The Words of the Number One

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The first time Ji Yu heard about Jiang Jiuqing was when he was thirteen years old. Song Changjun, the son of the Qi State, said to him: "Our Ninth Princess of Qi State is very calm and calm, and has never had any love or hatred, just the two extremes with you."

That year, Jiang Sanzhi, the eldest son of the Qi State, came to Zhou to give the gift, and Ji Yu thought Jiang Sanzhi was a first-class idiot before he had a few words with him. At that time, Ji Yu's love and hatred were clearly too lazy to hide, and anyone who disliked could be seen clearly.

Of course, Jiang Sanzhi was not to be outdone, he belittled Ji Yu as an uneducated dandy, both openly and secretly, and all he liked were ingenious tricks. Song Changjun was busy trying to ease the relationship between the two, and felt that Ji Yu's character was too sharp and perverse, so he said this sentence.

It's strange to say that even a common sentence touched Ji Yu's heartstrings, and he kept it in mind for a long time.

More than ten years later, he encountered great changes and was reborn. It was only when the revenge plan was half successful that he met the "Nine Princesses" for the first time in the Song Kingdom.

He had thought this was the first time they had met.

At that time, he passed by the palace wall of the Song Dynasty and heard the cry of a woman. As he walked slowly, he saw a beautiful woman who was astonished and beautiful in the far corner, covering her face and crying bitterly, and said in a low voice: "Jiujiu, I want to persist." down."

He had seen this beautiful woman before, the famous confidante Jiang Qiqi, the Seventh Princess of Xianqi.

The woman with her back to him was wearing a sky blue dress and was very thin. The girl hugged Jiang Qiqi and patted her on the back, and said in a calm almost heartless voice: "Then do you want to give up?"

"No!" Jiang Qiqi replied immediately.

The woman was silent, and then said: "Then you just do as I said, and it will be fine after a while."

"Are you really all right?"

"When did I miss these five years?" The woman said lightly, as if she was talking about something that had nothing to do with her.

Jiang Qiqi cried and nodded, throwing himself into her arms and sobbing.

Ji Yu suddenly remembered what Song Changjun said - our Ninth Princess of Qi is a very calm temperament, never has any love or hate, and you are just two extremes.

That's right, it's her.

He looked at the thin, faceless figure, and instantly became very interested in this person, and thought of how getting her would benefit his plan. So at the wedding banquet, Ji Yu walked out from among the guests and asked Li Yan to ask her to come.

The "nine princesses" at the wedding banquet slightly opened their eyes and glanced at him, then their expression returned to calm. At such a young age, she actually has such ancient water without ripples, and I don't know whether it is indifferent or numb eyes.

It started out as pure curiosity, exploitation, trading. Ji Yu didn't even ask her for her real name, and casually chose the name "A Zhi". She cooperated with everything that came out of the blue, and her obedience was unexpected.

But this girl is really weird. Generally, people as smart as her are somewhat tempered, proud and self-confident and unwilling to show weakness, but she has none at all. There is no edge, no temper, and no temperature.

That day she and Zikou sat under the old locust tree in Xiang Shaoya's mansion, talking about the locust tree, toon, gods, and the vast and vast world. The sunlight fell through the gaps in the leaves and fell on her body and cheeks in spots. She supported her body with her slender wrists and looked up at the treetops, like a slender white porcelain bottle.

Perhaps because it is too thin, it is as light as catkins blowing in the wind in this world. No one can rely on it or believe it, and it will never take root. Drifting away from the world without caring.

What a lonely person, he thought.

So when she said that she once had someone she loved deeply, he was actually much more surprised than he showed.

Such a person can actually be tempted, who made her tempted? What does she look like when she is tempted?

So he tried repeatedly by pretending to be a husband and wife, but she never fell for the trick. No matter how gentle and tender he is, there is a trace of unchanging calm in her eyes. This is indeed a cold and unloving cat. Although he has spent a lot of thought, he is actually a whim of desire to win or lose.

They guard against each other and tempt each other, and they are not close at all. So Ji Yu didn't understand why he could sleep soundly as long as he was by her side.

Those **** and ferocious nightmares have haunted him for countless years, and he is even used to wrestling with these nightmares, and he knows that they are his inner demons. But that demon was actually afraid of Jiang Jiuqing.

He thought to himself why? Is it because she held his hand in the nightmarish darkness under the floor that collapsed during the earthquake, stabbed his fear calmly, and then told her lonely past with ease until her voice became hoarse?

No matter how well he pretends, no matter how he talks or laughs at Yanyan, she can always see through him at a glance. Whether it was his indifference and meanness or his fear and pain, she could easily see through them one by one, until the end he didn't bother to pretend so much in front of her.

—She would see it anyway, she would accept it anyway. Even what he himself hates, she will accept it calmly.

This smart and indifferent Jiang Jiuqing, he is the only one who is the most relaxed in front of her.

He unconsciously let go of his dependence until Jiang Jiuqing was almost killed by Xu Zihuan. She clutched her neck and fell down spewing blood, his heartbeat stopped for a moment, and panic and anger came together. He lost his temper in a rare way, and even punished Mo Xiao who was innocent.

It wasn't until he calmed down that he realized that he was afraid of losing her.

why? Because is this the only person in this world who has passed through that perfect mask and touched his angry, painful and dirty heart? Because this is the only person in the world who might possibly understand him?

He has carefully disguised himself for eleven years, and the mask is almost growing into a part of his body. Everyone said that he was a gentle and elegant gentleman. A Yao's death was just "growth" in the eyes of others, and he deceived everyone just as he expected. But in the dark, he seems to hope that there will be someone who will not be deceived by him.

So Jiang Jiuqing appeared.

This is something he has never experienced before. Since he was young, countless women have flocked to him, and he is used to receiving love. He'd never really liked anyone, let alone a woman who didn't like him.

Such weakness is not allowed.

He even gave up on Gu Ling and Xin Ran, and this girl is no exception.

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After her use value disappeared, he gave her to Shen Baiwu. He thought that this decision was still kind, Shen Baiwu was a gentleman and would naturally treat her kindly, and she could live a good life in the future - of course he still kept a secret about the antidote.

As for keeping one hand, his explanation in his heart is that he is prepared. What he didn't expect was that Shen Baiwu would fall in love with Jiang Jiuqing.

Jiang Jiuqing was obviously also unusually gentle towards Shen Baiwu, and even asked Shen Baiwu to call her Jiujiu. At Nan Huaijun's banquet, Shen Baiwu yelled annoyingly, she was obviously clumsy but took care of Shen Baiwu with all her heart, and even softly made up a large and vivid description to persuade Shen Baiwu to eat.

He thought a little unhappily that she could be so gentle, but this kindness was not for him.

What's so strange about Shen Baiwu that he can get such blue eyes from her?

bored.

It wasn't until the day when Jiang Jiuqing was drunk that Ji Yu clearly realized that Jiang Jiuqing actually liked him. He was happy for only one night, and when she woke up the next day, she had already returned to Shen Baiwu's side.

He belatedly remembered that Jiang Jiuqing's love and hatred had always been extremely indifferent, and he simply gave up when he said he would give up. But he is also the same person, even knowing the special significance of her to him, he still gave up on her.

As she said, they were too similar to trust each other.

Why insist, why force.

But he insists on being persistent, since he can't trust each other or have a deep friendship, then he won't become a so-called weakness. After all, he was holding onto her weakness, why did he make himself unhappy? So what if Shen Baiwu likes her? So what if she likes Shen Baiwu? She is not the one who cherishes life the most, as long as her life is threatened, she will come back obediently.

But she would probably hate him.

So what? At least she couldn't leave him.

In fact, he understood why she gave Shen Baiwu green eyes. This upright, gentle and proud person was once his best friend. But when Shen Baiwu withdrew his hand on the wall of King Yan's palace, turned around and disappeared, there was an insurmountable gap between them. Half of those years when life was worse than death and the nightmares that tormented him for eleven years were all thanks to Shen Baiwu.

The so-called fear, one thought, and remorse, he has seen all of these in Shen Baiwu, and he can understand them all.

But it cannot be forgiven.

For many years, only Shen Baiwu came and went on his revenge list, and he thought that anyway, Shen Baiwu was already leading the way and there was no need to worry. Just like this, it was delayed again and again until Shen Baiwu died of illness.

He thought he would never forgive everyone involved in the Yan Guo incident, but in the end he forgave Shen Baiwu.

He still remembers the first time he saw Shen Baiwu who came to accept the gift in Luoyi. Shen Baiwu was calm and proud in white clothes. When he played chess, he always smiled calmly and pushed people to death step by step. . The person who can make Ji Yu willing to learn art from a teacher is such an outstanding person.

Shen Baiwu passed away, and this was probably the only enemy in the world who felt guilty towards him from the beginning to the end. After his death, all the people who participated in the Yan State incident except the emperor died.

But Ji Yu didn't feel happy, he knew that revenge would not make him happy. To live is to revenge, revenge is not to be happy, to be alive is not to be happy - it is better to die.

While he was thinking about these things in his heart, Jiang Jiuqing walked up to him, and calmly said something earth-shattering.

The one she said she likes, the one she remembers for fourteen years is him, A Yao who has not yet experienced the hardships of a young man.

Ji Yu was furious when she came back to her senses. Countless people have come to miss him and like him in the past. That's because those people don't know what happened to him. He always laughed it off.

But she is obviously the only one in this world who knows his past, sees through his disguise and knows his real person, and is a breathing space under his mask. Since she already knew how Ji Yu got here today, she shouldn't remember A Yao in front of him.

Anyone in this world can do it, but she, Jiang Jiuqing, can't.

But such words, such ridiculous reasons, such ridiculous expectations, he could never utter.

Later, when she jumped off the cliff to save Xin Ran, he gradually realized that just like there were some things he couldn't say, Jiujiu also had too much affection buried in his heart. She has always used indifference and alienation as a weapon, unable to admit her fragility and loneliness, unable to admit that she has forgotten a little warmth for fourteen years, and unable to admit that she fell in love with this changed person again with the residual heat of this warmth.

Someone has to speak first.

- I lost, I love you, wake up.

For the first time in his life, he finally conceded defeat.

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Jiu Jiu doesn't know what she means to Ji Yu

The next chapter is from Ji Yu’s perspective, with my favorite monologue, hhhh

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