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"Mid-term gastric cancer." After the electronic gastroscopy, the doctor confirmed the cause.

I looked at the doctor blankly, and for a moment did not respond. I got my voice back halfway and asked, "Is gastric cancer ... is it a misdiagnosis?" I just realized that it was impolite to suspect that the other side had misdiagnosed in front of the doctor.

Fortunately, the doctor did not get angry, but looked up at me and explained further: "The patient developed vomiting, which is caused by the rupture of small pulmonary blood vessels after the cancer cells have spread. This is one of the most obvious symptoms of gastric cancer in the middle and advanced stages."

I listened in amusement, and hurriedly after hearing the word spread, "So heal ..."

"The initial diagnosis is that the cancer cells have not spread very seriously. Surgery is recommended."

I was relieved, and there was still hope for surgery. After swallowing, I watched the doctor carefully and asked, "What's the cost of the operation?"

The doctor is writing a medical record report without answering his head: "Surgery costs plus radiotherapy and chemotherapy costs, depending on the medication you use, will be about 50,000 to 100,000 during the hospital period. After that, you need to see if you need it after the operation. Continue radiotherapy, chemotherapy, and money for medicine ... "At this point, the doctor looked up and looked at me with regret," I can't give you an exact number. "

A blank in my mind.

50,000-100,000, not counting the cost of later treatment.

The problem is that my total deposit now is less than 40,000, and I cannot afford even the most conservative expenses.

The doctor looked at me in distress, and frowned again, telling him, "Your family will make a decision as soon as possible. The sooner the operation is done, the better for the patient. Don't delay."

"I see, thank you doctor."

When I returned to the ward, my mother was already asleep. Li Xuan hurriedly greeted me after seeing me back: "What happened? What did the doctor say?"

"Stomach cancer." I know that Li Yan cannot hide this, and she will need to help her in many things in the future.

"How can ..." Li Yan's eyes instantly turned red. People of their age may feel hopeless when they hear about cancer.

"It's okay, the doctor said that surgery is still possible, and it will be okay if the surgery is successful." I reluctantly gave a laugh and comforted softly.

"It would cost a lot of money ..." Li Min asked, looking worriedly.

"I'll think of a way. Li Yan, you go back to rest first." After a long night of tossing, Li Yan is older, I'm a bit uneasy.

"Okay. I'll go back and pack some clothes for Axiu. I'm afraid this hospital will be staying for a long time." Li Yi sighed and told me a few words before leaving the ward.

I sat down slowly next to the bed, looking at my mother's dreaming face, watching her tightly frowning brows, thinking of the picture of her covering her stomach and shrinking to the ground, my heart ache. Reaching out to deal with her hair that fell to the cheek, I secretly determined in my heart that no matter what method is used, I must raise the operation cost.

At noon, Li Wei came to the hospital with her clothes and cooked some porridge for my mother. Coincidentally, my mother woke up at the same time. She woke up to see that she was in the hospital, terrified, holding me tightly, her face about to cry. I held her hand and patiently explained to her that she was sick and needed to be treated in hospital so that the stomach would not hurt. Li Yan also rushed out while the porridge was hot, and wanted to feed her. My mother frowned and turned away.

I brought the bowl from Li Yan, picked up the spoon, sipped a little porridge, blew it, fed it to the past, and whispered softly, "Mom, let ’s eat a little ..."

She looked at me hesitantly, and finally opened her mouth and swallowed the porridge.

I saw her looking at the complete trust and dependence in my eyes, her nose sore and sour, and quickly turned her head to cover her cough, and shed tears back.

After asking Li to help take care of my mother, I hurried to the supermarket in the afternoon to find the manager, explained my situation, and asked if I could advance the salary. The manager shook his head and refused me, "Xiao Mu, I know you are not easy. But our supermarket has never had such rules ... Think about it, if I promise you, everyone will come to me to pay me in advance, what should I do "

I was disappointed, but I also understood the embarrassment of the manager.

After a day off from the manager, I walked out of the supermarket.

When I was on the street, watching the crowd coming and going, I was suddenly at a loss. Where should I go next to raise money?

The work of the restaurant has been resigned. Things have been stolen before, and the phones of colleagues and customers in the mobile phones have been lost. And I have no friends who can help at this time.

I think of a way to get money quickly.

Sell ​​blood

I have drained all the blood from my body and can't make up 50,000 yuan.

Sell ​​oneself

I smiled bitterly in my heart, don't say that my appearance is ordinary and I can't sell it, even if someone really wants it, how much can I be worth?

A thought flashed through my mind. I hesitated for a while, and finally found an Internet cafe nearby, and sat down in a corner of the corner.

I turned on the computer, stretched out my hand, hesitated for a while, and finally took a breath and typed "sell kidney" in the search bar.

Press Enter, and a lot of related webpages appear immediately. Some are news of the police cracking the case, and some are asking questions from consultants like me, but the following is an objection:

[This is illegal in our country. 】

[Lost a kidney your body will be greatly affected, maybe you will regret it for a lifetime. 】

[Please consider it carefully. 】

The cold words fell into my heart one by one, and I almost wanted to close the webpage immediately to get up and leave. Some pictures flashed in my mind: the look of my mother lowering her head and peeling eggs for me, the way she handed me the yellow cloth bag, and she was sitting by the trash can waiting for me ...

In the end she looked like she was curled up on the ground while covering her stomach.

I turned off those discouraged pages with no expression, and continued to search the websites for the information I wanted. In the end, I finally found a few numbers. I took out my mobile phone to write down these numbers, cleared my browsing history, turned off the computer, and left the Internet cafe.

I went to a nearby park and found a place where no one was. I took out my phone and started dialing those numbers. The first two were prompted to stop, and to the third, the phone rang for a long time, and finally someone connected.

"Hey." There was no sound there.

"Hello there,."

...

After speaking for about an hour, the other party was very vigilant, always doubting my identity, and asked me many questions before agreeing to give me a match. After hanging up, I sat in the gazebo in the park and waited for a reply. Looking at the lush trees in front of me, and people with passing smiles on their faces occasionally passing by, their hearts were blank.

The other party returned the call only after half an hour, probably because I was young and had repeatedly guaranteed no medical history. Someone soon asked me to send me a whole body examination report. If there was no problem, I was willing to give 100,000 for my kidney. .

"Can 100,000 be higher?"

"Oops, the 100,000 is already very high. We are doing this at a high risk. If you were not young, you would not get the money! Speaking of which, young people like you are so few selling kidney ..." Barbara said.

I clenched the phone and smiled bitterly in my heart, who would sell his organs if he had no choice.

[Maybe you will regret it all your life]

The words I saw on the Internet suddenly came to my mind.

For a lifetime ...

It doesn't matter, use my health for my mother's life.

worth it.