First Player

No. 137 [What is the back of the sun?]

Noel pulled his hat brim down very low, revealing only the corners of his mouth, smiling as always.

He spread out his right hand, holding a building block castle.

The three primary color building blocks of red, blue and yellow were put together, like a child's jigsaw puzzle, with bright colors. He stared at the small building block castle and said with a smile:

"... Let's bet on whether you can overturn the building block castle in my hand."

Su Mingan looked at him puzzled.

Noel kept his hat down, making it hard to see his eyes:

"The seventh organizer, Yuritilola, promised me that he has a way to help me ascend to a higher dimension, and all I need to do is to do what I can."

"The Lord of the End of All Things promised me that he has observed Luowasha for many years and has mastered the ability to 'write'. If I have this ability, I can freely write the ideal new world and make the new world real."

"Ascend to a higher dimension and a new world."

"These two goals I seek are already completely clear. Maybe your end is still a long way off for you. But for me, I have reached the end."

Su Mingan listened quietly.

Transparent fish swam around them, sprinkling dots of fluorescence.

Noel's voice was always calm, as if he was stating something extremely ordinary. Su Mingan could also feel his heartbeat through the puppet thread in his hand.

Very calm.

They were all very calm.

It was like seeing an end that had long been visible to the naked eye, finally approaching them. Like a fork in the road that had been anticipated for a long time, it finally passed under their feet.

There is a prerequisite, which they have been very clear since the beginning when they first met, from the first cooperation, and from the beginning to the end - they are in a cooperative relationship, becoming friends and fighting side by side to realize their respective ideals.

However, the opposite ideals are destined to make their souls only meet briefly, and eventually go to their respective distant places.

Sky and hot land, flying birds and swimming fish.

From the beginning, they knew in their hearts that the sword of Damocles was destined to fall. From the meeting, they knew that there would be a day of separation.

No one would wrong themselves or throw away their ideals because of the other party. So now that they have found the end of their ideal, it is natural that Noel will leave decisively.

Su Mingan also accepted this day calmly.

——But why when the facts are really in front of him and the destined moment of separation comes on this day, he still feels hesitant and unbelievable?

It was like the moment when he saw Noel's red knife tip falling towards the sleeping demon Su Mingan, Su Mingan still felt unreal. He felt that Noel was not a person who would hurt his best friend for his ideals, and there might be something hidden. He tried to judge whether there was something hidden in Noel's eyes, but the brim of his hat was too low, and he could only see the blue roses blooming on the brim of his hat.

So, he said:

"... the initial contract of the amusement park, taking us to the sky of the main god world, making wishes together in the hot spring before New Year's Day, eating cakes, and hanging wishing notes, as well as the promises made by the ruins world, watching the collective wedding, giving us a brilliant fireworks, killing ducks and geese together in the villa, making dumplings, and pasting Spring Festival couplets... Are these all fake?"

"Noel Ajinni?"

"Is the...'love' for us fake?"

He recounted the past memories one by one, trying to find some evidence for the answer.

Noel still held down the brim of his hat, the black water was surging between them, and the library stood layer by layer, like a dark mountain.

After a moment, Su Ming'an heard Noel's very light voice:

"...It's true."

It's true.

Su Ming'an's pupils slightly widened.

Then, Noel said the next sentence:

"And now...it's also true."

Su Ming'an's ears seemed to ring with a firm bell.

All true.

Best friends are true, cooperation is true, anchors are true, bonds are true...leaving is also true.

Noel once sacrificed for him and accepted the investigation of the organizer on his behalf in the Ninth World. That's because Noel's way to realize his ideal at that time was to tie himself to his warship. Only if he was alive, Noel's ideal would have hope.

He had saved Noel from danger more than once, and Noel had also extended a helping hand to him in desperate situations more than once...They had cooperated and helped each other countless times, until today, Noel finally found a way to realize his ideal. So, Noel untied the shackles.

If Noel gave up his ideal for him, it would make the adventurer pale in comparison. He is independent, and Noel also has his own independent personality.

The blond boy bloomed on his path like a spring flower, and the souls that are different but harmonious will eventually separate.

"Da."

The black water was surging.

Su Mingan took a step forward, and he saw the shadow behind Noel, a child wearing purple grapes and olive leaves, with a body made up of hearts, spades, clover and diamond cards.

——So far, Noel has been connected with three high-dimensional beings. The seventh seat of the organizer, the Lord of the End of All Things, and Die Ying.

If Noel summons the seventh seat here, not only can he invade Si Que's dream, but Su Mingan's safety will also be threatened. And all this depends on Noel's thoughts.

"So are you going to do this? Summon the high-dimensional beings and attack me?" Su Mingan took another step forward, his fingers slightly bent.

His space vibration can also kill Noel instantly.

Now, they are like holding nuclear weapons that can kill each other at the same time. Whoever moves first will ensure safety. But no one moved first, they seemed to be looking at each other through thin glass.

Noel slowly let go of his hand, and the brim of the hat covered his eyes without pressing it. Perhaps Su Ming'an could see Noel's eyes when he leaned over, but it was not necessary.

The meaning is already clear.

Noel's left hand slowly rested on the building block castle in his right hand, tapping it like a piano.

It wasn't any code words, just playful tapping.

Like a child playing with a toy.

"Now is your best chance to kill me... Do you still think I have hidden secrets?" Noel lowered his eyes and looked at the brightly colored building blocks in his hand.

"It's not like you've never done anything like this before." Su Mingan said.

"But this time." Noel shook his head and finally gave a firm answer: "I do...have nothing to hide."

…

["No hidden secrets". 】

…

Noel should have had a thousand ways to tell him why, but no.

Noel should have had a thousand more appropriate ways to say goodbye, but there wasn't.

There was not even a code exchange between them. Except for some codes that confirmed that Noel was himself, Su Mingan did not respond to any of the codes.

No reply is actually already a reply.

"Just cut it off in two?" Su Mingan breathed lightly.

"Well. I'm glad I've walked a long way with you, but we're really here." Noel said.

"So, you think...your ideal is better than my life?" Su Mingan asked.

Noel's eyes blinked, as if it was strange, and he laughed: "Think from my perspective. If the way to save Zhai Xing is right in front of you, as long as you do it, you will be able to do it. The price is just Sacrifice my life - after trying hundreds and thousands of times and you are unable to save my life, will you choose not to sacrifice me but to give up on Zhai Xing?"

This empathy was so fatal that Su Mingan was silent for a long time.

"..."

silence.

The silence of silence.

Su Mingan had already faced this kind of decision in the ninth world. If Noel hadn't come to break the situation at that time, Su Mingan, who had no choice but to do anything... might really lose Yueyue in the end.

He really... couldn't give a definite answer.

After a moment, his voice was a little dry:

"Then why don't you summon Gao Wei immediately? Now is your best chance to make a move."

"Our bet is not over yet." Noel raised the building block castle in his hand.

"What's the point? What's the stakes?"

"If I win, you eat a few pieces of strawberry cake. If I lose, I eat a few pieces of chocolate." Noel said with a smile.

...What kind of bet is this? What kind of bet is this? It's just like a child playing.

Su Mingan subconsciously wanted to laugh. He was used to giving Noel face. Even if Noel told some jokes that were not funny, he would still laugh. But he reacted at the moment when the smile was about to appear... From now on, he didn't need to smile at Noel.

Noel's jokes were no longer for him or them.

The adventurer in the new world always likes to use this playful way to do everything, including his own life. But even though this was such a solemn moment, the young man still had a smile on his face.

Just like what the boy said to him at the beginning - [The game must be played with a smile].

Now, Noel was indeed smiling.

If you don't look at his eyes covered by the brim of his hat.

Su Mingan wanted to get closer to take a look, but Noel suddenly turned around and turned her back to him.

"When I was young, my adoptive parents would take me to the astronomy museum." Noel raised his head and looked at the sea of ​​stars and whales in the sky, as if he could see the blue sky of Zhai Star:

"Most of the astronomical museums in Yu State are very romantic. They will turn Venus, Jupiter, Saturn... into human beings to let you know their appearance, temperament, and hobbies."

"Saturn is a tepid angel. It has a huge halo and the color is like a hard-working farmer uncle."

"Mercury is a swift little elf with an orbital period of only 88 days. It will always meet the Sun very quickly."

"When I was a child, I didn't believe them like other children. Other children thought they were really 'angels' and 'elves'. But I knew that they were just planets orbiting the sun. They had no temperament and no good or evil at all."

“Human beings play the role of planets in the planetarium, not the actual planets.”

"All emotions are imposed on them by humans, who try to make them live as humans want. Humans are such selfish and broad-minded creatures who want everything to be presented and understood according to their thinking patterns."

"So, I knew then that planets are still planets, sirens are still sirens, and captains are still humans."

"The sea monster will not abandon the vast sea and go to the land to make a prison for the captain. The captain will not stay at the bottom of the sea for the sea monster and say goodbye to his hometown forever."

The blue rose ribbon flutters, and the boy's blond hair swims freely under the sea of ​​stars.

His white legs stood in the black water, but his slender back seemed to have sprouted long wings.

"Of all the stars, I like the sun best."

"This is not because it is the core of the solar system, nor because it is the origin of all life, but simply because... it is unique and unique."

"It is the only star in the entire system. It does not need to orbit anyone. As long as it exists there, it will be surrounded by other planets. Its scorching heat and dazzling brilliance make all things dare not look directly at it."

"——The sun leads all living things."

"Every time I finish a human experiment, after crawling out of the pool of blood, I like to go to the crack in the corner and stick there like a reptile... There is the only crack in the entire laboratory, the only place where you can see the sun. Even if it is only a little bit."

"Every time at this time, I feel like I have returned to my adoptive parents, lying with them on the warm lawn under the sun, reading "Jane Eyre", "Notre Dame de Paris" and "Les Miserables."

"With me is a person of the same age. As a child, he was also tortured by various experiments. Hand-breaking experiments, hunger experiments, drowning experiments, suffocation experiments... After each experiment, he would come over and ask me why I like the sun so much. "

"I said, I don't have much, but the sun, this is the only thing I can grasp in the past and future."

"He then lay in the gap with me to watch the sun. He said that he also had a happy childhood, riding the Ferris wheel with his parents, and then the bad guys came and the happiness disappeared."

"He also said that he was a bad kid, cheating, lying, and even indirectly killing others... He did everything. He said that children seem to be the most innocent, but they are actually the most evil, because without the constraints of the three moral values, children can do anything. What a terrible thing. "

"He also said that children are not the purest existence in the world, but the darkest. If there were only children in the world, it would be an extremely terrifying world. "

"But I smiled and said - No, children are not purely bad, but no one educates them well. If there is really a utopia in this world, it must be a world composed of [an upright adult and a group of blank children]. After being properly educated by adults, most children will be good people when they grow up. They are no longer children burned to death in war, baby girls drowned in ravines, children who have been stealing money in slums since childhood, and people with unfortunate families who have experienced domestic violence..."

"Any pain, any tragedy, any burning, killing and looting... ...are all contained in the cradle of childhood."

"I want to build such a utopia."

"If there is a utopia in this world, the tragedy of human experiments like ours will no longer happen."

"After listening to it, he said: So you want to be the only adult raising children? You are a dictator! It's a fantasy! It's so naive!"

"I said, yes, I admit that I am not a righteous person. I just want to go to the "sun."

"I want to be a "star" and respond to the blond child standing in the planetarium from afar."

"I want to travel around the universe and find out what is on the other side of the universe - I don't want to limit my vision to the planet Zhaixing, where I grow old, get sick and die."

"I want... to have a new world like utopia."