You are as rustic as the wind and as beautiful as the flowers

Bai Mei remained vigilant while eating breakfast. Fortunately, the fan who was following her did not get any closer.

After the meal, Bai Mei immediately got up and returned to the room. Along the way, Bai Mei used various anti-tracking techniques like in a spy movie, such as changing to elevators, making false claims, feinting shots, etc., just to prevent fans from

track.

Finally, after a lot of twists and turns, Bai Mei returned to the room. The moment she closed the door, she leaned against the door, pressed her hand on her chest, calmed her heartbeat, and was finally able to take a deep breath. This exercise intensity was different from running for five minutes.

Kilometers make no difference.

The key is that it takes a lot of brain and energy.

If Bai Mei had to choose again, she would really have to consider whether to start a business and whether to become famous.

Now that I’m out and about, I obviously feel a little unfree!

Is this the backlash of successful people?

"Am I successful?" Bai Mei tortured her soul.

Since leaving the team and freeing herself from the busy daily affairs, Bai Mei seems to have had time to reflect. It seems that she can take this opportunity to review the path she has taken in the past, right and wrong, gains and losses.

"It probably doesn't count." Bai Mei laughed at herself in the mirror, turned around and walked away.

She habitually took out her laptop and closed it again the moment she was about to open it.

Since we have decided to maintain a certain degree of isolation from the outside world, apart from not looking at our mobile phones, we cannot also open our computers.

Bai Mei has set rules for herself, she must be self-disciplined.

Bai Mei is no stranger to self-discipline, and is even addicted to it.

In other words, the motivation for self-disciplined people to persist is not tenacity, but addiction.

Fighting against oneself and defeating oneself is a sign that a person begins to become better. Bai Mei understands this deeply and is also a beneficiary. For so many years, she has maintained her best-selling performance and perfect waist-to-hip ratio, relying on

self-discipline.

This time, Bai Mei just changed the way of playing. After she closed the computer silently, she took out a book, "To Kill a Mockingbird".

This is a must-read classic for I-people, who are introverts.

Bai Mei understood this only after taking a professional MBTI test. It turns out that she is an invincible person in the workplace and is an I person, not an E person, that is, an extrovert.

This is how people are, they always have to experience it before they can truly understand themselves. If a person tries to figure himself out before starting, he must be upside down and consume a lot of energy to do useless work, because people will change.

of.

Talking about this book, Bai Mei can no longer remember which version she bought. In short, she has read this novel countless times. The reason why she took it with her when she went out this time was just out of instinctive love.

It’s a muscle memory-like choice the moment you leave the house.

At this moment, it seemed that she had made the right choice. Since it was difficult to go out, she might as well stay in her room and read novels.

If the dandelion pendant she carries with her is her spiritual totem, then this novel is her Ubuntu.

It's also childhood. The child in the book experienced a summer of growth. She had a good father who taught her about courage, conscience, and empathy.

With these nutrients, the white rose dandelion has the time to take off.

Every time I see this paragraph in the book, Bai Mei will burst into tears.

The book says: [True bravery is when you know you will lose before you even start, but you still have to do it, and persist to the end no matter what. You rarely win, but sometimes you do.]

Isn’t that what I’m talking about?

Looking back at the time when I left my hometown and worked hard in Shanghai, to have the label "Meiya" and a group of lovely partners, isn't it a rare victory at last?

Just like a dandelion doesn't know where it's going before it takes off.

Winning, for Dandelion, is simply a luxury that depends on life.

Being able to fly once in life is already considered lucky.

Bai Mei, with tears in her eyes, just sat there minding her own business in the room where the sunlight came in, wasting away time.

No, it’s about enjoying the moment when dandelions are flying.

Yes, it is enjoyment.

Crying, isn’t it a kind of enjoyment?

This is the release after being understood. The truth is there, neither increasing nor decreasing, it has always been there, and like a lucky child, she walked over and triggered it.

But the hardships involved in the process, apart from tears flowing freely, what else can be left to express?

Inevitably, Bai Mei recalled the scene the day before yesterday when she faced her mother whom she hadn't seen for many years, that face that had grown old and slumped, and those eyebrows and eyes that were connected by blood even though she didn't want to face them.

Did she really have the courage? No, she didn't.

Bai Mei escaped at that moment.

It turns out that courage is not eternal, but is like the air in a ball. It needs to be beaten in frequently.

Looking at the book in front of her, Bai Mei's mind flashed back to her childhood, boyhood, youth...

Is it a pity? It’s a pity. Because there is no childhood that heals the whole life of the girl in the book.

Are you relieved? Bai Mei doesn't know how to answer.

The reason why an honest person needs time alone is because honesty in a crowd may kill him.

The book says this: "There is only one thing in the world that cannot follow the principle of conformity, and that is human conscience."

After crying, Bai Mei felt relaxed and happy physically and mentally.

Wash your face, touch up your makeup, make a cup of coffee, and look out the window.

The sun is shining and nature is calling her.

It's time to try to let go.

Relief is more difficult than exerting force. It all depends on opportunity. No, this time, right now, is the best time.

After drinking coffee, Bai Mei simply tidied herself up and prepared to set off.

Bai Mei was familiar with the city of Nanjing. She knew where there was a huge field of dandelions.

When she was in school, she accidentally entered it and was shocked.

Times have changed, is it still there?

The philosopher once said that one cannot step into the same river twice.

Going to try it?

The purpose of revisiting a hometown is not only to isolate yourself from the outside world and heal yourself, but also to test the quality of the life answer sheet you handed over?

At this moment, Bai Mei's self-confidence came back. There is always a moment in life when you hand in your answer sheet. Be brave. There are more than one test in life, and one test does not determine life or death.

Bai Mei opened the door cautiously, as if she were a thief, for fear of being followed. She wore big sunglasses and a mask. She wished she was armed to the teeth. After leaving the hotel door, she got into the online taxi that had been rushed.

, exactly.

"It's really weird today. I picked up two orders from customers going to the Green Expo." The online ride-hailing driver muttered like a chatterbox.

Nanjing Big Carrot, if you don't speak, you will suffocate to death.

Bai Mei replied casually: "It's normal. There are probably more people going to see the flowers and plants at this time."

As she talked, Bai Mei started to look forward to it. Did the dandelion field that she hadn't seen for many years change its appearance?