Ying Shao is a Girl

Over time, Zhongli's character became more and more withdrawn.

And he suffered from severe depression.

He has no friends, lives alone, has no hobbies, and treats everyone the same.

indifferent.

It is his best coat.

The only thing that placed Zhongli's feelings on was the stray cat he picked up by chance.

Apart from this, nothing else has any further contact with Zhongli.

Uncle Zhong's contact with Zhongli was only to satisfy his psychological needs.

The whole world is isolated from him.

But also because he has little contact with the outside world, Zhongli's eyes are pure and without any impurities. He does not have as many thoughts and desires as the world's people.

Only myself is stumbling forward in the dark abyss.

And Jiang Nuanwei was the star that suddenly fell in his dark and long life.

Zhongli has been extremely smart since he was a child and was admitted to the best high school in the city with excellent results.

Went to the same high school as Jiang Nuanwei.

Zhongli finally escaped from Uncle Zhong's control.

But the story has just begun here.

Jiang Nuanwei likes cats.

One rainy day, she met Zhongli at the door of the veterinary clinic.

There was a boy standing at the door of the veterinary clinic. His hair was wet from the heavy rain, and he was holding a white cat tightly in his arms.

The cat is dying, and the young man is in despair.

The boy was wearing the same school uniform as her, and Jiang Nuanwei also liked cats, so she stepped forward to ask.

Zhongli didn't look up at her or answer her.

He was the same to everyone, indifferent.

Jiang Nuanwei was not angry and checked the cat's condition herself.

Zhongli remained indifferent.

The clinic is closed and the cat will be in danger if things continue like this.

In the end, Jiang Nuanwei asked her veterinarian to rescue the cat.

Jiang Nuanwei likes cats, so it's not surprising that there is a specialized veterinarian at home.

From beginning to end, Zhongli never raised his head, let alone said a word.

Jiang Nuanwei thought he couldn't speak.

Finally, before Zhong Li left, he raised his eyes and glanced at Jiang Nuanwei.

So clear, pure and beautiful, without any impurities.

With just one look, Jiang Nuanwei, who had never liked anyone before, was completely smitten.

She is close to Zhongli, treats him well, and brings warmth and light to Zhongli.

Finally she succeeded.

Zhongli also likes her.

But it’s more about dependence.

Zhong Li only talked to Jiang Nuan Wei, only smiled at Jiang Nuan, and was only slightly kind to Jiang Nuan.

Zhongli only has Jiang Nuanwei.

But Jiang Nuanwei is not.

She has relatives, friends, classmates, etc. Her world is very broad, and she and Zhongli are not from the same world.

This often makes Zhongli very painful and he is very conflicted.

Zhongli has a strong possessive desire for Jiang Nuanwei, but his reason tells him that this will make Jiang Nuanwei stay away from him, hate him, and eventually abandon him.

He fears abandonment.

Zhong Li has always been careful to stay by Jiang Nuanwei's side.

Jiang Nuanwei knew that Zhongli suffered from depression, but she thought it was only mild. She always told Zhongli, "Ali, don't worry, it will get better. I will always be with you."

But she didn't know that Zhongli's depression was already terminal.

Zhongli has been hiding and covering up.

He was in an endless abyss, but he liked Jiang Nuanwei bathing in the light.

As time goes by, he likes Jiang Nuanwei more and more, becomes more and more dependent on her, and becomes more and more inseparable from her.

Sometimes I even have thoughts that I shouldn’t have.

However, Jiang Nuanwei doesn't like Zhongli that much. She often feels that Zhongli is too withdrawn and his behavior is childish.

Zhongli was afraid that he would hurt Jiang Nuanwei if he lost control, so he chose to hurt himself.

There were many cuts on his hands.

The old one was cut by Uncle Zhong, and the new one was cut by himself.

Zhong Li felt that he was increasingly unable to control himself, especially when he saw Jiang Nuanwei.

Finally, on the night of Jiang Nuanwei's eighteenth birthday, Zhongli committed suicide.

He no longer has to worry about hurting Jiang Nuanwei.

The last thing Zhongli left to this world was a letter to Jiang Nuanwei.

---Because I love you, I often want to apologize to you. My love is heavy and dirty and contains many unpleasant things, such as sadness, sorrow, self-pity, and despair. My heart is so fragile. I am always defeated by these negative emotions, as if I am sinking deeper and deeper into a swamp. And I love you, I just want to drag you in but hope you save me.

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The story is made up, but it is true that Zhong Li likes Jiang Nuanwei.

Another day of nonsense by the scumbag author~

The last words are quoted from Haruki Murakami.