I’m a Director, I’m Not Bad

Chapter 387 385. Children with low self-esteem

"congratulations."

"Thanks."

Yang Mi politely took the trophy, thanked Shu Qi and Wu Yanzu, and stood in front of the microphone.

Look around.

The stars are shining brightly.

But at this moment, she herself became the most eye-catching one.

For a moment, her originally sober mind became slightly dazed again.

This seems to be...the first time she has stood at an awards ceremony, right?

She was referring to such an important award.

Other TV series or "most popular" or "most popular" awards from certain minor awards do not count.

That time in Cannes doesn’t count either.

It is really the first time that I stand in front of the big stage of a movie as an independent heroine.

And thinking of this, she unconsciously recalled the winter vacation in 2006.

On that cold evening in January, she received a call from her instructor. The instructor told her that Director Yu from the directing department wanted to make a short film with her.

No pay.

A fellow student in the directing department had written a short film script, and the instructor wanted her to try it out.

Who makes her the most experienced candidate in the acting department?

So, with a sense of utilitarianism that might come in handy in building a good relationship with Director Yu in the future, she dressed up carefully and appeared in the school classroom the next day.

Meeting my lover for the first time.

She is really no stranger to Xu Xin.

I have no choice but to drive a Ferrari in the first year of my freshman year and wear an unconventional hairstyle in front of the school every day. I wish I could turn my hair into that country bumpkin in the Wolf Tooth List...

She really couldn't be stranger.

And this was her impression of Xu Xin.

The dirt falls off.

I don’t know where the nouveau riche came from.

Looks okay.

But she really doesn't like that virtue.

Even after knowing what happened between him and Yuan Shanshan at that time, Yang Mi was quite worried for Yuan Shanshan.

Although the two of them can't be said to be particularly close classmates, because she has been in and out of various film crews since she was very young, she has seen a lot of things. Therefore, she was really worried that Yuan Shanshan would suddenly come forward and throw herself into the arms of that scumbag nouveau riche at all costs.

Then she got pregnant, died, and finally left with her star career ruined.

Girl, that’s a lifetime.

But……

Fortune plays tricks on people.

Yuan Shanshan's belly is not big, but her own belly is big...

Well...it's quite outrageous in every sense of the word.

She didn't know when she fell in love with Xu Xin.

Obviously I was disgusted with it at first.

But then... maybe it was the camel hair coat that my brother had long forgotten where?

Or was it the first time after the two became friends that they realized that the other person seemed different from what they thought?

Or is it the people smiling and talking along the pedestrian street from Dashilan to Deyunshe?

I really don’t remember.

But the only thing that's certain is...the two of them definitely didn't fall in love at first sight.

My brother also said that at first glance, he just thought he was beautiful... his legs were particularly beautiful.

Pooh.

Like an old pervert.

As for liking it...his exact words were "You have to thank the wheel."

But the wheel is just the point where quantitative changes lead to qualitative changes.

When did he come into his heart... It's like he didn't know when he came into his heart.

It's just... quite vague.

And when the two first got together, although they were "looking for girls"... Yang Mi never dreamed that she would undergo such a big change in the past three years.

Got married, had children... and won awards...

This sudden change in life made her stand in front of the spotlight of countless people watching at this moment, and she had the illusion that "this world is so unreal."

really?

How could I possibly win the award?

What did I do? I won the Golden Horse Award?

I...I'm only 18 years old.

Are you leaving this with me to simulate life?

I...the start of my life shouldn't be like that...what did that old liar say? Oh yes.

I will marry a man named Liu who is old enough to be my father. And then we have a daughter...and eventually we get divorced...

Is this my reality?

Am I just a fake internet symbol now?

She didn't know why she had such strange thoughts.

But……

I really won an award!

It is still the most valuable Golden Horse Award...

oops!

Why isn't my brother with me now?

If he were next to me, Gao Lu would let me punch him to see if it hurts.

I'm so afraid I'm dreaming.

She was thinking wildly when Shu Qi next to her saw that she had been silent for a long time and quickly shouted again:

"Hey, are you giving your acceptance speech?"

"...?"

Yang Mi was stunned subconsciously.

Then, all divergent thoughts returned to their original place in an instant.

His wandering eyes also returned to reality.

Only then did she remember... Oh, yes, I have to speak.

But... what should I say?

She put her mouth in front of the microphone...

Looking at the guests present in front of him... he thought for a while and said:

"Well...can I confirm it first?...This is the Golden Horse Awards...right? It's...the award ceremony for the top grand prize, the Golden Horse Awards? Right...right?"

"..."

"..."

"..."

The whole place fell silent.

Your first reaction is that you are sick, right?

But the second reaction immediately was a roar of laughter:

"Hahahaha~"

then……

"Hua la la la la..."

applause.

Hearing the applause, Yang Mi blinked and looked down at the Golden Horse Trophy in her hand:

"It's... quite heavy."

"Hahahaha~"

"咻咻咻~"

Maybe her dazed look was too cute, and she didn't know who blew the whistle.

The atmosphere at the scene suddenly became relaxed.

Only then did Yang Mi regain her composure and said:

"Uh... I would like to thank all the judges of the Golden Horse Awards. Thank you very much. This honor... means a lot to me."

As he said that, his eyes fell on Li Pingdong, Liang Binning and others:

"At the same time, I would also like to thank all the staff in front of and behind the scenes of "The Wind". Without everyone's hard work, I would not be in this position... Sister Bingbing, thank you. Thank you also to all the fans for their support, It was you who supported me all the way to this sacred stage..."

As she spoke, the camera switched to Liang Bingning's face.

With a smile on her face, she raised her hands above her head and drew a "heart" shape.

Yang Mi couldn't help laughing:

"Haha... Thank you all very much, you all have worked hard. And then..."

Having said this, she bowed first to express her gratitude.

But because she had something to say, everyone knew she hadn't finished speaking yet.

After she stood up, she faced the camera and said word by word:

"Finally, I would like to express two separate thanks... The first one is to the director of "The Wind". Director Xu Xin... Although you can't come to the scene in person today, as an actor, I still want to say the most important thing: I would like to express my gratitude to you. It is you who have made me what I am today. Although I regret that I cannot share this joy and touch with you at the scene, I believe that I feel the same as you at this moment."

This is a bit weird...

After listening to this, many people wondered...Isn't Xu Xin your husband...

But Yang Mi’s style of painting soon changed:

"Finally, the second reward... I want to give it to my lover and children. Nuannuan, Yangyang, my mother would like to thank my father here for his efforts, so that my mother can win this very important award. From now on, you two If you make dad angry...you have to be careful. Mom will definitely stand beside dad unswervingly..."

"Hahahahaha..."

No one expected that she would be smart in the end.

Amid laughter, Yang Mi raised the trophy high:

"Thank you everyone, I love you, I love you too."

She said the last words to the camera.

Everyone knew who she was talking about.

When Xu Xin, who was sitting in front of the TV at this moment, heard this, the redness on his face had not faded, but he smiled calmly.

"I love you too, you deserve it."

He said silently in his heart.

…

In the end, Xu Xin's "The Wind" still missed the best picture.

Lost to "Can't Live Without You" by Dai Liren.

In fact, he was not surprised.

I can’t say it’s not a surprise… It would be more appropriate to say it’s very calm.

It's a very indifferent attitude.

And here, if he really analyzes why he "lost", he feels that the failure of "The Wind" actually lies in the director's perspective of conveying the concept.

It is not an art film per se, but a feature film.

Whether the director conveys his spiritual core through the theme of the film, including discussing a certain artistic topic, is very fragile.

The effects and atmosphere created by light and shadow alone also serve the film itself.

So it's a bit weaker in terms of artistry.

But...what does it matter?

I am only 18 years old.

I am still young.

…

"What? You want to come back?"

"Yes, I'm running to the airport now. I'll probably get home around 12 o'clock in the morning. Please remember to leave the door open for me, and then ask my dad to cook me something to eat in the hot pot... I want to eat dumplings too much. No?"

"..."

"..."

Upon hearing this, Yang Dalin stood up and walked to the kitchen without saying a word.

It’s okay. My son-in-law is entertaining guests tonight. He specially bought ribs and didn’t finish them all. Instead, he left half of it in the refrigerator, planning to make ribs and corn soup tomorrow morning.

Since my daughter wants to eat... let's have dumplings stuffed with meat and cabbage.

Who let my daughter win the prize?

"It's not too much, I'm a hero...Have you finished saying hello to everyone else?"

"It's all over. Sister Bingbing and the others still had to go to the dinner party. I said hello to everyone before leaving... Everyone knows that I am worried about my children. And I also expressed my apology to the Golden Horse Awards. The organizer The live broadcast director and Director Li are good friends, and Director Li said he would go over and say hello, don’t worry.”

"Well, I'll pick you up that night?"

"Don't, just take care of Nuan Nuan and Yang Yang at home... Oh yes, I have to tell you some gossip when I get back, old wolf! Hehehehe..."

"The story about him and Gong Xinliang?"

"Ah?...How did you know?"

"Nonsense, Lao Wang told me after you left last night. I also checked the girl's information..."

"The capital is quite rich, right?"

"..."

Let's just say... sometimes she is really unreasonable when she acts rogue.

Why are you, a little girl, saying this? ……What? Are you a young woman?

That's okay.

"Okay, just come back quickly. I just happen to take the child to get vaccinated tomorrow."

"Well, I'll hang up then."

"Okay...just wait."

Suddenly, Xu Xin stopped her.

"ah?"

"You...you have to bring that dress back, you know?"

"Bah! Dream on!"

Hearing this, although there was no one in the room, Xu Xin still lowered his voice, covered the phone and said quietly:

"Really, bring it back...you look like a big star in your clothes."

"I was a big star!"

"Then I want to play a big star..."

"Just wait to be played by a big star!! Pervert!"

Toot.

The phone hangs up.

Sun Ting on the side glanced at the GMC nanny car with its soundproof windows raised, and also lowered her voice:

"Sister, then this dress... I won't take it away and wash it first."

Hearing this, Yang Mi glanced at her:

"Tingting..."

"ah?"

Under Sun Ting's doubtful gaze, Yang Mi's hand turned into a knife.

Killing a chicken is harsh.

"you know too much!"

"Hehe~"

…

It was already 1 o'clock when Yang Mi got home.

When she got home, Yang Dalin was already carrying a plate of dumplings and followed her into the house.

As for why I bother my dad to cook dumplings so late at night...

Um.

If you want to drink soup filled with dough dumplings, you can ask your brother to cook it.

In the past few years, she has successfully raised her husband into a useless person who is indifferent to all aspects of life.

As for the extent of the waste... Now that she is gone, he can cook instant noodles and pour in as much water as possible...

"Give."

Passing the trophy in Xu Xin's hand, Yang Mi, who hadn't even eaten dinner, couldn't wait to start attacking the dumplings.

It's a pity that there is no garlic vinegar sauce...

There's always a bit of soul missing.

But there was nothing she could do. Ever since the last incident with garlic chicken wings, she had been ordered to get approval from her husband before eating garlic.

It depends on whether there are any plans to go online tonight.

There must be a large-scale singing and dancing event tonight, and she wouldn't even dare to touch chili oil.

I’m afraid that my brother will become the main dish on the Thanksgiving table.

Xu Xin weighed the heavy Golden Horse trophy in his hand, stood up and walked directly into the study room, placing the trophy in the glass display cabinet full of antiques.

After coming back, looking at Yang Mi who was devouring her food, she said:

"Eat slowly, no one will compete with you."

"Well... what time did the child feed? What time did he go to bed?"

"It was around 9 o'clock, and I fell asleep with a bottle in my mouth."

"Well……"

Hearing this, Yang Mi looked up at the time on the clock and nodded:

"That's almost it. It's time to cry in half an hour at most... How did you cry last night?"

"Last night was fine. Nuan Nuan felt a little uncomfortable in her stomach at early 12 o'clock. I held her for a while. After falling asleep, Yang Yang started to cry, warmed the milk, and fell asleep after eating. Then Nuan Nuan woke up. , the time is staggered, so it’s not too troublesome.”

"...Well, thank you for your hard work."

Although her brother said it was easy, she knew that last night must have been quite difficult.

"You have a good rest tonight and leave the rest to me."

"Okay~"

In fact, this is what raising children is like.

At first glance, it sounds like it’s difficult to get through every night.

But watching the two little guys grow up every day under careful care is a very happy thing.

Seeing her sister, who had not yet taken off her makeup, eating dumplings with her flaming red lips, Xu Xin's eyes became a little straight.

After thinking for a while, he asked:

"Is there anything going on at the Golden Horse Awards?"

"No, everything is normal."

"I see Huang Xiaoming went there too. Have you talked to him about Yang Ying?"

"Why should I talk about her?"

Yang Mi shrugged while eating:

"We don't get involved in love affairs. For girls, finding lifelong happiness is more important than anything else... Oh, yes, we talked about the movie directed by Li, called "Love Announcement". Now. I was looking for actresses, and I recommended Yang Ying, Baozi, Liu Yifei, and Shishi. Didn’t you say that Jiaojiao’s acting skills are still very young? I didn’t recommend them.”

"Shishi?"

Xu Xin frowned slightly:

"You go beyond the Tang Dynasty to find opportunities for her..."

"Not crossed."

Seemingly guessing what he wanted to say, Yang Mi shook her head:

"I just told Shishi the news, and then said hello to Director Li. If Shishi goes to audition, then we will make arrangements. The specifics still depend on what the director says... But Director Li's status is here Look, our people, including Shishi, will pay more attention. I won’t get involved with the others... Don’t worry, I won’t make it difficult for her in Tang Ren.”

Xu Xin felt relieved.

Then he urged...

"Okay, let's eat quickly. We won't talk about business tonight~"

"What's the rush?"

The young woman gave her lover a charming look:

"You like what I'm wearing?"

"Well... this is the first time I've seen you wearing a tube top dress... By the way, what kind of dress should we buy in the future so that it doesn't guard against me or thieves? I've never seen anything like this before..."

"hehe."

Yang Mi sneered.

What kind of virtues do you have that I don’t know yet?

If others charge, the most they will lose is a pair of stockings or a set of clothes worth tens of dollars.

Your old man’s hobby...

A high-end set costs tens of thousands at least...

Your costs are really expensive...

Moreover, it’s not a big deal whether it’s money or not… Mainly because every time I say it feels like I’m playing a celebrity…

I am a star! ! !

Where did you get such a strange knowledge?

Too much to use bean bags as dry food.

"Go crazy. I think you can survive for a few more years... In ten years, you might have to walk around me when you see me wearing a dress."

Xu Xin took this as fart.

Does he believe it?

Don't believe it at all.

Just blow it.

If we brothers want to be coins, we will be like them for the rest of our lives.

Keep going!

…

It’s December 12th.

The box office of "Three Guns" reached 27.5 million.

This is the news disclosed by the media early in the morning on the 13th.

The news happened to be separate from Yang Mi's Golden Horse seal.

Regarding the news about herself as the Golden Horse Best Actress, she didn't care much after getting up early in the morning.

I had already finished talking with Sister Hua in the car last night about how to operate it specifically. Therefore, the popularity of her news is expected to continue for another two or three days.

Today is news, but starting from tomorrow, a large part of the praise articles will be paid press releases.

For a married woman and a mother, this kind of hype is essential.

What else to do?

Is it possible to speculate on scandals with others?

However, Yang Mi did not let Wang Jinghua become crazy and overwhelming, but selected the best.

Those worth buying from her must be some of the more well-known media.

Audience is large.

But when these media come to buy space, they actually don’t spend much money.

It’s just that there will be some exclusive interviews later.

For example, last night, she received an invitation from Wang Minmin.

Southern Weekly wanted to invite her to shoot its January cover.

Two plans were given.

The first is to appear together with Xu Xin, to be selected as a couple on the cover of a weekly magazine, and to have an exclusive interview with the couple.

The price is 300,000.

However, Yang Mi directly rejected this plan.

Before the wedding photos were taken, she refused any form of shooting plan with her husband in the same frame.

If you want to take a photo, keep the first time between the two of you in your deepest memory.

The second item is a separate cover and interview.

The price is 30,000.

At first glance, the price difference is a bit obvious. In fact, the main reason for the high price lies in the sincerity of inviting Xu Xin.

After all, as a magazine, having celebrities appear on the front pages of some big magazines is also a very good means of publicity, and usually the price is not too high.

What's more, Southern Weekly is an old friend.

The price given by Yang Mi has always been very favorable.

If you need help, just let me know. Pay the travel expenses of the personnel, it doesn’t matter if you have money or not.

Who in this circle doesn’t know Dami’s loyalty?

Therefore, Yang Mi felt quite indifferent to these news announcements. Even when I saw some news criticizing myself, my mood didn't change at all.

On the contrary, she was more concerned about "Three Guns".

And seeing that the reputation of "Three Guns" has been completely broken... countless people are scolding it as bad, and she actually feels quite uncomfortable.

After all, she was one of the few people who knew what the movie was really about.

After Xu Xin got up, she thought about it and said to Xu Xin who was drinking porridge:

"The reputation of "Three Guns" has dropped very quickly... the Douban score has already reached 5."

"Yeah, I know. I turned it over when I went to the toilet just now...it's okay. The old man said it's nothing even if I didn't look at it...What has happened is useless no matter what, just look forward."

"Then do you want to go see Director Zhang?"

"There's no need to look for them. The kids from "Jinling" will come here to audition next week, so you can meet them then."

"...Okay. Then you eat quickly. After eating, we will take the child to get vaccinated."

"Um."

Xu Xin sped up.

After breakfast, the family set out to the community health center to vaccinate their children.

In the afternoon, several strangers came to the house.

It was the person from the decoration company that Yang Mi found.

After the new year, the courtyard will begin to be renovated, and the three connected courtyards will begin to undergo major renovations.

Several designers came over to discuss design details with the couple.

Xu Xin's request is very simple, give himself a working area.

Including study room, reception room, a place to drink and brag with a few friends, etc.

The three yards combined cover an area of ​​almost 4 basketball courts.

It looks like more than 1,700 and less than 1,800.

This is obviously a big job.

A conservative estimate of the renovation cost is close to a small target.

The construction period is only one year.

This period is the time for preparation and improvement before design.

In the afternoon, I finished communicating with the designer about the house, and in the evening, another wave of guests came to the house.

Lu Yang, Chen Shu, Fang Xiu, and other crew members formed during the week, all came to Xu Xin's house.

He learned this habit from the old man.

The old man likes to have others come to his home to chat, rather than in his studio.

The main reason is that he is familiar with the conditions at home, which allows him to relax and think more comprehensively about what he is shooting.

Xu Xin thought this habit was quite good, so he copied it.

Indeed, in the study room at home, his preparation materials, including files on the computer, can be easily found.

Very comfortable.

Lu Yang's arrival also brought information about several children.

"Director Xu, we have auditioned a total of 30 kids in the past two days, and some of them seem pretty good. Take a look."

"Um."

Xu Xin nodded and directly inserted the USB flash drive into the computer.

There are a total of 7 video files in it.

"These six people were selected by me individually. The remaining video file is the audition video added together."

Xu Xin clicked on the first video file.

The same shot of a face-off.

The child seemed a little shy. After glancing at a certain location, a voice sounded:

"Talk to the camera."

"Hello, uncle director, my name is Liu Xuesi, I am 7 years old..."

A self-introduction and a hip-hop dance move.

After the dance, Xu Xin shook his head and passed directly.

Then came the second one.

The third.

the fourth……

In fact, none of these children have any professional acting experience. It is unrealistic to really rely on actors' acting skills.

So Xu Xin only focused on looking for the characteristics of these children.

He wants a timid character with a bit of inferiority complex.

And this kind of low self-esteem is exactly what the child in "The Deal" who was raised by his grandma and had no mother showed up.

But the first four children are all in the sun.

He's smiling and showing off his talents...it doesn't look good.

So, he clicked on the fifth video.

The face of a little boy who looked gentle and quiet came into view.

He was not as embarrassed as those before.

Looking at the camera, he looks quiet.

And when Lu Yang's voice came to mind and he said the words "You can introduce yourself", the boy had a feeling...

At first glance he nodded politely.

But it gives people a somewhat flattering "pretending to be mature" flavor.

Xu Xin raised his eyebrows.

Then the child was heard smiling at the camera.

"Hello, director. My name is Wang Junkai. I am nine years old and come from Chongqing..."

Xu Xin's eyes narrowed.

This child's talent show was actually dancing, and it was pretty impressive. But after the performance, he would turn into that... calm expression with some inferiority complex.

Then when he speaks, he will be a little more flattering.

After the 2-minute clip ended, Xu Xin thought about it and went back to watch it again.

The more he watched, the stronger his sense of inferiority became.

At this time, Yang Mi also walked in, planning to give everyone some fruit.

When she came in and saw the child on the computer screen smiling at the camera, she was stunned...

Then after the video ended, she first put the fruit on the table amidst the voices of a group of people saying "Thank you, Sister Mi", and then said to Xu Xin:

"Who is that kid just now? Why does he look so distressed when he smiles?"

Xu Xin's eyes lit up:

"You feel that way too?"

Yang Mi nodded:

"Yes, I feel very inferior...please play it again and let me see."

"Um."

Xu Xin played the file again, and while she was watching it, he turned to Lu Yang and asked:

"Where did you find this child?"

"It was recommended. A company called Times Junfeng seems to specialize in discovering child actors. After the "Transaction" project was established, I sent the news to various intermediaries and brokerage companies. But I didn't say that it was Director Xu. If you want to film, just go through the normal channels and hide the news that this drama is your director. Then yesterday for the audition, this kid’s agent came with several kids. A total of six or seven came, but I I thought he was quite suitable, so I kept him.”

Xu Xin nodded, and Yang Mi stood next to him and looked at the audition footage on the computer.

After reading it, she said:

"It feels pretty good."

"Yes, it's mainly the inferiority complex... It's really distressing. It just fits the temperament that the child in "The Deal" will show... Just him. Nine years old... The time to go to school is a problem. Director Lu , then you are responsible for coordinating the time... As a child, no matter how much you act, the cultural class cannot be delayed."

Hearing this, Lu Yang nodded:

"Okay, Director Xu."

That’s it for today. After writing this update in the afternoon, I felt very tired and took a nap. I woke up at 7 o'clock and it's now 10 o'clock... I've been sitting in front of the computer for 3 hours and still can't concentrate, and my train of thought has even stopped. I feel a little uncomfortable and can't squeeze out... I'm sorry everyone.