Confession

"Well, don't break up." Xu Sui looked at him with a smile, choked up.

Zhou Jingze squeezed her nose gently and said, "Anyway, leave this to me."

After Zhou Jingze pressed the phone, the cell phone's ringtone did not ring again.

It's dawn, and the morning market has not yet started, only a few breakfast shops at the intersection have opened.

Zhou Jingze took Xu Sui out and took her to breakfast. He ordered two bowls of won stew and took a bag of milk and put it in front of Xu Sui.

After the things came up, Zhou Jingze never cared about eating. He looked down at the phone, pressed his thumb on the phone screen, not knowing what he was pulling, and went out to make a phone call.

Xu Sui stirred the wontons in the bowl casually with a spoon. She only ate two of them and couldn't eat them anymore.

After Zhou Jingze returned from the call, he took Xu Sui back to the hospital and packed a breakfast of Xu's mother.

At the entrance of the hospital, Zhou Jingze handed her the porridge. He had always done everything well and said:

"Just hired a caregiver for my aunt, take care of yourself, call me if you have any problems."

The phone in Zhou Jingze's hand rang, he glanced at it and said:

"I have to go, baby."

Xu Sui raised his eyes and saw that he was not speaking. Zhou Jingze seemed to see through what she was thinking at a glance, and slowly spoke, his voice was as clear and clean as when he was a teenager:

"This profession is really hard and dangerous, but this world is indeed like this, someone has to do it."

"Do you know what I think every time I prepare for a dangerous rescue on a plane?"

"What?" Xu Sui was puzzled.

Zhou Jingze lowered her head, rubbed her thumb lightly on her cheek:

"Because you are there, the sky has meaning."

Because I was thinking that someone was waiting for him, every time I went all out to rescue him, I was alive and safe to come back to see her.

Xu Sui's heart flinched. She looked at Zhou Jingze and couldn't say the three words "Don't go" anyway.

"Okay, come back safely." Xu Sui said finally.

Xu Sui took out her mobile phone and took a look at the schedule. Originally, she was going to return tomorrow, but because of Xu's mother's illness, she took two days off from the work unit and changed the high-speed rail ticket.

Finally she walked into the ward with breakfast.

It didn't take long for Xu's mother to open her eyes and wake up, lying on the bed with a pale face.

Xu Sui lowered his eyelashes and said, "Mom, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said such heavy words to you."

"Stupid boy, how can you be to blame, you're old and sick." Mother Xu forced a smile.

Mother and daughter are the same, because there is the connection between the blood thicker than the water, and the emotions are always inseparable.

Xu Sui has been taking care of Xu's mother in the hospital these days and has been so busy. Fortunately, Zhou Jingze's aunt, a caregiver, has helped her a lot.

Afraid of delaying Xu Sui's work, Xu's mother kept urging her to go back.

Xu Sui, sitting in front of the hospital bed, cut an apple for Xu's mother, smiling and replied: "I have taken a leave of absence. It hasn't been two days since I stayed at home. You must let me finish the leave."

The nurse was changing the dressing for Xu's mother. Hearing the conversation between the mother and the daughter, the nurse said with a smile:

"You are so happy. A son-in-law gave you a blood transfusion, and a nurse was hired to take care of you. Later, there is a daughter who is busy with you."

"He came before?" Mother Xu asked her indifferently.

Xu Sui nodded, wanting to say something nice to Zhou Jingze in front of Xu's mother: "Yes, he was taking care of you when you were in a coma."

"Thank him for me," Xu mother said, turning to the nurse who was helping her to slow down the infusion rate, "He is not my son-in-law, but a friend of my daughter."

Xu Suizheng peeled the apple, and took a pause. A long string of green apple peels suddenly broke and fell to the ground with a "slap". She lowered her eyelashes, leaned over, picked it up, and threw it into the trash can. Did not say.

Xu's mother still did not let go of this matter.

The night before returning to Beijing, Xu Sui took care of Xu's mother in the hospital ward. What is reassuring is that her physical condition has gradually improved, and her mental head has also recovered more than half.

At nine o'clock in the evening, Xu Suizheng poured hot water for Xu's mother, and the heat quickly rose to the top of the paper cup. At this time, the mobile phone in her trouser pocket made a buzzing vibration. She put down the kettle, took out the mobile phone and took a look, her eyes paused.

It's Zhou Jingze.

Xu Sui was holding his mobile phone, and when he walked out of the door of the ward about to answer, Xu's mother's voice abruptly came from behind, her tone full of disappointment:

"One by one, do you want to **** your mother?"

Xu Sui finally didn't answer the call.

After returning to Jingbei, Xu Sui went to work as usual, kept in touch with Zhou Jingze every day, and occasionally went out to eat and shop with friends after get off work. It seemed that nothing happened to her, but there was always a rock in her heart.

Xu's mother's obstruction made Xu Sui's feelings more or less shaken.

Since Zhou Jingze joined the rescue team, every time he saw their news on the news, Xu Sui's heart began to panic.

People are really selfish when they have a partner, and only hope that he is safe.

After work on Friday, Xu Sui had nothing to do. She walked aimlessly on the street. She casually took a bus, sat in the last row, leaned against the window, and stared out of the car window. The scenery all the way back in a daze.

After the bus drove for an hour, Xu Sui randomly chose to get off at a platform and walked forward for more than ten minutes. Upon inadvertent glance, she unexpectedly wandered to her alma mater Medical University.

Diagonally opposite is the school’s famous snack street, which just separates the two universities of Beijing North Aerospace University and Beijing North Medical University. Xu Sui was hungry, put his hands in his pockets, and walked towards the other side.

People step into the bustling street, young female students arm in arm, their faces piled up with collagen, are picking fruits in front of the fruit stand, and they smile with youthfulness.

Just after playing basketball, the sweaty boy in his uniform is giving him water from his girlfriend.

Familiar and unfamiliar.

Xu Sui saw Yunji Noodle House not far away and walked in.

The business of this noodle restaurant is still so good, and the boss is very busy with a festive smile on his face.

Xu Sui found a seat in the corner and took out a tissue to wipe the table. The boss came over and asked her what she wanted.

"Here is a bowl of shrimp noodles," Xu Sui pressed his elbow on the menu, glanced casually, raised his head, and said, "By the way, boss, don't--"

"Oh, it's you," the boss pinched a ballpoint pen with his finger, and held a small notebook in his palm. "Medical students, right? You often came to my house for food during the postgraduate entrance examination."

"Yes, it's me." Xu Sui replied with a smile.

The boss took the menu she handed over, with a hearty voice: "It's still the old rule, add more onions and coriander, no vinegar, right?"

"Yes, you still remember." Xu Sui smiled.

After the noodles were served, Xu Sui picked up the chopsticks and took a bite into his mouth. The noodles were very chewy and the soup was still delicious.

Xu Sui ate very slowly, and in the end he was very comfortable with a thin sweat all over his body.

After graduation, she has never eaten such delicious noodles.

After eating, Xu got up and went to the checkout counter to check out.

The boss is counting the goods bill there.

Xu Sui held the phone, tapped the desk lightly, and said, "Boss, check out."

The boss raised his head upon hearing the sound, stopped his movements, and greeted:

"You came here alone today, where's your boyfriend? That handsome and tall young man."

Xu Sui was stunned. She and Zhou Jingze hadn't come to the noodle restaurant a few times for dinner, but the boss still remembered it.

She raised her hand and hooked the broken hair on the side of her ear, and said, "He...ah, he's working, and he doesn't have time to come over for the time being."

"Boss, how much is it?" Xu Sui took out his mobile phone and faced the QR code on the checkout counter as he was about to pay.

The boss waved his hand, wiped the glass cup with a white rag, and smiled:

"No, I still have a lot of money from your boyfriend."

Xu Suizheng looked down at the phone, staring at him, his tone was unbelievable: "What's the money?"

"Oh, don't you know? At that time you were taking the postgraduate entrance examination? Often reviewing late, he was afraid that you would have no food to eat, so he gave me a sum of money to open the store longer and let me take care of it. you."

With a "boom", Xu Sui had a city wall collapsed in his heart.

When Xu Sui was preparing for the postgraduate entrance examination, she remembered that the two had separated for a long time.

This person Xu Sui is like this. Once he invests in something, he becomes very self-conscious. Like someone is like this, and so is studying.

She still remembers that she stayed in the study room every day for the postgraduate entrance examination until everyone in the classroom was gone, and Xu Sui was still studying there.

As a result, when she came out, the cafeteria had already closed, and she ran outside the school. The shops at the door were also closed one after another. Either they were closing their stalls, or the ingredients in the shop were all sold out for a day.

Only this Yunji noodle restaurant has the lights on no matter how late it is.

Sometimes, when Xu Sui sits there to eat noodles, the boss will kindly hand her an umbrella when encountering heavy rain.

The winter in North Beijing is very cold. Every time Xu Sui ran out and held a book, her fingers were red with cold. The lady boss would give her a hand warmer or a cup of hot water when she saw it.

During the difficult days for the postgraduate entrance examination, Xu Sui was firm and lonely. When it was difficult to endure, seeing the light of the noodle shop was still on, he felt as if it was accompanying her.

But what Xu Sui didn't expect was me

The person who stayed with her was Zhou Jingze.

Xu Sui remembered what he was leaving, and finally did not forget to thank the boss.

The boss joked: "You are polite, remember to invite me when you get married, and I can also be regarded as a witness of your feelings along the way."

Xu Sui was taken aback for a moment, then nodded heavily and smiled: "Yes."

We will get married.

Xu Sui ran out of the shop and hurriedly took a taxi back home. He hurriedly pressed the elevator to the eighth floor on the first floor.

She walked into the house and started looking for things in the study. In a box of old things, Xu Sui turned over to a blue bear cap.

Xu Sui sat on the thick carpet and patted the dust on it with her hand. She stretched out her hand to take out the label inside and saw that there was a Z in it.

Not knowing why, Xu Sui suddenly wanted to cry.

Xu Sui still remembers the evening of the graduation dinner for his undergraduate degree.

When Xu Sui breathed a sigh of relief, he was also immersed in the sentimental atmosphere where everyone was about to be separated after graduation.

On the day of the dinner, Xu Sui specially put on makeup and wore a nice dress to attend the event that night.

Dozens of classmates sat around a warm brown rectangular table, eating barbecue and drinking wine and chatting about life.

A girl sitting next to Xu Sui suddenly showed two red books when everyone was chatting and laughing.

The girl leaned on the shoulder of the guy next to her, and shook her marriage certificate to everyone:

"Dear classmates, we have finished the ten-year long-distance love race, and we will receive the certificate today."

The atmosphere was heated up all at once, with applause and cheers one after another.

"Fuck, do big things without making a sound!"

"Come on, drink! You two must keep me drunk tonight."

The girl and the boy looked at each other and smiled, melting each other's love in their eyes, and generously accepted the wine glass they handed over.

Xu Sui held his head, sighing silently in his heart that it was so good, holding the tongs in his hand, he was turning over the pork belly on the stove, making a squeaky sound.

The girl came over and said, "Follow, what are you in a daze, come, we respect you."

Xu Sui returned to his senses, picked up the wine glass on the table, and drank it all in one fell swoop: "Congratulations, it's a good time for a hundred years."

"Hahaha, thank you, when do you plan to get married?" the classmate asked.

Xu Sui twitched the corner of his mouth and put down the wine glass: "I'm still early, I don't even have a target."

"I'll introduce to you in two days!"

"Okay." Xu Sui smiled and responded casually.

Classmates are about to part with each other, each scattered around the end of the world, paired around, or break up.

After a party, the atmosphere always lingers in a sentimental.

No matter what, Xu Sui found that she seemed to be alone along the way.

In the middle of the journey, Xu Sui went out to the toilet and accidentally ran into a girl at the corner of the corridor.

The strong perfume smell came, Xu Sui lowered his head and quickly apologized: "I'm sorry."

"It's you, Xu Sui."

A familiar voice came, and Xu Sui raised his head. It turned out to be Bai Yuyue.

But after the surprise, it didn't feel strange anymore. After all, the two of them were in the same department or the next class, and it was not unusual for them to set the graduation dinner place here.

"Well, it's been a long time." Xu greeted her with her.

Bai Yuyue wore a red skirt with a slender white ankle. She looked at Xu Sui condescendingly, raised her eyebrows, and said in a domineering manner:

"I was right at the beginning, you can't hold him back."

This "him" both knew who it was, and the expression on Xu Sui's face did not change much. She even twitched the corners of her lips with a mockery:

"It is."

Bai Yuyue lowered her head and touched the sequins on her nails, seemingly careless, but deliberately pounded:

"Have you been in contact with him lately? I heard that he re-has a girlfriend."

Xu Sui put her hands in her pockets, her nails sinking into her palms, tightening them like a masochist, a pain, she smiled reluctantly:

"It's not normal to fall in love after a breakup. People have to look forward."

In the second half of the sentence, Xu Sui didn't know who he was talking to.

"I have something to go now."

Xu Sui retracted his gaze on her, bowed his head and walked away.

Bai Yuyue looked at the back of Xu Sui hurriedly leaving, thinking that this lie was worthwhile.

After returning to the box, Xu Sui listened to the classmates chatting while having a barbecue over there.

The tongs against the thin slices of meat, oil overflowed, Xu Sui sprinkled a handful of cumin and seasoning powder, turned the meat a few times on the surface of the pot, and after a while, the aroma came out.

Xu Sui took a piece of lettuce, wrapped it in the meat, and mechanically put it in his mouth and chewed it.

I don't know if it is the cause of the oily smoke. The lacrimal glands are irritated, and there is a layer of water in my eyes.

Later, Xu Sui drank a lot of alcohol, and he became dizzy and unconscious.

What's terrible is that after drinking, she started to have a toothache.

In fact, Xu Sui's toothache has been persistent for some time. However, the graduation period was too busy, and she never had time to watch it.

Toothache is not a disease, it hurts terribly.

Xu Sui was half drunk, and she felt terribly uncomfortable at this time. With the toothache affecting her nerves, half of her face did not dare to make any movements.

She put down her wine glass and ran to the balcony to blow a hair.

The summer is sultry and the sky is bright, but there is no star.

Xu Sui was so drunk that she was unaware. At this moment, she especially wanted to find someone to talk to her. In a daze, she took out her mobile phone and called Hu Xixi.

The call was answered quickly, and the strange thing was that there was silence on the other end, only the sound of the wind was heard, as if it was on an empty flat ground.

Xu Sui didn't notice anything strange, she clutched half of her painful face, and the sound of sobbing passed over the receiver.

She just cried.

There was no question on the phone.

Xu Sui cried to the back, sobbing gradually, his eyelashes were stained with tears:

"Sisi, I miss him so much."

"It's useless if you...are trying to laugh at me, but I just miss him."

After a while, the voice on the other end of the phone paused, as if asking where she was.

"Party, ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, drunk and still have a toothache, I a little bit want to go home now." xu sui stretched out his hand to wipe away tears.

The person on the other end of the phone seemed to tell her to wait where she was, not to run around, Xu Sui obediently answered "Okay."

While waiting, Xu Sui's cheek was pressed against the railing, a chill came, the pain eased, and she squinted comfortably.

Xu Sui is not quite clear about what happened later, and vaguely remembers someone carrying her back home.

When he woke up the next day, Xu Sui had a cup of hangover tea and painkillers at the table, and a blue bear cap dropped beside him.

Xu Sui always thought that Hu Qianxi called other boys to take her home with her that night.

It now appears that the person that night was Zhou Jingze.

Only now has I discovered that he is always there no matter if Xu needs him or not.

Xu Sui squatted in front of the box with the little bear hat. She wanted to call Zhou Jingze now.

Xu Sui took out his mobile phone and made a call. After a few rings, it was quickly connected over there.

Zhou Jingze seems to have just got off the plane, his voice is as good as ever, with a grainy feeling:

"One by one, what's the matter?"

"nothing--"

Xu Suixin's mouth trembled, she held the blue bear cap, her voice was weary and soft:

"I just miss you."

Miss you so much.