Peninsula Asteroid

Pei Zhuxuan has been very difficult during this time.

In the end-of-month assessment for trainees last month, her grades were quite good, although she was not at the top, she was still in the forefront.

The rankings in the last few month-end assessments have been about the same, and her strength has entered a plateau.

After announcing the results, the teacher also praised her specifically, with a very appreciative expression.

The wording is nothing more than 'very good performance,' 'great progress', 'very promising debut', basically every once in a while.

Pei Zhuxuan is very grateful for the teacher's praise and encouragement, but what she hopes to hear is not these.

She really hoped that the teacher could say something like 'the company recently has a plan for a new girl group' and 'the company has started selecting members for the new girl group'.

Even if she herself is not sure that she is one of them, and she needs to work harder to win one of the debut seats, she will be extremely happy, and she can't sleep at night when she is so excited.

Because she finally didn't have to practice day by day with no hope like now, and waited day by day.

Even if it's not the news of the girl group's debut, it's an announcement of other arrangements for her, such as advertising models or solo.

Even if you tell her directly that you are not strong enough, or that the company may not arrange for you to make a debut when you are too old, it is fine.

Although it will be very sad, but at least I don't have to suffer aimlessly in the company like this.

In this way, Pei Zhuxuan can think about other directions, such as giving up being an artist and taking other paths, or leaving SM company to join other management companies to get a chance to debut.

Over the years, due to her appearance, she has often been approached by scouts and invited to other agency interviews, and her attitude is very enthusiastic.

It's just that she rejected them all. She still hopes to make her debut in SM, not only because this is the company she has been working for, but also because it is one of the largest brokerage companies in the peninsula.

But she couldn't wait for what she wanted to hear. She could only repeatedly praise and praise her, but she didn't take any actual action.

Pei Zhuxuan is very clear that she is different from some other young and lively female trainees. She is a rare older trainee, and she does not have the capital to endure slowly like others.

She was born in 1991 and joined SM in 2009. By 2012, according to Peninsula's calculations, she will be 23 years old.

Most of the people practicing with her are several years younger than her. The new trainees who joined the company recently are all from 1998 to 1999, and there are even post-00s. When she was with them, Pei Zhuxuan only felt that she was extraordinarily conspicuous and out of place.

Peninsula girl groups usually debut around the age of 17 or 18, and those who are later in their early twenties are about the same, and any older age is not appropriate.

Because girl groups also have a flowering period after their debut, it is best to attract fans, the most popular is the youngest who just debuted in the past few years, many male fans on the peninsula only like energetic young idols, and after many idols get older, It is easy to run away fans, and the combination will get twice the result with half the effort if it wants to develop.

Xu Zhuxian, who is the same age as her, was born in 1991. She has debuted in Girls' Generation for more than five years, and she is still a trainee.

When those little girls called Senior O'Neil, Pei Zhuxuan didn't feel respected at all, but only felt a kind of anxiety and sadness reverberating in her heart.

She still can't forget that when introducing herself to the new trainee, the other party couldn't help expressing the surprise after they knew her birth age, even if they would immediately control their expressions and salute and say hello, but the other party's expression just now The most genuine surprise hit her heart like a hammer.

In addition, because of her appearance, Pei Zhuxuan is highly valued by the company, and she is often praised.

Seeing this scene in the eyes of other people who were training together was a bit unpleasant. Many people thought that she was not very good at dancing and singing. , Grab the debut opportunity with young people like them.

"They are already the age of the previous generation, with wrinkles on their faces, and they are still working as trainees in the company, so they are not ashamed."

"Who makes the parent's good looks get the company's attention? It seems that the company has no girl group plans in the past two years. It won't wait for her to debut. She is already twenty-six or seven. She has created the history of the largest idol debut in the peninsula. Think about it. interesting……"

This is what Pei Zhuxuan heard outside the window when the two junior female trainees, who usually greeted each other and looked very polite, were laughing and chatting.

She didn't want to quarrel with others, and she didn't bother to teach them a lesson as a senior. She didn't know how many people looked at her like this.

She just felt uncomfortable in her heart, and there was a puff of breath in her chest that she couldn't get out. Tears were also forcibly held back to prevent them from staying, and she was not a character who wanted to express her emotions in front of others, and she vented herself by crying occasionally in private.

These days her mood is getting worse and worse, some time ago she saw that airborne EXO accountant again, which made her feel a little sad compared to herself.

Recently, I feel a little uncomfortable in my body, and I get angry very seriously.

Coupled with the huge age pressure that has always been...

It always feels like all the things that are not going well come together.

Pei Zhuxuan wanted to find someone to confide in, but after the phone call to her mother was connected, she heard the other party's concerned voice, but she couldn't say anything to vent.

Wanting to chat with close friends to soothe her emotions, she found that she couldn't find a suitable candidate.

She is not a sociable person, she is usually quiet and very familiar with life, and the number of relatives who have been in the company for so many years is not very many.

I was really sad, Pei Zhuxuan couldn't help laughing bitterly in her heart.

This evening, her suppressed emotions reached a critical point. She didn't want to go back to the dormitory after practice at night, so she ran to the Linjiang walkway alone, blowing the cold wind alone, and looking at the river view.

It is now November, and the weather has become much colder. The temperature in Seoul during the day is around ten degrees, and it is even colder at night.

The cold wind kept blowing, and even wearing a warm coat, one could still feel the chill to the bones. The splendid river view opposite did not improve Pei Zhuxuan's mood, on the contrary, the desolate environment around her made her feel a lot more depressed.

She was lying on the railing, her eye circles began to turn red, and she really wanted to cry here.

Just then, footsteps came and stopped beside her.

Pei Zhuxuan looked over with red eyes.

I found out that it was the person who I often heard the name during this time, but I hated it very much.

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