As Yesterday

"You dream."

Liu Ci shook her head, and she still hugged He Yu tightly, but these three words roared out.

"I've already left once, and I won't let go if I die!!"

He Yu twitched the corners of his mouth, "I didn't go to you at the beginning. Have you already made a plan?"

He Yu still let Liu Ci hold her, her voice was very soft, a bit like babbling, "I know you, you are so extreme."

Liu Ci's tears were still streaming, "You know what a shit!"

She had a fierce tone, but she was crying, not threatening.

He Yu: "Of course I know you."

She took it for granted, making Liu's Ci a little dazed.

He Yu did understand Liu Ci better than Liu Ci.

Her care moisturizes things silently, and her observation is also impeccable. It is this impeccable perfection that gradually improves Liu Ci, and she doesn't even need to take medicine anymore.

The sense of anticipation that disappeared when she was young is coming back. She looks forward to every tomorrow, not just for He Yu, but also for life.

But He Yu fell behind.

She seemed to accompany her, but she fell a few laps unknowingly.

Liu Ci was afraid that she didn't want to run away. At this moment, she suddenly felt the same, but it made He Yu's rescue of her even more teary.

"He Yu, don't leave me behind."

He Yu: "I just let you leave me. People who are better than me are everywhere."

She was held by Liu Ci. Liu Ci couldn't see her eyes. She was a pessimist who was hidden in the dark and cultivated.

The splendor was lost, and the skinned lips made her look weaker, and a person's psychology was defeated. Even if she maintained her appearance, she couldn't last long.

Paper people are used to pay homage.

He Yu felt that he was just a little bit of paper pierced up by He Fengjun. When he died, she wanted to accompany him.

"That's not you..."

Liu Ci had a sore throat and a headache, and the sound of the second hand was like a hammering, knocking on her forehead, her bone marrow was retained.

He Yu said, "I'm sorry Liu Ci, I let you down."

"shut up."

Liu Ci stood up straight, putting her hand from He Yu's waist to the other's shoulder. It was a bit difficult for her height, but it forced He Yu to bow her head.

"Disappointment," Liu Ci is very quiet in front of people. She looks very temperamental and self-cultivation. She can answer sharp questions skillfully, but at this time she is not irritable like her. Various emotions cause her. Shaking all over, he pressed **** He Yu, "I like you, I'm not disappointed or expecting, I like everything about you."

He Yu licked his lips, his skin was pricked so that his tongue hurts. "Your behavior made domestic violence more rampant. My mother was like this at the beginning. Forgive the man, and then again and again, never ending."

In the summer of fifteen years old, late at night when the light and shadow were floating, the night wind blew the mosquito nets, which also blew away Liu Ci’s superficial perception of He Yu’s family.

He Yu’s Liu Ci from that night still remembers that He Yu at that time hadn’t grown up so concealed. Her sadness was like a lake wrinkled by the wind in the water-like night, layered on top of each other, rolling up the waves of Liu Ci.

At that time they were powerless.

But now they are still helpless.

He Yu raised her hand, her hand was still wounded, and she looked deeper after applying the medicine, as if paint had been applied to it.

"If I rushed out and stood by my mother again and again, it wouldn't be enough to blame her for not divorcing afterwards."

She didn't dare, and she was also afraid, because that kind of hitting was so painful that it hurts every night during the sunshine exercise and running laps before self-study.

The subconscious mind feels ashamed of this, even if others know it well.

For that little face.

"You have worked hard for He Yu."

Liu Ci looked at her, and in the dim light, she pulled He Yu to her side. The line from darkness to light, she said it was not your fault.

He Yu turned his face and sighed.

"How can you and your dad be the same, you just have too much responsibility, too much heavier than others, and too demanding of yourself."

Liu Ci said word by word, the pinch marks on her neck when He Yu turned away made Liu Ci feel even more distressed.

She felt sad just to imagine He Yu fighting with others.

When she was a child, she often saw He Yu fighting with boys. At the beginning, she couldn't fight. If she fought too much, she knew how to win. When she fought, the group called her male or female. After being beaten, they said He Yu was insane. .

Liu Ci hated herself too, she couldn't help anything, she could only run to find the teacher, but in the end He Yu was scorned.

"You are a girl, how can you fight with others?"

Liu Ci said at the time: "But if you don't fight back, you will be stoned."

The teacher turned his face and frowned at her: "You won't tell the teacher."

After adults become thorough adults, they seem to have forgotten the rules of children. The most despised thing among children is to sue the teacher and then be isolated.

Liu Ci is an isolated child. She is a good friend with the bad girl who always fights with others.

So no one was friends with the two of them at the beginning, they naturally became the same table, and each other only had each other.

"I just found out that you can talk like this."

He Yu smiled, her hand clenched into a fist, and then let it go, "I mean Liu Ci, you don't want to live with me, you move out, or I move to your house, we must keep a distance ."

"do not want!"

Liu Ci took her hand, "Will you hit me? Are you willing to hit me?"

He Yu looked at her steadily, tears in Liu Ci's eyes, and she looked shining. This person's facial features are very small, obviously the cute one, but no one has ever praised it, because she is too cold and a little bit Inexplicably upright.

"I have no idea."

He Yu stretched out his hand and wiped the tears from the corner of Liu Ci, "I don't even know whether I am or I am."

"I don't want to deceive you. When I beat that man to the ground, I was very happy." Her hand wiped away the tears for Liu Ci and then took it back. She was caught by Liu Ci and pressed it on her face. A stroking gesture, "This is terrible. I can't control myself. When the beer bottle opened the man's head, my mind was blank. When the police station came, all I thought of was He Fengjun. The beer bottle is knocking, crackling, my mother's scream, his roar."

"At that moment I thought I was him."

He Yu closed her eyes, the warmth of her palms made her nostalgic, but she hated herself from the bottom of her heart.

She has worked hard for many years, trying to become a person who is liked by others, but found that she can't like herself.

"I don't believe you will hit me," the courage that Shen Sijun's beating Liu Ci was full of came out in an instant. She looked at He Yu, "Just love me with you."

He Yu opened his mouth and hummed after a long time.

"It is precisely because of this that I let you leave me. At least, let me stay alone for a few days."

Liu Ci: "You must promise to be with me forever."

Her hand grabbed He Yu's hand, and you came and went, and finally turned into a handshake. It is rare that He Yu's hand is not so hot, but Liu Ci's is hotter, and her physique is much better than before.

He Yu took her to exercise, fixed classes, and a healthy schedule. Both of them were getting better together, but something went wrong.

"Liu Ci."

He Yu's ending sounded with sorrow, "You are so greedy."

Liu Ci: "I am only greedy for you."

He Yu closed his eyes, "I tried my best."

Liu Ci: "You must work hard."

He Yu laughed, "Let me go, let me be alone, at least tonight."

Liu Ci said yes.

The house Liu Ci bought by herself has long been decorated, and all the furniture is ready. She took the quilt and He Yu helped her carry it, but no one said a word.

Finally, He Yu said goodnight, "I want to sleep well."

Liu Ci gave a hum and took a deep look at her.

When the door closed, she burst into tears.

After holding back for too long, He Yu was crying too. She sat on the floor of her room, crying and trembling all over.

They are not young anymore, and they didn't cry like this when they were young, but they broke out at this age.

Growing up has given them too many benefits, but they have been losing, even if they believe that tomorrow will be better.

Liu Ci couldn't fall asleep after crying. She simply sat at the desk in a daze facing the white paper, and finally started writing in a mess, diverting her attention.

He Yu smashed herself into the bed, her wounds ached, her bones ached, and maybe her soul was also aching. She thought aimlessly, but always remembered the past.

She can't break away from the family.

She wanted to die, this thought came to her for the first time when she was fifteen years old, when Hong Lanwen was injured by He Fengjun again and He Yu applied medicine to her.

She smashed the medicinal liquor on the ground, with a clear voice, the smell filled the room, and she shouted: "I will kill him!!"

Hong Lan sighed, and went to sweep the floor before putting on all the clothes, looking at the medicinal liquor distressedly, and pretending to be a little bit if he could fit it back.

She didn't take He Yu's words seriously at all.

He Yu thought at the time, tonight, just tonight, when he comes back, I will kill him, and then I will die myself, so that my mother will be better married without my oil bottle.

But when He Fengjun didn't come back that day, this thought was suppressed.

It surfaced countless times and was pressed down again and again, cutting her nerve, and finally crushed into powder and melted in the blood.

The second time I appeared when Lian Xiaoli kissed her. It was the busiest time when she was free. When she was free, she was working everywhere, and she also took care of her work. When she yawned when she turned her back, Lian Xiaoli said she loved her.

She wanted to say that you love me and let me go.

But Lian Xiaoli was also at a critical point. She didn't say so, she refused, drawing a little bit of a line, but to no avail.

If it weren't for Xie Yongyan to jump up and down in front of her all day and say that Senior Sister, you are too good to remind her that she is good, maybe she really can't hold it. With the rumbling of the subway, I lowered my head and counted how much money I had left. I was rushing to survive in the part-time group. When submitting the paper, I carefully asked if the balance could be faster.

These two smashed on her body, but they couldn't see half of them on the outside.

Everyone says that He Yu is so sunny, she is so energetic.

No one saw the pain behind her, all the pressure almost buried her alive, and the thin air turned out to miss Liu Ci and longing for a reunion.

She still has hope.

Although in the middle of the night when riding a shared bicycle to go back to the flat tires, he collapsed to the point of jumping into the river.

The third time, this time.

In the heavy rain, she looked up at the tall buildings in the distance, her home.

Liu Ci is in it, and she is waiting for her to go back.

But she is so tired and doesn't want to go back. Is there any way to get rid of it completely?

She picked up the fragments of the beer bottle, and the little girl looked at her when she bent over.

That look made He Yu feel familiar.

Look at the hatred of the man who fell on the ground, look at his vigilance, and a little eagerness to get closer.

Even if the alley is extremely dim, this does not affect He Yu's judgment.

"Sister, are you crying?"

The kid asked.

He Yu heard the sound of the police siren from far and near, and stretched out his hand to touch the water mark on his face, not knowing whether it was rain, tears or blood.

She said, "Aren't you crying too."

The author has something to say: thanks to the little angel who voted for me or irrigated the nutrient solution during 2019-12-2421:59:43~2019-12-2720:07:55~

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