Incurable Pain

There was a saying in the Spider-Man movie-the greater the responsibility, the greater the ability.

This sentence is not only applicable to superheroes who are omnipotent, but in every moment and every detail in life.

When I was young, parents would compare the poorly-learned children with the excellent students who did well, and they would verbally say "children from other people's families", but they didn't know that "children from other people's families" became role models for the sake of this face. How many times more effort does your child work?

When he grows up and goes to school, the teacher will select the best student to be the class leader, and let him take charge of the class, but he must first be strict with himself in every move.

Not to mention that after entering the society, with step by step promotion, the strong will always come to the fore, making people rush to...

The principal will only allow teachers with strong ability to attend public classes, and students with strong ability to speak on stage.

The company will only allow good employees to get bonuses and enter the management, which is the same.

People with strong ‘ability’ have received countless praises, countless envious eyes, and countless abilities that they can bear.

Just like a perfect moral benchmark and a spiritual idol living in the mouths of others, over time, he will not allow himself to make mistakes. Once he makes a mistake, he may collapse completely.

Yu Luoyin is actually such a person.

He has been better than his peers from childhood to most of his age. He was trained by his parents with the strictest and most demanding methods. He was destined to be followed by others. He was destined to be a'child of someone else's family' from birth. .

He had to adapt to all this, invincible, and felt that he was such a person.

Yu Luoyin feels that he has the ability to take up all the compliments, but...what about defamation?

In fact, he is a kind of person who lives in another ‘ivory tower’. Once his strong trust in himself collapses, he is more likely to get into the corner.

Bai Xunyin understands Yu Luoyin.

The waist around the arms was stiff, and the two people seemed to have been acupunctured, one after the other fixed in front of the elevator.

I don't know how long it took before Bai Xunyin slowly drew in front of Yu Luoyin, his brown eyes lifted, and he stared directly at the man's obscure black eyes.

"I'm hungry." The girl blinked and changed the subject lightly: "Let's go eat wontons, Yu Luoyin."

Yu Luoyin looked at her for a while, and said in a dumb ‘um’: "Okay."

There is a feeling of going back in time.

When they were'reconciled' in the third year of high school, although they were covered in a false forgiveness, the time was really sweet.

Bai Xunyin likes to eat wonton, and he often takes it with him after the end of late self-study. Over time, this has become Yu Luoyin's favorite pasta.

Only by liking can one subtly influence the habits of a man.

Although it was only a short period of two months, Yu Luoyin still felt that it was the best time.

He liked her to lie to him more than he lied to her. It is best to be cheated for a lifetime.

Yu Luoyin unconsciously drove the car to a wonton shop where they used to go.

It is Lin Lan's time-honored brand. The curtain is small and tastes good. Yemen is a city in the middle of the night.

After waiting for a while, I arrived at two positions, sitting in a small corner, and the boss remembered them when he came to order.

"You guys and girls, are you all grown up like this?" Under the orange light, the soft-faced middle-aged woman's eyes were inlaid with fine wrinkles. Looking at them, she was surprised and said: "I remember if you were the third middle school in the past. A student? He always wears his Third Middle School uniform to come to our house to eat wontons, and always rush to come in the evening."

"Yes..." Bai Xunyin was a little surprised and looked at the surprised lady boss: "Do you remember us?"

It's been six years, who would have thought that the owner of a small shop that he often visited would still remember them, even Yu Luoyin was a little surprised.

"Remember, you two are good-looking, so handsome." The proprietress smiled and said straightforwardly: "I thought at the time that if you two always come to my store to eat, my store does not need to be decorated. Pengxun is shining, hey, you two were in love at the time, are you still together after so many years? The relationship is really good."

Hearing this, the people at both ends of the narrow table quietly glanced at each other, and they didn't know how to answer the conversation.

It seems like this scene, to be honest, it will break this dreamy atmosphere.

There are many things in the world that are ‘truth in the world’. It’s better to leave some false and beautiful surfaces for strangers to fantasize about, and that’s a good deed.

So Bai Xunyin smiled and did not answer.

The proprietress happily went to make wontons for the two people.

She has a good memory, and even remembers what flavors these two handsome young people like to eat.

Yu Luoyin rubbed a pair of disposable chopsticks to make sure that there were no small barbs on them before handing them to Bai Xunyin. By the way, he wiped the spoon with a sterile tissue.

Bai Xunyin touched his chin with his fingertips, watching his'detailed' movements thoughtfully.

Soon two bowls of wontons were put on the table, and through a layer of steaming mist, Bai Xunyin saw that Yu Luoyin's white eye sockets seemed a little red.

I don’t know if it was smoked by the heat or... ‘The man has tears but he doesn’t flick, but he hasn’t reached the point of sadness’.

Bai Xunyin just thought about it, and muttered annoyingly, "Yu Luoyin, are you crying?"

"...Fuck." Yu Luoyin pointed his slender finger on the table, turned his head slightly, and concealed his irritability: "I want to smoke a cigarette."

"No." Bai Xunyin frowned, and ruthlessly rejected his request: "You said you don't smoke in front of me."

...

He said it to coax her during their ‘first encounter’ in the third year of high school.

At that time, my **** said all the sweet words, as if he didn't need money, and made a lot of promises that I didn't know if it could be done.

No wonder Bai Xunyin hates him, hates him, and doesn't forgive him.

Yu Luoyin looked at the girl's fair face and smiled bitterly: "Do you remember?"

Bai Xunyin took a bite of the wonton, and the tip of his tongue was scalded by the torn soup. He couldn't help but frowned and sighed and said vaguely, "I remember."

"It's rare." Yu Luoyin smiled, and his slender thumb and index finger rubbed into it a little, "Remember what I said when I was such a bastard."

Bai Xunyin glanced at him: "So you are not so shameless."

...

Why does this cause a sudden curse?

Looking at the man who was a little surprised with clear eyes, the girl said solemnly: "I also know that I was a **** before."

Heh, Yu Luoyin helplessly, bending his eyes tiredly and reluctantly smiled at her.

Although he didn't want to admit it, he had to say that he really was.

"So, can you still be more **** now than before?" Bai Xunyin stared at him through a thin mist, and quietly said: "The **** before was full of spirits, Yu Luoyin, who are you despondent to see now?"

Yu Luoyin was startled.

"When I was in the north, many boys confessed to me. I occasionally think of you." This is the first time that Bai Xunyin mentioned her thing in front of Yu Luoyin. The thing in the north, even if Yu Luoyin is unclear, He didn't consciously listened greedily, very extravagantly wanting to understand Bai Xunyin's past.

He heard the girl quietly say: "Yu Luoyin, I hate you very much, but I will compare them to you unconsciously, isn't it very cheap?"

Yu Luoyin's throat seemed to be blocked, he couldn't say anything, he could only look at Bai Xunyin.

She said these words in her mouth, but her face was very calm, eating wontons calmly, and narrating her entangled mood in the past: "I hate you, and also hate myself for being attracted to boys like you, you change I can’t take responsibility for choosing a spouse, Yu Luoyin, you are an out-and-out bastard."

Yu Luoyin couldn't help but smiled, as if he acquiesced to Bai Xunyin's words.

He was a bastard, a scum, and she was right.

"But when I came back this time, I met you again..." Bai Xunyin paused, and then turned around: "It's rare to feel that you are not that **** anymore."

Yu Luoyin unconsciously said, "What?"

"It may be because of your profession, because of your sense of responsibility for the patient. Later, I checked that I couldn't enter the operating room after drinking, and I learned that I didn't drink at the class reunion night." Bai Xunyin smiled: "It sounds ridiculous. This time, compared to you deliberately pretending to be drunk and deceiving me, what I care more about is the fact that you are self-disciplined to the point that you didn't drink a sip of alcohol because of your own profession."

Yu Luoyin: "Yin..."

"Let me finish." Bai Xunyin raised his eyes and interrupted him, staring at him with brown eyes, with a hint of inexplicable emotion: "Yu Luoyin, this makes me feel that you are much more mature than six years ago. , I'm more serious and responsible, so I look at you more pleasing to the eye."

As if perceiving what Bai Xunyin was about to say, Yu Luoyin's heart seemed to be gripped tightly by a pair of invisible hands, looking at Bai Xunyin almost in a daze.

It's a bit hard to be nervous enough to breathe.

"I still said that. You are much stronger now than you were six years ago." Bai Xunyin retracted his gaze, pretending to continue eating nonchalantly: "A momentary accident and failure are nothing. You were ignorant at that time. Fearless, but ostentatious-don't tell me that you are improving now, but your thinking is shrinking."

Slowly figuring out what she meant, Yu Luoyin's fingers on her knees curled up unconsciously.

He looked at the woman lowering his head to eat wontons, the earlobes of the hot powder, and smiled thoughtfully-didn't he just want to comfort him? Isn't it guilty of such a roundabout?

But the corners of his lips couldn't help rising frantically, because he finally knew that Bai Xunyin was still thinking about him.

Anyway, she still cares about him.

"Yinyin." Yu Luoyin couldn't help calling that familiar name, his clear voice was a little dumb: "Thank you."

For many reasons, such as six years ago, or six years later, for example, Bai Xunyin could comfort him'regardless of the past', and could tell him several advantages...

"Just like you said, people will change. Six years is enough to reinvent a person's thinking, so..." Yu Luoyin stared at her, biting the tip of his tongue and swallowing some words of'crossing the boundary' and replacing them with Something else: "So if I can, I want to apologize for my **** who was serious about you six years ago."

"No need." Bai Xunyin swallowed his last mouthful of soup, raised his eyes and looked at him seriously: "I forgive you."

This time, she really let go.

Yu Luoyin was taken aback for a moment, and the tip of his tongue could not help stumbling: "Really, really?"

He was scrupulous, because the little girl had said forgiveness before, but after that... it was six years of not seeing each other again.

"Really." Bai Xunyin smiled. She looked at Yu Luoyin's pretentiously calm face, almost overwhelmed with joy. She vaguely seemed to see the vigorous young man six years ago.

Gentle, scum, Qing Jun, people love and hate... But he has always been the only boy who can move her heart for so many years.

In a comfortable and familiar environment, there is noisy surroundings, full of real fireworks in the world. Bai Xunyin suddenly felt that she didn't want to compete with herself.

"Yu Luoyin." She paused and said quietly: "Let's be together."

She still likes him, she likes him very much, so she doesn't want to embarrass herself.

This is not for Yu Luoyin's sake, but for her own sake.

The young man who was the proud son of heaven six years ago, even though he was abominable, was still her dream ‘dream’.

Bai Xunyin longed for him and wanted to own him.

The reason why she chose today and said it at this time is because she suddenly realized that in life, she never knows that'accidents' and'tomorrow' will come faster.

Therefore, Bai Xunyin wanted to treat himself better when he could grasp it, and when he could possess it.