Hello Chang’an

Chapter 442: Stay with me all the time

Cui Jing stepped a little slower and replied: "I have, but I can't say that I am very close and trustworthy."

He has an indifferent temperament, and I can't even count three people, including Yuan Xiang, who can be said to be very close to him.

After he answered, he did not ask Chang Suining any further questions. He just waited quietly to see if she wanted to continue.

After walking for more than ten steps, Cui Jing heard a voice in his ear again: "I have experienced many betrayals, but this time is particularly different... I consider myself not a stupid person, but I never doubted him in the slightest until my death."

"He knows my secrets and even knows me better than Lao Chang and the others. He is the only one who has known me the longest. He grew up with me. He accompanied me through the most difficult road in the palace and in the army. Everything he could do for me—"

Her voice was softer and slower: "It's clear that we are not family, but we are better than family..."

From these words, it was not difficult for Cui Jing, who knew so much about her life, to guess who the "he" in her mouth was.

Cui Jing also had a moment of surprise and trance.

"I pride myself on not being fooled easily, and always remember to be on guard... I was always aware of those betrayals in the past, and even if it didn't work, I could still recall the clues afterwards. But he is the only one who, even now, when I think about it, I can't I still can’t think of a time when he had any flaws.”

There was a hint of confusion in Chang Suining's voice that he never revealed: "Therefore, recently when I am alone in meditation, I always feel uneasy."

Cui Jing then asked: "Why is Your Highness so uneasy?"

"I have been depriving myself since I became an Axiao when I was young." Chang Suining put his chin on Cui Jing's shoulder, raised his head slightly and looked at the sky, his eyes as calm and constant as the night: "Such as fear, cowardice, impulsiveness, useless kindness, tears, and the ability to make mistakes."

Every time she continued speaking, it seemed as if one of the stars in the sky was extinguished until only one was left -

"But I don't want to be deprived of the ability to trust people again." She stared at the only Xingzi and murmured: "If I don't dare to trust anyone anymore, I will turn into a dark monster."

Cui Jing understood her "uneasiness".

It's not that I'm afraid that a second betrayer will appear, but that I'm afraid that I'll lose the eyes to distinguish between true and false, and the courage to trust others.

"Your Highness will not become a monster." He said: "Your Highness must remember that your Highness is a trustworthy person, and there will never be a shortage of trustworthy people around you."

The young man's voice was also very slow, like a clear spring passing through a mountain stream: "People's hearts are complex and changeable. I dare not vouch for anyone easily, but I can at least guarantee that there are two people in this world that your Highness can always trust -"

He said: "The first is General A Dian."

Chang Suining nodded his head in approval: "A little bit is best."

She said: "So I didn't pick up A Dian, it was A Dian who took me in."

A Dian took her in with his innocent heart. Let her keep a place of purity deep in her heart.

"Cui Jing, you really know me." Chang Suining murmured.

Cui Jing's clear brows and eyes were extremely soft. He knew she had it because he had it too.

He also has such a pure place in his heart, where the moonlight will never dissipate.

"What about the second person?" Chang Suining asked him.

Cui Jing answered seriously: "It's His Highness himself."

He said: "Your Highness is the most trustworthy person in the world. You can always listen to your inner voice. If you believe in yourself, you will not make mistakes and you will not become a suspicious monster."

His voice was not strong, but he had an unshakable determination.

"If I believe in myself, will I not become a monster?" Chang Suining repeated it thoughtfully. When the confusion in his eyes disappeared, he blinked slowly and said, "I asked you who the second person was. I thought , you would say Cui Jing."

"Cui Jing is a trustworthy person." Cui Jing paused half a step, tilted his head slightly, and said to the person on his back: "If your highness is willing, you can try to trust him."

"Can you also vouch for him?" Chang Suining asked.

"Yes, I can guarantee that he will never betray His Highness."

Chang Suining: "Absolutely?"

Cui Jing: "Absolutely."

Chang Suining: "You said this yourself."

"yes."

"You must do what you say—" Chang Sui Ning said, "You should know that I am not a good person."

"Of course I know." There was a hint of warm smile in Cui Jing's voice.

The next moment, he suddenly felt that Chang Sui Ning Huan's hand in front of him parted, wrapped around his neck from behind, and held his face instead.

Cui Jing stopped at his feet, and just followed the strength of her hand in a daze, turning his face to her.

Looking at each other, within a short distance, his heartbeat was like thunder, but the world was silent.

Chang Suining held his face in a very comfortable posture, looked at him with a pair of bright black eyes stained with mist, and said slowly: "Cui Ling'an, has anyone ever told you that you really know how to heal others?" , how to treat others well—"

She removed all embellishments and said in the most straightforward terms: "I really feel that I am being treated very well by you."

Cui Jing almost didn't know how to react. He could only look into her eyes for a moment. It seemed that only these eyes with a crystal smile were left in the world.

The next moment, those eyes moved slightly and landed on his face, followed by her hand holding his cheek—

"So, everyone in the world says that you have a bone in your body. Where exactly is that bone in your body?"

As the girl spoke, her long, cold fingers explored and touched the young man's prominent brow bone, then to his forehead, then to the top of his head, and behind his ears.

She was looking at his bones very seriously.

Cui Jing's heart was beating wildly, and she felt that her fingertips seemed to carry the holy moonlight leaking from the clouds, but wherever she touched, they were ignited with fire that burned the sky and the earth.

He tried to calm down, but all his sanity melted like snow in an oven.

He was afraid that she would be unstable on his back, so he supported her with one hand, and the other big hand was instead firmly supporting her lower back.

Just when the hand was about to reach into the back of his neck, Cui Jing turned his head with difficulty and tried to make his voice sound normal and calm: "...rebellious rumors, just rumors."

He also said: "Hold your highness, the road going down the mountain is slippery, don't move any more."

After hearing his denial, Chang Suining gave up and returned to a secure posture with her arms around him, while saying: "I think it's also a rumor. You are so good, but you don't seem to be a rebellious person by nature."

"Your Highness." Cui Jing corrected him carefully every word: "This is also the first time I have treated someone like this."

Then he said in a very sincere tone: "No one taught me how to treat others well, so I shouldn't be doing a bad job."

"I feel great." Chang Suining rested her head on his strong shoulders, closed her eyes sleepily and peacefully, and whispered in her sleep: "Cui Jing, please stay with me forever."

The young man's thick eyelashes trembled slightly, revealing his endless sincerity, and his voice was low and serious: "Okay, from now on, Your Highness will abide by the law, and I will protect His Highness."

"Then you must take care and be safe." The dreamy voice said: "I don't want to be able to abide by this way one day, but Cui Ling'an is no longer around..."

"Otherwise, even if you are under Jiuquan, I will pull you out and beat you..." She said again in a "threatening" tone: "I am not a good person."

Cui Jing believes that this is probably the most dangerous threat in the world.

When she didn't hear his response, she seemed a little uneasy and asked again: "Do you remember?"

"I remember." Cui Jing: "After your highness wakes up, will you remember?"

"Of course." Chang Suining whispered: "Although I was slightly drunk, I didn't say a word of confusion."

Cui Jing said with a smile: "Okay, then I'll feel relieved."

He could notice that she seemed to be really sleepy. Then she started to speak intermittently, as if she would say whatever came to her mind, and the topics would change abruptly.

For example, she suddenly asked: "...You always know what I want, what I like, and what I need. You seem to know everything, so what do you like? I always need to know something, so that I can give you something back."

"Your Highness doesn't have to give me anything back." But as he walked slowly, he still replied seriously: "I like this mountain, this month, and this time." Chang Sui Ning said, "Then let's walk slower. Remember to take a closer look. look…"

Cui Jing smiled slightly: "Thank you, Your Highness, for your support."

The person on his back began to make serious plans: "You like mountains and the moon. When you go to Jiangdu someday, I will entertain you with the mountains of Jiangnan and the moon of Jiangdu..."

Cui Jing: "Okay."

As long as it is related to the mountains and the moon, it is the best.

Chang Suining said again: "Wait a little longer... wait for some day, I will bring all the mountains and moons in the world to entertain you."

Hearing her talk getting louder and louder, not only thinking about entertaining him, but also thinking about her great cause in the world, Cui Jing laughed silently and said: "Okay, I will wait for that day."

After saying this promise related to the great cause, Chang Suining's voice became even lower, sounding a little drowsy.

"Cui Jing... Actually, at first, I didn't believe you that much. I thought about it and watched, and it took me a long time to dare to believe you. But, you don't seem to be like this..."

"It seems that you have never tested me, never hesitated, you have always treated me without putting up any defenses, and you just chose to stand by my side, so I often feel..." She asked: "Have you ever seen me before? know me?"

She asked, but Cui Jing denied it before.

After a while, when Cui Jing was about to answer, he turned his head slightly and saw her sleeping face.

"I don't want His Highness to remember me at that time." He said slowly to himself: "But if Your Highness asks again, I will answer truthfully."

Chang Sui Ning didn't ask again, she was already sleeping deeply.

At this time, they had reached a relatively flat and open mountain road, but Cui Jing still carried her on his back until he walked down the mountain - she said that he could walk slowly. Although he had selfish motives, she had given her permission.

After coming down the mountain, Cui Jing hugged Chang Sui Ning and got on his horse.

He moved carefully, holding her in front of him, so that her head rested firmly on his arms.

He then took off his cloak, covered her carefully, and tucked her under the cover. When he saw one side of her neck, Cui Jing paused slightly.

The neck is white as snow, matched with black hair, and glows like pearly light under the moonlight.

Not knowing what she thought of, Cui Jing narrowed her eyelashes slightly, raised her slender fingers, and paused on the top of her neck. Through the moonlight, she slowly caressed the old scars that did not exist.

He had never touched her, but his movements were still extremely careful and extremely gentle, like a moonlight kiss.

Fourteen years ago, this place must have hurt a lot.

Even though he was talking to himself in his heart, he felt a dull pain that was uneasy.

After a moment, he carefully wrapped her in a cloak, leaving only a little bit of her head exposed.

Cui Jing held Chang Sui Ning with one hand, grabbed the reins with the other, and drove the horse very slowly, so as not to disturb her sleep.

Chang Sui Ning slept so deeply that he never even dreamed.

Cui Jing could not sleep all night.

…

Early the next morning, when Chang Suining woke up, he was already in his tent.

She sat up, her black hair loose, stretched out, squinted her eyes and looked at the large tent filled with sunlight, and showed an equally energetic smile.

When Chang Suining woke up, the female soldier went to get hot water for washing.

When the female soldier turned back, she saw Chang Suining still sitting on the couch with her hair down. She couldn't help but smile and asked, "What do you think, Lord Governor?"

Normally, the governor would get down and get dressed immediately after waking up.

Chang Suining lifted up the quilt and got down on the bed, smiling and saying, "Think about what we said last night."

Nine times out of ten, she remembered that she enjoyed the Youzhou moon last night, which was very comfortable and healing.

After Chang Suining washed and dressed, he was just about to sit down for breakfast when Kurili ran in from outside, wagging his tail.

Hao Huan walked in and said with a smile: "It was Hei Li who brought the horse back last night."

The governor was brought back by Governor Cui - but for Hao Huan and others, this is a private matter of the governor. As subordinates, they can just see it in their eyes and it is not appropriate to talk about it.

Chang Suining smiled and touched Hei Li's head: "It turned out to be a request for credit."

Chang Suining asked someone to prepare breakfast for Hei Li, and gave him half of his eggs as a reward.

After dinner, Chang Sui Ning was about to go out of the tent, but Tang Xing asked to see him.

Tang Xing came to say goodbye, saying that he had not been home for a long time and wanted to go back to visit relatives.

Chang Suining nodded: "That's right. This place is only a few hundred miles away from Wutai Mountain. There is no reason to be inaccessible. It's time to go back and see my family."

She didn't say much or asked anything else. She only gave Tang Xing a heavy purse as a means of payment.

Tang Xing did not refuse and bowed deeply: "Thank you, Lord Governor."

Chang Sui Ning sat there without moving, nodded and said: "Don't be sleepy and be careful along the way."

Tang Xing straightened up.

Chang Sui Ning asked Hao Huan to see him off on his behalf.

Tang Xing thanked him again, bowed, and exited the tent.

Hao Huan quickly turned back: "Sir, we have already left."

Tang Xing was just a man with a knight and a sword. He had nothing to deal with. He was very easy to go and stay.

Chang Suining nodded.

Hao Huan hesitated for a moment, but couldn't help but ask: "Sir, he didn't mention a return date, he just said goodbye, will he never come back?"

Chang Suining: "Maybe."

"My lord loves you so much, why don't you say anything to persuade him to stay?" Hao Huan said: "Or make an appointment with him on a date to see you again, or even send him off in person..."

Your Excellency’s performance today is not your usual “way of treating talents.”

As everyone knows, Chang Sui Ning, who has a talent in love, only looks relaxed on the outside, but is already bleeding inside.

But considering Tang Xing's temperament and attitude that he had always shown, she had just expected this day.

"He is different from others. He is unstable and cannot be kept by external forces. The more reluctant I am, the more pressure I will put on him, or it may be counterproductive." Chang Sui Ning said: "He didn't say it clearly, maybe it's the same. I’m thinking about whether to go back or not. If he wants to come back, he will come back.”

During these days, Tang Xing had gone through life and death with her, talking about his experiences, swordsmanship, and general trends in the world, but he never talked about his future plans.

This time, if he comes back, it means that he is truly willing to stay.

"What if he never comes back?" Hao Huan asked worriedly.

"If I can't keep him, no one else can keep him either." Chang Suining: "At least you don't have to worry that he will become a help to the enemy."

Tang Xing's talent is undeniable and irreplaceable. Not only is this person quick-thinking, but his knowledge is also truly broad. In Chang Suining's view, the other person has yet to be of great use in her hands.

If possible, she hoped very much that she could wait until Tang Xiuxian came back to look for her.

Chang Suining felt reluctant to leave. As soon as she left the tent, she met someone who came to say goodbye to her.

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