There Are Always Teachers Asking Parents

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When the words were spoken, Lu Zhiqiao completely gave up his reservations.

She hung her head, her tone was low, her eyes filled with mist.

She saw that Qi Yan's eyes had some warmth, but only a little bit, the inevitable depression and chaos wrapped tightly, as if to swallow her.

If he heard these words before, Qi Yan would have been very happy, and then the two of them were happy together and lived a happy family life of three. But now hearing these, despite the strong affection in the words, she can only feel fear, fear and anxiety.

After reading the document and learning about Lu Zhiqiao's entire past, she suddenly realized that she had never really known Lu Zhiqiao, had never really understood Lu Zhiqiao, and had never contacted people like Lu Zhiqiao.

The scar on a person’s heart cannot be healed in a short period of time, let alone an old wound that has repeatedly festered for more than 20 years. She once naively thought that as long as she has a loving heart enough, she can infect and save all unfortunate people. .

But when she learned about Lu Zhiqiao's past and the things behind it, imagined what might happen in the future, and then repeatedly evaluated her abilities, she found that everything was far from being as simple as she had imagined.

Assuming that Lu Zhiqiao is mentally ill, she may get sick at any time, become ignorant of her six relatives, and lose her mind. If she wants to be with Lu Zhiqiao, she must figure out whether she can bear all the consequences caused by the other party's illness, and she must also figure out what she is. Have the ability to take care of each other, and at the same time ensure that oneself will not be chilled, will not lose patience, never leave, accompany and guard.

How many normal people can do it?

Lu Zhiqiao's past is a so-called "mental illness", a wound that will fester repeatedly.

The wound did not heal, and they were together like this, and they would “break out” at any time in the future, hurting herself and others around her. What would she do? She can endure it once, but she can't guarantee that she can endure countless times, and then there will be quarrels, time after time, endless loop.

The two people will be ruined in this state.

She knew that Lu Zhiqiao was not tempted easily, but once the door was knocked open, she knew it for the rest of her life, and there was no way out.

The wound is very difficult to heal, she can't heal it alone, and can't bear it, what should I do?

If she can't bear this weight, she will never contact each other and disappear into each other's lives. If she can bear this weight, she boldly embraces each other and welcomes her new life.

She didn't want to be tired of being tortured one day in the future, turned and left, leaving Lu Zhiqiao holding a battered heart into the abyss.

It just seems to be a little late now, she has already provoke Lu Zhiqiao, and without knowing it, the heart is slowly held in front of her.

Can she catch it?

It was too late, and she got stuck in herself. She became contradictory. She wanted to accept Lu Zhiqiao's closeness, but she didn't dare to make a decision easily. While happy for Lu Zhiqiao's initiative, she was also upset about the confusion in her heart.

The previous love experience seemed to be out of order, and I could not provide her with any reference or help.

So she is anxious.

Qi Yan regretted her previous recklessness and took it for granted, but she did not regret loving Lu Zhiqiao. In her heart, she extremely hoped that the two would have a bright future.

The back is cool, very comfortable, and the burning sensation is relieved a lot.

"Lu Zhiqiao..."

"Um."

"You said that in front of Jiang Yu, are you forcing me to make a choice?" Qi Yan asked weakly, raising his eyes to look at her, lying on his stomach.

Lu Zhiqiao’s eyes were not red, but she held back her tears. She raised her head and blinked, let out a sigh, looked at the ceiling and whispered, “Yes. Because when I saw Jiang Yu appearing, you smiled at her. Very happy. I saw that you were hit. She embraced you and cared about you, but I could only pretend not to know you and watch you by the side. I was sad, I was uncomfortable..."

For this reason, don't be reserved, she can't wait to show her heart and soul to Qi Yan.

She was uncomfortable, she was jealous, and she couldn't see Qi Yan staring at other beautiful women, who was still her first love. No matter how she reasoned to herself, she had to admit that she just minded.

"Then have you considered how I feel?"

"..."

"I came out this time because of work. Jiang Yu is my colleague. She didn't do anything beyond the scope of her colleague's relationship from start to end. I didn't just smile to her alone. I smile to all the models. This is me. Work habits."

"The assistant contacted me at work. The rehearsal was shared by everyone. I didn't just take pictures of her alone. I only saw her as a colleague." Qi Yan raised his finger and tapped the back of the bed.

As he spoke, his tone was a bit agitated.

Lu Zhiqiao closed his eyes: "I know, I know all of them, but she is your first love, you have been together, she must know you very well, I just think of this..."

Can't calm down.

She knew all the truth, so she didn't show any emotions at that time. No matter how sad she is, she understands that she can't ignore the occasion.

You can pretend to be calm and gentle outside, how can she bear it in private?

Her voice was a little muffled, Qi Yan's heart pierced, sighed, and slowed down and said, "Everyone is here to work, and so are you. Since you are here for official business, you should show your attitude toward official business. You bring us into normal contact. Think of it as a private relationship, bring in personal emotions, force me to make a choice, and finally blame me in turn. Do you think this is appropriate?"

Speaking of these, I felt another fire in my heart.

Qi Yan thought that his patience was good enough, but he didn't know when the switch that controlled her emotions was firmly held in Lu Zhiqiao's hands.

She cries, she wants to cry; she laughs, she wants to laugh; she is sad, she is also sad;

After investing in this relationship, she was on the verge of losing herself.

"Jiang Yu gave me the coat, I didn't pick it up right away, you saw it. She helped me and you walked over, I immediately distanced myself, and you saw it. So you are very clear in your heart, I worry about your feelings, I care about it. You, then you just feel confident and force me to make a choice, thinking that I will definitely cooperate with you."

"But all you think about is yourself, you don't even think about my feelings."

She didn't look at her and said a lot in one breath.

Every word is like a sharp blade, cutting through the **** facts.

Lu Zhiqiao pinched his hands and said in a trembled voice: "I was too anxious to see Jiang Yu..."

"Good point." Qi Yan smiled weakly, pulled up his clothes and got up, letting the sticky ointment stick to the fabric. "I was just trying to tell you this. Did you mobilize this trip? I didn't know at first, I thought it was a coincidence, but during the rehearsal yesterday morning, I heard my colleagues chat and said that I had met Shu during the negotiation. It doesn’t last long, maybe that’s what I mean, I just thought--"

"Yes." Lu Zhiqiao confessed simply, "I know you will definitely come. It just happens that Mr. Shu's work schedule is too tight and the time is too late, so I asked for a transfer."

"So you didn't need to see Jiang Yu."

"..."

"I said that we were separated and calmed down for a while. I happened to take advantage of this work to relax, and I made a travel plan and set off when I went back this time. As a result, I didn't expect that you would run over using work as an excuse." Qi Yan voice Deep, staring straight at her face, without questioning or accusing, but the more calm, the more disturbing.

Lu Zhiqiao pressed his lips and lowered his eyelashes.

She knew that she was not doing the right thing, so she had a guilty conscience, and she knew she was wrong. But at that time there was no reason, too late to think, what to say and what to do, it was all instinct.

After all, it was my own fault.

"Furthermore, what identity and position did you use to announce to my colleagues a relationship that I had never had before?" The last question, Qi Yan felt very relaxed at the moment when he blurted it out. Sooner or later, I will talk about this. Since I was forced to a corner, the long-term pain is not as good as the short-term pain.

However, it was like a thunder that smashed Lu Zhiqiao to pieces.

Lu Zhiqiao's body trembled and her eyes reddened again. She suddenly hugged Qi Yan, buried her face in the human neck|hub, and sobbed in a low voice: "Sorry... I know I was wrong... I also know. I have been running away before, breaking your heart...Although I can't get better all at once, but you believe me, I'm working hard..."

If she hadn't met Qi Yan, she would have lived like that in her life, and she would not try to take the initiative to walk out of a small dark corner.

It's too late to get out and retreat now. For people like her, falling in love will last a lifetime, and you won't be able to take it back when you give it to you. Furthermore, Qi Yan, taking a step back is an abyss, either happiness or broken bones.

"I don't have any other people's place in my heart. It's all you and Niuniu, and family and love are not the same. They can coexist. You are both important to me. I can't lose any of them." Lu Zhiqiao said with a nasal voice. Say, tighten the arm, for fear that the person will run away if you loosen it a little bit.

The strength was so great that Qi Yan was a little breathless.

Hot tears hit the neck|felt, damp, and a small piece of condensation. Qi Yan half-opened his lips, panting low, his heart spreading with dense pain...

She didn't want to see Lu Zhiqiao humble, but she actually felt a little bit of satisfaction in her heart, like being taken care of and coaxed after anger.

It turned out that a child lived deep in her heart.

But this kind of satisfaction quickly turned into pain, because she loved Lu Zhiqiao, and her emotions were all affected by this woman. The more humble Lu Zhiqiao, the more sad she was.

"Lu Zhiqiao..."

"Well, I am."

Qi Yan hugged her and said softly: "I love you."

The body of the person in his arms shook, and he inhaled lightly, the more tears dripped down his neck|cold.

"When I first met you, I just wanted to play with you. I could kick you away anytime if I had enough. So I was reckless and regardless of the consequences. Then I didn’t want to play anymore. I wanted to get in touch with you seriously and get to know you. The more you hide, the harder I chase and drive you to the corner."

"I think you are just like most people of this age, you are very cautious about feelings, have concerns, and have been in the society for a long time, and you are not so easy to open up to people. This kind of you suits my appetite, on the contrary you follow Just cater to me casually, and I will lose interest. So at the time, I was full of confidence and felt that it was only a matter of time when we were together."

Qi Yan said calmly, raising his hand to stroke Lu Zhiqiao's hair.

"Later, I vaguely felt that you had something to hide from me. It should be a very important thing. In fact, I already felt that at that time, I took it for granted, but I don't want to let it go easily."

"Until I read the document you sent, I finally understand that things are not that simple."

Having said this, Qi Yan took a deep breath and supported Lu Zhiqiao's shoulders with both hands, forcing her to sit up and look at herself. Then, he said word by word: "Yes, I was scared. After finding the reason, I knew why we quarreled on the night of my birthday, and the day I went back from school, you would say that kind of thing."

"The injuries that a person has suffered over the years are superimposed. It is not so easy to get better. I have no confidence to take you out, nor can I guarantee that I can always be with you in this state."

"So I'm afraid, just like you were afraid to give me your heart back then."

"I can retreat all over, but what do you do?"

Her voice suddenly choked and her eyes reddened.

In just a few months, Qi Yan has completely subverted her self-cognition. She is not as confident and open-minded as she imagined, let alone as decisive as she imagined. To put it harder, she is a greenhouse flower that is rarely beaten up. When she sees the weeds growing in the cracks of Lu Zhiqiao, she is naturally fascinated.

"But now... I don't seem to be able to do the whole thing and retreat..." Qi Yan looked at her, his slender eyelashes half drooped, as if talking to himself.

It was too late to retreat, and they all sank into each other, no matter how hard they struggled, they just fell deeper and deeper.

These words have been held in her heart for a long time, and she said it more easily. Originally, she had a lot of worries, and the vagueness was concealed and misunderstood.

Maybe Lu Zhiqiao would think this was an excuse for her wanting to escape, laugh at her as a coward, or disappointed, or feel cold, believing that she is a **** who doesn't want to be held accountable if provoked, and see through the essence of her being wrapped in a hypocritical skin.

It doesn't matter anymore.

Looking at each other for a long time, they saw each other's face in each other's eyes, letting time pass slowly...

The balcony doors and windows are closed tightly, and the heat in the room is getting hotter. The air is filled with the smell of ointment, a very faint fragrance of green grass, which seems to have a calming and calming effect like its medicinal effect. Smelling it, the boiling emotions gradually gradually Calm down.

The surroundings were weirdly quiet, and the breathing was extremely clear. The eyes of the two of them were intertwined, as if they were strung together by an invisible thread, until the mist in their eyes slowly dissipated.

It's time to pronounce|judge, right? Qi Yan thought.

The heart was beating happily.

Lu Zhiqiao stared at Qi Yan, his eyelashes trembling lightly, Rumo's eyes were washed with tears and she murmured in his mouth for a moment: "So it's like this..."

Qi Yan frowned and his heart fell.

Lu Zhiqiao suddenly laughed.

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She thought that Qi Yan cared about her preference for her daughter and could not balance the weight of the two emotions. She thought that Qi Yan was jealous of her daughter because she didn’t know it. She was so grandiose. She even thought that Qi Yan was playing a petty temper and deliberately ignored it. she. Therefore, she couldn't understand at first, why Qi Yan started to treat her as if he was detached from her after she confessed her life experience.

Unexpectedly, this person thought more deeply than himself.

If Qi Yan didn't love her, he could disappear without a trace, leaving her nowhere to be found and nowhere to be seen. But as Qi Yan himself said, because of love, he couldn't get away with his whole body.

In her situation, ordinary people would have concerns. From a certain level, Qi Yan refused to step into her world easily. It was also out of serious consideration. He wanted to be responsible and hoped that the two of them would be better. It was just like when she confessed her heart to Qi Yan, said many of her shortcomings, and refused to take that step easily.

It's just that she was late at first, and now Qi Yan is also late.

"Actually, if you can think of it this way, I feel more at ease in my heart." She brows lightly, and stretches out her hand to hook Qi Yan's neck.

Qi Yan held her subconsciously: "...what do you mean?"

"You feel scared, it shows that you have seriously thought about our future. You admit to me that you are afraid and that you have a responsibility. Not everyone has the courage to admit their fears. I didn’t misunderstand the wrong person, Qi Yan, you really deserve it. ......" Lu Zhiqiao buried his face in her hair, a tear came out of the corner of his eye, but he didn't know whether the tears flowed because of emotion or excitement.

At this moment, she gained an unprecedented sense of security.

Qi Yan was stunned for a moment, the rhythm of his heartbeat gradually slowed down, and he whispered: "Don't say me great."

"But you are great in my heart."

"Oh."

The two of them hugged quietly, their arms warm, perfume and ointment mixed together, and they didn't smell good.

"Words..."

Qi Yan froze, his heart twitched: "Huh?"

Lu Zhiqiao got out of her arms, raised his head, and looked at her seriously: "You shouldn't bear these pressures alone. I'm also working hard. After all, the main problem lies with me. You have to believe in me, and you have to believe in yourself."

The crying eyes were a little swollen, covered with faint red blood, and looked haggard and pitiful.

Qi Yan pursed his lips, with a look of guilt in his eyes: "I'm not that good, I'm not that perfect, but I didn't want to give up, I'm just very contradictory, seeing you take the initiative to come to me, I still... . I feel a little bit angry, so I tell you not to think of me so great, I'm just an ordinary person..."

"Well, I'm an ordinary person too, I'm still stupid, I don't understand anything, and I want you to teach me." Lu Zhiqiao smiled at her.

She still had ointment on her hand, which was slimy and slippery. With the light reflected, Qi Yan glanced down and silently pulled a tissue from the bedside and grabbed her hand.

Lu Zhiqiao retracted subconsciously, "I haven't finished pressing | yet."

Qi Yan paused, pondered for a while, slumped back calmly, rolled up his clothes, and turned his face to the other side.

A large piece of bruise on his back looked anxious.

The ointment was wiped clean, Lu Zhiqiao squeezed some more onto his hands, melted it evenly and applied it, and rubbed it gently |

The coolness gradually spreads, and there is less sultry feeling.

No one spoke.

After pressing for about fifteen minutes, it was almost done. Lu Zhiqiao went to the bathroom to wash his hands, wipe them dry, screw up the ointment and put it on the bed. She carefully exhorted: "Wait until it's dry before going to bed. I'll come back tomorrow morning."

After speaking, she turned to leave.

The wrist was pulled quickly, and when she turned her head, she saw Qi Yan stood up and looked at her deeply: "I plan to go to relax after work." After a pause, he said, "Wait for me to come back."

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