After chatting for a while, class, get out of class, and dinner…everything was the same as usual.
Nothing out of the ordinary, nothing brilliant, just bland and tasteless.
It was just that in the afternoon, the gloomy sky became darker and darker, and there happened to be classes in the afternoon, so he could only stay in school, staring at the sky with one hand on his chin in a daze.
Then… the sky was just like what the weather forecast said, and it gradually began to rain lightly.
When he was about to leave the school, the rain had become much heavier, but he said hello to his classmates in a calm manner, took out his umbrella and stepped into the rain, and prepared to go back to take a rest as planned, and then went to McDonald’s work night shift.
Although the current capital reserve is still sufficient, it can only be said to be sufficient., so he must increase his ability to resist risks.
After all, everyone else has someone to rely on, but he doesn’t, so he has to prepare for himself.
But it’s rare that there is still a lot of spare time, so he took the path to change his mood.
Because he has always liked the rain.
The reason I like it is not romantic. It is simply because when it rains, there are fewer people going out and part-time jobs will become a lot easier.
Holding an umbrella, walking on the rainy street.
The heavy rain poured down, and the sound of the rain drowned out the footsteps of people around, and the rain and fog also obscured the sight, so no one would notice him. This feeling was also a great experience for him. Just strolling in the heavy rain, enjoying this leisure while walking on a remote path…but halfway along the road, he heard the sound of “meow~meow~” mixed into the rain.
Subconsciously following the sound, he found a little black cat that looked like it had just been born in a trash can by the side of the road.
It seems that the little milk cat, who has only opened its eyes not long ago and can barely walk a distance, is meowing helplessly in the garbage.
“Ah, is this going to die?” He glanced at the discarded cat and couldn’t help shaking his head and sighing.
This rain-soaked cat looks very unsightly, and it is still dirty in the garbage dump. From a common sense point of view, I am afraid that no one is willing to fish things from the garbage dump.
Although stray cats are average on their own, they can live without help, but this little milk cat is too small, and it is estimated that it will die in two days.
He also just dropped this sentence and planned to leave here, after all, he didn’t have the energy to take care of the cat
But… the sad cry behind him made him walk more than ten meters, he stopped and sighed, turned around to look at the trash can, held his breath, tilted it, and squeezed The cat snatched it from the litter by the back of its neck.
“…I hope to find the owner soon.”
After all, he still couldn’t bear it, muttered as he looked at the kitten in his hand that seemed to have become more peaceful all of a sudden, and quickened his pace to go back.
In this way, he took the smelly cat back, washed it with hot water and considered that the towel is sustainable, dried it with toilet paper and dried it with a hair dryer, he found that…. the cat seemed sick up.
In other words, it may be congenitally disabled. When walking on the ground, he always drags his left hind foot, which immediately makes him feel difficult.
Originally, he thought that if it was cleaned up, someone would want to adopt a cat, but this disabled cat… no wonder it would be abandoned by people, and it would definitely not be easy to find someone willing to adopt it.
He regretted his momentary soft-heartedness, but now he can’t do it again.
“I can only see if anyone is willing to show kindness to you and me.”
Sitting cross-legged on the ground, looking at the black cat that was meowing weakly, as if begging for food, he could only pray that among the people he knew, there was a person with a heart overflowing with the Virgin Mary.
But he didn’t have any hope in his heart, and even made plans to adopt this troublesome guy.
And after he touched the kitten and played with it for a while, he couldn’t find anything in this room for the time being. He could only put food for this kind of kitten in the box first, and he was going to wait for him to come back at night. Buy it a bottle of milk to continue its life.
However, when he came back at one o’clock in the morning and was about to end the day with the bag, he found that the kitten was already lying motionless in the cardboard box.
“…Is it cold? Or starved to death?”
He squatted in front of the cardboard box and fiddled with it, but couldn’t wake it up. After basically confirming the death of the cat, he couldn’t help feeling a little melancholy, but he could only let out a sigh of relief, put the milk on the table and picked up the cardboard box.
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According to the customs of this part of the world, dead cats should be hung on trees.
But Luo Mo didn’t do this, but wanted to find a place to bury it, but…it’s really inconvenient to find a place to bury the cat in the city, why not dig the lawn?
After all, he didn’t even have any tools, and he didn’t have a place to bury his shovel at night, so he was useless digging holes with his bare hands.
There was really no other way, and he couldn’t think of any suitable solution, so he chose to dig a hole from the soft soil with gloves on by the small river in the park and put the cat in it.
“…At first, I was thinking of choosing a name, but now it’s better, even the name is saved.”
After burying the cat, he looked at the small mound of soil that had been restored to level, and muttered… There was a feeling of gratitude in his words.
Although I also understand that this is too cruel for a life that just appeared.
But it’s also a relief for each other…at least he thinks so.
Because he doesn’t really want to keep cats, of course he would like to keep some small animals if he has the chance, but right now he really doesn’t have the time to spare.
Now that he is dead, it is very reasonable to free him, and he doesn’t even need to be condemned by his conscience.
After all, he was reluctant to take care of himself, so naturally he didn’t feel that he could take good care of the cat. A disabled cat like this would certainly not have a good time. Instead of living a miserable life, it would be better to pass away quickly and not hurt anyone.
It’s just that such luck appeared, but he felt sad about his own thoughts, and unexpectedly found that he was more hypocritical than he imagined.
It was obviously a person, and he couldn’t even take care of a cat. He said he didn’t want to abandon him, and he was glad that the other person died.
“…I’m sorry, I was the one who met you. If I were someone rich, I wouldn’t throw you in your room and let you die, but I could even heal your feet.” With a wry smile, he patted Pat the cat’s grave: “I hope you can be reborn as a normal cat in your next life, and meet someone who is rich and really loves cats.”
talking,He put the milk on it and stood up to leave.
And just as he turned around, the phone rang very inappropriately.
Unexpectedly, who would be calling him at this time, he took out his mobile phone and looked at it, and found that the caller was still a rather rare person-in short, it was his biological mother.
Because his parents divorced and remarried, he was unpopular and regarded as a burden.
So the other party will not call if there is nothing wrong, and there must be something wrong with the call.
He didn’t really want to answer it, but it’s not too good not to answer it. After hesitating for a while, he still connected the phone:
“Hey?”
“…How are you doing recently?” On the other end of the phone, there was a long silence before realizing the voice.
“Okay.”
“It’s okay, how about studying?”
“It’s okay… What’s the matter with you?”
Knowing what kind of person that person who had forgotten his appearance long ago, he didn’t have too long to exchange pleasantries before getting straight to the point.
The other side was silent for a while, and said in a tone that was still full of strangeness: “…Is that so, you are already nineteen this year, right?”
“Um.”
“Although you are still studying, it is not easy to do anything in the economic downturn. My life here is also very stressful. There are still children in the third grade of junior high school who have to go to cram schools, and there are too many miscellaneous expenses; his The same is true, but he is not easy to speak, so I will say it, and I will help him by the way, we have helped you a lot, so, it is…”
“I understand what you want to say, it’s okay, I don’t care, and I’m working myself now.”
“Feel sorry.”
“No, I don’t care.”
“Then take good care of yourself. Don’t stay up late and go to bed early if you have nothing to do. I have to go to work tomorrow, so I will hang up first.”
“Well, then…that’s it.”
Nodding calmly, he hung up the phone casually, put the phone in his pocket and left here without looking back.
There’s nothing to be surprised about, and nothing to be angry about.
For him, it was just later than expected, with one less source of income, that’s all.
“…It’s about the same as that cat, and my luck is not very good~ Eat something good tomorrow, go to the bad luck? No, it’s a rare opportunity, how about going to have a barbecue for supper now?”
There is nothing to care about, the so-called life, isn’t that what it is.
He smiled calmly, accepted all this frankly, and didn’t feel sorry for it, just… talking to himself, smiling, but suddenly he couldn’t laugh.
Everything now is not what he wants, but he has no choice but to accept it.
Although there is no resentment, there is even less joy.
The cold wind was still blowing at night, as if lamenting the silence of the city, and sighing for him.
“Fortunately, it’s not raining anymore, so don’t be stupid, go back quickly, there is still class tomorrow.”
Without the right to be willful, he bowed his head in front of the helpless reality, a little bit like crying but didn’t know what it meant, so he could only speed up his pace back to the apartment a little.
And on the way back, he saw the cold and vast night sky in the distance, and suddenly felt a little strange, something wrong.
A strong sense of déjà vu comes to mind.
As if everything before was something that had been experienced before, his head suddenly hurt, and then——he recalled everything.
“……boring.”
Gently shaking his head, he let out a big breath and let out the remaining pain in his chest, then he casually threw the phone on the ground and kicked it down to make it useless.
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I want to be chosen, I want to be recognized, I want to be happy, I want to be cared for, I want to be needed…I hope someone says I can stay here.
Is this a luxury?
Of course, it was a luxury, at least for him it was a luxury.
This is a life that was not chosen by anyone. It has been like this since birth, and it has not changed since then.
No one will recognize him, and there is no one who recognizes him.
I want to meet the needs of others, I want to be recognized, I want… I want too much, I want too much, but I can’t always get what I want.
So, he gradually gave up one vision after another, one wish after another, and smiled at the feeling of wanting to cry—this kind of life.
Until now.
“…The memory has been recovered. Is it necessary to continue this boring trial? I have never escaped from my past. Even if I face it, it is just one thing. Boring, boring It’s over the top.”
Standing in the center of the empty street, he shook his head and kept sighing in boredom.
At this time, the windows of the vehicles parked on the street suddenly rolled down, revealing a silver-haired girl sitting in the driver’s seat.
“Even though the trauma can be healed, the pain imprinted in the memory still remains and cannot be changed… You are really stubborn.” Echidna closed her eyes and nodded slightly with a sigh.
“Then? How did it turn out?”
“There is no result. From the beginning, there is nothing unacceptable. Reconciliation with the past… There is no need. You have not surrendered or won. You have been compromising. Even if you are the judge of the trial, I don’t know. What should we do at this time—by the way, the matter of the cat, is it really a pity?”
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