Unbridled

39

Lin Zhan's hug was short-lived. Before Lin Wuyu hadn't gotten used to this kind of intimate contact and conditioned reflex, he had retreated.

Lin Wuyu pressed his hand back to the stiffness of being late, echoing the name Lin Zhan in his mind.

His parents called him, most of the time it was Da Ming. When he was in a good mood, he would call him Wuyu. The names of his classmates and friends are basically fish, no fish, learn God...

Only Lin Zhan, except Wuyu, sometimes called him a little cub.

When he felt Lin Wuyu was wronged.

"Do you have time now?" Lin Zhan said, "Please have a meal."

"Good." Lin Wuyu nodded.

"What food do you want to eat?" Lin Zhan asked.

"Everything." Lin Wuyu entered the bedroom, changed clothes, and the phone rang in his pocket.

Ding Ji sent it.

-how about it?

Lin Wuyu quickly tapped on the screen a few times.

-A bit strange, now go to eat

-Drink some wine! No stranger

Lin Wuyu smiled and put the phone back in his pocket.

When standing in the elevator with Lin Zhan, there was a very special feeling. The distant and strange intimacy made him a little uncomfortable.

Lin Zhan asked when he walked out of the elevator: "Did you tell your family about this?"

"No," Lin Wuyu glanced at him. "I wasn't sure before, so I didn't say it."

"Don't say it now." Lin Zhan said.

Lin Wuyu didn't speak. When Lin Zhan mentioned his parents before, he used the expression "they".

Lin Zhan did not wait for his answer, so he stopped and looked at him: "Don't say it."

"Okay." Lin Wuyu replied.

Lin Zhan patted on his arm.

A black Ford Mustang was parked in the parking space downstairs. Lin Wuyu suddenly found that he had an impression of this car. He had been parking on the road near the gate of the community before.

During this time he saw at least three times.

"Is there a book?" Lin Zhan asked as he opened the door.

"No." Lin Wuyu said.

"You have time to take one," Lin Zhan got in the car. "If you want to drive, take my car and drive it. I usually don't drive much."

"Well." Lin Wuyu also got in the car.

Lin Zhan's very ordinary sentence, he was not even sure if he said it casually, he still felt a little warm.

This is not the same as the warmth brought by the various goodwill that is usually felt, and the warmth brought by Ding Ji's battle righteousness. This is only a little bit of similar feeling in front of Ding Ji's grandparents.

Is affectionate.

The person who said this was his brother.

"Are you motion sick?" Lin Zhan asked.

"Not dizzy." Lin Wuyu said.

"That's good." Lin Zhan nodded.

"Why?" Lin Wuyu looked at him.

"I didn't drive very well," Lin Zhan said. "My car in motion sickness basically has to get off and vomit."

"Is it." Lin Wuyu turned to the beginning, looking at the window and smiling.

"How did you come here to guard me?" Lin Zhan asked.

"Yes... Aunt Yu saw you, right at the subway entrance," Lin Wuyu sighed softly, "She took a picture."

"Sneak shot?" Lin Zhan smiled a little disdainfully, "Which is from Auntie?"

"The one who always took you out to play when I was young." Lin Wuyu looked at a small piece of silicone pad in the front of the car, which should be used for glasses and mobile phones. In addition, Lin Zhan's car no longer has any decoration, many driver's seats There is no waist or neck pillow that will be put on it.

If the holster on the car key was carefully selected at first glance, the car looks like the rented one.

"I don't remember." Lin Zhan said calmly.

Lin Wuyu couldn't help but glance at him.

"Do you remember?" Lin Zhan stopped at the red light and turned his head.

"Of course I don't remember," Lin Wuyu said, "she hasn't played me with..."

Lin Zhan smiled.

From the second I saw Lin Zhan, Lin Wuyu had a question to ask, but he never found a suitable atmosphere and opportunity.

Why are you leaving? why? why!

This problem that plagued Lin Wuyu for ten years, was stuck in his throat at this moment, no, it was under his tongue, as long as he was careless when he spoke, he would scream and jump out.

Lin Zhan is now driving, and it is said that the technology is not good, he did not dare to distract Lin Zhan at this time.

But why are you leaving?

But why don't you tell me you are leaving?

Lin Wuyu leaned against the window and sighed softly.

"Don't sigh," Grandpa put the teapot on the coffee table. "After a while, your grandma heard and taught you."

"Got it, children can't always sigh and sigh to wander the soul." Ding Ji took a mobile phone and turned around, sighing again.

"Are you hungry?" Grandpa asked. "You go to the kitchen to have some food. I think the braised pork is ready."

"I'm not hungry, you think I'm Lin Wuyu," Ding Ji pressed the phone, no news came in, "I'm waiting for news here."

"What news? Who's it?" Grandpa approached with interest.

"Lin Wuyu has a particularly important thing to do at this time," Ding Ji said. "I waited for his news to tell me that it was not done."

"You send a message to ask." Grandpa said.

"Inconvenient," Ding Ji put the phone aside and looked at Grandpa with his chin. "Old Ding'er, have you ever been particularly worried about your friends?"

"Yes," Grandpa said, "Your Grandpa Liu, when we used to be on the dock together, when he went out to fight against people, I was worried that he would be beaten to death."

Ding Ji couldn't hold it back, lying on the sofa and having fun all the time, laughing for a long time: "Why are you like this?"

"Don't you worry that Peng Peng will be beaten by others when he goes out?" Grandpa asked with a smile.

"No," Ding Ji thought and rejoiced. "He's actually smart."

"It made your grandmother foolish," Grandpa said, "Chengtian said Peng Peng is silly."

Ding Ji rubbed his eyes while laughing: "Hey, all the tears are laughing."

"Don't worry, the little fairy is so smart," Grandpa clapped his hands. "I don't care about him at home. Hasn't he done a good job for so many years? This kid is reliable."

"Uh." Ding Ji nodded.

-Ready to eat

Lin Wuyu suddenly sent a message on the phone.

Ding Ji almost smashed his face when he was anxious to read the news.

-how about it? Does it feel okay? Are you happy? What is your impression?

-Why did you ask me like this?

Ding Ji laughed.

-How about Lin Zhanren?

-It’s good. I’ll call you after dinner.

-it is good

Ding Ji read these simple conversations again, then put the phone aside, jumped from the sofa, and entered the kitchen: "Braised Meat--"

Lin Zhanchou’s pavilion is hidden in a hutong. It’s not too big. There are only two words on the signboard. In the forest, the decoration is very simple but it can be seen that it has a careful design.

A meal is not cheap.

Lin Zhan should be a regular customer, and the waiter saw him and brought him directly to the double compartment of the innermost one.

"Look at what you want to eat." Lin Zhan said after sitting down.

Lin Wuyu opened the menu and looked at it for two moments, then froze for a moment, then stared carefully at it for a dozen more times.

The price of the vegetables didn't make him stunned. What puzzled him was...

"This is a vegetarian restaurant?" He asked, looking up.

"Well," Lin Zhan also glanced at him, "Do you want to eat meat?"

"...No," Lin Wuyu shook his head quickly. "I just asked."

"My stomach has been uncomfortable for a while," Lin Zhan said, "their food tastes good, try it."

"You order, I haven't eaten," Lin Wuyu said, "I don't know which one to order."

"OK, then I ordered." Lin Zhan put the menu together and set it aside, and directly reported several dish names to the waiter.

The waiter turned and left the compartment.

"You..." Lin Wuyu followed the previous topic, "How is your health now?"

"Alright," Lin Zhan said, "very good."

"Oh." Lin Wuyu responded, feeling that Lin Zhan did not tell the truth, his face was still as pale as when he was a child.

"Winner," Lin Zhan looked at him and smiled, "Is the report big?"

"Well," Lin Wuyu held the glass in front of him. "The notice should have almost arrived in these two days."

"Awesome," Lin Zhan said, "When I was a kid, I always thought I had a bad brain."

Lin Wuyu looked at the water in the glass and said nothing.

The surface of the water is slightly wavy, because the cup is small, the ripple disappears as soon as it rises, and one wave is faster than the other.

It wasn't until Lin Zhan shook his hand that he suddenly responded that his hand was shaking.

"What's wrong?" Lin Zhan asked.

"Why?" Lin Wuyu looked up at him, "Why are you leaving?"

Lin Zhan paused, withdrew his hand, and said nothing.

"Why are you leaving?" Lin Wuyu still looked at him. He didn't think it was the best time to ask this question, but Lin Zhan's words reminded him of too many unpleasant pasts, and these past Because Lin Zhan was clearly in front of him.

"Why didn't you keep a word?" Lin Wuyu's voice was calm and his speed was not fast, but behind every word he spoke, he was bothered by him in a corner that he might not be able to perceive for more than ten years. The pain, "You know that they think only you son, you know that in their eyes you are the most perfect person in the world! You know I am superfluous, I was born because of you! Why are you Going? Why did you leave me there alone?"

Lin Zhan looked at him.

"Why!" Lin Wuyu finally roared out of his emotions and thumped his hands on the table, "Lin Zhan, tell me why!"

"I'm afraid." Lin Zhan said.

"Afraid?" Lin Wuyu stared at him. "Are you afraid? You are proud! You are a genius! You are hope! Are you afraid? What can you be afraid of!"

The waiter pushed the door in and brought them two plates of snacks and a pot of fruit tea.

When the waiter left, Lin Wuyu and Lin Zhan said at the same time, "Thank you."

Lin Zhan smiled.

After the waiter closed the door of the cubicle, Lin Wuyu suddenly didn't want to speak anymore. He felt that he was out of control. This uncontrollable state made him uneasy.

He leaned back in his chair and looked down at his hand, no longer speaking.

Lin Zhan did not speak anymore, and was silent with him. After a long time, he suddenly asked: "Will you wake up at night?"

Lin Wuyu did not know why he asked so, but he still thought about it seriously: "No."

"I will," Lin Zhan said, "I will wake up several times a night, and I still have it."

Lin Wuyu raised his head.

"Every night I feel that someone is standing by my bed watching me," Lin Zhan said, "touching my face, I will wake up every night."

"Yes..." Lin Wuyu said a little too hard. When he noticed that Lin Zhan would avoid it, it became difficult to say, "Is it Julie?"

"You know, being a person's all, all, everything," Lin Zhan didn't answer, just looked at him and asked softly, "How does it feel?"

"I don't know," Lin Wuyu said, "I only know what it feels like."

Lin Zhan smiled and stretched his hand to bounce gently on his face.

Lin Wuyu can guess Lin Zhan's feelings, although he is obviously reluctant to say more, just like he is very resistant to mentioning those pasts with people, this feeling... Almost can guess.

Maybe.

No, I’m not sure.

After all, he is too far away from someone's "all, all, everything".

"I hope I didn't match up with you from the beginning," Lin Zhan said, "I hope I died before you were born, so that we are all better off."

Lin Wuyu shuddered gently.

"But you are a little angel," Lin Zhan thought for a while, "although ugly..."

Lin Wuyu froze for a second and couldn't help laughing.

"When I left, I didn't expect to see you again. I didn't plan to go back again, nor did I want to appear in your life again," said Lin Zhan. "Although I only left for myself, I also thought that there would be no me. , Can you have a better time."

"No." Lin Wuyu said.

"I can't care so much," Lin Zhan said, "I'm not a genius, I'm not a child prodigy, I'm not very smart, I have average grades, I'm just an ordinary child with an ordinary IQ, so I'm afraid to stare at them every day Watching, every minute and every second, I even thought, if one day they find that I am not as good as I imagined, my brother is the real genius... will I be killed?"

Lin Wuyu looked at him in surprise.

Lin Zhan said this, he did not understand, he never knew that the crazy love of his parents had left such a shadow on Lin Zhan, his more memory is that your brother heard from them over and over again. How good and you are a waste.

"You asked me why I left," Lin Zhan took a sip of tea, "I just hope that we will never have each other in our lives."

"Then why did you come to me?" Lin Wuyu frowned.

"There is no reason why you called me my eight-year-old brother," Lin Zhan said, "If it didn't happen that day, or Ding Ji didn't leave the phone number, I might haven't happened, but the phone number is in me At hand, I definitely want to know how you are now, can't help it."

"I'm fine now, I am now alone," Lin Wuyu said, "Before the college entrance examination, I have... been kicked out."

"Huh?" Lin Zhan looked at him and said after a while, "It's good, don't go back."

"Don't go back," Lin Wuyu said and finalized once. "You don't need them to know your situation, nor their status, do you?"

"Yes," Lin Zhan nodded. "Never."

"I see." Lin Wuyu said.

As soon as the mobile phone shook in his hand, Ding Ji opened his eyes, and at the same time, he took the mobile phone to his eyes. When he saw the word Lin on the screen, he answered the phone: "Lin Wuyu?"

"Are you asleep? The voice is a little confused." Lin Wuyu's voice passed.

"Just fell asleep," Ding Ji felt that her eyes were a little dry, and after looking at the time, it was actually ten o'clock. "You finished talking with Lin Zhan?"

"Well." Lin Wuyu responded.

"How is it? Are you talking well?" Ding Ji sat up from the bed. "Did you cry with a headache?"

"I haven't seen him for ten years. When he left, I was only eight years old," Lin Wuyu said. "This kind of reunion can't cry to the point of having a headache..."

"Was that a good conversation?" Ding Ji asked.

"Very good," Lin Wuyu said, "I finally... I know why he ran like this."

With a light tone in his tone, Ding Ji's heart that he had been carrying was suddenly dropped. Why did Lin Zhan go? This is Lin Wuyu's heart knot. He knew Lin Wuyu always wanted to know the reason, no matter he How calm and lightly behaved.

"So why is he?" Ding Ji asked softly.

"This is a bit complicated to say," Lin Wuyu said, "I haven't told you about his illness before. I'll elaborate after you get the notice for me. Anyway, it's... quite good. ."

"Oh." Ding Ji got out of bed and went to the living room to pour a glass of water. "It's really a dear brother, who wants to talk and stop trying..."

"It's not chasing a girl again," Lin Wuyu smiled and helped him to complete the following words. "It's really complicated. I'm going to... I really don't want to talk about this anymore. I want to talk to you casually. What?"

"Okay, save me when I'm past and we have nothing to say," Ding Ji snorted, "Talk about something else!"

"Do you know where he lives?" Lin Wuyu said.

"You upstairs?" Ding Ji took the cup. "He just went downstairs to knock on the door?"

"That's not enough," Lin Wuyu smiled. "But it's very close. It's three buildings away from the building where I rented a house. I have 17 buildings, and there are 20 buildings on his side."

"There are two buildings across," Ding Ji said coldly. "Learn God, how do you take the national champion?"

"There is the building of the property office in the middle," Lin Wuyu smiled for a long time. "Why are you so unconvinced?"

"Discuss something with you." Ding Ji hesitated and suddenly switched the subject.

He hadn't decided yet, but when he heard Lin Wuyu's voice, he didn't plan to think more.

"Do you want to take the notice to come in advance?" Lin Wuyu asked, "Let me stay first?"

"...Can't you grab business with me?" Ding Ji was suddenly embarrassed. "Can you correct this problem? What's wrong with the IQ?"

"You just despised my champion, I must fight back." Lin Wuyu said.

"Come on," Ding Ji sighed, "Just like this, okay? I really don't have any meaning to stay at home. I wanted to stay with grandpa and grandma again. As a result, my grandma asked me why Laowo didn't go out at home. , Is no one playing with me, looking upset..."

"Why is this grandma," Lin Wuyu said with a smile, "Don't give us a face!"

"Just say yes," Ding Ji said.

"There is nothing wrong," Lin Wuyu said, "you buy the ticket when you get the notice, and I will pick you up."