Unrequited Love

The boring class came to an end in her distraction, and the classroom gradually became lively. Luo Zhi hurriedly jotted down the time, place and review scope of the final exam in his notebook, grabbed his schoolbag and coat and rushed out the back door when the professor announced the end of get out of class.

Today is the last day of the year. Before, Zhu Yan asked her if she would like to live in her own home for a few days and spend the New Year's holiday together. She originally wanted to agree, but she didn't expect Belle to ask her lonely a few days ago: "Luo Zhi, can you accompany me to the New Year's Eve reception of the Student Union?"

She was astonished: "When did you join the student union?"

Haven't you been running errands for the Gobi as a non-staff? She swallowed the second sentence into her stomach.

"I am a member of the Book Club. They also invited the heads of various clubs at the reception. In short, many people went there."

"Why do you want me to accompany?"

Belle lowered her head, her eyes still rolling around.

"I heard that Chen Mohan is going."

Luo Zhi felt his shoulders sink uncontrollably: "Aren't you going to..."

"I'm not going to make trouble, not to show them their faces. If people will look at my face, they won't throw me away. I'm just curious, I'm really curious, how good they are together, I just want to see Look, just want to see..."

Luo Zhi stopped the cry in Belle's words in time: "Xingxingxing, if you can control your emotions, I will accompany you."

Belle nodded hurriedly: "Trust me."

Believe you to blame. Luo Zhi rubbed his temples and suddenly reacted, the student union? Wouldn't it... She wanted to go back, seeing Belle's thin and sharp chin, but she couldn't say what she refused.

A whole week has passed since Belle sent a text message to inform Luo Zhi that she had broken up. Jiang Baili was insomnia listening to music every night, her eyes were red, and she lost lovesickness. I once clamored angrily to lose weight while stealing the beauty in the Gobi, but now I really lose weight, but it has no meaning.

The most terrifying thing is that they have to cheer up, weakly and hypocritically, saying to a group of eight women in the courtyard who are gloating in the name of condemning Gobi, everything is fine, fine.

People pretend to be happy.

No matter how depressed, you have to smile. Who wants to let others pick up jokes for nothing?

Luo Zhi will advance the time of class for the two children so that they can come back early in the evening to accompany Belle. Standing in the cold wind at the east gate and waiting for the car, she received a text message from Luoyang.

"Your sister-in-law has come to Beijing, let's have dinner together tomorrow."

Luo Zhi felt a long-lost warm current flowing through his heart.

When she was changing slippers in the hallway, she felt that the house was too quiet, and she always turned around in the living room and mumbled that the two Filipino servants who didn't understand English did not show up. Luo Zhi once asked Zhu Yan why he must use Filipino maids. They should not have the characteristics of cheap and good quality Hong Kong Filipino maids in Beijing.

At that time, Zhu Yan smiled and said that it is best to not understand Chinese, and feel at ease.

Luo Zhi was stunned for a while, and understood.

As soon as the two children's lessons were over, Luo Zhi was dragged into her room by the little girl. After recovering from a serious illness, Tiffany went to Hong Kong with Zhu Yan, and the pink wardrobe was immediately full of trophies. Luo Zhi sat on the bed, watching her show off her new clothes one by one. Zhu Yan is going to take them to a reception in the evening. Tiffany is very serious, so she is also very enthusiastic to help advise whether to choose a small dress or a small cheongsam.

Finally selected, Tiffany went to the bath happily. Luo Zhi turned his head inadvertently and saw Zhu Yan standing silently at the door, smiling at his daughter's back.

"When did you come in? I didn't find it."

"It's been a long time since I saw you." Zhu Yan walked over with a smile and handed her a cup of tea.

"Had a serious illness."

"influenza?"

"I don't know, half a cold and half a heart disease."

"what happened?"

Luo Zhi smiled and told her about her experience, from the first trip that was barely a date, to the sudden turn of Sheng Huainan, the confession she was forced to admit on rainy days, the adventure when she went home to pay homage...until the return of the suitcase .

And the phrase "what's your name" on the window sill.

"It's probably like this," she paused for a while and laughed, "you can understand that I was played fiercely."

Zhu Yan was silent for a long time, added a piece of rock candy to the teacup, and stirred, "Is that boy really as good as you think?"

Luo Zhi looked at Zhu Yan, his eyes filled with sly smiles. She turned her face, thought about it very seriously, and said slowly: "I know what you want to say."

"I didn't know him when I was in high school, but he is indeed a good person. A person who is worthy of being jealous in all aspects can make everyone praise him without slandering him. This is already very rare. Then I only had what I had. After several face-to-face contact with him, I think he is indeed a likable person."

She sighed, her eyes a little sour: "At least please me."

Zhu Yan nodded thoughtfully: "It turns out that this is the case, he really grew up safely."

"Your tone is strange, as if he was supposed to have died."

Zhu Yan was a little embarrassed for some reason, and after pondering for a moment, she continued to smile and said, "No, I, I mean, I also find him very rare. You told me about him before, the kind of sophistication you described His early wisdom often harms him, but it seems that there is no such thing."

"I really hope he is not so good, so that I can turn around as soon as possible."

"Don't make excuses," Zhu Yan smiled, "If you can't break it, you can't break it. I dare say that if you find him very bad one day, it must be worse than it is now."

She looked at the window sill with the twilight: "Maybe one day you don't like him anymore, but you can't dislike yourself who once liked him. After all, he is all your youth. If he is very unbearable, then your youth is equal to Feed the dog."

Luo Zhi grinned: "It's so sad."

Zhu Yan ignored her, as if immersed in her thoughts. After a long time, she looked straight over: "Why don't you ask him, why on earth?"

"He won't say it," Luo Zhi lowered his head and sipped, showing a little bit of anger and anger that a girl of this age should be. "I said, I'm afraid I don't want to listen."

"Affectionate."

Zhu Yan's tone was soft, but Luo Zhi blushed. She went on dryly: "It's just the fate."

Zhu Yan smiled more and more hairy behind her back.

"You have been deliberate before, and you have been a director and an actor, and you have been foreshadowing all the way. Now you want to pretend to be ignorant and follow your destiny?"

Luo Zhi's teaspoon hit the wall of the cup, and she turned away from the subject in embarrassment, "By the way, why didn't I see your two Filipino servants today?"

Zhu Yan wanted to speak and stopped, and a smile broke out in the next second, facing Tiffany who had just jumped out of the bathroom.

Belle's reminders rushed into the phone one by one, Luo Zhi opened the door of the dormitory panting at five o'clock, but she saw her sitting cross-legged on the bed in her pajamas holding her phone.

"Why are you still wearing pajamas?"

"I don't know what to wear."

"What kind of reception is this? If a dress is required, I'm afraid I won't be able to enter."

"You don't have to dress very formally, you can walk in with sneakers."

"Then why are you embarrassed? Don't bother to think about this too much, you can't fight Chen Mohan."

"I know." Belle did not refute.

Luo Zhi looked up at her in surprise. Today, Jiang Baili was a little abnormally calm, she met Luo Zhi's suspicious gaze, smiled, pale and dusty.

"I'm not seeing the Virgin Mary... Can you not laugh like that?"

"Sorry, it occurred to me just now. Actually, Sheng Huainan is also attending this reception tonight. I don't know if you want to see him..."

Luo Zhi grinned: "What is there to avoid? There is nothing between us."

Then, before the corners of his mouth could not resist drooping, he quickly turned around and pretended to sort out the review materials on the bookcase.

Although Belle didn't know much about the story between them, she shouted "Come on Luo Zhi" every day, getting along day and night, and she could always read some stories around the corners of her eyes and eyebrows. Luo Zhi didn't know how to cover up.

She heard the sound of Jiang Baili getting out of bed behind her, accompanied by a faint "If I was the same as you, I had rotted everything in my belly, it would be fine. You like others are also quiet, no Known by anyone, you will not lose face if you fail."

Luo Zhi banged his head on the cabinet when he heard the words: "What's the shame of this-wait a minute, where did I fail?"

I wanted to make my mouth hard once, but found that the hippie smiley face couldn't be shown.

She pulled out "The Biography of Mary Stuart" and put it in again. I don’t know the number of times she could find a suitable place. Finally, she gave up, threw it on the table casually, sat on it, and turned it around. Body, said in a cold tone: "Yes, I was quite a failure, I just saw that I will be miserable one day, I was not like you at the beginning, and the world knows it."

Belle was standing in the middle of the bedroom, halfway through her pajamas, with the bra straps still hanging on her shoulders. She was frightened by Luo Zhi and fell into a panic on the lower bunk bed.

She heard Luo Zhi speak in this tone for the first time. Mixed with icy ballast, there is an evil fire.

Both were silent.

Just as Jiang Baili wanted to say "I'm sorry", she saw the exaggerated smile on Luo Zhi's face.

"Hurry up and change clothes," Luo Zhi paused, and then said in a very energetic tone, "I suddenly remembered that it seemed to say in "Pride and Prejudice" that,'burying feelings too deep is sometimes It’s a bad thing. If a woman conceals her feelings for the man she loves, she may lose the chance to get him. “So, the masterpieces prove that you are right. Express it warmly.”

Jiang Baili laughed: "Students talk differently."

In a blink of an eye, his face collapsed again: "...Then why didn't I get him?"

After looking at each other awkwardly but silently, Luo Zhi laughed, and Jiang Baili stood up obediently and said, "May I wear your clothes? We are all the same body."

Luo Zhi pointed to the wardrobe and said, "Choose your own. Don't you keep saying that my clothes are worn by widowed people?"

Belle raised her head from the pile of clothes, solemnly: "I am indeed widowed."

Luo Zhi smiled and looked up at the clear snow floating outside the window.

She once thought that she would be so silent, that she was not afraid of embarrassment, nor caring about getting it or not, but not wanting to be misunderstood. There are too many twists and turns in her relationship, and it is not for outsiders. The bystanders who think straight to the end will only pierce her tactful thoughts with blood.

Until that day, she mentioned the balcony at that time and he said: "I ask, what is your name."

Luo Zhi suddenly understood that the kind of pain and unwillingness that suddenly crawled into his heart is called not getting it.

Say it, swallow it, the high-profile pursuit, or the unknown love, nothing is more wise, nor is it more noble.

As long as you don't get it, you just scratch your heart with a hundred claws, and the pain is not different.