For The Rest of Our Life

After Lin Xian left, this paradise that once had warmth and joy turned into a world where she was alone and calm.

Xiao Wanqing suppressed his crying, leaning against the closed anti-theft door, his eyes turned red. Her hair was clinging to her wet, red, swollen cheeks, her arms clasped her knees, her head buried in it, and she felt helpless like a child.

For a long time, she finally forced herself to suppress the fragile cry that should not be at this age. Her body was trembling because she just cried, and her brain was slowly regaining her sense under deliberate suppression.

Zhou Qin's physical condition was very wrong, and Xiao Yunqing was very upset and worried.

She leaned against the wall and stood up. Suddenly, she felt sick and retched into the corner of her eyes, and tears oozed out. After alleviating, she had a hard time going back to the bedroom, making a call to Lin Xian, or sending a text message to ask about the situation. The next moment, she realized afterwards that Lin Xian had just left too quickly and did not bring her own cell phone.

She wouldn't be able to contact Lin Xian... This cognition made Xiao Yunqing's whole heart hollowed out in a moment, and he was utterly panicked and emptied. The roar in her ears seemed more and more rampant, and tossing made her want to vomit again.

Will not. She continued to walk toward the bedroom heavily, whispering to appease herself.

In the bedroom, pictured on the head of the bed, she and Lin Xian smiled broadly. Xiao Yunqing leaned on the bed and fell halfway down, with his arms around the pillow that Lin Xian had pillowed on, put his chin on it, and breathed in the breath of Lin Xian with nostalgia. His eyes were moistened at the fingertips. Taking a picture, the throat choked with pain.

She was wrong, she had failed Zhou Qin's trust, sorry Zhou Qin. Zhou Qin blamed her and accused her of nothing wrong. The scenes that have appeared countless times in the nightmare finally became true, like self-torture. Xiao Yunqing couldn’t control the replay of Fang Cai Zhou Qin’s disappointed eyes and words. The feeling of guilt and self-abandonment made her like the whole person. Being roasted on the fire, life is better than death.

She and Lin Xian were wrong together. She didn't hold the line and Lin Xian's love for the moment was even more wrong. Zhou Qin's eyes even made her feel so dirty, and tainted the clean Lin Xian.

However, it was like a moth putting out the fire, even though I didn't regret it. Knowing that everything is wrong, she knew she should not be wrong, she still had to love Lin Xian.

Giving up is more difficult than perseverance. She just thought of Lin Xian's surely persistent face, and thought of giving up the idea of ​​escaping, she was heartbroken.

Obviously, like all the other couples in this world, they love sincerely, live hard, and look forward seriously, why they should die in the cold night before dawn.

Maybe she is not the most suitable person for Lin Xian, but apart from her parents and relatives, she vows that she will be the person who loves Lin Xian most in the world.

Not reconciled... Xiao Wanqing couldn't suppress it, crying out of grievance again, out of breath.

She closed her eyes tiredly, and the scene with Lin Xian was playing back in her mind, with joy and sorrow, or crying or laughing, which were the most precious and most inseparable treasures in her life.

It was as if she was shameless and shameless, and wrong again and again. Xiao Yuanqing's lower lip was biting too hard, and a little blood oozed out, but she knew nothing. For a while, she sniffed her nose, calmly looking down, holding the bedside table firmly out of the bed, slowly taking clothes from the closet, and combing herself in the bathroom.

The redness on the face can't be blocked even with heavy makeup. Xiao Yunqing pursed her lips, smiled bitterly, and gave up.

She changed her clothes, packed her hair, and then took a mask from the top of the cabinet. She did not care about the pain when the mask rubbed her skin. She blocked most of her face and only showed a pair of wet redness. Bright eyes.

She took the bag, took the car key, her thin hands clasped the door handle tightly, and hesitated for a moment at the door. Eventually, she turned the handle hard and opened the door, facing Lin Xian and their fragility without turning back. And strong love advances.

She did not know what Lin Xian would endure when she returned home, but she could not let Lin Xian bear it alone.

This time, Xiao Longqing was only able to walk alone on this long avenue from the South to the North. In the first half of the road, Lin Xian had taken her through once on her last birthday. Behind, the road leading to the Lin family, who will also pass hers, Xiao Yunqing has not set foot in many years.

The road has been diverted and widened, the house has been demolished and rebuilt, and everything has been completely different from what she remembered. After walking the road that Lin Xian once walked with, Xiao Yunqing stopped at the fork of the road, watching the endless traffic from all directions, and the rushing people on both sides of the road, and suddenly he was at a loss.

After all, she did not recognize the way home, she was a homeless person. In an instant, Xiao Yunqing felt something completely broken in his heart, and he burst into tears silently.

She was afraid to panic and even wanted to escape again, escape this terrible reality, escape the nightmare that has enveloped her for years. But this time, she can't, her girl is still waiting for her.

She held her breath and held back her choked breath, trembling and opened the navigation, and embarrassedly entered the place name that she should be most familiar with, but now too strange to find. She looked at the tortuous lines on the navigation, then looked at the empty passenger seat next to her, wiped away her tears, and set off again.

When the car passed by the road she had walked countless times in her youth, and dreamed of the avenue leading to her home in tears and wet pillows at midnight, she raised her head and looked at the innermost house in the community, with a sharp heart Trembling.

At this moment, with this feeling, she couldn't help but recall the scene when she left home that year, the desperate and angry faces of her parents and Zhou Qin that year, and the firm and persistent self like Lin Xian at that time. . She clenched the steering wheel tightly, her nose sore, and suddenly she didn't know if she was right or wrong.

Sorry, sorry to let her be selfish again, let her fight for it again.

Based on her memory, she drove into the community where Lin's family was, and parked her car. She sat in the car with her hands folded for a long time before she made up her mind to walk to Lin Xian's house.

With the rise of the elevator floor, Xiao Yunqing's eyes outside became more and more uneasy, but also more and more determined. She stood in front of the Lin family door where the door closed, clenching her fists involuntarily with one hand, and slowly raised her hand to ring the doorbell.

The crisp doorbell rang in the quiet and unmanned corridor, inexplicably infiltrating. Xiao Yuanqing's lips were tightly tucked under the mask, and his waist was straight.

She was prepared to greet the anger and censure after opening the door, and even made preparations to enter in anyway.

However, after a few uncomfortable seconds passed, the door remained motionless, silently.

Xiao Wanqing frowned, raised his hand again hesitantly, and rang the doorbell. She stood upright with the ear that was not injured or tinnitus, paying attention to the movement in the room.

After a few seconds, there was no footsteps in the room and no one responded.

Xiao Yuanqing's finger on the button of the doorbell gradually shrunk into a fist.

Without footsteps, it looks as if no one is at home. However, after so long, they could not have reached home.

She thought of Zhou Qin's state when she left, and a terrible thought flashed through her mind, making her eyes wide open for a moment.

She couldn't take care of the others and hurriedly pulled out her phone from her bag. She panicked and hurriedly opened the lock screen and called Zhou Qin's phone.

The moment she dialed it, she listened to the rhythmic mechanical beep at that end before remembering who had called her. But everything is no match for her worry about Zhou Qin and Lin Xian at the moment. She endured the fear and shame, expecting the phone to be connected, and expecting the voice of Zhou Qin's anger and scolding to ring in her ears.

The ringing continued, the phone was not cut off, but it was not picked up. Xiao Yuanqing hung one heart high, eight up and down

Just a few seconds before the ringing was about to hang up automatically, the phone was finally connected.

Xiao Yunqing's heart fell to the ground in an instant, and there was a slight smile in his lips. She opened her mouth, only to find that her voice was so choked with hoarseness, "Sister..."

"It's me, Lin Zhan." The low-pitched male voice that she didn't expect was ringing at the end of the phone.

Xiao Yuanqing sighed for a moment, and the whole person seemed to be locked in. An ominous premonition rose in her heart, and she shivered with a trembling voice: "Sister..."

"She was stunned by Lin Xian on the way back, just came to the rescue first and waited for a little more stability for further inspection." Lin Zhan replied with low air pressure.

His heart was still pounding at the moment, unable to express his fear and panic at the moment when he received the phone call from Lin Xian crying. Fortunately, the man fell at the door of the hospital, he was rescued in a timely manner, and soon woke up, with normal consciousness and clear mouth, but after all he was too tired and fell asleep again.

Xiao Wanqing's most feared thing happened. She didn't dare to blink and waited for Lin Zhan's answer. When she heard Lin Zhan's words, she was out of control and fell down uncontrollably. Her shoulders hit the door frame hard to stabilize her body.

The severe pain struck, but she lost her instinct to cry. Panic, worry, self-blame, and shame have wiped out her heart. She self-punishment has generally pinched her sore shoulder and blamed herself with a choked voice: "Sorry, sorry, it's all my fault. Lin. Brother Zhan, how is your sister? Where are you?"

The doctor preliminarily concluded that Zhou Qin should be a syncope caused by hypoglycemia and myocardial ischemia, and asked Zhou Qin if he had a history of coronary heart disease, but specifically, he still had to wait for further systemic examination. At this moment, what Zhou Qin needs is rest, to maintain a peaceful state of mind and a stable mood.

After listening to Lin Xian’s intermittent briefings, Lin Zhan was stunned. For a moment, his heart was filled with the same anger and disappointment as Zhou Qin, and he was so angry that he raised his hands against the wall. Punch. He was irritated by Lin Xian and Xiao Wanqing, and even more so, Lin Xian did not dislike Zhou Qin and turned Zhou Qin into this. But after the pain, he looked at his daughter who was worried about Zhou Qin, and his heart gradually softened.

He has no prejudice against homosexuality. He did not want Lin Xian to like the same sex, but if Lin Xian really had to be a girl, he was not unacceptable. But he couldn't accept Lin Xian's arrogance of Zhou Qin for his own sake, and Lin Xian's impulsiveness and selfishness.

Moreover, how old is Lin Xian now? Does she really know what she likes and what love is? Is she really sure she is **** and will not like boys anymore?

In the end is his own daughter, Xiao Wanqing is also the sister he looked up to. He was still facing them, and he couldn't say too bad words.

Lin Zhan twisted his sword eyebrows, tiredly and slowly said: "Qin Qin needs to maintain a stable mood, you are not suitable to come over now." He paused for a while, in the end there was still resentment, the tone was low and coldly said: "Xiao Yun, I am real I didn't expect you to do this. I am very disappointed with you."

Lin Zhan has always been kind and gentle. When he was young, he was much bigger than Xiao Wanqing. He teased the younger girl to play with her and generally loved him as a sister. After growing up, men and women are different and alienated, but they have always been like gentle and reliable brothers. However, whenever necessary, they are obliged to stand up and help her.

His calm and restrained words, like arrows, broke through the air and squeezed into Xiao Wanqing's heart with great precision, bringing pain to the heart.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, but I'm sorry for you..." Xiao Yunqing let go of his shoulders, and crouched weakly, crying silently.

"Dad..." Lin Xianwen Yan stood up from the aisle seat and looked at him with red eyes, pulling his forearm sobbing and begging him: "Dad, don't say it, she is also very uncomfortable, we Nobody wants this, we don't want it..." At the end of the speech, it was already sobbing.

Lin Zhan felt pain in his heart. He opened his eyes and sighed for a long time. After all, he didn't say anything. He left a sentence "Come back in a few days", and then hung up the phone.