Waiting for You in a City

The red warning of smog and haze, the light and shadow in the courtyard are dim, and I looked up and saw the red wall above the ochre, the world was chaotic, and the surrounding cbd building was already hidden in the dust and mist.

Zhai Miao squatted on the steps at the entrance of the east wing room, rubbing and tying the laces to loosen the laces, and the laces to loosen the laces. The door across the room squeaked open, and Zhai Miao immediately got up: "Brother!"

Song Yan took no notice and entered the bathroom next door and squeezed toothpaste to brush his teeth.

Zhai Miao ran and saw from the mirror that there were bloodshot eyes in his eyes, and there was a dark circle under his eyelids. The whole person was a little decadent, and it was estimated that he was sleepless all night.

Zhai Miao stood by the door and asked in a low voice: "Will you go find her?"

Song Yanyi didn't answer, rinsed her mouth, bent down, and washed her face with both hands. After washing, she took a towel to dry her cheeks and shaved. The electric razor is noisy.

Zhai Miao sighed when he saw that he did not want to speak, sighed, and turned around to take the strap of the schoolbag. It was really uncomfortable, and returned to him: "Brother, I just want to remind you that she is drunk."

Zhai Miao said: "She only cares about venting, there is no reason, and the problem between you is still not resolved. If you run over like this, what if it becomes entangled?"

"I know." Song Yan opened her mouth and ripped the corner of her mouth.

Zhai Miao froze.

Song Yan didn't say much. He lifted his chin and looked at the mirror, shaving his beard.

After the last division of Sixidi, she stopped contacting for nearly a month and a half, which is enough to show that she did not plan. This time, if Zhan Xiaolu did not stimulate her, the time and reason would gradually kill everything.

Come and go, if this fate is wrong and the same city never sees again, it will be the next silent decade.

Anyway, what this woman is best at is dull and silent.

Zhai Miao said sadly: "Then you-go find her? Brother, you are 28, not 18. Tossing again, everyone is going to die!"

Song Yan lowered her head, put down her razor, and put her hand on the hand-washing table. She was silent for a while, and asked, "Zhai Miao, what happened after I happened last night?

Zhai Miao is a girl, so she is very clear: "Then I will never find you again."

"So I went to find her." Song Yan looked at the mirror again and continued to shave.

Zhai Miao froze, speechless.

Yeah, he had no choice.

Going does not necessarily have a good result; if you do n’t go, the ending will be doomed.

Nothing more, the situation has forced to the point of turning back the most, and he is still not willing to let go after all.

Zhai Miao said softly: "Brother, do you really like her so much?"

Song Yan was silent.

Zhai Miao: "Don't you say that? It's better not to meet. It's better not to meet."

Song Yan said: "But she is here, I have to pick her up."

Zhai Miao did not understand and turned to look at the direction of the door: "Is she coming?"

Song Yan has cleaned himself up and walked out of the bathroom to his room: "Go to school, don't worry about my business."

"Eh--" Zhai Miao still wanted to say, Song Yan had closed the door.

...

Xu Qin woke up and found that he was at the Meng family. She knew she was drunk last night, but she didn't understand how Meng Yanchen and Xiao Yixiao sent her here.

And she has no way to ask, and now at nine in the morning, her family has gone to work.

Fortunately, she can be alone.

She rolled over, closed her eyes, and buried her head in her arms. Last night, although the details were obscured, the outlines were clearly remembered-she ran to Song Yan's house and played crazy.

Cheeks are hot and spicy, but they are more annoying than shame. .

Should not drink, should not go to him unconsciously.

She poured another layer of ice on the already frozen relationship between the two, pushing the deadlock to a dead end.

At this point, without sudden changes, it is death.

But the change is not easy.

The phone rang, it was Song Yan.

Xu Qin didn't know whether it was joy or worry, hesitated for a few seconds and answered the phone: "Hello?"

Song Yan's voice was low: "It's me."

Xu Qin also whispered: "I know."

Song Yan: "Wake up?"

Xu Qin: "Well."

A brief silence.

Song Yan asked again: "Where is it?"

Xu Qin: "At home."

Song Yan said, "I'm coming to find you."

Xu Qin: "This home in the west."

Song Yan didn't answer for a while, but it was a short silence.

Xu Qin: "You wait for me for a while, I will return immediately."

Song Yan: "OK .... That's the case first."

Xu Qin: "Well."

Putting down the phone, Xu Qin buried her face in the pillow, and she pushed herself to the edge that had to be torn-either Song Yan or her family.

Nowhere to retreat.

All sorts of thoughts in her mind were complicated, and she had a headache.

She finished washing quickly, went downstairs and was ready to go out. She turned around unexpectedly and saw the end of the corridor. Fu Wenying's study door was not closed.

Xu Qin thought she was at home and was ready to say hello.

When I got to the door, I found that there was no one inside, but the maid cleaned and forgot to close the door. Xu Qin brought the door to his door and glanced across the study. He accidentally discovered that the furnishings had not changed in the past years.

The last time she entered Fu Wenying's study was when she was young.

She looked at the mahogany desk, the dark vermillion carpet of peonies blooming, and her breath subsided slightly. She suddenly saw Meng Qin who was a teenager standing with her head down. Fear made her thin legs tremble slightly.

Fu Wenying sat aside with a cold face.

She stepped forward, pulled Fu Wenying, and whispered: "Mom--"

Fu Wenying flicked her hand away: "I'm not your mother, I don't have a disobedient child like you."

She said nothing but shivered.

"Did I ever tell you that you should not socialize with outsiders. You are unclean and you love yourself, and you want to be with him, then you don't need to read the book, you don't need to go back to this house, and don't call me mom again in the future!"

She was stunned for a long time, and went to her in a panic: "Mom--"

Fu Wenying opened her hand again, and she froze for a long time, and finally issued an ultimatum: "Qin Qin, if you listen to your mother in the future, your mother will send you to study abroad and give you the best life; but if you want to press your own Hu Lai, don't care about this family, my mother will send you back to Liangshi now, and I will never let you back to the Imperial City. You will not have any parents, brothers, and brothers, and you will have no home, even if you go to father and brother, crying is useless, I do as promised."

She was stunned, her hands slowly coming from the corner of her mother's clothes.

Fu Wenying got up and left, she finally said softly, "Mom, I listen to you."

Xu Qin remembered that when the silent little girl stood there, there was no excuse or tears, and she accepted all this silently.

And she stood there, isolated, helpless, and abandoned pictures, just as when she was standing outside her parents ’bedroom when she watched them quarreling, saying that they wanted to divorce, and never wanted her. A nightmare that never goes.

Xu Qin closed the door, stood at the door for a while, put on a mask quietly, and left.

...

When Xu Qin reached the gate of Palm Garden Community, Song Yan had arrived and stood under an evergreen tree to smoke. He was wearing a gray slim coat, and at first glance, he was a bit thin.

Seeing Xu Qin, he smothered the smoke.

Xu Qin mask covered his face, only showing a pair of eyes, and asked, "Why don't you wear a mask?"

The smog is heavy today.

Song Yan said: "Forgot."

Xu Qin drew one from his pocket and handed him: "I brought one more."

Song Yan took it, put it on her head, and asked, "Have you eaten breakfast?"

Xu Qin shook his head.

Song Yan's eyes stopped on her eyebrows and asked, "What do you want to eat?"

Xu Qin's eyes stopped on his mask and answered, "I want to drink porridge."

Song Yan: "Which kind?"

Xu Qin: "White porridge .... nothing to put."

There is no white porridge in this porridge shop.

Xu Qin said: "I have water and rice at home."

The two walked into the community in tacit agreement, speechless all the way. After entering the elevator, they are also on both sides of the station, separated by a short distance. The eyes are deliberately avoided, even if they are opposite, they always fall above the eyebrows and under the nose and lips, which can be crossed.

Back home, Song Yan opened the cupboard and saw a brand new bag of rice, and asked, "I didn't fire at home, why did I buy rice?"

"It was issued in the hospital." Xu Qin said.

Song Yan asked: "When did it come out?"

Xu Qin: "Forgot."

Song Yan looked down to find the mark of the bag: "Will it not expire?"

Xu Qin: "How can rice expire?"

Song Yan saw the production date clearly: "No."

Song Yan took the bag of rice out and asked, "Are there any scissors?" Her eyes were blank, "... Well, a kitchen knife would do too."

Xu Qin found a kitchen knife and handed it over.

Song Yan opened the bag and Xu Qin handed the soup pot. Song Yan scooped a cup of rice into it and put it under the tap. Xu Qin wondered and asked, "Is this enough?"

Song Yan glanced at her.

Xu Qin: "It seems very little."

Song Yan said, "Boil it out."

Xu Qin: "Oh."

Song Yan digged rice, added water, put it on the stove to ignite, hit it two or three times, but no fire.

Song Yan bowed his head, tried again, and asked, "When was the last time natural gas was used?"

"..." Xu Qin pursed his lips and said, "I have never used it."

Song Yan: "..."

Xu Qin estimated that he wanted to make up, and turned to find a mobile phone: "It may be bad in itself, I call the property."

"Wait." Song Yan stopped, squatted down, opened the cupboard to find the pipe, glanced at it, and said, "The valve is not open."

He turned the valve off, got up and ignited again, and burned.

"..." Xu Qin said, "Great."

Song Yan: "..."

Song Yan put on the pot lid, stepped back and leaned on the countertop to wait for the water to boil. He stared at the jumping flame without looking at her and asked, "Never eat at home?"

Xu Qin: "Well."

Song Yan: "What to eat? Takeaway?"

Xu Qin: "Takeaway and hospital canteen." She also stared at the soup pot on the stove without looking at him and asked, "How about you?"

Song Yan said: "There is a cafeteria in the team .... If you rest at home, your aunt will cook."

Xu Qin said, "The food prepared by my aunt is delicious."

Song Yan: "Well."

There was a speechless gap for a second or two, the flames licked the bottom of the pot, and the rice soup rolled.

Xu Qin continued the topic: "Is the food in your cafeteria delicious?"

"Not bad." Song Yan said, "How about you?"

Xu Qin: "General, not very tasty."

"Well. The food in the army is good, it should be better than the hospital." When saying this, Song Yan accidentally turned his head to look at Xu Qin, Xu Qin Yuguang felt his movement, and also turned his head reflexively like responding Look at him. His eyes intersected in one place and happened to look into each other's eyes. So serious and straight.

The heart bumped inadvertently.

From the moment I met today, to avoid and avoid, still caught off guard, the first time my eyes collided.

The water boiled, the rice soup was grunting, and the lid was gently lifted, the soup water splashed on the stove, and the sound was hot.

Song Yan looked away and got up to lift the lid. Xu Qin also unconsciously followed and watched, the surging rice soup fell back, the rice grains rolled in the rolling water, and the pot had overflowed with the fragrance of clear porridge.

Xu Qin narrowed his nose.

Song Yan asked: "Hungry?"

Xu Qin: "Well."

Song Yan: "Wait a little longer."

Xu Qin: "Good."

Song Yan put the lid back on, this time leaving a gap. He took a step back and leaned back on the counter. Xu Qin naturally followed him back to the platform.

The two continued to wait for the white porridge to roll over. Maybe it would be better to wait forever like this.

In the end, he broke the illusory silence and called her: "Xu Qin."

Xu Qin: "Huh?"

Song Yan: "Do you remember what you said yesterday?"

Xu Qin lowered his eyes and silently said, "Some remember, some don't."

"Huh." Song Yan asked, "You said, you won't come again, remember this sentence?"

Xu Qin nodded and said, "Remember."

Song Yan: "Don't drink the bar now?"

Xu Qin: "No."

Song Yan: "Do you still say that?"

Xu Qin lowered his head and covered his face with both hands: "I don't know."

Quiet briefly.

"If I come, can you wait?" Song Yan asked, without waiting for her answer, he smiled briefly, "I am wrong for you if you are unsure.

The future is unpredictable. She was afraid, and he didn't seem to have any pressure.

Xu Qin released his hand and turned to look at the floor of the living room: "Song Yan, I don't know what to do now. I don't know how to ask you, how to ask myself. I don't know how to face you, how to face home. I--"

"I know you are scared and unwilling." Song Yan said, with a slight self-deprecating tone, "I also want to tell you, as long as you are firm enough, let me carry the rest of the matter. As long as you dare, I can Burden.

But I know that this is useless. "

Xu Qin's eyes suddenly turned red. She quickly looked away and blinked the mist. Yeah, even if he accompanied her to face her family, she would be afraid and unwilling. The burden on the end of the balance is too heavy. He is undoubtedly aware of this.

Xu Qin trembled: "I am not brave enough."

Song Yan shook her head and smiled faintly: "To be honest, I'm also guilty to let you fall into such a situation."

Xu Qin's nose was also red, softly: "I know. I know how you are ..."

She couldn't talk anymore.

Song Yan also remained silent for a while before taking another breath, calming down: "I can guarantee that it is good to you, every day is good to you, never betrayal, never indifferent, do my best to create a better life for you . But what I ca n’t guarantee is whether this is good enough to meet your requirements and your family ’s requirements. "

Xu Qin had nothing to say. She was hesitant, worried, and uneasy.

"I know you're embarrassed. I also know that if I'm really with me, I'm wronging you. I understand, but--" Song Yan paused for ten seconds and finally said, "You can't go to me so brazenly. I broke into my life. "

His tone was calm, after careful deliberation, he pressed the final seal for their relationship:

"Together, or never see again, make a decision."

Xu Qin lowered his head, his lips moved, and he tightened again, and a tear fell.