When You’re Gone

Jiang Ping woke up in the hospital with the dark head in his sight. He reached out his hand and touched the top of Liang Shu's hair. Under his palm, the woman's hair was soft.

Liang Shu woke up, watching his tears fall silently like broken beads.

He sighed, "Stop taking your aunt's money, I will make money for you in the future, okay?"

Her answer is: good.

So later Jiang Pingsheng did several jobs while taking into account his studies. Ni Xiuli also compromised, opening one eye and closing the other. Liang Shu didn't know whether he listened to him or listened to Aunt Mei's words. He rules a lot.

In her senior year, she was 21 years old, and Jiang Ping, who was one year older than her, graduated from postgraduate.

On the day Jiang Pingsheng graduated from graduate school, Liang Shu followed Jiang Pingsheng to a dinner in their dormitory.

There was also his graduate tutor, Professor Li, and some classmates in the same department.

It was the first time everyone saw Liang Shu, and most of them were older than Jiang Pingsheng, so they called Liang Shu younger brothers and sisters.

The gathering is in an integrated large private room.

There are dining tables, machine hemp, and KTV.

During the meal, someone toasted Liang Shujiu, all of which were blocked by Jiang Pingsheng and drank it.

He was actually not drinking well, and soon went to the bathroom to throw up.

A roommate came over and passed the wine in her hand to Liang Shu. She put a smile on her red lips, blocked it, and refused, "I promised Ah Sheng not to drink."

The roommate smiled and finished a cup by himself, "You really listen to him, then does he listen to you?"

"Listen."

The roommate went on to say, “It’s the best use of our people’s minds in life. He was born to read the material. Professor Li highly valued him and hoped that he would continue to study for Ph.D. with his life’s talents. He shouldn’t Stop at graduate students."

Liang Shu looked down at his white and slender hands, remembering Jiang Pingsheng's slender and beautiful fingers, but there was a cocoon in his palm.

She whispered, "Asheng said he doesn't want to learn, I can't force him."

"Sister, sometimes a man has a lot of helplessness. He just compromised for another thing. Although it is the first time we have seen you, we all know in our hearts what he has been doing like this for the past few years."

The roommate looked at her, "He loves you and is willing to do this for you, but you can't stop him from moving forward."

Another roommate also said, "You persuade him to take care of you and continue to study there is no conflict, plus, you are about to graduate from university, right?"

Liang Shu was silent.

On the way back.

The two were walking hand in hand on the streets of Yucheng late at night. She rubbed the cocoon in the heart of his hand with her finger, and sighed softly, "These two hands are the pen-holding hands, why are the cocoons turned away?"

At this time, he comforted her, but tightened her ten fingers, allowing the hard cocoon to rub her palm more, "These hands are for you to become like this, and you can't dislike it in the future. "

Liang Shu held his palm against his face, "I won't despise you."

Jiang Pingsheng hugged her, his voice has the most heart-warming power. He said, "I'm going to earn money to support you with all my heart and soul. In the future, we will buy a big house with a yard, plant some flowers in the yard, and make you like it. Bought all the plants."

She was held quietly by him and did not speak.

Until the end of the road, Liang Shu looked up at him, "Asheng, I will make money to support you in the future, okay? I will graduate my senior year soon, I will find a job, and then you will continue to study Ph.D.

Of course Jiang Pingsheng refused.

This was the result that Liang Shu had expected. It was just the beginning, and she didn't take it seriously.

later.

It's the end of October.

She still moved him.

After Jiang Pingsheng's death, Liang Shu finally began to believe that her life was evil, and to take care of the closest people around her.

Mainly, the fate is so, she has to believe it.

In the crematorium of the funeral home, she watched Jiang Pingsheng's body burn to ashes.

Madam Ni did not dare to look, hiding her face and crying.

Ni Xiuli's face seemed to be ten years old in an instant. He pointed to Liang Shu angrily, his eyes were muddy, and his face was full of tears, "I knelt down and beg you back then, why did you still refuse to let him go?"

Madam Ni sat aside and beat her chest and feet, almost breathing out. She stepped forward and grabbed Liang Shu's hand. "Why are you such a good person, why did you harm him? Although he has been looking for you for the past five years, he at least lives. He had a good time, look at him later, what was his life forced into?"

Ni Xiuli was angry because of Liang Shu's affairs, and let Jiang Pingsheng let go and never gave him any support in life.

So Jiang Pingsheng did several jobs and even went to the construction site to carry cement in order to get the money fast.

"It's all your fault, you killed the whole life!"

Above the mourning hall, the person in the black and white photo smiled extremely mildly and sunny.

Liang Shu looked up, ignoring all the sounds in her ears. The picture of Jiang Pingsheng was smiling at her, so Liang Shu also smirked. She softly opened her lips and asked that face: Ah Sheng, you think it's me too Is it wrong?

When she was five years old, she followed the first family, and the company went bankrupt. They said it was her fault.

Later in the second family, that brother was almost killed by a mad dog, and they also said it was her fault.

But what does the company's management have to do with her?

That day she just seemed to hear Jiang Pingsheng calling her, she ran out to see, her brother was bitten by a mad dog nearby, what does it have to do with her?

When she was thirteen years old, she picked up her most beloved ring for Lu Jinsheng's mother. His mother jumped from a high building to death. Does it have anything to do with her?

But now, she persuaded Jiang Pingsheng to continue his postgraduate studies. Is she wrong?

She wanted to say that she was right.

But Jiang Ping was dead.

Just because she took the trouble to persuade him to read a Ph.D., he agreed, and then died on the way to find a tutor.

Incidentally, because of Jiang Ping’s death, Lu Jinsheng’s sister had no bones left in the explosion.

Madam Ni saw that she was still laughing, pushed away the support of the crowd, and stepped forward and slapped her severely. Madam Ni was not strong, but she caused Liang Shu, who hadn’t eaten for a long time, to fall to the ground. .

She looked at Madam Ni, pointing at herself and cursing: "You are really awkward, how can you still laugh at this time? I don't ask you to shed half a tear for your life, how can you laugh? What qualifications do you have to laugh? !"

When Madam Ni was speaking, tears kept rolling down. She couldn't bear the pain and fainted.

Liang Shu looked at the photo blankly, as if he couldn't feel the pain in his body.

Asheng, didn't you just smile at me first?

Everyone who came to the funeral said that the woman who killed Yu Dagao was too hard-hearted. She killed someone so good, but she didn't shed a single tear.

But everyone who saw Liang Shu that day forgot her completely.

In other words, no one dared to remember her.

Just because some people say that this woman is a fiend and will kill people.

On the day Jiang Ping was born in the funeral, the Ni family and his wife disappeared.

It rained lightly that day, and the suburban cemetery was silent.

His funeral was very lively, many people came from Yu Damu, and flowers piled up into mountains.

But he was only accompanied by a few college roommates when he was out in the funeral.

Liang Shu hadn't eaten for several days, and the road was unsteady, so she held Jiang Pingsheng's ashes, and they held the ashes.

An accident occurred in the suburban cemetery that day.

Liang Shu knocked over Jiang Pingsheng's ashes.

The jar was torn apart, the pure white powder in it rose with the wind, and a large part of it was nailed to the grass and soil by the rain.

The people behind were heartache at first, but when they saw the powder, they were shocked.

This jar is not Jiang Pingsheng's ashes.

They are nothing more than lime powder ground from limestone.

Obviously Liang Shu could see it too.

She just started frantically scraping the grass on the ground, and the powdered grass was uprooted by her. In just one minute, the tips of her fingers were worn away, and the soil was embedded in her nails, which was shocking.

Soon, she also found an abnormality.

The so-called ashes are nothing but a pile of lime powder.

She fell to the ground, staring blankly at the front, the rain wet her clothes and hair.

Behind him, Jiang Pingsheng's roommate stepped forward and held a black umbrella on top of Liang Shu's head, also looking painful and unbearable.

Liang Shu looked down and watched quietly the white powder on the ground wet by rain, mixed with rainwater, slowly turning into tiny gutters in the vertical and horizontal grass, winding past her knees.

At this moment, she didn't know whether she should be lucky or sad.

Fortunately, it was not Jiang Ping's ashes. If he knew that she had overturned his ashes, how much would he hate her in his heart?

Liang Shu slowly closed her eyes, and when she opened her eyes, her voice had changed from calm to almost indifferent. She said to the humanity behind her, "After leaving the cemetery, you should forget me too. They are all right. I will be overwhelmed. Dead man, this is not a joke."

There was rain falling from her forehead and flowing into her eyes. She tugged at her lips with a mockery, "I didn't believe it once, but Ah Sheng died, I don't dare not believe it anymore. By the luck, someone mentions it, and you say you don't know it." ."

She couldn't control everything in the past, but Jiang Ping's life would be the end of her life.

Everyone will be safe and happy in the future.

She will never have anyone close.

This is her lingering goal over the next few years.

Liang Shu knew that she would not be able to find Jiang Ping's ashes anymore. Since the Ni family took him away, it would be impossible for her to find him in a short time.

But people always have to go to the land for safety when they die.

So later, Liang Shu cut a section of his own hair and put it in the urn.

The roommate looked at a strand of dark hair in the dark heavy wooden box in shock, and opened his lips, "Do you...know what you are doing?"

"In time, I found his ashes and then took out the hair. Now, let it be buried in the ground instead of him."

"Think carefully, you are a living person, trapping your hair here..."

In the following words, the male roommate did not continue.

I saw Liang Shu smile indifferently, "I have nothing to hide. I am just a survivor at best."

She called herself the survivor at that time.

At this time, the roommates who were still unfair to Jiang Ping suddenly lost all words, lowered their heads, and let out a low sigh.

The Ni family later took Jiang Pingsheng's ashes to Wencheng.

The couple, who were over 50 in their early years, bought a two-story building with a yard in the small town of Nanchuan.

When Liang Shu found this place, there were two hanging dried radishes hanging in front of the low courtyard, covered with a layer of white snow.

She knocked on the door, waiting for the people inside to open the door, Liang Shu picked up a branch and squatted down on the ground and drew a big smiling face.

Not long after, there were footsteps inside, and then an old woman's voice sounded: "Who is at the door?"

I haven't seen it for many years, and even this voice has experienced a lot of vicissitudes.

Liang Shu stood straight, pursing his lips and staring at the crack of the door, but did not answer.

Two minutes later, the courtyard door was opened from the inside.

A heavy black-gray down jacket wrapped Madam Ni's swollen body. She stood inside the threshold with her hands still opening the door, "Who?"

Liang Shu's eyes fixedly looked at Madam Ni.

In the next instant, she knelt directly at the gate of the courtyard.

Knee knocked on the threshold, and there was a piercing pain.

Mrs. Ni will not forget this face. Her old face was shaken as if she saw a ghost, and even the wrinkles changed. She wanted to close the door immediately, but never thought, one hand stretched out and grabbed one side directly. Gate.

Madam Ni is definitely not as strong as Liang Shu, so she can't close this door.

She looked down at the person who was kneeling on the ground, gritted her teeth, "How did you find here?! What do you want? We don't want to see you, you just get out of me now! Get out of my way!"

Madam Ni was trembling with anger, and she seemed to be afraid.

People who hadn't seen her for several years suddenly appeared, which was a nightmare for her.

And Liang Shu didn't speak, she just held the door with her right hand to prevent her from closing it.

Madam Ni struggled, but withdrew her hands, the two doors banged against the wall due to inertia, and the sound made a severe shock to relieve the cold.

Madam Ni pointed outside, her eyes fiercely, "I told you to roll, can you not hear me? We don't want to see you at all!"

At this moment, Liang Shu suddenly looked up at her, smiled at Madam Ni, and said softly, "Where is Ah Sheng?"

"Do you still dare to mention it?! How dare you to mention it..." Madam Ni punched her chest and looked at her, "Do you have any face before me with this name? Go away."

Liang Shu shook his head, suddenly reached out and grabbed Madam Ni's clothes, choked up a little, "I want to take his ashes back to Yucheng, okay?"

"You are not qualified!" Madam Ni took a step back.

Liang Shu stood up slowly while supporting the door frame. She said, "He didn't hesitate to break with Mr. Ni and stay with me. You have taken his ashes away and trapped here all these years. Have you ever heard of it when you slept at night? He asked you to send him back to me?"

"You didn't hear what I heard, he asked me to take him home."

Madam Ni thinks Liang Shu must be crazy.

She closed the door.

Go in and call Ni Xiuli.

The weather in the afternoon is too gloomy, I don't know when it will snow.

When Ni Xiuli came back, Liang Shu was still there.

She was standing under the bare date tree, staring at the ground.

Ni Xiuli approached and found a smiling face painted by a branch on the ground.

He is a teacher, not as radical as Mrs. Ni, plus the phone call from his wife just now, he is much calmer when he sees Liang Shu.

"My wife is afraid of you, can you stay away from her?"

Liang Shu pursed his lips and smiled, "I didn't enter the courtyard."

"You stayed at our door all afternoon, and the neighbors may see you on the meeting. If you have anything to do, we will find a place to talk." Ni Xiuli said.

Liang Shu still laughed, his tone unchanged, "That's their business, I only have one sentence, I want Jiang Pingsheng's ashes."

There was snow falling from the jujube tree, and it was worthy of rubbing Ni Xiuli's shoulder and falling onto the briefcase he was carrying.

She followed the voice and saw that his briefcase should have been used for a long time. The surface of the leather briefcase had already peeled off.

The expression on Liang Shu's face suddenly softened.

Ni Xiuli is a nostalgic person, this briefcase was bought by Jiang Pingsheng that year.

It was Liang Shu who accompanied him to buy it. She was a little unhappy at the time, but only a little bit.

In the mall, she looked at Jiang Pingsheng, who was serious about choosing things, and couldn't help but complain, "Your teacher Ni hates me. You still buy things for him in front of me. Are you not afraid of me being angry? "

But Jiang Pingsheng smiled, picked an item and brought it to her, and asked her, "Do you think this is suitable for Uncle Ni?"

What he is holding is the briefcase that Ni Xiuli is holding now.

Liang Shu gave a very pertinent evaluation at the time: "It doesn't look good, but it suits him well."

It's really not pretty, there are even more attractive styles next to it.

But in the end Jiang Pingsheng still bought this one.

Liang Shu asked him why?

Jiang Pingsheng said, "Buy him something uglier, so that your heart will be balanced."

I didn't expect this briefcase to be used by Ni Xiuli for many years.

But instead of fixing the watch Jiang Pingsheng gave her, she lost it instead.

That was the only thing she could use to miss Jiang Pingsheng except for ashes.

She has lived with Jiang Ping for so long, didn't she leave Jiang Ping's other things?

Stayed.

The pens Jiang Pingsheng wrote, the books he read, the rulers he measured, and even the cool jackets that he covered with quilts were kept.

Later, Lu Jinsheng burned his hand clean.

Liang Shu watched the skyrocketing fire reflected on Lu Jinsheng's stern three-dimensional features, his mouth sneered, "He killed Lu Yao, why can you keep his things?"

At that time, she only silently carried her left hand behind her, preventing Lu Jinsheng from seeing the watch.

She shook her head, calmly, "You are right, I don't deserve to keep anything from him."

They all say that they will think about people when they see things, and they burned down, but they were also clean.

...

Thinking of the past that made people smile at the corners of their lips, Liang Shu was quite peaceful when she spoke again. She looked at Ni Xiuli sincerely, "Uncle Ni, can you let me take Ah Sheng's ashes back?"

Ni Xiuli said, "Everyone else is dead, don't you even let his ashes go?"

Liang Shu understood this, they would not give her the ashes of Ah Sheng.

Liang Shu nodded and bowed to Ni Xiuli, "Excuse me."

She left this street when the sky was dark.

Before the storm came, Liang Shu bought a roasted sweet potato on the side of the road. On the way back to the hotel, she gnawed the sweet potato while calling Gu Hansheng.

It took a long time to pick up the other end, and the surrounding environment was not quiet.

But Liang Shu still understood what Gu Hansheng was saying.

Gu Hansheng asked what she was doing.

Liang Shu replied: "I am eating roasted sweet potatoes."

"The chef at home baked it?"

"No, I bought it by the side of the road." Liang Shu glanced at the sky, quickened his pace, and then said, "I'm going to see my aunt. Don't worry about me. It's boring to be alone at home."

She couldn't hide the fact that she left Mansion Zero, so Liang Shu chose to preemptively.

Sure enough, Gu Hansheng was a little unhappy, "I'm boring, I sent you to Gu's house, why are you not willing?"

"Well, I'll be honest. I can't stand the old lady if you are not here. I haven't seen my aunt for a long time, so I'll go see her by the way."

Gu Hansheng didn't say anything, he was a little busy, and Liang Shu kindly asked him, "Mr. Gu has a bad stomach, drink less and smoke less, I'm hanging up."

"Can you make time to call me two calls every day?" The man's voice was faint.

Liang Shu nodded, and suddenly remembered that he couldn't see at all, so he said, "Okay."

After she returned to the hotel, it started to snow outside.

Feather-like snow fell from the sky, and there was a scene covered in silver everywhere.

...

Gu Hansheng's schedule for this day is full.

When Liang Shu called him, he was really busy.

In a bar.

On the bar, a woman wearing an expensive wild mink coat raised her glass at the man who came back after answering the phone. She took a sip of the colorful cocktail in front of her, with a light lipstick mark on the transparent cup.

Gu Hansheng sat down on a high stool. The other person was very tall and his legs seemed to be longer.

He took the wine handed by the bartender, glanced at the woman sitting beside him and took a sip of the wine from the corner of his eye. He just said, "What did Miss Su just say?"

The "Miss Su" in his mouth stretched out his long hair at the moment, a faint fragrance rushed into Gu Hansheng's nose, and he squinted slightly.

She laughed upside down all sentient beings, "Mr. Gu is really a noble person who forgets things. I called you a few days ago, and you forgot about it."

The man's thick black eyebrows faintly frowned, only to hear her then smile and say, "Oh, I forgot, you didn't receive the call."

"Unexpectedly, you called me first. Since you have returned to China, why stay in Wencheng?"

Miss Su's eyes with heavy makeup were slightly raised, her eyes were a little charming, and she looked a little cold. She laughed, "Waiting for you to come to me." After a half-second pause, she went on to say, "I was in full bloom at the time. Duncheng, it happened to be late at night when I called, and a woman picked up your call..."

Gu Hansheng held the cup quietly with his fingers, waiting for her to continue.

"I rushed to Yucheng to meet you. It would be embarrassing if I was bumped into by someone next to you."

The man flicked his eyebrows and pulled his lips, "So what's your purpose?"

"I have to see my sister," Su Qin smiled slowly, "I want you to take me back personally."

"Take you back personally, so you are not afraid that someone around me might bump into it?"

Su Qin shrugged and took another sip of wine, "That's your business."

"Where is Su Yan's diary?" He asked again.

Su Qin looked at him, "Let me see her first."

As soon as the voice fell, the man sneered, "Su Qin, do you want to threaten me?"

"How dare, I just want to see what my sister can do for her by chasing a man who almost lost her life."

...

Liang Shu went to the door of Ni's house as usual the next day. It was cold outside and she couldn't stand, so she sat in the dilapidated antique shop diagonally across from Ni's house for a day.

When Ni Xiuli went out, she went out. The other party was tough and walked away. She didn't get annoyed and went back to the antique shop to sit down.

When Ni Xiuli came back, Liang Shu went out to block him again.

Then she went back to the hotel when it was getting late.

This is true for three days in a row.

On the fourth day, Ni Xiuli saw her and was about to go around again. Liang Shu held his arms behind him and called him: "Uncle Ni."

When Ni Xiuli turned her head, the woman had a beautiful face and clear eyes.

She laughed, "I will call you Uncle Ni on behalf of Ah Sheng, and I will take his ashes away today." Liang Shu walked to Ni Xiuli, "I will not come without full assurance. I know that you will support you again in the past few years. I have a child, although he is not as good as Ah Sheng, but he is also very good. I am afraid I don’t need to say more about who I am. I just want to ask Uncle Ni—"

Ni Xiuli's teeth bit her cheeks and her cheeks bulged, and her muddy eyes looked at her coldly.

Liang Shu smiled decently, "I want to ask you, the dead and the living, which is more serious?"