To My Dear Mr. Huo

With others around, Li Qianxue's expression was forbearing and restrained, but she was very angry inside. At this age, I am very good at hiding my thoughts.

She stood up gently, a glass of red wine in her hand.

"Although I am a light drinker, it doesn't matter how many drinks I have."

When she spoke, she looked at Su Chenghui with hidden sharpness: "It's just a few drinks and we're all acquaintances, so it doesn't matter."

Refusing to say anything harsher or harsher, she first toasted to Li Junsheng.

"Mayor Li, let me toast you. Mayor Li has been young and promising in Lin City in the past two years. We, the Li family, are also grateful to you for taking care of us."

"Auntie, you're welcome." This was Huo Jinyao's mother-in-law. Li Junsheng didn't dare to offend her, so he picked up the wine and drank it all.

Li Qianxue's cup was also empty. She poured another cup, this time to Wang Tao first. Then came Director Chen and Director Gao.

A glass of wine per person is only four drinks. Su Chenghui tried to stop him several times, but the situation in front of him was beyond his control.

Unexpectedly, Li Qianxue poured another glass of wine in the end and raised it to him.

"I'd like to toast you with this glass of wine."

Su Chenghui looked at Li Qianxue. Ever since the divorce, Li Qianxue had looked at him with disgust and hatred. How could he have thought that she would toast him?

She drank a few drinks, and her face turned a bit crimson. Coupled with the calmness and stability brought by the years, Su Chenghui felt that his heartbeat was speeding up for a moment.

"Qianxue?"

"I propose a toast to you. Thank you for your care for your children and for your care of me over the years."

The next two sentences were spoken slowly and calmly. The meaningful words made Su Chenghui's face change slightly. Li Qianxue picked up the wine and drank it down in one gulp.

Then she sat down again, picked up the dishes placed in front of her, and ate them casually with two chopsticks.

The meal continues. With Director Chen and Director Gao here, the atmosphere is naturally good. The two people went towards Li Junsheng at first. Later, I discovered that Li Junsheng was very congratulatory to Li Qianxue and Su Chenghui, and toasted them both.

Li Qianxue didn't drink alcohol at first, but just now she had a few drinks in order to compete with Su Chenghui. He didn’t refuse this time and drank again.

After thirty years of drinking, Li Qianxue was already drunk. She is not a bad drinker, but she drank alcohol today on an empty stomach, so she would inevitably get drunk.

Director Chen on the other side had no expression at all and had no intention of ending it. On the other side, Li Qianxue was already a little confused and her eyes were red.

Su Chenghui looked at her and stood up: "Mayor Li, Qianxue is drunk, I will take her back first."

When Li Qianxue heard this, she stood up and wanted to say that she was not drunk. His feet felt weak, but he almost fell back down.

Su Chenghui helped her with sharp eyes and hands, preventing her from sitting down.

"I'm not drunk." She was just a little drunk. Li Qianxue looked at Su Chenghui with red eyes: "I won't leave."

She would never allow herself to lose her composure like this. Today, I drank wine and Su Chenghui was here.

She always felt that the arrogance in her heart could not be suppressed. He grabbed Su Chenghui with both hands and wanted to have a seizure.

"Qianxue." Su Chenghui held her hand. They had been married for many years, and he probably knew what it looked like when she got angry.

There weren't many things that could make her angry over the years, but he just knew it.

"You are drunk. Dad will be worried about you. Let's go back first."

His voice was very soft, as if he was coaxing a little daughter. Li Qianxue blinked and looked at Su Chenghui in front of her.

Time passed, and for a moment she thought she saw the man again.

Her performance astounded her when she joined the company. From then on, she secretly fell in love with her and couldn't control herself.

"Su Chenghui?"

"Yes, let's go home first." He said this, glanced at Li Junsheng, and said with a slightly apologetic expression, "Mayor Li."

"Since Auntie is drunk, please take Auntie back quickly."

Li Junsheng did not dare to leave Huo Jinyao's mother-in-law to drink with him, so he waved his hand to signal them to leave first.

Su Chenghui helped Li Qianxue leave. Li Junsheng was fine, but Wang Tao couldn't help but clicked his tongue.

"I really didn't expect that if the relationship is good at this age, it will be more annoying than that of young people."

The expression on Su Chenghui's face when he spoke just now was something Wang Tao had never seen with his girlfriend, even when they were passionately in love.

"Yes." Director Chen nodded: "The relationship is really good."

"Yeah. The relationship is really good." Li Junsheng added a comment. That’s a summary.

Li Qianxue outside had no idea that she and Su Chenghui had been misunderstood.

She was drunk now, and her steps were a little weak.

Su Chenghui also drank, so naturally it was difficult to drive, so when Xiao Zhao drove over, he helped Li Qianxue get into the car.

"Sir?" After being in the Li family for a long time, he naturally knew Su Chenghui's identity.

"Let's go. Go back."

Su Chenghui was worried about Li Qianxue and would always follow him.

Xiao Zhao didn't say much and drove quietly.

As Li Qianxue walked this way, she became more and more dizzy. She frowned as if she was uncomfortable.

Although she is not a bad drinker, she has rarely drank in the past few years. Not to mention that all they drank was liquor.

Su Chenghui smelled the alcohol on her body and originally wanted to pour her a glass of water, but when he realized that the water in the car was cold, he had no choice but to forget it.

It was still some distance away from Li's house. When Su Chenghui saw her frowning, he stretched out his hand and put it on her forehead, pressing it gently for her.

Su Chenghui's mother was a nurse. Su Chenghui often went to the hospital to work with her. Sometimes he would watch his mother take care of patients and learn a few skills.

I just can’t find anyone to practice with. When Su Qingsang was obsessed with studying medicine, he couldn't help but think that maybe it was inherited from one generation to the next.

Li Qianxue was indeed uncomfortable. Being held down by Su Chenghui like this made her relax a lot. The eyebrows are no longer so tight.

"Xiao Tao, be gentle."

She thought she was a servant at home, and she was not polite at all when giving orders.

Su Chenghui didn't correct him or speak. Pressing on her head. Li Qianxue was a little drowsy after being pressed by him.

By the time the car stopped at Li's house, she had already closed her eyes.

"gentlemen?"

Xiao Zhao turned around and looked at Su Chenghui in front. He shook his head: "I'll send her in."

Because she had been exercising for many years, Li Qianxue was not too heavy, so Su Chenghui didn't have much difficulty holding her. After entering the door, he found that Mr. Li was not there. He carried Li Qianxue upstairs in a familiar manner.

He put her down on the bed and asked Xiaotao to go to the kitchen to prepare a bowl of hangover tea.

He usually socializes a lot, and the Li family's kitchen is always equipped with hangover tea. The tea was delivered quickly, but Li Qianxue was so drunk that she was reluctant to drink it.

"Qianxue?" Su Chenghui's voice was extremely gentle: "Come, let's drink."

"Wine?" Li Qianxue blinked, as if he finally listened, and opened his mouth as he wished.

After drinking most of the bowl of tea, Li Qianxue refused to drink it: "It tastes bad."

Su Chenghui didn't force it. Seeing that her eyes were tightly closed, it seemed that she was uncomfortable because of the wine, and it seemed that she was really drunk.

Seeing her unconscious, he put her back on the bed and took off her coat and shoes.

As his eyes swept over her, Su Chenghui was confused for a moment. Do you want to take off your clothes for her? This thought together always made him feel like he was taking advantage of others.

You were once a couple. Su Chenghui said in his heart. However, he made no further moves and just sat on the edge of the bed looking at Li Qianxue.

She always drinks well, and even when she is drunk, she just sleeps quietly. And Li Qianxue is a very particular person, so it would definitely be uncomfortable for her to sleep with her clothes on.

Su Chenghui struggled for about a minute and finally chose to help Li Qianxue take off his clothes.

He moved very gently. The two had been married for many years, and it was the first time that he had helped her take off her clothes.

He was drunk the previous two times, so he really doesn't remember what he did. Li Qianxue has a good figure. She pays attention to health and takes good care of herself.

She is a little thin and wears the smallest size. Having two children had no impact on her.

The skin that comes out of regular visits to the beauty salon every week is as smooth as snow. Su Chenghui unexpectedly felt a little thirsty.

Living an almost ascetic life for more than twenty years does not mean that he has no desires, but that he just does not put his mind into them.

He has done many things over the years, such as changing the identities of Su Qingsang and Su Peizhen, for example, because of the tangled awkwardness in his heart, he has never been able to face Li Qianxue properly.

But this does not mean that he can really be a Liu Xiahui and reach the point where he can become a monk.

The clothes gradually fell off, the covered body fell into his eyes, and his breathing became heavier.

Sweat formed on his forehead as he placed his hand on the buckle behind her. While unbuttoning, sweat was almost dripping from his forehead.

After staring at the beautiful scenery for a while, he closed his eyes, pulled away the restraints for her, and then used his strongest self-control to pull up the quilt and cover her body.

He sat on the edge of the bed, breathing heavily. His eyes fell on Li Qianxue's face.

She breathed long and seemed to have really fallen asleep. He looked at her face, gently raised his hand and stroked her cheek.

Such peaceful moments were very rare for both him and her. Most of the time, the atmosphere between them was not very good.

No, there were times when it eased up.

Su Peizhen was getting older at that time. For the first time, he and Li Qianxue had differences in their educational philosophies.

He wanted his daughter to be happy, but Li Qianxue was training Su Peizhen according to the standards of an heir.

Su Peizhen started asking people to teach her how to play the piano when she was four years old, and when she was five years old, she hired a tutor to teach her homework.

He hoped that Su Peizhen could have the happiness of ordinary people, but Li Qianxue felt that as the heir of the Li family, these were what she had to learn.

In the end, he and Li Qianxue kept arguing and finally made Li Qianxue give in. She agreed to reduce some of Su Peizhen's homework, but the schedule must be according to her instructions.

According to Li Qianxue's idea, Su Peizhen didn't even need to go to kindergarten. After all, she is much smarter than those people.

Su Chenghui objected, and the two continued to mediate, and finally reached an agreement.

After Su Peizhen went to kindergarten, she was much happier than at home. It was also at that time that he had a good impression of Li Qianxue.

He thought maybe this would be it for the rest of his life. The two of them, Li Qianxue, guarded Su Peizhen and spent their lives treating each other like guests.

During that time, he had a good attitude toward her, and when she saw the happiness on Su Peizhen's face, she finally stopped being stubborn.

During that period of time, he had been convincing himself that he would spend the rest of his life with Li Qianxue. That's fine too.

Even if she couldn't be on the same page with him, at least they cooperated very well on official matters.

At that time, Li's family completed several projects very well, and he became famous in Li's family. There were more and more people under his command, and he and Li Qianxue got to know each other more and more.

After the first few years of getting along, the two people's tacit understanding was extraordinary. Sometimes when we encounter a particularly difficult case, the two of us work together to figure it out.

Occasionally, when we encounter a difficult customer, the two of us take action together. One of him and Li Qianxue played a good role, and the other played a bad role. Always strive for the best interests of the group.

Su Chenghui admired Li Qianxue, very much. It's just that he won't express his appreciation out loud.

He felt that it was an established fact that he didn't like her. He couldn't see what he looked like when he was with her, and he couldn't imagine what he would be like if he lost Li Qianxue.

He was actually trapped in a demonic barrier at that time, and his emotions were in conflict with his rationality.

On the one hand, he knew that his appreciation for Li Qianxue definitely went beyond official duties.

On the one hand, he was very conflicted. He felt that the more he admired Li Qianxue, the more he betrayed Xiang Caiping.

Repeated struggles made his attitude towards Li Qianxue always lukewarm. The relationship between him and Li Qianxue was difficult to break. He occasionally peeked into the secret thoughts in his heart, but it only made him more entangled.

A beauty like Li Qianxue sleeps on the same bed with him every day. How could he really be indifferent?

But the more he longed for it, the more he despised himself. He was not competing with Li Qianxue, but rather seemed to be competing with himself.

He was afraid that once he took that step, he would lose. He can't lose.

He was young and frivolous and didn't understand love. He didn't know how ridiculous his contradictions and entanglements were.

Looking back now, what does self-esteem mean? What does pride mean?

Those missed moments can never be looked back. The regret has been caused, and he can't do anything about it.

In fact, at that time, when he was in extreme conflict, he also thought that since he and Li Qianxue could not divorce or separate, then so be it.

Su Chenghui made up his mind to have a good life with Li Qianxue. But he didn't expect that the accident would come so quickly.

Su Chenghui’s mother, Jiang Mei, is a nurse. She and Xiang Caiping's mother worked in the same hospital.

In the second half of the year when Su Peizhen was seven years old, Jiang Mei fell ill. Very sick. She knew in her heart that Li Qianxue loved her son very much.

She also knew that Su Chenghui and Li Qianxue were together, so they were considered high-ranking members of the Su family. So she and her husband had been living in their original bungalow without any intention of taking advantage of the Li family.

The two of them also loved Su Peizhen, their granddaughter, but that didn't mean they didn't feel guilty.

Xiang Caiping was alone and stayed at their home after her parents died. But they didn't take good care of her, and they left her alone and wandering around somewhere.

The elders of the Su family didn't know about Su Chenghui's change of children. They had met Su Qingsang several times in private and felt sorry for the child, but they were afraid that if they showed too closeness, Li Qianxue would resent him.

In particular, Su Chenghui was afraid of being exposed and didn't want his parents to get closer to Su Qingsang.

Huge psychological pressure weighed on the two old people. Jiang Mei, in particular, always felt ashamed of Xiang Caiping's mother and Xiang Caiping.

After she fell ill that year, she made a request to Su Chenghui, asking him to find a way to get Xiang Caiping back.

"If you can, be nice to that kid."

"It's too hard to pick Ping, and it's too hard for that child."

"Chenghui, Mom knows you are a good boy, but our family feels sorry for Caiping. Just promise me, okay?"

When his mother held his hand and told him to find Xiang Caiping and not to treat Su Qingsang badly.

Su Chenghui's heart suddenly felt uncomfortable. Why doesn't he feel that he has wronged Xiang Caiping?

His mistake was made to be paid for by another woman, and Su Qingsang——

He was not really cold-blooded, nor was he really heartless. When he dreamed back at midnight, he once regretted his choice.

But on one side is a secret that cannot be told, and on the other side is his regret that cannot be seen. Tangled between the two, he chose to ignore it.

It was not until Jiang Mei's death that his inner conflicts reached their peak.

His mother wanted him to find Xiang Caiping, but he failed. His mother was focused on his and Xiang Caiping's child, and he couldn't even let her recognize it.

Not long after Jiang Mei's death, Su's father also passed away unexpectedly.

Su Chenghui, who lost his parents one after another, felt very depressed. Especially what the doctor said about worrying too much made him feel even more self-blame and guilty.

It would have been nice if he had not given up on Xiang Caiping, it would have been nice if he had not let Xiang Caiping go.

These two thoughts appeared alternately, making the little thought he had towards Li Qianxue disappear without a trace.

The guilt accumulated deeper and deeper, and finally one night, when he was drunk, he went crazy due to the smell of alcohol.

He took possession of Li Qianxue again, and he felt ridiculous. Very ridiculous.

Obviously what he wanted to do was stay away from her, but he still wanted to get closer. If you want to get closer, you have to use the influence of alcohol.

How ridiculous and cowardly was he at that time?

When Li Qianxue woke up the next day, before Li Qianxue could say anything, he took the first step and pinned the blame on her.

"Yesterday was just an accident. I was drunk."

"Don't worry, I don't love you. Even if I have sex with you, I won't love you."

"Li Qianxue, I really hate me like this."

What else was said later, he actually couldn't remember clearly. It won't be a good word anyway.

No, it should be said that he didn't say a few good words to Li Qianxue. Not a word.

That was still the simplest, what happened next? How did the two of them get to where they are today?

Li Qianxue had two children with him, both of whom were accidental. He didn't expect that Li Qianxue would get pregnant so easily.

Just one night later, she was pregnant again.

Su Chenghui didn't feel happy at all after knowing this. He was filled with guilt and self-blame.

He betrayed Xiang Caiping once, and now he betrayed Xiang Caiping a second time.

Su Peizhen could also make up for some of his guilt towards Xiang Caiping by changing her identity. But what about this thing in Li Qianxue’s belly?

He couldn't figure it out, and he didn't know what else he could do when things got to this point. Tangled between left and right. He did something he despised.

That period of time was just like now, when his relationship with Li Qianxue had reached a freezing point.

As for his troubled thoughts, when Li Qianxue was pregnant with Su Yuxin, he didn't pay any attention to it from the beginning to the end.

For him, the previous child was not what he expected, and this child is even less so.

after that--

Su Chenghui closed his eyes and suppressed the flash of sourness in his eyes. There were some things he didn't want to remember, not at all.

But now I realize that those memories are so clear. It's so clear that it seems like it just happened yesterday.

But the regret in his heart could never go away.

Looking at Li Qianxue who was sleeping deeply, he took her hand and put it on his face.

How casual and unscrupulous I was with her in the past, now I regret it so much.

If they had never done those things, they might still have the chance to do it again now.

But now, Su Qingsang and Su Peizhen's life experiences have been exposed, and his secret can no longer be hidden from her.

His previous despicableness and selfishness completely made Li Qianxue understand.

Now that he thought about it carefully, he felt that he was unforgivable. What face and qualifications did he have to make Li Qianxue forgive him?

Su Chenghui couldn't figure it out. Looking at Li Qianxue's sleeping face, he tried hard to control himself, and finally lay down next to her silently, staring straight at her.

He wanted to sleep, but he didn't dare. This rare opportunity to get close seemed especially valuable after Li Qianxue got drunk.

He just stared at Li Qianxue until sleepiness came over him and the effect of alcohol made him fall asleep.

…………

When Li Qianxue woke up, her head didn't hurt very much. She didn't know that someone pressed her head for a long time yesterday, which made her feel a lot lighter today.

"Xiao Tao."

Li Qianxue closed her eyes and called for someone. I realized that my voice was a little gritty, and not only was it gritty, my head also hurt.

"Get me a glass of water."

She called out, but no one answered. She reached out to touch the button on the bedside and waited for Xiao Tao to come up.

But instead of touching the button, he touched a warm body.

Li Qianxue's hand touched it and touched it left and right. Is this the chest?

A flat, strong man's chest?

Why is there a man's chest in her room?

Li Qianxue woke up almost instantly. She sat up and her eyes widened. Just saw it on the other side of the bed. Su Chenghui was lying on his side with his eyes closed tightly.

Seeing Su Chenghui, Li Qianxue stiffened.

Her mind was spinning rapidly and she began to recall what happened yesterday.

Needless to say, she had a few drinks last night. The wine made her drunk. Then what?

Su Chenghui took the opportunity to send her home and then got into her bed?

She lowered her head and glanced at herself. Except for the bottom pants underneath, he was wearing almost nothing.

Su Chenghui must have taken off his clothes, there is no need to doubt it. There was no discomfort in her body, and it was not as uncomfortable as the previous two times.

In other words, Su Chenghui didn't really do anything to her.

However, I didn't really do anything to her. I'm afraid I did a lot of things that I shouldn't have done, right?

When Li Qianxue thought about this, her beautiful watery eyes suddenly filled with a sinister aura.

Do you guys have any misunderstandings about middle-aged and elderly people? What I said about falling in love at dusk was a joke. At Su Chenghui and Li Qianxue's age, they can only be considered middle-aged. Middle age: The age between "youth" and "old age". There is no clear age division. It generally refers to the age of 45 to 59 years old. Only people over 60 can be called senior citizens. What's more, many people nowadays take good care of themselves. If you look at Hong Kong and Taiwan celebrities, many of them in their fifties are still very young. You can refer to Gong Li, who just announced her relationship some time ago. So, cough. It's really not what you think. embarrassed.