Today Should Be Preferred

She was miserable, guilty, and ashamed.

She is such a selfish person, and she doesn't deserve Teacher Qin's care at all. The subconscious action just now was her instinct, and her instinct was the most real her.

The nurse took the basin out and poured it out, and Tang Su also went into the bathroom to wash her hands and organize her clothes.

Lin Zhixuan stood beside the bed: "Mr. Qin, I'm sorry."

Teacher Qin: "It's okay, it's auntie who drags you down and traps you in the hospital every day."

The more Teacher Qin said, the more uncomfortable and guilty Lin Zhiyi became.

She knew she couldn't help at all in the hospital. Teacher Qin's daily life is meticulously taken care of by nurses, and her body is taken care of by doctors and nurses. She doesn't have to do anything. She just sits and sits every day, and even the nurses need to take care of her meals.

She came to sit, although she cared about Teacher Qin, but more to prove to Shiyan that she could share the burden of life for him.

But when she escaped just now, she suddenly realized her despicableness. She didn't like staying in the hospital, and she didn't know how to take care of others. , treat Teacher Qin selflessly, she can't do it.

That afternoon, she didn't wait for Shi Yan to come to the hospital from the company, she went home early by herself.

The picture of Tang Su rushing forward while jumping away in shock was firmly engraved in her mind, causing her to deeply despise and doubt herself. She was not worthy of the kindness that Teacher Qin and Shi Yan treated her.

After Shi Yan got off work and went to the hospital, he was a little surprised that he didn't see Lin Zhiyi. Usually when he arrived at the hospital, the girls would jump over to pick up his bag, asking long and short questions, but suddenly he didn't see him, and he was a little uncomfortable.

"Where is it?"

"Go home." Teacher Qin replied.

And Tang Su just went to pick up dinner and came back. Seeing Shi Yan, he greeted him naturally: "It's just right, the hospital's dinner today is not bad."

Shi Yan glanced at her, probably misunderstood, Lin Zhiyao left because she was there, so when he looked at her, his face was not very good.

Teacher Qin explained: "I vomited a lot today, I might have been frightened, so I went home first. Tell her, I really don't care about it. She has been with me in the hospital every day recently. It's hard work, and I'm very grateful to her."

Shi Yan understood the cause and effect, and nodded: "It's alright, he is not a stingy person. Did you vomit a lot today? What did the doctor say?"

"The doctor said it's normal, it's okay, try some antiemetic medicine next time."

Teacher Qin had no appetite. After drinking a few mouthfuls of porridge and reluctantly a few mouthfuls of Tang Suche's apples, he lay back on the bed to rest.

Shi Yan went outside the door to send Lin Zhiyi a video, and it took a while to answer, her eyes were red.

His heart ached, and he comforted: "Fuji, no one blames you, don't blame yourself."

Lin Zhiyi nodded: "I'm fine."

It was because no one blamed her, but she had to comfort her in turn, that she blamed herself. She blamed herself all night, and now she's getting better.

"You don't have to go to the hospital tomorrow, and take a good rest at home. I have hired an extra nurse here to take care of you."

"Okay." This time, Lin Zhiyi didn't insist on going to the hospital anymore, and going there was just causing trouble.

When Shi Yan hung up the video, Lin Zhiyi felt more and more uncomfortable, so he sent a video to Tinglan, wanting to find a good friend to chat.

Tinglan worked overtime for a while today and just got on the subway: "Are you coming to stay at my house? I'll be waiting for you on the subway."

"Wait for me." Lin Zhiyi immediately put on his bag and rushed to the subway to meet Tinglan.

From a distance, he saw Tinglan standing at the subway entrance waiting for her, dressed so thin that it could be blown over by a gust of wind, Lin Zhiyi ran over and took her arm, feeling a little more at ease.

It was the first time the two met since she left.

Tinglan didn't say anything, and walked to the subway hand in hand.

Lin Zhixuan is not the character that can hide things. When she finds Tinglan, she must talk about it, and tell in detail what happened in the recent days, especially her own behavior today, which is a hurdle that she herself can't get over.

"Mr. Qin is usually a person who pays special attention to hygiene and is very decent. Today, she couldn't control her vomiting, and she was already uncomfortable. When I think of my behavior at that time, I hate myself and feel very ashamed. I'm sorry Teacher Qin, I'm sorry Tokihiko, I didn't dare to face him today and ran home first."

Lin Zhijie lowered his head and leaned on Tinglan's shoulder in despair.

"If you think too much, Mr. Qin won't blame you, and Shi Zong won't be angry. It's a natural reaction for you to avoid."

"But Tang Su's natural reaction was to rush forward to take care of Teacher Qin, and he didn't dislike him at all when he spat out his hand."

"So Fufu, are you because you avoided self-blame, or are you annoyed because you didn't do as well as Tang Su?"

"It's all there, that's why I feel like I'm very selfish, very selfish."

Tinglan didn't know what to say. She understood Lin Zhiyi very well. When her mother was sick, she would sometimes avoid it subconsciously. When she was tired of taking care of her mother, she would also think about why her mother was sick and why she let her go. Is she so tired?

It's human nature.

"Shu Shu."

"Ok?"

"Actually, I think that Tang Su and Shi Yan are really a good match. I used to despise those entangled ex-girlfriends, but this Tang Su, I have to admit that she is very good. She takes care of Teacher Qin sincerely, not It's to show Shi Yan. It's the kind of taking care of Teacher Qin as his mother. "

This is also what makes Lin Zhiyi feel frustrated, because she doesn't seem to be able to do it, and she and Teacher Qin respect each other more for Shiyan.

"Yaoyao, you and Mr. Qin haven't known each other for a long time. You can do this very well." Tinglan has no experience, but based on her understanding of Lin Zhiyao, she is so free and easy and doesn't like people who are bound. To be able to do this, she has done her best.

"I'm really not a good woman." Lin Zhijie could only express this emotion in the end.

At night, she didn't go to the guest room to sleep, she insisted on crowding with Tinglan, and the two became a little sleepy after chatting after 12 o'clock in the evening. Stupidly received Shi Yan's WeChat

:not at home?

Seeing the words on his gray-white head portrait, she sat up in shock.

"Teacher Shi, are you home?"

"Well, wanted to come back and see you. Where are you?"

Lin Zhixuan was about to cry: I'm listening to Lan's house.

So, why did she come to Tinglan's house? Missed a chance to meet Teacher Shi.

"Teacher Shi, is it too late for me to go back now?" Lin Zhi was annoyed to death.

Shi Yan smiled and said, "I'm going back to the hospital soon."

He was worried about her, so he rushed home to see her. But he was relieved to see that she could come out and relieve the little sister. He completely understood her today.

The two chatted on WeChat for a while, and when Lin Zhiyi was about to fall asleep, they suddenly received a message from him.

: down.