Incurable Pain

After a long time, Sheng Wen told Ning Shumo that he wanted to confess.

The classroom in the night was almost the most emotional day in his seventeen years of life. Even if it didn't show up on the face, the actual heart was already stormy.

That was... the closest he was to the emotion of ‘impulsive’.

But finally, looking at Ning Shumo's dark, timid eyes, they were still abruptly pressed down.

He is not worthy.

Sheng Wen asked himself, is a person who has nothing worthy of the publicity of Ning Shumo, is almost the best girl in the world?

Therefore, in the girl's horrified eyes, Sheng Wen's vivid Adam's apple finally rolled down, and said nonchalantly: "Is there any problem you can't solve?"

He was only worthy to help him with the problem-even if he knew exactly what Ning Shumo was for, he was still here to study math problems that she didn't know.

It's just that the teenager dare not say it.

He didn't dare to say that he actually liked Ning Shumo very much. All this is not her one-man show... But Sheng Wen now only dares to sit opposite her, not even worthy of the side.

He must be one metre away before he can restrain his desire to approach her.

Even though the little girl's white slapped face and small fan-like eyelashes flickered and flickered in front of her eyes, she was shocked to the extreme.

"Sheng Wen." The girl's voice was glutinous, unlike the usual publicity, but there was a hint of grievance that was not easily detectable: "Do you think I can be admitted to Xiao Da?"

Sheng Wen's slender fingers holding the penholder paused.

"I'm working so hard now..." Ning Shumo sniffed, "Isn't it all useless?"

She lowered her eyes lonely, and didn't realize that the boy almost squeezed the poor pen, and Sheng Wen's white hand was full of bright blue veins.

Only the atmosphere in the classroom of the two of them was almost stagnant. After a long while, Sheng Wen spoke.

"It doesn't matter if you go to Xiao Da." The young man's voice was cold, and he couldn't hear any emotions: "Your grades are okay to go to a good university."

Ning Shumo's fingers under the table were unconsciously tangled together.

She raised her eyes and looked at the'indifferent' young man with her eyes down. When she spoke again, her voice was trembling: "I thought it didn't matter where I went, but now... Sheng Wen, don't you really know why I want to go to Xiao Da? "

...

How could he not know?

But it was precisely because he knew that Sheng Wen felt that he was unworthy to let Ning Shumo work so hard and painfully for him.

"My life is not a step

A narrow bridge that can go wrong. "

Sheng Wen wrote down the problem-solving process ‘swiftly’ on the paper, and then handed it to the girl, with an unsatisfactory expression: "And you have many choices, Ning Shumo, anyway, I thank you very much."

Thank you for being so kind to me.

Let him know that there are other things in life that can arouse his interest besides reading, such as a girl he had never thought of before.

What if he meets Ning Shumo after he is financially independent and his personality becomes independent in a few years?

Sheng Wen couldn't help thinking about this question.

And now he has the answer.

If there really is a if, then he will definitely pursue her desperately, just like Ning Shumo now, without fear.

*

With Sheng Wen's help, that difficult math problem is nothing.

At about eleven o'clock, two people left the almost empty school—except for the patrolling security guards.

Sheng Wen remained silent, but followed Ning Shumo, obviously intending to send her home.

Lin Lan's sky was very clear that night, as if washed by water, and the stars in the sky were very dazzling.

Ning Shumo left the school gate, stopped and looked up at the stars.

Sheng Wen didn't stop or urge, but stopped after her. She looks at the stars, he looks at her.

"It might be because of Lin Lan always raining. After the fog has cleared, I always feel that there are the most beautiful stars here." Ning Shumo murmured, "Unfortunately, we won't be able to see it in the next four years. You will be in Beicheng. Look at the stars, and I...I'm going to Matsushi."

She figured it out, maybe Bai Xunyin was right.

She shouldn't chase the unattainable fantasy, but should grasp the dream within reach.

It seems that there is only one word difference between fantasy and dream, but the latter is a goal she can achieve.

I don't know when it started, Ning Shumo almost forgot that her first volunteer was to come to Songshi University.

Sheng Wen looked at the girl's bright and delicate profile in the night, and felt as if something went out in her heart little by little.

For almost a moment, he wanted to blurt out: I am with you!

However, instinctive disregard only exists in a small part of Shengwen's mechanized life, almost zero.

He still hasn't forgotten his goal since childhood-he wants to go to the best university and go to TOP1.

They all have their own path of choice, their own dreams.

If you give up something because of your youth and frivolousness at this moment, you will definitely regret it in the future.

So Sheng Wen smiled silently for a moment with blood in his heart.

"Ning Shumo." He said softly: "Take a good exam, uh... a happy life."

This can be regarded as his best blessing for a person who is not good at speech and stupid.

Ning Shumo burst into laughter, and looked at the young boy's eyes that were extremely bright, as if they blended the stars in the sky.

They will remember this night.

Because this is the closest the two of them shadows.

*

In the summer of the top students in the first grade of high school, almost everyone was admitted to their ideals. Those who were prepared and those who were unprepared eventually went their own way.

Ning Shumo is a girl who likes to join in the fun, and also likes to make a fuss, but she did not participate in the class's break-up meal.

"I'm pretty hopeless."

The girl looked at Bai Xunyin and smiled half-truth: "I'm afraid I will cry."

There is no one else who can make her ‘lacking root’ girl have the urge to cry, besides Sheng Wen.

"I'm ready to never see him again." Ning Shumo took a deep breath, with a pretentious smile on his pale face: "Let's start today."

She and Bai Xunyin spent the meal that day.

The two girls had their own worries. The first time they drank, they couldn't beat the power of alcohol. After only a short drink, they slept in Ning Shumo's bedroom.

Later, Ning Shumo learned that Sheng Wen didn't go to the class for a meal that day.

Bai Xunyin didn't go, and Yu Luoyin didn't go either... as if their so-called "youth" was over.

And college life is faster, almost in the blink of an eye, from the beginning of school to graduation.

But for four years, but because Ning Shumo majored in forensic medicine, it took another two years for a graduate student to come home and arrange a job.

Ning Shumo didn't know why he chose this speciality that is neither human nor ghost. Since the second year of sophomore experiment and research, he has faced almost corpses every day.

Simulated, really... Anyway, I have seen all terrible scenes.

The girl who used to cover her eyes when watching horror movies, now she sees the reality of giants and others calmly.

In fact, the things that were once feared are just like that, life can always train people invincibly.

And because of the special nature of Ning Shumo's profession, she was the only female creature in the entire criminal investigation team.

She was uncompetitive and became a flower in the police force.

To be honest, Ning Shumo is not rare at all.

——Even if you find the second flower?

The girl who has gradually grown into a'woman' mixes with a large group of men every day. From old to young, this little girl like a mascot is extremely rare.

It's just that Ning Shumo never fell in love.

Quite a few people confessed to her and showed good wishes, but she just didn't have the feeling of shock.

Also, where is there so much love at first sight in the world, stunned at first sight... and Sheng Wen.

In fact, Ning Shumo didn't think of Sheng Wen very often.

Maybe two years before she went to college, she saw her roommates fall in love one after another, and occasionally she would love to sprout, and she wanted to try it.

But those boys are not Sheng Wen.

Ning Shumo refused to admit that she was waiting for Sheng Wen's hypocritical behavior. She just didn't want to do it. She wanted to meet a boy who made her want more than Sheng Wen.

And she believes that she will be able to meet it too.

A beautiful and lovely girl like her, it's awkward to find someone she likes.

Ning Shumo was so arrogant and stubborn that he was single without fear year after year, but he didn't feel anything bad.

Except for Valentine's Day every year.

But a year's Valentine's Day is a mess of seven or eight, seven or eight days, which is more refreshing than the remaining three hundred and fifty days?

Ning Shumo was able to figure out the account.

*

It was actually an accident to be able to meet Sheng Wen again.

Since childhood, Ning Shumo has always been a character who didn't enter the classroom until the last minute of school. Except for the few months when he gave Shengwen breakfast in his senior year, he was slightly diligent.

So there is no need to expect her to be reborn after she goes to work.

As usual, she stepped to work and drove in a hurry. The Criminal Investigation Bureau had no parking space. People who went to work usually parked their car in the underground parking lot of the business building opposite, about 300 meters away, and then rushed over.

Ning Shumo already knew how to do it, and a series of actions went smoothly and smoothly-only that he accidentally bumped into someone today.

He recklessly knocked over the papers he was holding in his arms, and the papers flew around.

"Ah, sorry, sorry!" Ning Shumo didn't care about being late for work and not having a full attendance award. He squatted down in a panic to help others pick up things, muttering without raising his head and eyes, "I'm too anxious," I'll pick it up for you."

The girl moved swiftly, quickly packed a pile of papers, stood up and smiled a little behind the ribbon: "Here you..."

When I saw the man in front of me, everything I wanted to say got stuck in his throat for an instant.

Ning Shumo was stupid.

She did not expect to see Sheng Wen in this situation after more than five years.

And she recognized it at a glance, not only because Sheng Wen was the person she had carved on her heart, but also because he hadn't changed much at all.

The boy who wore school uniforms is now in a suit, still very thin, with cold white skin and black hair color eyebrows...

A pair of bottomless eyes looked at her, obscure.

It was the silence that Sheng Wen broke first.

His deep voice was a little soft, and he hesitated: "Ning... Shumo?"

Mr. Lu Xun once said that good fortune is often designed for mediocre people.

At this moment, they all perceive it.

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