"A Yao died a long time ago. Gu Ling, he abandoned you, so you should abandon him too."

Then he slowly pulled out the sleeves and walked back to the room to close the door, and the rest of the girls also went back to their own room, leaving only Gu Ling standing blankly in the courtyard.

As night fell, the red lanterns emitted warm and soft light, enveloped the already frozen person. I walked over to him and said, "Gu Ling, let's go."

Gu Ling didn't respond, so I pulled him to go out, and he let me pull him without resisting at all. He has been very quiet along the way, until we were about to reach Xueming Pavilion, Gu Ling seemed to have a sudden reaction and refused to go forward. He slowly squatted on the ground and hugged his head, crying heartbreakingly cry.

I knelt down to comfort him, Gu Ling cried intermittently: "Why...why..."

"I...I should have gone to Yan Kingdom with them...When Ji Le and Ji Yu happened those things, there was no one around...How hopeless..."

"I clearly swore that I would protect them for the rest of my life...how could I...for eleven years...I didn't know anything! I also blamed him for the drastic change of temperament...I also blamed him for giving up swordsmanship and piano..."

"Emperor...why would he do this...Even if it is to revive the Zhou royal family...he can't..."

He cried like a child, I patted his back and listened to his voice in silence.

Eleven years, from Ji Yu's 14-year-old hostage to Yan Guo to now 25-year-old lobbying the world, a long time and a long truth. On the one hand is the Son of Heaven who is as gracious as a mountain, and on the other is the friend who has been with him since childhood.

During Ji Yu and Zhou Tianzi's confrontation for such a long time, Gu Ling always stood on the side of the emperor and persuaded Ji Yu to turn back. Although he still had deep feelings for Ji Yu, he also resented Ji Yu for killing his brother. Ji Yu had seen it clearly a long time ago, and simply made a choice for Gu Ling.

For this old friend who is loyal and enthusiastic but dull, perhaps Ji Yu originally planned to let him stay stupid for the rest of his life in safety.

But after all, no one can be deceived for a lifetime.

I finally sent Gu Ling back to the room, and when the kitchen brought the dinner, I knocked on his door, only to find that Gu Ling had left without saying goodbye. His room was neatly tidied up, and he left a letter saying—Thank you, I'm going home.

After all, Gu Ling still went back to Luoyi, back to Zhou Tianzi's side.

Although the current ending was originally caused by his stupid loyalty, cowardice, and distrust of Ji Yu, it is his own fault, but it is still pitiful. It's hard for me to imagine what kind of mood he will spend the rest of his life in.

I took the note and told Shen Baiwu, Shen Baiwu seemed to have expected it a long time ago and was not surprised. He talked too much in the afternoon, and at night he was in a bad mood, leaning against the head of the bed with a sleepy look, and raised his eyes to look at me.

"Don't you think I'm hateful, I left Ji Yu behind to escape for my own life." Shen Baiwu's voice was weak.

Today he said he has no appetite and refuses to eat dinner. I let him lie down, covered him with a quilt and tucked in the quilt, and touched his forehead to make sure he didn't have a fever. He kept looking at me intently, and I replied, "I'm not Ji Yu, and I'm not qualified to hate you or forgive you. It's just that most people in the world are selfish, and I might do the same."

Shen Baiwu blinked his eyes slowly, and said with a wry smile: "I thought that I was different from the world. For a long time, I was in constant panic, trying to justify such a hateful act of ungratefulness. I thought it was extremely critical at that time, so I would pull It was too late for him to climb over the wall, and it was so painful that he wanted to test the poison. It might be normal for me to be afraid of running away. I even thought that I was the son of Zhao Guo and survived more valuable than Ji Yu. After thinking about it, I suddenly realized that filth is filth. Excusing it will only make it more despicable."

He stretched out his arms from under the quilt to press on the quilt, folded his hands on his lower abdomen, and the white silk underclothes shone brightly under the candlelight. He said softly: "I have seen how ruthless Ji Yu is to Prince Yan, and I have been waiting for him to take revenge on me all my life. Maybe only after he has revenged me to his heart's content, can I raise my head in front of him."

"But after so many years, I haven't waited until I'm about to die, and I can't face him properly. Occasionally, I wonder if this is his revenge? But it's too light, and it's not his style."

I just listened silently without speaking, went to the table and extinguished the light of the candlestick. The room suddenly became dark, leaving only the cold moonlight. I softly said to Shen Baiwu: "Go to sleep well, don't think about these things."

Shen Baiwu smiled softly in the hazy darkness, he said: "Why do you feel that the world is stable as long as you are here, and the joys and sorrows are no big deal."

"Wouldn't that be nice?"

"If I can live long, I will definitely marry you. No matter how angry Ji Yu is, I will not give you up to him." Shen Baiwu's voice was filled with laughter, as if joking.

But I know he never likes to joke.

I walked to his bedside, bent down to hug his shoulders, and patted him lightly.

"It's the first time someone said they wanted to marry me when I grew up. Shen Yi, I will never forget you in this life, and you will live in my heart for a long time."

Shen Yi, his name. Shen Yi Shen Shen, how many feelings in his life are hard to calm down.

Shen Baiwu also hugged my shoulder, and he let out a sad laugh. I heard very small whispering voices, indistinct and indistinguishable.

He seems to say - I like you very much.

I responded softly - I know.

After a moment of silence, the voice next to my ear sounded again, it was a little clearer than before, and Shen Baiwu's gentle and helpless tone could be heard.

—I also know that the one you like...is Ji Yu.

At the climax of the moon, Shen Baiwu had already fallen asleep exhausted. The entire Chengguang Lord's Mansion was silent, only Xia Chan was making noise one after another. The moonlight shone brightly on the floor tiles of the room. I couldn't sleep, so I put on my clothes and got up, and went to the garden twice by the moonlight.

As soon as I stepped into the garden, I noticed the fire light, which came from a palace lantern placed on the edge of the pond, and the candlelight danced and reflected the face of the owner beside me.

It was Ji Yu, who was sitting on the edge of the pond, lost in thought, with one leg bent and stepping on the stone edge of the pond, and the other leg placed underneath. He seemed to be holding something in his hand, and when he sprinkled it into the pond from time to time, he could hear the sound of the carp surging in the water.

Seeing me coming, he turned to look at me.

The distance between us is not too close, and we can see the expression on his face clearly. I said, "Gu Ling is gone."

Ji Yu gave a soft "um", her expression couldn't tell whether she was sad or happy, and there was a slight layer of loneliness.

"You really don't have to say it so badly."

"So much the better."

"But from then on, you really lost him."

Ji Yu was silent for a moment and suddenly laughed lightly. He asked me back, "Didn't you also lose Jiang Qiqi? In this world, there is no one who cares, so you are living well?"

I have long known that everything in this world is a short-term meeting, don't be too obsessed with it when you have it, and you won't be hurt if you lose it. I don't have a family member with deep affection like him, nor have I ever had an unforgettable enemy like him.

We are the same kind of people, but we are completely different people.

Ji Yu was dressed in bright moonlight, shed the mask of perfect smile, looking calm and lonely. I finally asked the question I've always wanted to ask.

"Why do you want me to come back to you?"

Ji Yu smiled lightly, and sprinkled another handful into the pond. With the sound of water, he said slowly, "You finally remembered to ask this question. After thinking about it, I think I will never meet someone like you again. Jiang Jiuqing, there is only one you in this world, you are unique, so I repent."

"Jiujiu, we will have a long time in Japan."

The carps were scrambling lively in the dark water, making gurgling noises. He looked at me and smiled lightly.

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'Even if this person goes through a thousand calamities and is burned to ashes, he will still have the stubbornness and pride of immortality' This is Ji Yu.

Lao Bai became a demon for the rest of his life with a single thought, but Gu Ling was always unable to keep both.

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