Unrequited Love

"The price of papaya in the supermarket is reduced. I bought three. Would you like it? I have already cut half. You can take the half on the table yourself!"

Just as Luo Zhi pushed the door into the dormitory, he heard Jiang Baili yelling loudly. She looked up and saw that Belle had already changed into an early summer shirt with three-quarter sleeves, but was wearing a down jacket outside, sitting on the upper bunk, holding half a papaya and digging with a small spoon to eat.

Luo Zhi frowned, threw the phone and keys on the table, and squinted at her: "Can the papaya in this season be delicious?"

Jiang Baili was stunned: "Do you care whether it tastes good or not, breast enhancement."

Luo Zhi laughed, Jiang Baili's frankness always made people feel bright.

"I don't need it anymore." She turned her back on the chair, rested her chin on the back of the chair lightly, picked up a copy of Brecht's Poems, and flipped it casually.

"Don't you have breast enhancement anymore?"

Luo Zhi killed him with an eye knife, staring at Jiang Baili's chest and sneered: "Haha, it's better than nothing."

When Luo Zhi read the fourth song, Jiang Baili's phone vibrated. Luo Zhi once persuaded her to give up those gorgeous and horrifying ringtones but failed. In the new semester, she changed her mobile phone and never set any bell, which surprised Luo Zhi.

Later I learned that it was Gu Zhiye's credit. Luo Zhi was nagging for a year, and Gu Zhiye just laughed when Jiang Baili's phone rang sounded, which made her guilty and turned into vibration.

Luo Zhi could clearly feel that Jiang Baili was changing. Her mood and smile gradually returned to the way she was when she first saw her in her freshman year, but her behavior became more and more calm, and she no longer skipped classes and was no longer sloppy-at least trying to keep it tidy.

Of course, these changes are more embodied in front of people, and did not benefit Luo Zhi very much.

"It's really beneficial to fall in love with an old man." When Jiang Baili finally hung up the phone with Gu Zhiye, Luo Zhi said with emotion while reading.

"We're not in love!" Belle said as she said and cried out again.

It is true that there is little stickiness on the phone when she was in love with Gobi at the beginning. Belle’s voice is happy, but her tone and wording retain a distance, more like an ambiguous friend.

At the end of every call, Belle said: "Then you are busy."

That you're busy.

If you love me, you should immediately smile and say, I am not busy.

"Do you have a better cold? The nasal sound still sounds pretty heavy."

Belle shrugged: "I guess it will take a week to get better, but the fever is gone."

"Clean porridge and side dishes can really cool down." She didn't look up, turning a page gently.

Jiang Baili blushed, and couldn't say a word for a long time.

Luo Zhi received a call at 11:30 yesterday. Gobi said that he was downstairs in the dormitory at the moment, and asked her to go down and bring some things to Belle.

Pork liver and spinach porridge, baby cabbage in clear soup, fried bean curd, one box of Enric, one box of Contec.

Luo Zhi stared at a table of things blankly, remembering the haggard look of the Gobi downstairs, and for the first time, he admired Jiang Baili's methods.

Jiang Baili's eyes were bright, staring at that familiar pig liver and spinach porridge, her face flushed, she didn't know if it was because of fever or something else.

Or Luo Zhi asked her first: "Did Chen Mohan trouble you again?"

Jiang Baili shook her head.

"Strange, it's impossible for her to not find Gobi's heart and soul, how can a girl like her swallow this breath?"

"Didn't I run for him several times in the middle of the night, and it was even." Belle's voice was a little trembling, and she climbed onto the bed without moving a bit.

"That's really wronged."

"I was wronged."

"Come on," Luo Zhi smiled, "Once you were willing to do so, how come you say it like you are trying to make things better?"

Jiang Baili covered her head in the quilt and did not speak for a long time. Luo Zhi turned off the light and threw the fragrant food into the dark night.

Luo Zhi thought of last night's episode, and the words on the paper began to spin.

"In fact, Gu Zhiye told me that people who are easily emotional are actually the cruelest." Jiang Baili recalled what happened last night, sitting on the upper bunk and said quietly.

"Of course," Luo Zhi nodded, "because of forgetfulness."

"But I think Gobi is really not a cruel person."

"Well," Luo Zhi took out his diary and began to copy verses, "then go and ask Gobi to break up with Chen Mohan."

She didn't know how many times she had said this. Every time she wanted to wake Belle from the unforgettable bubble, she would repeat it again.

Jiang Baili would naturally not really talk to Gobi like this.

If you don't probe, you won't be embarrassed, you don't need to face reality.

The reason she was afraid to talk about it was the reason for her disillusionment and sobriety.

In the new semester, everything is calm. Luo Zhi had never mentioned to his mother what he had learned from Aunt Fu during the entire vacation, nor had he heard Sheng Huainan mentioned his own affairs, and the inexplicable anxiety in his heart gradually calmed down.

Luo Zhi and Sheng Huainan took two of the same public elective courses this semester, one badminton course, and three double-degree law courses taught on Saturday. Zhang Mingrui’s law tutoring last semester really died and he has since given up the law. double.

The two of them go to play badminton together every week, go to self-study, watch movies, play games, and go to various prestigious places to eat by car...

Like all ordinary couples.

At first, Luo Zhi was ashamed to call in the dormitory, but slowly let go. Because of the couple package, the phone bill is very small. She often sits on the bed with headphones on after taking a shower, and chats with him one after another while flipping through a book.

Smirk occasionally.

Until Jiang Baili suddenly dropped her head from the upper bunk, and said sadly: "You're done. After you fall in love, it's not cool at all."

"Look at what virtues you are now" with a look of distress.

"Feel disgusting?" Luo Zhi sneered.

"Very disgusting."

"Take the nausea too. I remember when you used to disgust me. It's not too late for a gentleman to take revenge for ten years."

Jiang Baili wailed and lay back to the upper bunk.

When Luo Zhi woke up every morning, he would pick up his mobile phone in a daze and read the text messages before going to bed the night before to confirm that his current happiness was not a dream. After a long time, I am no longer worried.

The wind at the end of April has been extremely gentle, the sky will be late, and the lavender clouds are spreading loosely in the blue sky. Luo Zhi detoured from the path behind the canteen to the basketball court to find Sheng Huainan, thinking about things while walking. When he looked up, he noticed that a couple was parked in the middle of the path not far in front of him. The boy rode on the bicycle and turned back to look at his lover, while the girl jumped off the back seat of the bicycle and stood on tiptoes to sniff the cloves on the roadside.

"Pick one off, put it in a vase and set it on the table." The boy suggested.

"What are you going to do, they are driving well, do you bear it?"

The girl turned out to be Xu Riqing.

The two laughed for a while, and Xu Riqing sat on the seat again. The boy confirmed that she was sitting firmly before starting slowly, and slowly disappearing at the end of the path. Luo Zhi breathed a sigh of relief, walked to the place where they just stopped, and he turned his head to sniff the dreary scent of cloves.

The girl who was sorrowing like lilacs at the beginning has drifted away.

When she walked to the edge of the basketball court, the game had already ended. Only a few boys in uniforms were sitting under the basketball hoop, drinking water and chatting. Seeing her walking by, they all smiled wickedly, and they picked up their bags and left.

Sheng Huainan was shooting a basketball, leaping into the air, and seeing her as soon as he lifted his wrist lightly, so he laughed, the ball hit the edge of the ring and bounced to Luo Zhi's side.

Luo Zhi always felt that the sound of a basketball landing was like the heartbeat of two people.

Sheng Huainan shot one by one, Luo Zhi dropped his schoolbag and ran onto the court, picking up the ball and passing it to him again and again.

Watching boys playing basketball, you should really stay closer, watching from a distance feels plain and light, but when the distance is close, you can hear the sound of clothes rubbing, breathing, and footsteps, and you can feel the viewer’s heart They all jumped violently.

Luo Zhi's heart was beating with its vitality at this moment. The orange street lamp held up a gentle umbrella for the two of them under the dark blue sky. She smiled as she watched him dribble, jump, and listened to the sound of hollowing into the basket. An unspeakable joy suddenly appeared in her heart.

She finally didn't have to wander around the playground absently, and finally didn't have to deliberately turn her face to the side at such a time.

So many people loved him. Only she has come to this point.

This kind of happiness is naturally cruel to those who can't get it, but she can't force the corners of her mouth to rise because of this.

Thinking about it this way, I no longer felt excessively afraid of the secret in my heart that I dared not reveal.

Luo Zhi, come on.

She said to herself silently.

"My brother, Luoyang, I'm going back to my hometown for a wedding on the 5th of next month. I need to go back. I wanted to call you together, but aren't you about to take the 6G test? I think you should stay in school and review it. Right."

While talking, Luo Zhi put the plate on the empty table beside the bed and sat down.

Sheng Huainan sat opposite her and nodded, "All right."

He stirred the preserved egg and lean meat porridge with a small spoon, and suddenly asked: "Last semester, the girl who gave me the porridge the time I was sick, was it you?"

Luo Zhi finally picked up a chopstick noodle, raised his head when he heard the sound, the noodles all fell into the bowl again.

"Oh, the time you disappeared suddenly, it was me." She raised her eyebrows.

Sheng Huainan smiled wryly.

"But how did you know?" She was curious.

"It should be the night of Christmas. I dragged your suitcase back to the dormitory and talked to the boss. He suddenly asked me who was the girl who gave me the hot porridge when I was sick last time, why suddenly it disappeared."

Sheng Huainan had a bad cough during his illness, and spent a whole day in the dormitory with a gloomy expression, playing games wildly. In the afternoon, Zhang Mingrui gave him instant noodles and pancakes, which made his stomach burn. At about ten o'clock in the evening, the boss answered a call from the dormitory and ran off, and then brought up a bag-preserved egg and lean meat porridge, corn tortillas and vegetables. Ashamed, he really couldn't guess who sent it. The cold came in a hurry. No one knew except the dorm buddy—maybe it was a girl in the courtyard who saw him not attend class? But the boss shouldn't say that he doesn't know him.

Luo Zhi also thought of the boy who was a little wretched but warm-hearted, and smiled.

"I asked the boss how this woman grew up. The boss described her as a beautiful woman."

Luo Zhi shaved his nose triumphantly.

"This description is like farting." Sheng Huainan continued without expression, ignoring Luo Zhi kicking his leg under the table.

"But the boss said that the girl is really funny. The boss teased her to tell her not to hope too much..." Sheng Huainan suddenly stopped talking, as if thinking of something embarrassing.

"I'll help you to continue. Your boss said that the beauties chasing you can make numbers to draw the Mark Six lottery. The girl will ask him to give you a number, right?"

At that time, Luo Zhi could still use jokes to recover the lost ground when she lost her armor and unarmed; now, she seems to be gradually receding from that level of sharpness and pride, performing it again, and she may not be able to say the same thing.

She was in a daze, but Sheng Huainan knocked her head with the other end of the chopsticks: "What are you thinking about? I just want to thank you for asking you about this."

The only thing that hasn't changed is that she is still not good at responding to the gratitude and apology he said seriously, and quickly took out a facial tissue and handed it to him: "Wipe the sweat."

"You wipe it for me." The boy on the other side held the porridge without looking up.

Luo Zhi sighed and resignedly reached out to help him wipe his forehead.

I don't know if she thinks too much, Sheng Huainan seems to be much quieter recently. He still treated her well, but he seemed to be weighed down by something on his mind, becoming more and more heavy.

"Are you all right? I don't think you are happy lately."

Sheng Huainan didn't pick up the problem, suddenly stopped, staring at the chopsticks and said, "You have practiced eating with three chopsticks before, right?"

Luo Zhi was stunned. She has not confessed to him these things that she lied to him: three chopsticks, a piece of fat, and even...the little queen. She can only nod her head.

"Shall we try again?"

Seeing him happy, Luo Zhi also felt more comfortable in his heart, so he stood up and took another pair of chopsticks, handed one to him, and left the other in his own hands.

She bit her scalp into battle, the noodles wobbled on top of her chopsticks, and she dumped her face in the soup.

They laughed together, Sheng Huainan picked up the facial tissue and gently wiped the tip of her nose.

"It's just that my grandfather's situation is a bit bad recently," he said softly while helping her wipe her face, "he is a very interesting old man who lives in the country. I wonder when I have a chance to take you to see him." He used to cross the river when he was young. He raised a lot of small animals and knows everything. He first invented three chopsticks to eat. I watched it for many years, but when I was in high school, I suddenly wanted to learn how to do it."

Luo Zhi was silent.

"Grandpa too, myocardial infarction, has been in the intensive care unit. I don't know what happened recently. My parents are noisy every day. Oh, I always feel like something is going to happen. I don't know. I really don't know." Sheng Huainan looked sideways at the sinking night outside the window.

Luo Zhi wanted to say something, but was afraid that his voice would tremble, so he could only hold his hand gently, gently.