Incurable Pain

It turns out that when I was young, I really shouldn't meet people who are too amazing, nor should I have memories that are too unforgettable, otherwise it will really delay my life.

After all, Bai Xunyin is not a person who is willing to ‘succumb’.

After a short astonishment, she looked at Sheng Jianian, who was close at hand, reluctantly smiled, and nodded calmly: "Sorry, I'm going to the bathroom."

After speaking, ignoring anyone's question, Bai Xunyin turned and walked quickly to the bathroom on the corner.

Sheng Jia-nian watched the woman in the white coat walk swiftly, her slender figure disappeared from the corner, and a faint light flashed in her eyes.

"Sister Na." He took a sip of his wine and said with great interest: "Sure enough, seeing a school flower is better than hearing it, and it is well-deserved."

In fact, although he said so on his lips, he had actually seen Bai Xunyin more than once.

He had heard of this academically famous school girl since the freshman year when he was enrolled, and he also knew that she was the number one person in the resident library.

He fell in love with the library place too.

It's just that Sheng Jianian has grown accustomed to self-confidence since he was young, but I don't know why he always spied Bai Xunyin's beautiful face in the dark, but he didn't dare to approach it.

Bai Xunyin is like an unattainable snow mountain lotus, which can only be viewed from a distance.

It wasn't until he knew by mistake that his senior Chen Zhi and his girlfriend was Bai Xunyin's roommate. Then he felt that he had a chance, and he voluntarily offered to find a girlfriend to suggest Zhao Na. Introduction.

It's a pity that he could detect the paleness and indifference on Bai Xunyin's face before the official introduction.

"Um, Carnival, let's sit down first." Zhao Na saw the whole process of Bai Xunyin's expression change beside her, frowning her eyebrows with some worry.

She greeted her man and Sheng Jia-nian to sit down, and then went to the bathroom to find Bai Yinian.

As soon as Zhao Na turned in, she saw the girl who thought she was in the cubicle was standing in front of the sink, her face dazzled by the orange light was pale to almost transparent, and she kept flushing her hands with cold water.

Zhao Na couldn't help being taken aback.

She and Bai Xunyin have been roommates for six years. Except for the obvious emaciation and haggard when Bai Xunyin took a long vacation to return to school when she was a junior, this is the second time she saw this expression on her face—as if she was afraid. What, it seems to be insensitive to something.

"Yin, Yinyin." Zhao Na asked timidly: "Are you okay?"

Bai Xunyin shook his head and said softly, "Sister Na, it's okay, I'll go back first. Thank you for your kindness, but I don't think it's appropriate."

Isn't it inappropriate to take a look? Zhao Na was taken aback. Before she could say her words of persuasion, Bai Xunyin had already taken out two hundred yuan from her wallet and stuffed her with him, and Quandang came over to take up a spot of wine money by herself tonight.

Then he smiled, and left this ‘smoke-smoke’ realm without hesitation.

Sheng Jianian and Yu Luoyin have a three-point similar face and temperament, which is enough to make her retreat.

Bai Xunyin realized that her ‘cultivation’ was not enough. If she was indifferent enough, she should be able to greet Sheng Jianian decently.

And now, obviously not.

This discovery made Bai Xunyin in the library a few days later, when he saw Sheng Jianian who took the initiative to talk, he became inexplicably irritable.

"Senior Sister." Sheng Jianian sat opposite her, hands folded into fists against her chin, a pair of phoenix eyes narrowed with a smile, and said with some regret: "I met here, it's a coincidence that we didn't talk last time. You left, Sister Na said something was wrong with you."

Bai Xunyin closed the book and gently pushed the glasses on the bridge of his nose with his slender fingertips: "Unfortunately, I saw you in the library at least three times."

The smile on Sheng Jianian's face froze.

Bai Xunyin's ‘Steel Straight Man’ asked generally: "Say something straight."

"Senior Sister, you are so awkward." Sheng Jianian recovered after a moment of stun, and couldn't help but laugh, looking cheerful and happy in his heart: "I feel I like you so much."

Bai Xunyin rubbed the fingertips at the corner of the page. After a while, she raised her head casually, her brown eyes calmly looking at Sheng Jia-nian.

"Sorry." She said bluntly: "I don't like you."

"Senior sister refused it too quickly." Sheng Jianian was not discouraged when he heard it. The teenager in his early twenties was full of immature and eager to try, and said arrogantly: "We haven't gotten along before, how can you know it's inappropriate? How about being friends first?"

Bai Xunyin: "I don't have time."

Sheng Jianian raised an eyebrow: "Why don't you have time."

"I got a master's degree, and I want to continue my studies and take the doctoral exam." Bai Xunyin replied realistically: "I want to study, find a doctoral supervisor, and write a thesis. Do you think you have time to make friends?"

…

Sheng Jia-nian couldn't help being speechless, staring blankly at the woman in front of her who was clearly beautiful and bright, slender and thin, but stubborn and strong in her bones.

To him, Bai Xunyin is already a ‘woman’.

Only then did Sheng Jianian vaguely understand why some seven aunts and eight women in the family always said that it’s not good for girls to study too much.

He used to think it was a rotten thought, but now he thinks...Reading will turn a girl into a ‘strong woman’, making it cold and blunt, and he doesn’t even have time to fall in love.

Sheng Jianian couldn't help but asked a little depressed: "Senior sister, do you have no time to fall in love, or do you not want to fall in love with me."

He was a little bit confused about which of the two made him more mournful.

Bai Xunyin smiled: "Is there a difference?"

She said to put away the books on the table, put on the coat hung on the chair behind her and left: "Sorry, the instructor is looking for me, let's go first."

The northern part of March is not the season of ‘spring warmth’. The cold air is still invading in an all-round way, and there is a shallow breath as soon as I go out to pant.

Bai Xunyin walked around the campus and gathered his woolen coat, still feeling cold.

She wasn't fooling Sheng Jianian. Her master supervisor sent her a message yesterday asking herself to go to the office to find him in the morning. Bai Xunyin guessed that it should be about applying for a doctoral dissertation.

Bai Xunyin didn't know much about the world, but remembered the ‘teaching’ Zhao Na told her before when she saw her instructor want to give something to her, when she passed the fruit shop, she picked a fruit basket that looked very high-end.

During her two years as a graduate student, her supervisor, Professor Sun, has helped her a lot. Whether it is the publication of research papers on the subject or some good projects with her to complete and make money, she is very dedicated.

Professor Sun doesn't smoke or drink, let alone collect money. Apart from buying some fruits, she really doesn't know what to buy.

It's just that such a basket of fruits makes the incorruptible old professor a little unhappy.

"What to buy?" Professor Sun, who was thin, stared at Bai Xunyin: "What's your life with me?"

"Teacher, you know that I'm a kind of "gen" person." Bai Xunyin smiled: "I am not buying you fruit for you as my teacher, but for treating you as a respected senior."

What she said was moving, and Professor Sun naturally had to accept it.

After a few casual words, Professor Sun entered the subject.

"I've read your paper, there is no problem, but you should know that taking your grades and ability test is a form." Professor Sun smiled very comfortably, and You Rongyan: "The most important thing is the teacher. On the one hand, you are very famous for your "perverted" hard work in school these past few years, and many old guys are vying to accept you."

Bai Xunyin was startled, and realized that this was the point that Professor Sun called her over today.

"Professor." She smiled slightly, humble and shy: "You have thoughts in your heart, do you plan to recommend me a teacher?"

"Otherwise, what do you think? Girl." As a teacher, there is nothing more proud of than outstanding students. In the past two years, Bai Xunyin has been Professor Sun's pride, that is, the ‘good seedling’ he has tried his best to cultivate.

He took a sip of tea and took out a piece of paper from the drawer to push it to Bai Xunyin: "I have written the recommendation letter for you, this professor, but a good buddy in my teaching career, under his hand, Bring out countless elites."

Bai Xunyin lowered his eyes to look at the black characters on the white paper, and was slightly taken aback.

Because the teacher that Professor Sun recommended to her turned out to be the famous Professor Li Chengfeng. The existence of this professor is a person who has a basket of resumes on the intranet of every school. I don’t know how many students want to go to him for advice every year. For a job, Professor Sun can actually get a place in Li Chengfeng? just…

"Probably more than ten years ago, I switched to Lan University to teach for two years, and I met Lao Li at this time." Professor Sun did not notice the strangeness of Bai Xunyin, and was still holding a teacup with a lot of emotions. Sighing the time that has passed, slowly coming—

"We are all engaged in physics, and we are like-minded. During the two years in Lin Lan, we couldn’t finish talking. The Professor Li I recommended to you, Lao Li, is nothing to say. He is very professional. Your current academic research direction is also extremely corresponding. If he is willing to accept you as a student, it would be a perfect fit."

It's just that Professor Li belongs to Lin Lan and Lan Da.

Bai Xunyin pinched a corner of the white paper with his fingers, and hesitated, "Professor, I..."

"But I rarely recommend a student to him. Lao Li will not deny me face. He looked at your grades and resume before, and it was quite satisfactory. You know that the master's degree and graduate students in our school only spend two years. Others The school basically lasts for three years, but he read your article and said that you have not graduated in two years, but the article you have written is more mature than a three-year student."

Professor Sun seemed to be quite proud of this, so that Bai Xunyin couldn't say anything that was piled up to the tip of his tongue.

"Besides, do I remember that your hometown is not Lin Lan? That's right, you can go home to study." Professor Sun looked at Bai Xunyin, his eyes were admiring, and he was a little bit reluctant: "Xiao Bai, you are really good." For students, what is even more rare is that they are fascinated by academics and have no distractions. I hope you have been reading and researching this road-do you understand?"

For a while, I couldn't say anything like "I want to stay in this school" and "I don't want to return to Lin Lan for the time being".

Only a fool can't understand how rare it is to have Li Chengfeng as a doctoral supervisor, and its value is no less than the down payment for a house in the center of a first-tier city.

For her, Professor Sun's recommendation is like a pie in the sky.

When people grow up, they should understand how important it is to live a ‘realistic’ life.

So Bai Xunyin pursed his lips and thanked him gratefully: "Professor Sun, thank you so much."

"You don't need to thank me. After all, I was in one of the matchmaking bridges. You should have heard of Lao Li's level and temper as students. If you are not good at yourself, my old guy's recommendation would be useless." Professor Sun waved his hand with a smile, and did not ask for credit: "In the final analysis, thank you for your own efforts. Go back and prepare."

Bai Xunyin sat in his seat and asked hesitantly, "Professor, I shouldn't have to go so early?"

I don't know why, she is always a little bit resistant to the keyword'Landa'—some things you think have passed long ago, but you will only find out when you really touch them, and you have never crossed that hurdle at all.

"Well, of course you don't have to go over without stopping, but you have to prepare for the exam, it's all □□, mainly because you have to pass Lao Li's interview. Whether it is an exam or an interview, you have to go back to Lin Lan to conduct it." Professor Sun thought After thinking about it, I made a conservative estimate: "You have stayed here for many years, right? There are so many things to pack. You can prepare in about half a month, so hurry up."

Leaving the professor's office, Bai Xunyin felt that he was walking fluttering.

It seems true that there are "accidents" everywhere in life.

She was already ready to continue her Ph.D. at this school, and then either stay in school or enter the society to find a job. In the days to come, she slowly planned...but she did not expect the possibility of returning to Lin Lan.

Even more arrogant about going to Lan University to study.

To her, that school used to be like the forbidden fruit in the Garden of Eden, just like Yu Luoyin, Bai Xunyin didn't even want to come into contact with it.

As a result, she now has no choice but to contact.

How ironic, going around, she finally returned to Landa.

It's like a certain destined ‘home’.

Bai Xunyin sighed slightly, only thinking that he was confused and didn't want to think any more.

By coincidence, the mobile phone in his pocket vibrated, Bai Xunyin saw the three characters "Yu Shitian" flashing on the screen, adjusted his mind and picked it up.

When she spoke again, her emotions were the same as usual, and she said faintly: "Tian Tian."

"Sister!" Yu Shitian's voice has always been lazy and sweet, as if she was covered in honey when she acted like a baby: "What are you doing?"

Bai Xunyin: "I just went to the professor's office."

"...Why every time I call you, you are doing learning-related things." And her phone calls are frequent! This shows what? Yu Shitian couldn't help but admire it: "Sister, you work so hard that I think I am a little spicy chicken."

Obviously she is also one of the top ten in the country by her own ability!

As a result, I came to the University of Technology and got acquainted with Bai Xunyin, and I felt like a mediocre person...

"You have graduated, of course you don't need to ask yourself like me." Bai Xunyin soothed: "How about your work recently?"

Yu Shitian was one year younger than her, and she graduated back to Lin Lan last year. She studied finance and reportedly joined an investment company. From time to time, she complained about how annoying social and animal life is. Bai Xunyin has become accustomed to listening.

"Hey, it's not the same way." Yu Shitian said casually, but this time he didn't have a prelude to complaining loudly. Instead, he whispered and whispered with the white voice: "Yinyin, my brother is about to get engaged, why is this in my heart? How uncomfortable? I shouldn't be the legendary brother-in-law complex."

Bai Xunyin knew that Yu Shitian had two elder brothers in his family, and he had listened to her often before, and couldn't help but smile—

"You are not called a brother-in-law complex. Objectively speaking, it is the discomfort caused by hormone dependence in the body. It is like the person who has accompanied you for decades suddenly becomes someone else's. Discomfort is natural and short. It won’t be easily relieved within time."

Bai Xunyin's analysis that was too ‘objective and scientific’ made Yu Shitian calm down in a dumbfounded manner, but he was still uncomfortable in his heart, so he couldn’t help groaning.

"Okay, okay." Bai Xunyin glanced at his watch and patiently coaxed her: "When I return to Lin Lan, I will meet and tell you."

"Huh...huh?!" Yu Shitian jumped up with hindsight, "Are you going back to Lin Lan? When?"

"In half a month."

"Ah, ah, it's real." Yu Shitian was overjoyed, his voice changed from self-pity to twitter: "You have a holiday?"

"It's not a holiday." Bai Xunyin smiled: "I'm going back to study."

Five minutes later, Bai Xunyin hung up, only to feel that the eardrum was noisy and painful by Yu Shitian.

She kneaded dumbfoundingly, walked towards the library and thought about it. She returned to the dormitory—in half a month, she will be back to Lin Lan to prepare for all matters related to the exam. It is better to pack up now. .

After Zhao Na heard about it, Hyun Ran wanted to cry, then sniffed her nose to help her clean up.

Bai Xunyin looked uncomfortable, after all, Zhao Na was her most familiar friend in the north, and she had been a roommate for six years.

But girls have never understood emotional expression, so they could only put their arms around Zhao Na who was sobbing and dryly said, "I will come back to see you."

Zhao Na let out a ‘pouch,’ her tears broke into a smile.

"By the way, I have been to Lin Lan twice. The new first-tier cities are really good. They are much more developed than here, let alone Professor Li." When Zhao Na helped Bai Xunyin fold his clothes, she was justified. According to the analysis: "Going back is still beneficial in all aspects. If I can have Professor Li as a doctoral supervisor, then I will definitely continue to read."

Seeing that the two-year postgraduate career is coming to an end, Zhao Na has also made her own decision-she is a local girl who is born and raised in her hometown and has connections in her hometown.

She stopped studying, and went straight to become a physics teacher in key high schools after graduating from her master's degree.

Isn't this a stable and comfortable choice?

Bai Xunyin has always felt that being a teacher is good.

"Yinyin, after gambling, it's not just about following the project." Zhao Na looked at her and said eagerly: "I heard that some of them were recommended by their supervisors, and they can directly enter the Institute of the Academy of Sciences. Professor Li gave gifts and persuaded them."

In this era of human society, Zhao Na firmly believes that ‘gifting’ can solve most of the problems-if it can’t, it means that gifts are not enough.

"Okay, I just went back, I don't want that much anymore." Bai Xunyin couldn't laugh or cry, and shook his head indifferently: "I'm walking too fast, I'm afraid of cramps."

In fact, being able to return to Lanzhou University this time with Professor Li is already a qualitative leap.

"Hey, but it still feels so sudden. I think you like the north so much. I thought you would continue to stay in the University of Technology to study Ph.D..." Zhao Na sighed with emotion as she was about to leave, but her eyes were looking at the suitcase. A pause for something: "Huh? What is this?"

She stretched out her hand and pulled out the blue and white dress at the bottom of the white sound box, and shook it around, only to find that it was a school uniform.

"School uniform?" Zhao Na hadn't seen such a ‘modern’ object for a long time, she couldn’t help but smile, and looked at Bai Xunyin: "Is this your school uniform? High school or junior high school?"

After Zhao Na asked, she realized that there was something wrong with Bai Xunyin's expression.

She stared at the school uniform blankly with clear eyes, as if she had been reminded of some dusty memories.

Bai Xunyin walked over and sat next to Zhao Na and explained softly: "High school uniform."

"Your high school uniforms have a sense of design." Zhao Na curled her lips: "It's much more beautiful than ours in high school—but why is this one so big? Did you get fat in high school? But even if you are fat, you are the most fat in the world. Pretty fat guy."

"Nonsense." When Bai Xunyin saw the school uniform, his melancholy thoughts were all disturbed by Zhao Na. There was a smile in his water eyes, and he said quietly: "This is a boys school uniform."

Zhao Na was taken aback: "Boy?"

"Well, my first love." After many years, Bai Xunyin was finally able to openly mention Yu Luoyin. In her mind, she unconsciously recalled their most ‘sweet’ time. The night when Yu Luoyin rode her home on a bicycle, her voice was soft: "He was afraid of me being cold, and he put it on me."

In retrospect, it still seems vivid.

It was the first time that Zhao Na heard a topic about ‘boys’ in Bai Xunyin’s mouth for six years, and for the first time knew that the little fairy who looked like an inhumane fireworks had also fallen in love.

For a moment, her surprised mouth could squeeze an egg.

Bai Xunyin curled up her slender legs, with her chin resting on her knees, turning his head and eyebrows to look at Zhao Na crookedly: "What is your expression? Are you surprised?"

"...Of course I am surprised. I always feel that you grew up drinking dew and have no emotions or desires. How can I think that you actually fell in love." After a short period of astonishment, Zhao Na's gossip spirit regained, and she asked hurriedly: " What kind of boy is it? I'm really curious, what kind of boy can fall in love with you!"

Zhao Na's question was unremarkable, but Bai Xunyin was silent for a long time before she said seriously—

"It's a very special boy."

"When he was in high school, he was the school grass, and he was also the school's number one student...should be the character that only exists in the novels you like to read.

"It's just a bit bad."

"Fuck, it's too romantic!" Zhao Na felt the fireworks exploded in her heart when she heard Bai Xunyin's ordinary narration, and she thumped the bed with excitement: "No wonder you haven't watched it for so many years. The boy with the upper eye, isn't this the typical person who met too amazing when he was young? Then what then?!"

Bai Xunyin smiled without saying a word, savoring Zhao Na's phrase "I met someone so amazing when I was young", the smile on the corner of his lips was quite joking.

After a long while, she said calmly—

"No more."

"He asked me to Kao Lan, and I reported to the University of Engineering with his back, and then broke up."

…

Zhao Na never thought that such a romantic love ‘story’ would actually end in such a way.

Seeing Bai Xunyin's back indifferently packing things, two words flashed through her heart with tears: scum girl!