I’m a Director, I’m Not Bad

Chapter 304 302. The wind mixed with tobacco, alcohol and cigars

These days, if you ask where is the best place to go for a business banquet in Yanjing, it is the high-end one. Nine out of ten people will tell you that it is heaven and earth.

One is the rules, the other is the beautiful sister, and the third is "safety".

No matter what kind of guests come, from beauties to waiters or even toilet cleaners, you don't have to worry about your information being exposed or what you're doing.

This is also the place where Wang Sicong called to play today.

There are quite a lot of people.

Both men and women are available.

Don't ask what they do or how they got there.

I was called here today just to praise Xu Xin and "The Wind".

From the time Xu Xin and the others finished their meal, they could be welcomed from all sides, or cheered in front of them.

Under the deliberately created class, the charm of the nightclub began to slowly bloom.

Xu Xin hasn't been to a place like this for a long time.

At this moment, the room was filled with fragrance, and he was restless.

However, the more restless his heart became, the calmer his mood became.

While everyone was singing and dancing, he took a glass of wine and sat in the corner, looking at the drinking and laughing people, seemingly in a daze.

Until the eldest young master, who had just finished drinking with a group of Xu Xin's sisters who didn't know where they came from, came over.

"What are you doing? You're not gregarious at all."

"I'm afraid of making mistakes."

He took the cigarillo from Wang Sicong, touched the cup with Wang Sicong, and said:

"My wife is not allowed to be touched. She is very agitated. You must restrain yourself."

Hearing this, Wang Sicong didn't say anything.

Nodding slightly:

"Then let's play more quietly next time... Today it was Warnhead who was clamoring to find more sisters to accompany him... None of them are from here, and I don't know where he found them. They all seem to be hanging around here. A model or something..."

"You can tell, he speaks with a Bayan accent."

Xu Xin responded and said:

"Anyway, just be careful and don't let anyone take photos or anything with their cell phones."

"Oh, yes, I remembered what you said. Did you watch the Apple press conference two days ago?"

"……What the hell?"

Seeing Xu Xin's surprised look, Wang Sicong was speechless for a while:

"Forget it, it's okay. When we leave later, you and I will come to the car. I got two mobile phones for you and Dami..."

"how is it like?"

"It's just...the kind with a touch screen. Smartphones, let me tell you, are extremely powerful!"

"..."

After hearing this, Xu Xin looked at his Nokia and was speechless:

"Then why don't you use it?"

"What the heck, that thing has to cut the SIM card. I bought the tool, but it hasn't arrived yet. I'll wait until it arrives and cut the SIM card before I can put it in."

"It's quite troublesome..."

"No, but the function shouldn't be mentioned. You'll know after you use it... Hey, look, this slut Lin Gou..."

Following the direction he pointed, Xu Xin saw Zheng and the two girls there... He must have won a game, because each of the two girls kissed him on the face.

"..."

Xu Xin was speechless.

I always feel like I have seen my past self.

However, the two people sitting next to Lin Gou were also chatting.

Huang Xiaoming and Yang Ying seemed to be talking about something.

Quite happy.

And to the side...

Liu Yifei sat there alone like a fool.

Others don't talk to her, and she doesn't talk to others.

Seems out of place.

Xu Xin thought for a while, turned to Wang Sicong and said:

"Okay, get out of here."

"...?"

The eldest young master said in his heart, you really don’t treat me as a dish anymore.

However, he saw Xu Xin take out his mobile phone after saying this.

He decided not to leave.

Moreover, his eyes were staring straight at Xu Xin's mobile phone.

I want to see what kind of fun this grandson is going to do.

As a result, I saw that he sent Liu Yifei a message:

"Come to me."

"...It belongs to your uncle."

After cursing, the eldest young master obediently got up and went to join Jay Chou, who was doing magic tricks for a few girls.

…

"What's the matter?"

Carrying her handbag, Liu Yifei came over and held her glass of wine.

Xu Xin unscrewed the bottle of Macallan in front of him:

"Try this?"

"Well……"

Looking down at the red wine under her quilt, she nodded:

"good."

So Xu Xin took another clean cup from the cup holder, put two cubes of ice in it, poured a third of the Macallan and handed it to her.

The sound of cheers was hidden in the restless music.

"You really don't fit in with others."

Hearing this, Liu Yifei, who took a sip of wine, glanced at him and said:

"Isn't it the same for you?"

"It's different. I want to be like a few sluts..."

Pointing at Wang Sicong, who was hooking up with a girl's shoulder and watching Jay Chou perform magic tricks with a group of girls, Xu Xin smiled and showed the silver ring on his left hand:

"But I'm married."

"...I'm not used to contacting strangers. But I'm very happy tonight, because I rarely participate in such...lively occasions."

"Then what do you usually do?"

"stay at home."

Liu Yifei shook her head slightly:

"My mother is afraid that I will learn bad things, and she is also afraid that people outside will "bad" me... If she knew I was here today, she would have come to pick me up long ago."

"So... when will you be ready to face the world alone?"

"I've been prepared for a long time."

Before she finished speaking, Xu Xin glanced at her.

At this glance, Liu Yifei saw an emotion.

regret.

After hearing his answer, he regretfully picked up the wine glass.

Wait for yourself.

"Ding."

After the two glasses clinked, Xu Xin drank all the wine in his own glass.

good.

He sort of tasted the subtle leathery flavor of Macallan.

Well, of course, it could also be an illusion caused by the smell of the cigar.

However... Lao Wang's preference for this wine cannot be faked.

A bottle of Macallan 25 years old sells for at least 16,000 to 20,000.

Just flip through here.

Sixty thousand a bottle.

After the smoky and slightly heavy drink entered his throat, Liu Yifei recalled the look in her eyes just now and suddenly asked:

"Why are you looking at me like that?"

"It's a pity."

Xu Xin shook his head slightly.

"……pity?"

Liu Yifei was a little puzzled.

Until I was asked a... question that seemed simple but extremely difficult to answer:

"What do you want to be an actor for?"

"Well……"

"I'm not referring to childhood yearnings, or parents' sustenance, etc. I mean... as far as you are concerned, why do you become an actor?"

"..."

Liu Yifei thought for a while and vaguely felt that the question he asked was not so simple.

But I can't figure out why.

All I can say is:

"For this dream."

"...The dream is to be an actor?"

"right."

After she gave an affirmative answer, she saw Xu Xin shaking his head slightly.

Clearly not satisfied with her answer.

"Is there anything wrong with my answer?"

Seeing her questioning, Xu Xin picked up the wine bottle.

While pouring her some wine, he said:

"You actually don't understand it yourself, do you?"

"..."

"Because I think your answer is very guilty."

"...What about you? Why do you become a director?"

Liu Yifei seemed a little unconvinced.

"because I like it."

Xu Xin gave the answer quite happily.

Then, he held up the cup, leaned on the sofa, threw the cigar into the ashtray, and lit another cigarette.

Cigars are not good for the lungs.

It still feels a bit dull when I smoke it.

"I said I changed overnight, do you believe it?"

"...?"

Because of the change in Xu Xin's posture, she had to lean on the sofa.

But because of the height difference, she had to get closer when listening to Xu Xin's words.

So at first glance, the distance between the two is really ambiguous.

But Xu Xin didn't care.

Liu Yifei didn't feel it either.

"That day... I remember it very clearly. It was the end of the first half of the freshman year. To tell you the truth, my position in the directing department was obtained by my father with sponsorship money."

"..."

A little bit of dark history came out of his mouth.

But his attitude was very calm.

But it made Liu Yifei feel the same...

because……

So does she.

"Have you seen what happened in the first half of the freshman year in the news?"

"I've seen it, and I've heard it from Mimi. You often skip classes, sleep, and drive a Ferrari every day... to show off in front of the school."

"Ha~"

Xu Xin chuckled and nodded:

"Yeah. That's right... My transformation was actually very sudden. After just half a semester of this drunken life, on the final day of my freshman year, I was still living in the school dormitory. I invited them to the school dormitory's end-of-term party. Eat food, drink wine, and then come to this kind of place..."

Having said this, he paused for a moment before saying:

"Anyway, after getting drunk, I had a dream."

"……Dream?"

"Yes. I can't remember the second half of the dream specifically. But I remember the first half very clearly... I dreamed that I was the only one returning home from Yanjing. My friends from childhood came to help me clean up, and we went to a nightclub. , and then... it was like we were walking face to face. You drank too much, and I drank too much. We bumped shoulders..."

"Um."

Liu Yifei listened carefully.

"After just bumping into each other, I became annoyed. Anyway... I was just young and frivolous, so I dreamed that I was fighting with someone. I hit that person's head crazily with my mobile phone... and finally smashed him into pieces. In a vegetative state.”

"Uh... is it a dream?"

"Yes, dreaming."

Xu Xin nodded.

Liu Yifei showed a look of peace of mind.

Startled.

"After I smashed him into a vegetative state... I had money. I paid for it, but after I lost the money, I was fired from Beijing Film Academy because of this incident. I just lived this kind of drunken life every day... In society After wandering around for a few years, my father took me to the mines to find a job in an energy company. That’s probably what it meant, and this was the beginning of my transformation.”

"..."

Under Liu Yifei's strange gaze, Xu Xin said with a smile:

"Really, isn't it ridiculous?"

"Just because of a dream?"

"Yes, just because of a dream... It may be because it was too long ago, and I can't remember many details of that dream. But at that time... when I woke up from the hotel, what happened in the dream... Several years, even more than ten years of life, are spinning so crazily in my mind... Do you know what my first reaction was after I confirmed that it was a dream?"

When he said this, there was a... particularly real look of joy in his eyes.

Looking at the girl next to him who had given him the nickname Fairy Sister, a girl with a touch of white moonlight in the youth of countless people, he shook his head slightly:

"I, absolutely, don't want to live the kind of life in the dream. Having no ambition, just eating and waiting to die. Although it is not harmful to the world, it is a life of doing evil and wasting time!"

"..."

"So, I said to myself: I want to change my life...poof..."

He took a puff of cigarette, although the smoke did not blow towards Liu Yifei.

But the escaping smoke still got into her nasal cavity.

She... doesn't really like other people smoking.

I don't like the smell of smoke either.

But... for some reason, this time, she didn't feel any discomfort with the smell in her nose.

Instead, it was mixed with the smell of liquor, whiskey, and even cigars and tobacco, and she smelled something... It couldn't be said to be a good smell, but it was... very strange, as if there was a period of time hidden in it, and a kind of... The smell of transformation.

Her throat moved.

He narrowed his eyes unconsciously.

This breath made her head feel hot.

After waking up quickly, he said:

"So, you chose to change your way of life?"

"right."

"Is it because of this dream?"

After she asked, Xu Xin suddenly shook his head seriously:

"It's not a dream, it's real."

"..."

"Or, for me, it is true. In my dream, I experienced a period of time...either belonging to me, or...I experienced a period of real life in a parallel world! My statement is ridiculous. ,Right?"

Looking at the silent girl, Xu Xin still smiled and shook his head:

"Actually, Yang Mi and I have never talked about this matter... just treat it as a secret between us, how about it?"

"..."

Liu Yifei's eyes moved...

Suddenly pursed his lips:

"Um!"

"Actually, I also know that what I said is a bit ridiculous. But we are actors, right? Aren't we playing fictional characters and their lives? So, I don't think there is anything wrong with my understanding this way. And, it's true. Actually, it was because of this dream that I told myself: Xu Xin, since you have chosen to change your life, then... you should grow up."

"So there was a script for "Not Drunk"?"

"right."

Xu Xin responded and picked up the wine glass again.

Seeing this, Liu Yifei also took the initiative to pick up the wine glass...

"Are you still drinking? This wine is quite strong."

Hearing this voice of concern, she shook her head slightly:

"You have a story and I have wine. A little stronger... just right."

"...?"

As soon as these words came out, Xu Xin showed surprise as if he was meeting her for the first time.

But looking into those eyes...

In the end, he chose to smile freely:

"Well, the story is wine... Then I wish our friendship will last forever."

"Ding."

The cup hit another spot.

After finishing the drink, the smoke spurted out along with the spicy alcoholic taste.

Liu Yifei smelled this...aura again.

It smells really good.

It's different from the stench that ordinary people have when they smoke.

Her thoughts were a little off.

but……

This time, she took the initiative to pour wine for the two of them.

I also hope that the ice cubes will melt and shrink a lot, and each of them will add a piece of ice.

"Then what?"

"Then..."

Leaning on the sofa, the mixture of Maotai and whiskey made him feel a little dazed.

"I got to know her."

"...Mimi?"

"Um...hehe."

Speaking of his wife, he inevitably had a look on his face...

One look at her and you can tell how much he loves that woman's smile.

"..."

"But that's not the point. The point is, although "Not Drunk" is only thirteen minutes. But after all the filming... I understood: Well, sure enough, I like this job. ... From that time on, In a true sense, I have chosen the job of directing as my lifelong career."

The topic went around in a circle and came back again:

"Look, this is what I'm telling you. I do this job because I like it. I really like this job... I am the director and you are the actor. You... are Liu Yifei!"

"..."

For some reason, the sudden and slightly abrupt last sentence made Liu Yifei feel a little...

Strange emotions.

She could hear the longing.

I could hear the regret.

I also heard a smell of... anger.

And a...maybe it's the delusion of being drunk, or other distress...

Suddenly, her emotions showed signs of bursting.

And in order to prevent this emotion from spreading...

She shook her head and picked up the wine glass again.

Finished the drink by himself.

The smoky flavor of sherry casks, the smell of leather.

That sweet aroma of preserved fruits...

And the bitterness at the end that goes straight to the forehead.

It made her eyes turn slightly red.

fine.

The lights are enchanting at the moment.

dim.

Gave her the best cover.

Xu Xin didn't notice her movements, and he didn't even notice anything wrong with his tone.

Because essentially, what he wants to express is the following passage:

"I am the director. In my movies, Liu Yifei can only be a puppet in my hands. You, Liang Binning, Wang Zhiwen... all the actors, crew members, and the final person in charge are me. Because I I am the director, and I am the soul of the whole play... Do you know how much sense of accomplishment this job brings me as the director?"

This is what he wanted to express.

Therefore, he didn't know what kind of emotional collision his words had just produced in Liu Yifei's heart.

He just said what he thought truthfully:

"No matter how big your wrist is or how powerful your dragon is. When you come to my crew, if it's a tiger, you lie down for me. If it's a dragon, you coil it for me. Because I am the soul of a drama! This kind of control Desire and sense of accomplishment are one of the driving forces behind my love for this job. I am like a mastermind behind the scenes, able to show the world in my heart to everyone... I think this may also be one of the charms of art. One."

"..."

In Liu Yifei's silence, Xu Xin put out the cigarette, looked at her and continued:

"As for Yang Mi, do you know why she became an actress?"

"Is it also because you like it?"

"No, she wants to be a big star."

"Well……"

"it is true."

It seemed that because of drinking, his memory was particularly clear at this moment, and he unconsciously remembered everything about the two of them on their afternoon walk in Dashilar...

"She has loved acting since she was a child and has made up her mind to become a star. Although she often brags to me, she would probably go to Tsinghua University if she didn't act... But, it is true, she really loves this industry. She wants to To become the kind of big star that attracts everyone's attention, and in order to become such a person, she first knows that she must continue her own job, that is, an actor. She must have enough works to be remembered... and with these, she can Become a big star. According to her, if you are not good at acting, you will only be a star at best. Before you want to be a big star, you must first be a good actor. This is her understanding~"

"Well……"

"Do you know why I'm telling you this?"

"……Why?"

"Because I think you're lost."

"..."

"I don't know if you want to be a star or a big star. But I really feel that you have lost your way and deviated from the path. Of course, you can also think that I am preaching... But more, I feel that as a person A director's intuition. The feeling you give me...is a bit similar to Shang Zhongyong. It seems...except for "Dragon", "Sword" and "The Condor", you have nothing that can be remembered.

And now you are in the Hong Kong circle, and you are doing something... In fact, in essence, you are still focusing on those big productions or doing something... To be honest, the feeling you give me That is, whatever you play, it will be Liu Yifei. Do you know what I mean? "

Under the drunken eyes, there was a statement of fact that Liu Yifei was most powerless to refute.

"Other people say that you can't get out of the frame of some fairy sister... Actually, in my opinion, it's not the case. It's not that you can't get out of the frame of some fairy sister, but that you can't get out of your own frame. No matter what you play, you are still Liu Yifei. It's quite...sad. Because...I don't know how many more years you can consume yourself. But if this continues...you may just be Liu Yifei in this life.

And in ten or twenty years, maybe you will still have a market. But...you are still Liu Yifei. It's just that Liu Yifei, who lives in the memories of this generation's growth, and whom everyone once ignorantly and longed for... If we don't pursue change, it will really be too late. This is the truest thing I want to say to you after going all this way. "

The drunkenness in Xu Xin's eyes temporarily faded.

Looking at the girl in front of him, he spoke from the bottom of his heart:

"Observe, understand, feel, and bravely step out of your comfort zone. I believe in what Director Zhang said to me, which is: Art must be deeply rooted in the soil called the people. Without the soil, art is destined to be just a castle in the air, a flashy thing.

This is how you...make me feel right now. I don't know what you want to pursue as an actor...but...even for Yang Mi, she understands it very well. Before becoming a big star, she must first be an actor. As an actor, what she wants is for people to forget her name, her fame, and everything about her when they see her performance.

She devoted everything to the role she played, which is the highest respect she can give to the audience. And similarly, if the audience can completely forget her as a person and only remember the role she plays, that is also the highest courtesy the audience can give her. In business, she wants everyone to remember her name. But in movies and TV series, she hopes everyone will forget her.

This is the path she is taking now... I don't know if this path is of reference to you... But as a friend, I feel that even if you don't use it or walk it... you can use it as a reference. "

Speaking of this, he looked at Liu Yifei who was deep in thought...

I won’t say any more.

Instead, he picked up his own cup.

After finishing the drink, he breathed a sigh of relief.

The breath once again brushed the tip of Liu Yifei's nose, who was standing silently.

Her nose moved...

Because of his words, his mind was overwhelmed with emotion, and he caught this trace of aura signal.

No more tobacco smell.

but……

It smells good.