Yan Yan

The Third People's Hospital of Nandao City.

The four o'clock visit time has passed, and the corridor in front of the intensive care unit is long, cold, and empty.

Su Yan sat alone on the blue lounge chair, holding a critical illness notice in black on a white background in both hands. The light above her head illuminated her bloodless face, her expression was dull and her eyes were empty, like a walking corpse.

She couldn't understand why she just went to pick up a glass of water and left for less than three minutes. Why was everything different when she came back? Obviously he was fine before she left...

How could he fall? He is Bai Xingfan.

In her mind, he has always been a strong and determined image, as if he is an invincible and omnipotent person, like a mighty mountain that will never fall, as long as he is by his side, no matter what he encounters In such a crisis situation, she would not be afraid.

But it was such a strong man who fell.

Later, she followed the ambulance to the hospital. When she heard the word "rescue" from the doctor, she was completely stunned and couldn't believe it - how could he be sent to rescue?

She always thought he just caught a cold and had a fever.

But in fact, he did not have a fever because of a cold, but a lung infection caused by a broken rib.

He broke two ribs.

In the extremely bad weather at that time, the lifeguards dared not go up the mountain casually, but he risked his death.

She couldn't imagine how he resisted the storm and climbed up the mountain that night? How many times have you experienced life-and-death dangers on the way up the mountain? When he was walking alone in the snow-covered mountains, what kind of mood was he carrying? in a hurry? Worry? Desperate to find her as soon as possible and make sure she is safe? Can you even take your life for her?

Why do you have to hide your injury and walk down the mountain even after waiting for the rescue team? Worried that she will be afraid? Or worried that she'll be distracted on the way down by worrying about his injury? So even if it hurts to death, you have to grit your teeth and insist on going down the mountain with her?

Why so stupid?

Bai Xingfan, you are not a fool, you have more hearts than anyone else, and the word deliberate is you!

How can you be so stupid?

Su Yan was suddenly annoyed and felt that he was a paranoid lunatic!

Yet a paranoid idiot...

They were all divorced, and he didn't need to risk his life for her at all.

Besides, she was the one who insisted on following the crew up the mountain, what does it have to do with him? He doesn't have to take any responsibility for her, it's all her own fault!

A strong feeling of annoyance filled her heart again, and Su Yan fell into a breakdown again, feeling that she was a useless waste!

Why don't you listen to him?

Why go up the mountain with a fluke mentality?

If he had listened to him at that time, he would not have encountered the situation of snow blocking the mountain, and he would not have been trapped in the mountain, and he would not have to risk his life to go up the mountain to save her.

It was she who killed him.

Her arms began to tremble, her fists clenched tightly, and she clenched the critical illness notice tightly in her palm.

It has been less than a day since he was sent to icu, her emotions have collapsed countless times, as if the world she had been relying on suddenly collapsed, she was overwhelmed and at a loss, she felt as if she had been abandoned in a deserted wilderness In the middle, I looked around at a loss, not knowing what to do.

The corridor in front of her was blurred again, and tears filled her eyes in an instant. She buried her face in her palms again, and burst into tears.

Director Sun will bring the main creative staff of the crew to visit the hospital every day. Even if he can't enter the icu, he will also visit Su Yan.

In the afternoon of the first day, they left at four o'clock. When they came in the afternoon of the second day, Su Yan was still sitting on the blue bench, dressed in the same clothes as when they went down the mountain yesterday morning—

The white down jacket and blue jeans were wrinkled, and the light brown snow boots were still stained with mud.

Obviously, she never left here at all.

Since there was no way to stay by his side, she could only stay at the place closest to him.

Director Sun looked a little distressed, sighed, sat next to Su Yan, and began to enlighten her: "Bai Zongji is a natural person, you must be able to survive this test, you must be optimistic, rest when you need to rest, eat when you need to eat, Don't burn your body, or who will take care of Mr. Bai?"

Su Yan was indifferent, her eyes were dark blue, and her expression was dull and empty, as if she hadn't heard what Sun Dao was saying.

until the phone alarm goes off.

She made a table for four o'clock in the afternoon, because four o'clock was visiting time.

As soon as the alarm rang, she bounced off the stool like a bird hidden in the alarm clock, and hurriedly walked towards the door of icu.

However, before taking a few steps, her eyes suddenly darkened, and she fainted without any precaution.

She fell into a dream that she could not wake up from, and the dream kept repeating a scene—

In front of the operating room door, the doctor handed her the informed consent form for the operation and asked her to sign it.

She immediately opened the cover of the pen and was about to sign her name in the family column, but the doctor suddenly took away her pen and asked her coldly, "Are you a family member?"

She panicked and replied repeatedly: "I am, I am!"

The doctor broke her lie mercilessly: "You are not, you are divorced, you are not qualified to sign for him."

No operation can be performed without a signature, and his life cannot be saved.

She was frightened and cried, shook her head and said, "No, it's not like this. I'm really his wife, and we're not divorced."

"You are divorced."

"You are not a family member."

"You are not qualified to sign him."

In the dream, the doctor kept repeating these three sentences in an indifferent voice, as if reminding her constantly: you have nothing to do with him, whether he lives or dies, it has nothing to do with you.

She was helpless, but she couldn't do anything, she could only cry and beg the doctor to allow her to sign, but the doctor was indifferent.

As time passed by, and the dream came back and forth, she fell into a nightmare, experiencing this despair and pain over and over again.

"Yan Yan! Yan Yan!"

After an unknown amount of time, her mother's voice came into the dream, breaking the nightmare that had been haunting Su Yan. She suddenly opened her eyes, but her vision was blurred because she woke up crying.

Liu Xiang was sitting beside the bed, his eyes were red, his eyes were full of distress.

Holding a white towel in her hand, she gently wiped the tears and sweat from her daughter's face: "Don't cry, Mom is here."

Su Yan didn't expect to see her mother. After staring at her blankly for a few seconds, she suddenly thought of something. She sat up from the bed, lifted the quilt, and was about to get off the ground. She said in a panic, "I want to Go to Xingfan."

"Take care of yourself first!" Liu Xiang hurriedly pressed her shoulders, "Xingfan is fine, he's already awake!"

Su Yan was stunned and looked at her mother tearfully: "Really?"

"Why am I lying to you!" Liu Xiang sighed helplessly, "Your parents-in-law and your father have all gone to see him, and they will be back later. If you don't believe me, you can ask them after they come back."

Su Yan's mind suddenly became a little confused, and she couldn't figure out what the situation was now: "Has Xingfan come out of the icu?"

"No, how can it be so fast." Liu Xiang sighed again, "It's just out of danger now, and we have to observe for a few more days."

Su Yan's eyes turned red again, sobbing and said, "I want to see him."

Liu Xiang was helpless: "When you run from this building to that building, the visiting time will pass." She comforted her daughter again, "It will be the same if you go tomorrow, maybe he will be in better condition tomorrow, you They can still talk."

Su Yan could only listen to her mother's words, tried her best to endure the worries and uneasiness in her heart, and lay back on the hospital bed.

The hanging bottle hanging in the air was coming to an end, and Liu Xiang went to call the nurse.

After the nurse left with the empty hanging bottle, Su Yan asked, "What's wrong with me?"

Liu Xiang sighed: "I was overstretched and sad, and passed out."

Su Yan: "How long have I been dizzy?"

"It's been a whole day." Liu Xiang said with lingering fear, "The four of us have been unable to contact you, and we were worried to the death. We arrived here in the middle of the night last night. As a result, one of you was in the ICU and the other was in the inpatient department, and the heart attack almost occurred. Scared out."

Su Yan wanted to cry again, feeling that she was particularly disobedient, and she had to worry about her parents when she grew up.

She inhaled the tip of her sore nose and asked again, "How did you get here?"

With such a heavy snowfall, the high-speed train from Dongfu to Nandao must have been shut down. How did the four old men travel so far to come here?

Liu Xiang: "Driving here overnight, I was stuck on the expressway for a whole day."

Su Yan felt distressed again, crying and saying to her mother, "I'm sorry, I made you worry."

Liu Xiang's eyes suddenly became hot, and he quickly waved his hand: "I'm sorry, as long as you two are fine."

ok?

They've both been divorced, so can that be considered good?

Su Yan thought of that dream again. Although in reality, she successfully signed the operation informed letter, it did not change the fact that they divorced.

Guilt filled my heart again.

Her parents only hoped for their children to be well, but she made her life a mess.

Ten minutes later, the door of the ward was pushed open, and her father Su Jianan walked in first, followed by Bai Xingfan's mother Jiang Lin and his father Bai Ruming.

Su Yan shouted first: "Dad, Mom."

When the three old people saw that the child was awake, they immediately gathered around the bedside.

Su Jian'an's hair on the temples had already turned gray, and he looked at his daughter with a distressed look in his eyes: "Do you feel better?"

Su Yan nodded: "I just finished the glucose water, it's much better." Then she immediately asked, "How is Xingfan?"

"Wake up, don't worry!" It was Jiang Lin who spoke this time, "You don't have to worry about him, he is fine."

Bai Ruming also said: "He is well taken care of, you can't treat yourself badly, you have to take good care of your body."

The better Jiang Lin and Bai Ruming treated her, the more guilt Su Yan felt.

Bai Xingfan is their son.

It was she who had implicated their son.

Feeling guilt in her chest, she cried and said to Jiang Lin and Bai Ruming, "I'm sorry, he was injured to save me."

Jiang Lin didn't expect her daughter-in-law to apologize to them, so she immediately said, "Yan Yan, you can't think that way. He is your husband. It's right to save you. We will never blame you for this."

"That's right, Yanyan, you don't need to say sorry to us, and you don't need to blame yourself." Bai Ruming also began to enlighten his daughter-in-law: "Since he chose to save you in the wind and snow, it shows that he has anticipated that he is very likely. You'll get hurt." They now have a basic understanding of the day's situation, "He's just done his duty as a husband, and it's unforgivable if you're stuck on a mountain and your life or death is uncertain, and he doesn't move. "

Obviously, neither Jiang Lin nor Bai Ruming blamed her, but Su Yan felt more and more guilty, because she and Bai Xingfan were no longer husband and wife, and she was not qualified to enjoy their tolerance and love towards her daughter-in-law. Ashamed.

Bai Xingfan's condition continued to improve, and when Su Yan visited him on the afternoon of the third day, his consciousness was completely clear.

The hospital stipulates that family members need to wear protective clothing before entering the ICU to visit.

However, the number of protective clothing provided by the hospital is limited, and when there are many people, it may be necessary to queue up.

The visit opened at four o'clock, and before three thirty, Su Yan went to the icu gate to line up and successfully ranked first.

When the time came, she changed into her clothes and hurried into the icu.

She doesn't like it here at all, because the icu is the closest place to death. Every patient lying in a critical condition is fighting against the **** of death. Those medical instruments that are constantly flashing are their weapons against the **** of death. But also enough to be mind-blowing.

Su Yan involuntarily lowered her breathing, for fear of disturbing anything, but as soon as she saw Bai Xingfan lying on the hospital bed, her emotions went out of control, and the hot and sour tears blinded her eyes.

Bai Xingfan is now awake, his eyes are black and bright, but his face is pale and almost transparent. An oxygen tube for auxiliary breathing is placed under the bridge of his tall nose, and a ventilator and other instruments for detecting vital signs are placed beside the hospital bed. .

All signs were showing her that he was not completely out of danger.

A plastic stool for family members was placed beside the hospital bed. Su Yan sat on the stool and wanted to shake his hand. However, a bottle needle was inserted into his left arm, and an oxygen level test was sandwiched between his right fingers. Yea, she couldn't do anything at all.

He was right in front of her eyes, but she couldn't touch him.

Unsatisfactory tears welled up in her eyes, and she sobbed softly.

Bai Xingfan smiled helplessly: "Why are you crying?"

It's okay if he didn't ask, but when he asked, Su Yan cried even more sadly, whimpered and said, "You're a big liar, trick me to get you water."

Bai Xingfan looked at her innocently: "But I really wanted to drink water at that time."

Su Yan was not so stupid, and cried and condemned: "You just want to take me away and treat me as a fool!"

This time Bai Xingfan had to admit: "I am worried that you will be afraid."

Su Yan suddenly became angry: "What are you afraid of? Are you afraid that my ex-husband will be sent to the ICU?!"

"…"

The words "ex-husband" are more lethal than unplugging the oxygen tube.

Bai Xingfan's face sank, and he bit his back molars fiercely. Then, he frowned tightly, his expression showed pain, and he groaned softly.

Su Yan panicked, suddenly stood up from the stool, possessed herself and looked at him: "What's wrong?"

Bai Xingfan looked low: "My ribs hurt."

Su Yan's eyes were full of panic: "What's going on? Why did it suddenly start to hurt?"

Just when she was about to call the doctor, Bai Xingfan suddenly said, "I'm angry with you."

Su Yan: "…"

Bai Xingfan sighed lightly, looked up at her, and asked in a low voice, "Are you still angry with me?"

Su Yan: "…"

This liar! Rogue! Bastard!

She was so angry that she wanted to hit him, but looking at his pale, pale face, she felt so distressed that she finally gave up and sat back on the chair.

But he couldn't help rolling his eyes.

Bai Xingfan frowned again: "It hurts..."

Su Yan: "…"

She seriously suspected that he was pretending, but worried that he was really in pain, and said angrily and helplessly: "I'm not angry with you, okay?!"

Bai Xingfan didn't give up: "What am I to you?"

Su Yan: "…"

Facing Bai Xingfan's persistent gaze, Su Yan blushed for no reason, then turned her face to one side, and whispered, "You can come out of the icu first."

Bai Xingfan looked at her slightly red ears and asked softly, "Can I be my husband after I go out?"

Su Yan: "Look at your performance."

Bai Xingfan: "How can I make Mrs. Bai satisfied?"

Su Yan squinted at him: "Who is your Mrs. Bai, pay attention to your words!"

Bai Xingfan was silent for a moment, then suddenly said, "Let's go to Linchuan for the New Year, it's just you and me."

Linchuan, the ancient town where they met for the first time.

Su Yan was stunned and looked at him blankly.

Bai Xingfan raised the corner of his lips and smiled gently: "I want to get to know Miss Su again."

I also want to start over again.

Su Yan's breathing stagnated, her eyes suddenly became sore, and she lowered her eyes silently.

Bai Xingfan patiently waited for her answer.

After a long time, Su Yansang said in a nasal voice, "You can go, but you have to promise me one condition."

Bai Xingfan: "Just mention it."

Su Yan looked at him seriously and seriously: "Don't put me in the bird cage again, I don't like it, I don't like it very much."

Bai Xingfan also expected that she would mention this condition.

But even if she didn't mention it, he wouldn't put her in a cage again.

He didn't want to hurt her a second time, let alone lose her a second time.

"I will never lock you up again," Bai Xingfan's expression was very determined, and he swore to assure her, "I will never force you to do anything you don't want to do again."

This time, he will give her a respectful love, and work hard to make her willingly perch in his palm.