My Feelings Can Wait

The atmosphere of the conversation was so good that Ji Yuyan's sudden stupidity made no sense. Hearing Jing Xiu's instructions, Ji Yuyan covered his mouth embarrassedly, put down his phone and trot to the bathroom to wash.

Soon she came back, her lips were red and moist, and she whispered: "I want to kiss it. It hurts..." she said, her voice choked again.

Jing Xiu's heart is warm. She wrapped her hands around her abdomen, half blocking the scar, and said warmly: "It has passed." In fact, no matter how painful she was, she did not feel the pain at the time.

Seeing Jing Xiu's embrace, Ji Yuyan suddenly nervously said, "A Xiu, are you cold?"

Jing Xiu was asked by her abruptly, and when she looked at her current appearance in front of the camera, she was close to naked, and then she felt ashamed.

She didn't answer Ji Youyan's question, and went straight to get the pajamas from the sheet. She stretched her arms into her sleeves first, then stretched her waist and put her head in.

Ji Yuyan stared at Jing Xun's beautifully-lined body in the video, and swallowed untimely. Just when everything was going to be hidden under the clothes, Ji Youyan asked her curiously: "Axun, what is the English pattern on it?"

Near the edge of Jingxuan's scar, there is a small black tattoo, Ji Youyan can't see clearly.

Jing Xiu put on his clothes, and subconsciously followed Ji Youyan's questioning, stroking where his intercostal tattoo was. "The first letter is F." She said lightly.

Many words appeared in Ji Yooyan's mind.

The tattoo was when Jingxuan was in a bad mood one year after the breakup, and her friend suggested that she go.

"When designing, I told the tattoo artist that the good tattoo is ‘forget’."

What to forget is self-evident. Ji Yuyan bit his lip.

"When I lay down, I regretted it." If you can really forget, why bother to make the "forget" tattoo on your body into a memory.

It's just trying to cover up and deceive others. Jing Xiu curled his fingertips slightly, "Finally, I got a forgive tattoo."

She looked down, with a sense of self-deprecation, "Unfortunately, you see, I didn't do well in these two words in the end."

Forgive me. In Ji Youyan's eyes, water was looming again. "No, Axun, you have done well enough."

She was grateful that Jingxuan hadn't done it well. If Jingxun had done it all, then where she was still trapped and reluctant to go. But she was distressed again, distressed the last life to the end, still did not do well, but could never wait for her own Jingxuan.

Jing Xiu was noncommittal. She took a moment to think, pressing on the scar, and turned back to the topic that had just been interrupted by Ji Yoon's actions: "Yanyan."

Ji Yuyan listened to Jing Xun's text softly in his eyes.

"Just like I showed you the ugliest scar on my body, I also feel embarrassed, embarrassed, and even afraid that you think my body is no longer perfect. However, I choose to believe in you. The same, say, if you take you My wounds were exposed to me, and I couldn’t lick your wounds. Instead, I disliked its ugliness. For a lover like me, you don’t have to linger. Because it’s not worth it.”

"Do you have such trust in me? Is it because I have not done well enough to give you a sense of security?"

Ji Youyan lowered her head and said bitterly, "No, Axun, it's my own problem. Axun, I..." She tightened the five fingers of her mobile phone and continued: "I was driven out of the house by my parents. It seemed that the worldview had collapsed. Then, the shadow seemed to be unable to wave away anymore."

Her eyes were wet: "At that time, I felt that I was going north alone, and I felt that I was shut out of the world. I suddenly discovered that what I learned from books since I was a child, the so-called parental love is selfless and great. In fact, it is not entirely true. I am their ideal daughter, and they love me. If I am not their ideal, they can drive me away ruthlessly. I realized that I was born with blood. Parents’ love is conditional and can be taken back at any time. My self-protection mechanism seems to make me subconsciously, I can no longer trust and rely on a person wholeheartedly. I don’t know, this world is It’s not true that there will be someone who can accept me completely and love me all the way, including the different and imperfect side that I and her imagined. I...too scared to be abandoned again."

Jing Xiu heard her talking about her fear, and seeing her sad look with red eyes, heartache was unbearable.

Ji Yuyan squeezed a smile at this moment, and looked straight at her gently and said, "But I believe you now. Axun, I believe you. Even the once unbearable me, you are willing to give me another chance. Suffice it to say, you are real, am I not in love?"

Jing Xiu opened his mouth and suddenly became silent. Although looking at Ji Yooyan's glamour, she was also happy in her heart. Although Ji Yooyan had concluded that she really had no way to refute it, she really wanted to know how the video terminated the call.

After a long while, Jing Xiu didn't open his eyes, and said with difficulty, "You are right."

Ji Yuyan broke his tears into a smile. Jing Xiu restrained his shame and looked directly at Ji Yoo. "But with words, love is not enough in love. It is easy to fall in love, but it is not easy to get along. I admit that I was not honest enough before, thinking I am Can contain everything, but the result has led to more and more problems between us."

"There is a problem with our way of getting along. I even think that it was because I was too forbearing in the past to condone your non-communication. If we can't change the way we get along, we will never be the right person for each other. I don't want to be like before. That’s it, and I don’t want to be like this anymore. I will force you a little bit, and you will tell me a little bit. I can’t do it as the eternal initiative.”

Ji Yuyan was tender and promised: "Then I will do it. Axun, this time, will I take the initiative?"

Jing Xiu's feather eyelashes lightly fan, with a shaken look.

"I will chase you, okay?" Ji Yoo said well.

Jing Xiu lowered his neck, a few seconds later, faintly said: "Aren't you already chasing?" The voice was soft, like a feather scratching Ji Youyan's heart.

Ji Yooyan's entire portrait was lit up all of a sudden, licking his lips and tentatively said: "Then... Then have you seen my sincerity and change?"

Jing Xiu almost inaudibly answered her with an "Um."

Ji Yooyan's spirits rose. What came to her mind, she struck the iron while it was hot, and plucked up the courage to invite Jing Xiu: "A Xiu, would you like to come and see my father?" It was a gesture of completely letting go of her territory.

Jing Xiu's throat moved a bit. In addition to being moved and joyful, there were grievances and tears in her heart uncontrollably welling up. This invitation, how did she wait to die from expectation.

But she endured her desire and asked Ji Youyan sensibly: "Does your father know of my existence?"

Ji Yuyan actually doesn't know the answer. In the past two days, she had not had time to talk to her parents about this topic. When her mother asked her about Jingxun, she mentioned very few things. It was more like an unbelieving guess and did not mention her father. Do you know what is the attitude? But thinking about it, I guess it wouldn't be a good attitude to know it.

She answered Jingxun honestly: "My mother knows, my dad, I don't know if she knows."

"Then what's your mother's attitude?" Although the environment is actually much better now than before, Jing Xiu didn't dare to look forward to the traditional traditions of Ji Youyan's family.

Ji Youyan looked sad, "My mother...didn't agree very much."

Jing Xiu's expression also darkened. She said softly: "Then you are sure, I'm going to see your father now, won't your father be angry?"

Ji Yoo was speechless.

Jing Xiu understands Ji Yuyan's intention to invite her at this moment, so she is more considerate of her, now is not the right time.

"Yes, there are some things, don't rush for a while. What I want is your attitude. You wait for your uncle to get better first, and take care of the family affairs first."

Ji Yooyan felt Jing Xiu's considerate and generous, thought of his already overwhelming sense of existence with Jing Xiu's parents, and then thought about the unidentified attitude of his parents, Lu Fang's ambiguous attitude, and his heart was ashamed and soft.

She touched Jing Xiu's beautiful and gentle face on the screen, and she gave birth to infinite desire. It would be great if she was by Jing Xun's side at this moment. I want to hug her, but I want to kiss her. But maybe Jing Xun would reject her?

According to what Jing Xiu agreed with just now, that he was chasing her, Ji Yuyan asked Jing Xiu cautiously: "A Xiu, if there is a progress bar between us, then my heart, on the way to your heart, walk How many processes have been completed?"

Jing Xiu was asked by her.

Fearing that Jingxun would say a terrible low number, Ji Yuyan quickly rescued herself: "Is there 80%?" She said this ratio very guilty.

Jing Xiu recalled the orthographic characters drawn on the book...obviously there were none at all. However, she looked at Ji Yuyan's nostalgic face, looked at the look of anticipation on her face, and silently filled up all the lack of "rightness" in her heart.

"Yeah." She affirmed with red ears.

Ji Yuyan burst into laughter for a moment. She had a sense of stability and practicality, and she said, "The 80% process, can you hug your face?"

Jing Xiu: "..."

Jing Xiu didn't say a word, so Ji Yuyan took it as her acquiescence. She finalized the conclusion and said: "Maybe it is not, then I will write it down first."

Jing Xiu moved his lips, but finally did not refuse. It's not that she doesn't long for Ji Yuyan's hugs and kisses.

Ji Yu said clearly, and said softly: "Axun, wait for me to go back." As soon as the voice fell, she couldn't help but yawn.

Jing Xiu frowned and said, "How long have you not slept?"

Ji Youyan rubbed his eyes and whispered, "I didn't sleep yesterday."

Just? Jing Xiu's face sank a little, and he said with a low pressure, "Now go to bed." She could see that there is a bed behind Ji Youyan, so you can sleep.

Hearing the displeasure in Jing Xiu's tone, Ji Youyan was a little sweet instead. "Okay, I'll take a shower and go."

After a pause, she said with a coquettish taste: "Axun, can you leave the video first, I want to watch you sleep."

Jing Xiu didn't speak. Ji Youyan added: "Just put your phone on the bedside and do your own thing. I won't affect you."

Jing Xiu sighed, neither saying good nor bad.

But the phone was still leaning against the bedside, "Go ahead." She took the book and flipped through it, feeling carelessly.

Ji Yuyan is satisfied. She saw that she didn't care about her side at all, turned off the speaker, reluctantly cut several screens of Jingxun's profile, and then took the clothes into the bathroom.

A few minutes later, Jing Xiu found that Ji Yoo Yan hadn't really affected him at all—he didn't hear the sound from Ji Yoo Yan at all.

She couldn't help but turned her head to look at the phone, only to see that the light on the screen turned warm yellow.

The picture that the lens is facing is vaguely distinguishable as a frosted glass with a layer of white cloth in the bathroom.

Under the strong light of the Yuba, the figure of the person bathing in the cloth gauze is clearly visible. Although he can't see his body at all, Ji Yuyan's slim and slender figure is like applying shower gel: raising his long neck, raising his hand along the neck, and sliding down all the way...

Through the shadow, Jing Xiu could see everything clearly.

Is Ji Yuyan intentional? ! There seemed to be a broken string in Jing Xiu's mind.

Her heart was pounding and her ears were hot and red.

Eyes can't be removed at all.

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Sister Ji's cunning: A Yan peeped at others taking a bath, so ashamed~

Teacher Jing's ears are bleeding red: I'm reading, but I haven't seen anything.

Sister Ji is very meaningful: Oh~~

Teacher Jing is annoyed: Warning from the chicken coop!

ps.surprise, as a result, the author didn’t have a good rest and finished writing firmly.

But today is an accident, I hope you will still follow my leave slip, and I hope you can understand my update rhythm. If I do not update, I will borrow the building notice in the comments, and I will also inform on the copy in the future. I hope that when you come in to update, you can take a few seconds to take a look at the copy, so as not to wait unnecessarily.