First Player

Chapter 1380 Chapter 32 · "Noel, from now on, we are no longer companions."

Having said this, Noel laughed and raised his head higher.

As if afraid that something will fall:

"... Later, the boy couldn't bear it anymore and died on the operating table. Before he died, he said that the person who betrayed his parents' information was a child, so children are all bad. My fantasy about utopia It’s doomed to fail.”

"...Later, I escaped from the laboratory."

"I didn't know where to go, so I went to work in the circus. I used the bloody wounds on my body to attract people's attention. I opened my wounds in front of the audience and exchanged them for a bite of delicious cake or bread."

"After trying to find a way to connect with a wealthy businessman, I entered a research institute and learned how to conduct human experiments."

"I have always been observing, observing the rules of life of adults in this world... At the age of sixteen, I put on the clothes of an adult, put on the hat of an adult, and tried to live like an adult."

"The clothes were too big, so I had to stuff a lot of cotton to make myself look like a strong man. I was not tall enough, so I had to put my shoes up very high so that I could look at the same level as adults. My voice was also too immature. I ate a lot of chili peppers during that time. , destroying my own voice, deliberately making my voice hoarse... Only in this way can those fat-bellied investors be willing to look at me, instead of treating me like a child. "

"After I had some savings, I started traveling around. I've been to the Polar Regions, Fuso, Gran, and Dragon Kingdom..."

"When I was seventeen, I asked the police to know the name of the boy who shared the same fate with me in the laboratory. Now I finally have the ability to build a tomb for him and lay a bouquet of flowers for him."

"The police told me that I was the only one on that floor of the laboratory."

"There was no boy with me at all."

"...Oh yeah."

Noel put one hand behind his back, and a bell-like smile floated under the brim of his hat:

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"...It turns out that I had already seen [the back of the sun] as early as midsummer when I was fourteen years old."

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The back side of the sun.

That is the "other self" who hates children extremely.

It is a bad, dark person who does not believe in human nature, does not believe in truth, goodness and beauty, and is tortured to the point of despair and collapse...'self'.

Occasionally, Noel would see the boy in his dreams. The boy was naked and covered in blood, standing in front of him, looking at him who was already as bright as the sun.

The boy asked him, what happened in his later life?

Noel replied that nothing unfortunate happened again. After leaving the laboratory, he grew up very quickly. He became very tall and strong. He could beat seven experimenters to tears with one punch. No one dared to bully him anymore. he. However, there is still too much filth left in this world, and no matter how smart he is, he cannot clear it away by himself.

The child asked him again - If the world is so dirty, why did you grow up to be so warm and bright today? Why does everyone call you "Little Sun"?

——Noor Akinni. How many pieces of clothing did you wear? Do you dare to peel off the flesh under your chest and let people see how dark your heart is?

——Your utopian ideal for children, the new world you keep talking about—how could you know that it is not your dictatorship and fantasy?

——How can you be sure that you will not become the inhuman "star" in the planetarium when you were a child?

——How can your ideal be called "noble" compared to Su Mingan's? His ideal is to save all mankind, but what about you? You just want a pure, white, authoritarian world, and you want to satisfy your desire to roam freely in the universe.

——Noor Akinni.

——On the crow that never falls, what is the highest respect you can pay him?

——Where are the sunflowers all over the mountains and plains that you let him see?

——Where is the floral note you wrote during the New Year?

——On the lawn dotted with champagne towers, where is your promise to them to ‘find it with you’?

——Are they all false? Is it all hypocrisy? Is it all to fulfill your desires?

"Whoa-whoa-whoa-"

The sound of black water flowed, and Noel's fingers stayed on the building block castle.

"No," he said softly.

It's not just that.

The world is too big, and Noel Akinni alone is not enough. After saving Zhai Xing, maybe the world of ruins, saving the world of ruins, and maybe the world of the past, saving the world of the past, Luo Washa is waiting behind again...

Many nights in the Lord God's World, he sat on the glass roof of the New World Guild, looking up at the stars, thinking - what is the end of the universe?

Where is the ultimate theorem of entropy reduction? What is the eternal way to create a utopia? Where in the universe is the method to make the sun set forever and clear away all the haze?

He wants to find it. Like picking up shells on the beach.

Like Noah saying goodbye to Akto, at the moment Noah set out on his journey, Noah also realized... Asa Akto's choice to stay doomed the future of this great savior. Asa There is no chance to travel to the vast universe again, Asa's life is completely fixed on a planet.

And the way to save everything may be in the distance. Noah wanted to find it, to find it on Asa's behalf, even if he went to the end of the universe.

But Noah failed to find it, he failed. When he returned, both were lost.

BE,3030.

What exactly does this mean?

Is there any way to a never-ending end?

Or does it represent some more horrifying truth?

As early as the beginning of the world game, Noel Akini realized the vastness of the world - the ultimate solution to all questions in the universe, which is difficult to answer just by staying at one step.

Zhai Xing is too young and too fragile.

It's more like a burden than a hometown.

For countless nights, he looked at the "angel" Jupiter with a diameter of 142,984 kilometers, the "cool" Mercury with a surface temperature of 452°C, the sun that can produce 3.828×10 watts of heat, and the star birth area about 1,350 light-years from the earth, the famous The Orion Nebula (M42). There is also a young star cluster visible to the naked eye, the Pleiades.

A total of 2,000 to 3,000 stars are visible to the naked eye on a clear night.

They lined up at the far end, as if rushing to come.

What a vast and beautiful wisdom.

——He wants to fly to the universe.

He wanted to see the warmth and sunshine of spring with his own eyes.

He wanted to take the glory of the pure white world with his own hands.

He had to find the path that could solve the ultimate problem of the universe and completely cut off all this chaos.

——What Noah failed to do, he went on to do it.

——Noah fell to his death and became a white bird, and he was clothed in new white feathers.

Shake off the dirt, decorate your wings, and put on your rose hat.

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——He will turn into a brand new white bird and fly away.

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The earth beneath our feet and the stars in the sky,

Which side is warmer?

Places I’ve been to and places I haven’t been to,

Where is further?

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"[We will meet many people in this life, and our fate is as fragile as running water.]" Su Mingan said.

Noel's eyes fell on the sea of ​​stars, and his left hand touched his chest:

"[...Only with you, it's like an endless river.]"

He picked it up anyway.

Still connected with this sentence.

"Is this really what you want?" Su Mingan's eyes seemed to fall on the brim of Noel's hat, and it seemed as if he had penetrated the fabric and saw the blue sea farther away.

"Yeah. That's it." Noel said.

"Then why don't you dare to let me look into your eyes?" Su Mingan said.

"..."

The sound of the turbulent black water suddenly became louder, and the blond boy slowly turned around.

After pausing for a moment, he raised his head and showed his blue eyes to Su Ming'an.

Blue, calm, bloodless and red eyes, clean, clear and bright. Not a trace of hesitation, not a trace of sadness.

Like two transparent mirrors.

Su Mingan's gaze stopped in Noel's eyes tremblingly, and he copied it over and over again, until five seconds later he confirmed that a ravine had inevitably appeared in their eyes.

Just walk over.

There the leaves will wave to you, the stones will smile at you, and the river will greet you.

"You once said that you wanted to see the happy look on my face." Su Mingan slowly squeezed his fingers.

There is neither poverty nor wealth there.

"That's in the past," Noel said.

There is no sadness and no pain.

"But you even gave me the key to the New World Guild." The light of space flickered on Su Mingan's fingertips.

There is no grudge or hatred.

"Oh." Noel showed a casual look, as if he just remembered: "By the way, you have to give me the key back."

There everyone dies equal.

Noel stretched out his hand and thought of something else: "Also, please remember to cancel the permissions of the villa later. I will not enter your villa again...if you can still go back."

Su Mingan looked at him silently.

After a moment, a very soft voice came out of Su Ming'an's mouth:

"In the wind and snow on the high-rise building in the ruined world, I turned around in the wind and snow, and you wished me a happy New Year."

This was their moment of true trust and his last redeeming words.

"Well... because I was thinking at that time..." Noel's tone became soft and warm for a moment, as if he had returned to his usual state.

Su Mingan's eyes froze for a moment, staring at Noel firmly, his breath mixed with moisture, waiting for Noel's answer.

"I was thinking..." Noel's tone quickly returned to joking, as if he was mocking some kind of expectation:

"I actually didn't think about anything. Why do you look so expectant? That will disappoint the first player."

Boom, boom, boom.

Each star, surrounded by the whale, exudes pure white light.

The cross light lit up, Su Mingan raised his hand, his left hand flashed with the shape of a scarlet claw, and finally pointed it at Noel.

Noel narrowed his eyes, and a shadow appeared behind him. He held a blue-pink sickle in his hand, and his aura suddenly rose.

"Whoa-whoa-whoa-" Heishui's voice lingered endlessly.

They were about to attack each other, and the momentum on both sides soared.

——But at this moment.

Out of nowhere, a small voice suddenly floated out:

"Can you hold on a little longer?... Noel Akinni."

Noel's pupils dilated in surprise, showing a brief moment of confusion.

He looked around to make sure there was no one else around, then looked at Su Ming'an and was convinced - this was actually what Su Ming'an said.

"Can you... hold on a little longer?" Su Mingan said softly.

The tone was like coaxing a child.

At this moment, the momentum of promotion on both sides ended.

I don't know if this is the first player's last attempt, or the usual strategy mode - the first player is trying to do everything possible to save things before things slip to the edge of being irrepressible.

Noel was stagnated by Su Mingan's suddenly softened tone, and stopped in place as if unable to react.

"Look." Su Mingan pointed to the building block castle in Noel's hand and pointed to the bottom square building block:

"We are currently the two strongest players in the world. If we work together, we will definitely be much stronger than fighting alone."

Noel was silent.

"Secondly." Su Mingan pointed to the rectangular building blocks in the middle:

"You own the [New World] Guild, and there are so many people supporting you. And I have the favor of the organizer's fifth and eleventh seats. I can help you contact Gao Wei, who is more well-intentioned."

Then, Su Mingan pointed to the top triangular building block:

"Third, the advantage of public opinion. Now people support the players at the top of the list, and public support can be used."

Su Mingan took back her hand and looked at Noel:

"Fourth, you and I are both people with special identities. My identity is [the person in power]. Maybe the world game favors me, which can help you."

Noel remained silent.

But his fingers were trembling, and the castle of blocks in his palms was shaking.

This scene... this scene is so familiar.

…

["Cooperate with me, player number one." In the grid of the Ferris wheel, Noel took out a bunch of colorful building blocks, like the building blocks that children like to play with.

Noel put a square building block on the table and looked at Su Mingan.

"First of all." Noel said: "We are currently the two strongest players in the world. If we work together, we will definitely be much stronger than fighting alone."

Su Mingan nodded.

"Secondly." Noel took out a rectangular building block and placed it on the square: "I own the [New World] Guild..."

Next came the triangular blocks, which Noel placed on top of the rectangle. "Third, the advantage of public opinion..."]

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Why.

The answer to why we have reached this point is extremely clear, but also extremely confusing.

"Crack-!"

The brick castle was suddenly overturned to the ground.

At this moment, Noel overturned the building block castle in his palm.

Triangles, rectangles, squares... crackling, pieces falling.

The brim of the hat was raised, revealing blue eyes. The reflected shadow fell in their eyes, and Su Mingan saw pieces of falling birds in Noel's eyes.

Triangular red birds, rectangular yellow birds, square blue birds...

——falling in his blue eyes one after another.

The blond boy stepped forward and grabbed Su Ming'an by the collar, exposing the veins in his palms.

"——What are you talking about?" Noel still had a bright smile on his face, as if it was glued to his face. He tightened his collar:

"You are awakening my past memories and trying to move me?"

"What if I'm tired of the world where you are the protagonist?"

"What if I have to go to the universe to find the answer?"

"What if-"

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"What if - I must terminate the cycle of BE3030!!!??"

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If so, what does this number really mean? ? ? Can you stay here forever and escape from this quagmire? ? ?

Noel's roar caused the black water to surge.

The swimming fish shed starlight, and the whales roared far away.

"Gao——"

There was a long cry and thousands of books shook.

But Su Mingan gasped and suddenly laughed loudly:

"Haha...hahahaha...!!"

"You're still exposed. You can't fool...you can't fool me...you can't even fool yourself...you are...love us...ha, hahahahaha——!"

At this moment, his eyes flashed with sadness for a moment.

It was like a small blade scraping across his heart, and pain arose all over his body.

It seems that everyone's survival rate depends on the efforts of the first player. Their happiness, their ending... all depend on his own hands, relying on him to go far away and find a fleeting spark.

But at this moment, looking at Noel's twinkling eyes, Su Mingan once again understood the unquestionable answer——

It turns out, that’s how it turned out.

——He is not the only one who needs this kind of dependence the most.

The "star" with a diameter of 1,392,000 kilometers has still become human, just like countless cliché stories told by planetarium staff - the adventurer finally went against the ideas of his childhood.

The soul stagnated at the age of fourteen puts on adult clothes and hat, trying to live like an adult.

The clothes were too big and he had to stuff them with a lot of cotton to look like a strong man.

He is not tall enough, so he must wear high-cushioned shoes to be able to look at eye level with adults.

So when he was in pain and about to stay away - he had to put on a lot of smiles to keep his eyes so calm.

He lost, he lost the bet he made - Su Mingan did not overthrow his building block castle, he overturned his building block castle.

But there was no strawberry cake in his hand, and he was already out of chocolate.

"...I still can't convince you?" After laughing, Su Mingan looked at the broken block castle and knew the unquestionable answer.

Noel slowly let go of his hand. After a brief silence, he returned to his calm smile: "Yes."

He stuffed the "cotton" into his face again, his eyes like a silent galaxy.

"Well, okay." Su Ming'an stopped his last attempt.

That's enough, Noel has expressed his complete determination in his roar.

So, it would be a bit ugly to continue.

He is not the kind of person who will not let go of the anchor point... at least, he thinks not.

After a long and silent tug of war, he also regained his proper expression and nodded.

"Well."

The rough stone in his heart rolled to the ground at this moment, and a sharp pain came.

With a plop.

When he spoke again, his voice trembled slightly:

...

"- Let's stop here, Noel, from now on, we are no longer companions."

...

He must have shown a lonely look for a moment.

Otherwise, why did those blue eyes reveal a similar moment of grief?

...

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Recently, Noel often dreams of the past.

He dreamed that he was in that narrow Ferris wheel cabin, building blocks over and over again.

Building and knocking down, building and knocking down.

Clatter, clatter.

Brilliant New Year fireworks were blooming outside the window, and there was no one opposite him.

Later he looked at the empty seat and found out.

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——From the beginning, his guests sat opposite him, not beside him.

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