What It’s Like Being a Vampire

The first thing is that the kindergarten will have themed classes, and Xia Libing's parents bought her a goldfish.

The night before, Lao Xia's father was also very happy to explain the body and physiological structure of goldfish to his studious daughter through the information he found.

Unexpectedly, when he woke up the next morning, he saw that the goldfish had been dismembered by Xiao Lao Xia, and the tool was a paper knife in his study.

Looking at the dissected goldfish, the small viscera that was cleaned and neatly placed on a piece of kitchen absorbent paper, and his daughter who was carefully observing the structure of the fish, he was completely dumbfounded.

After Lao Xia's mother got up, she was also quite frightened, and kept asking her daughter why she did this.

But the answer I got was "I want to see it".

After that, Xiao Lao Xia dissected many small animals with different tools at different times and on different occasions. If she bought fresh ingredients at home, as long as she didn't pay attention, she would find a chance to dismember them .

Little Lao Xia, who has just entered kindergarten, did not show the slightest irritable or crazy emotions, and her performance was consistently flat and rational, as if what she dismantled was not a life, but a toy that was no different from a doll or a plastic model. This performance made her parents feel even more scared.

No matter whether Lao Xia's parents reasoned in a soft and slow voice or scolded them angrily, there was no way for Xiao Lao Xia to stop doing those cruel and terrifying things in their eyes.

Even Lao Xia's father, who has always been gentle and gentle, couldn't hold back once and slapped his daughter.

Although he regretted it as soon as he finished the beating, and hugged his daughter and cried, Xiao Laoxia still didn't show much, neither crying nor showing the slightest expression of fear. As soon as he let go, he ran to the mirror , looking sideways at the redness and swelling on his face.

Lao Xia's father couldn't help but wonder, would she suddenly cut open her cheek with a knife to see why it was red and swollen?

After that, Lao Xia's parents didn't dare to let their daughter go to kindergarten anymore, they took her with them and watched her at home.

And not long after, a friend of Lao Xia's father brought the child to play at home, and the child accidentally fell down and scratched his knee.

After seeing this scene, little Lao Xia ran back into the house, and Xia's mother, who had been paying attention to her daughter, immediately followed her, only to find that little Lao Xia had taken something that she had hidden in her dressing box. small scissors.

Mother Xia hurriedly stopped her daughter, grabbed the scissors, and asked her what she was going to do, but the answer made people feel a little chilled: "I want to see his knees."

So after a night of discussion, Lao Xia's parents decided to continue to take her to "seek medical treatment".

Although they still love their daughter very much, they don't want her to become a "monster" who may be very murderous and threaten other people in the future. Especially the ultra-high IQ displayed by the daughter will multiply this threat.

But just like the last time, I saw various experts at the beginning, and did various inspections and tests, but I couldn't determine what the problem was.

Lao Xia's brain structure is normal and its function is normal, and the nine major neurotransmitters including serotonin, γ-aminobutyrine, norepinephrine, and dopamine are also normal.

She also has no obvious symptoms of autism or other obvious symptoms of known mental and psychological related diseases, so it is impossible to make a diagnosis. Therefore, various institutions, hospitals, experts, and doctors have only proposed some conservative "treatment plans". It didn't have any effect, and it made Lao Xia's parents feel unreliable.

Then Lao Xia's father found a Dr. Li who had just returned from abroad through his relationship, and he was the main writer of these medical records. She has a lot of work experience and theoretical knowledge,

After spending a month with Little Lao Xia, she proposed a treatment plan.

Through FMRI (functional magnetic resonance imaging) and other related brain function tests, Dr. Li found that although Lao Xia's brain has no obvious damage or defect, it does have some unique rules when the brain is active.

The operation mode of Lao Xia's brain neural network may be slightly different from that of ordinary people, which leads to her unique way of thinking.

Lao Xia can feel pain normally, but he has a strong tolerance for pain. Normal people will subconsciously withdraw their hands when they are pricked by needles, look at the place where they were pricked, and even scream. Although Lao Xia will stop , but the first reaction was to look at the thing that stabbed her, and then observe the situation of being stabbed. Although she could feel the pain, the pain did not make her feel scared and obviously rejected.

Standing on a high place, she also has no fear, no nervousness, and even attempts to throw other things down or jump off by herself, just wanting to see what will happen.

Although she can use language normally and can understand the meaning of others' speech, she cannot perceive other people's emotions, nor does she have the emotions of normal people, and lacks the ability to empathize.

Looking at the PDF, the pictures of the case information that were obviously scanned from the paper documents, and the judgment made by Dr. Li, Xiang Kun combined the books he had read before to understand.

There are 80 billion nerve cells in the human brain, and each nerve cell is connected with about 7,000 nerve cells, forming a huge, complex and powerful neural network. Human brain activities such as memory, thinking, calculation, etc., all rely on They come to complete, and the generation of emotions is no exception.

Each nerve cell is like an electronic device, such as a computer, mobile phone, etc., with different functions.

Some are only 2 to 4 nanometers from each other, and electrical signals can be transmitted directly through electrical synapses, just like two devices are directly connected, and the speed is very fast.

And some are separated by 20 to 40 nanometers, and neurotransmitters are needed to transmit signals.

Just like a USB flash drive or a mobile hard disk, the amount of neurotransmitters is the capacity of the mobile memory. The larger the capacity, the more files that can be transferred.

When the USB flash drive (neurotransmitter) full of files is inserted into the USB interface (receptor) on the target device, the target device will start to interpret the above files and start working according to the system preset software, which may give Electronic devices on other networks pass along messages that make them do things too.

Many mental or psychological diseases, including depression, autism, schizophrenia, etc., are related to the production and transmission of neurotransmitters.

Or the U disk does not have enough storage space, or the USB interface is too small, there is a problem with reading, or the electronic device itself is faulty.

But Lao Xia’s situation is different from these. It is likely that there are many “electronic devices” in Lao Xia’s brain neural network. The systems and application software on it are different from ordinary people. different results.

Therefore, Lao Xia has a very high IQ, strong learning ability, athletic ability, reaction speed, and sense of balance, but the price is that he has obstacles to the cognition of emotions and emotions.

To put it simply: Lao Xia's brain circuit is different from that of ordinary people.

That doctor Li observed little Lao Xia for half a month, and after obtaining the consent of Lao Xia's parents, he began to use her method to "cure" Lao Xia.

Her method is very radical and very simple, that is to starve Lao Xia until she perceives her instinctive fear, and then use this as an entry point to influence her other behaviors so that she understands what other things she must never do. How do other people feel when you do something.

Dr. Li saw it very accurately. For the little Lao Xia at that time, hunger and appetite were indeed the best interface for her to cut into other perceptions.

Seeing this, Xiang Kun finally understood what was going on in the closed room when he first perceived Lao Xia's dream, and knew why Lao Xia ate like a "starved ghost reincarnated" in his dream .

She was indeed starved, and she was starved terribly when she was very young, and she was dying of hunger.

But this method did let her understand a lot of information.

One of the prerequisites for Dr. Li to use this method is the super high IQ displayed by Xiao Lao Xia. Although he is still very young, there are no obstacles in the communication of many things.

After Dr. Li used hunger to let her know what pain and fear of death feel like, she helped her understand her own differences bit by bit, and made her realize how to integrate into society and other people.

Later, with the help of Dr. Li, Lao Xia did not delay her schooling. Since elementary school, she did not look much different from "normal people".

Except for not being very talkative, always staring at others with big eyes, and with a somewhat dull expression, he didn't show any abnormalities.

She began to learn and imitate other people's behaviors and expressions, and tried to connect the external performance with their true intentions to help herself understand other people's emotions.

Xiang Kun also knew why Lao Xia wanted to study psychiatry and psychology, and why he was specially transferred to the Third Hospital of Erythronia.

The former is naturally to "cure" herself, or to enable herself to adapt to normal life, while the latter is because she knows that there are several cases in the Erythrina Third Hospital, and some of the symptoms are similar to her when she was a child. She wanted to see if she could find a case like hers, and then find ways to access and perceive normal emotions.

However, during this period of time, she has confirmed that the few cases here are not the same as hers.

Of course, these contents are not the contents of Lao Xia's own medical records, but she marked them herself, even including the basic symptoms of those cases.

Obviously, Lao Xia specially made this document to let him understand his situation.

After reading the PDF file, he put the tablet back into his bag. Xiang Kun looked at the soft leather book again. Some of the pages in it were obviously old, and even the material was different from the latter ones. It was obviously from other books. Remove and re-staple.

What is written in the previous part is the code of conduct model summarized by Lao Xia.

Looking at the changes in the handwriting and the degree of fading of the ink, it can be inferred that she should have started making these summaries a long time ago, maybe in junior high school, or even earlier.

The first of the Code of Conduct is:

"keep smiling."

But the second rule is: "Smiles need to be adjusted according to the details of each person's facial features to be natural."

The third article is still related to smiles: "Different smiles need to be applied in different scenarios."

It seems that after the actual application, it is supplemented according to the effect.

Xiang Kun immediately remembered the scene when she picked up Lao Xia at Tongshi Zhendong Station, the weird smile she showed to the college student who struck up a conversation, which directly scared people.

He couldn't help but match this smile to the little old Xia in the photo he saw on the PDF file before, and suddenly felt extremely happy, and couldn't help grinning silently.

However, after feeling Lao Xia's eyes on him, Xiang Kun quickly put away his smile and continued to flip through the soft cover book.

Article 35: "When you are uncertain about the situation, observe more and talk less."

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Article 113: "There is a difference between what people say and their real intentions, which should be judged in combination with facial expressions and behavioral habits."

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Article 422: "Sometimes it is humorous to poke a sore spot in person and say unfriendly words."

Article 423: "The previous article needs to be used according to the relationship, otherwise conflicts will occur."

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Article 489: "Occasional verbal attacks on familiar people are a sign of intimacy. (Note: Currently only Yang Zhen'er is eligible)"

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Article 706: "When chatting on WeChat or QQ, sometimes expressions are more suitable for expression than words."

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The last one is nine hundred and seventy-two:

"In order to gain the trust of others, you can take the initiative to express your own trust. In order to obtain other people's secrets, you can first hand over your own secrets. (Remarks: for Xiang Kun)"

Xiang Kun couldn't help laughing again, turned around and said, "How did you come up with this criterion?"

Xia Libing said, "Practice."

Xiang Kun thought he had finished reading it, and was about to get the file bag, but found that there was still content in the back of the book, so he turned the book over, and found that it was also written densely from the back to the front.

And these contents are all related to him, and they are all the judgments and guesses summarized by Lao Xia based on his various observations.

From guesses about his physical fitness, eating habits, and behavior patterns, to possible trends in various time periods, and the true intentions of various behaviors, gifts include lyrics, black circle graffiti, chopsticks, coins, etc. The analysis of the item and the guess of its purpose are already six or seven points close to the truth.

Xiang Kun knew that Lao Xia had already guessed many of these things, but there were many more, even he was a little surprised that Lao Xia could know.

It has to be said that Lao Xia's observation and insight really surprised Xiang Kun. Of course, this is also related to his lack of defense against Lao Xia.

What surprised him the most was that when Lao Xia first encountered the "lucky coin" sent by Xiang Kun in Nana's room in Tongshi town, he had already noticed the peculiarity of the coin.

Normally speaking, according to Xiang Kun's previous deduction, other than his approval, the first thing to do is to have enough trust in him and be willing to believe that other people want to get in touch with his "hyperlinked things" or "emotional things". Coins are special.

When he sent Lao Xia the graffiti in the black circle, Lao Xia had already obtained the approval of his main consciousness and had a "network license".

But at that time, when Lao Xia first noticed that the "super-linked thing" coin might be peculiar, he didn't even know that it was given to Nana by Xiang Kun, but after knowing this, he thought about it carefully, and Comparing with other coins, I am more sure that my perception is not an illusion.

From this, Xiang Kun speculated that there should be some kind of overlap between his "hyperlinked objects" and "emotional objects" and Lao Xia's way of cognition and thinking about things.

After closing the soft cover, Xiang Kun opened the file bag again.

There is no other information in it, it is Lao Xia's own medical records, and the relevant content of the medical records in the PDF is scanned here, but these are also photocopied or photo-printed, not the originals, Presumably she didn't get these directly from that Dr. Li.

After putting away the medical records, Xiang Kun took the black soft leather notebook and put it on his knees. After pondering for a while, he slowly said, "My situation is actually quite simple..."