Rebirth: Opening confession to my deskmate Xiaohanhan

When did you first notice him?

The teacher is giving a lecture, why does he sleep?

The little Bai Shihan was greatly confused at this time. The person in front of her was simply beyond her knowledge.

He slept in class, went to play after class, and was even often invited to the office by the class teacher to chat.

This should be the legendary bad boy...

According to my parents, we should stay away from such people.

But is he not afraid of anything?

Bai Shihan didn't quite understand, but she felt curious about him inexplicably.

It's not that she wants to notice him, it's just that this man is her deskmate and it's difficult to turn a blind eye.

"Is there anything to eat?"

"Yes... yes."

She didn't know why, despite what he said, she had clearly decided not to talk to or have contact with the other person, but she still took out the bread from the drawer and handed it to him.

Lin Xinyu reached out and took it: "Thank you."

His voice is very soft and very comfortable to listen to.

Bai Shihan couldn't help it and looked up at him. Although he didn't like studying, he did look good.

The only drawback is that every time I come back from outside, I have a weird smell.

dislike……

Even so, she didn't dare to tell Lin Xinyu directly.

She, who usually rarely spoke, didn't know what to do at this moment. She lowered her head and continued to chew her bread.

If only I could be as bold as him.

When this idea came to mind, Bai Shihan was startled and quickly shook his head to expel it from his mind.

If he were like this, he would definitely be beaten to death.

Why is he okay?

Lin Xinyu left deep doubts in her heart.

The atmosphere between the two suddenly became silent.

Lin Xinyu finished eating quietly, put it in his pocket, turned around and walked towards the classroom door.

I have to get those weird smells again.

Seeing the other party walking towards the toilet, Bai Shihan roughly guessed what the other party was going to do and immediately frowned.

But before she could recover, she felt someone approaching the corner where she was.

The annoying guy is here again...

She didn't know why, but squad leader Li Hua always came to her from time to time, either to answer questions or to ask questions.

Bai Shihan didn't know how to refuse, and she didn't want to communicate, so he was the only one talking the whole time. She sat still in her seat. She couldn't help it, so she handed him the homework the other party needed.

The rest were ignored.

Li Hua seemed to have discovered this, but she had no idea of ​​giving up and persisted every day. She seemed to think that this would make her change her mind in the long run?

"Shihan, why do you have to sit in the corner? Sit with me in the front. It's easier to compare answers and make progress together." Li Hua said with a smile.

Bai Shihan glanced at the smile on his face. She didn't dislike it, but she couldn't say she liked it much.

She did not answer the other party's words, but lowered her head and continued writing the paper.

"I will score more than you in total." Li Hua's expression remained gentle, as if it didn't matter what the other person said.

Bai Shihan held the pen a little harder, but still didn't answer.

She doesn't like to socialize with others. To be precise, she is used to being alone, but at the same time she won't refuse. In fact, she really wants the other person not to come to her for answers in the future, and she doesn't like it very much.

"Your deskmate doesn't study all day long and goes to bed as soon as class starts. If you sit next to him, you're bound to be led astray one day."

Bai Shihan's pen tip stopped sliding.

Although she didn't like Lin Xinyu's attitude towards learning, she hated the behavior of speaking ill of others behind their backs, especially the person's tone and eyes, which made her very unhappy.

Naihe didn't know how to reply, so in the end he could only choose silence.

Seeing that the other party was silent, Li Hua did not continue to pester him and turned around to leave.

Not long after, Lin Xinyu came back from outside.

Maybe it was a psychological effect. After hearing Li Hua say bad things about him just now, Bai Shihan still felt that he didn't dare to look at the other person and kept his eyes away.

Lin Xinyu didn't care. He sat back down and turned his head to the side. With a slight smile on his lips, he said in a gentle voice: "First, let me copy your homework."

Looking at the harmless expression in front of her, Bai Shihan wanted to refuse him. If possible, she would also like to explain the importance of studying to him, but as soon as the words came to her lips, he took the homework and gave it to him. took a candy from her table.

"Nuo, I brought you milk, so I can't just eat your food, right?" Lin Xinyu blinked, with a bit of playfulness in his tone.

Although she didn't like him either, any behavior he did was beyond the little girl's understanding. She didn't know how to refute him, so in the end she could only nod and said yes.

She is not good at communicating with people, let alone boys. She only has one person at most, so she has never considered who she should be friends with.

Today's move is already an exception.

"Why are you so obedient? I feel like you don't like to discuss the answers with the monitor. If you don't like it next time, just say it directly. There's nothing wrong with it, including if you don't want to copy my homework, you can say it directly. If you're too obedient, you won't good."

This is what Lin Xinyu said, but he actually copied the homework very quickly, for fear that the other party would hear it and take the homework away immediately, which would be more of a loss than a gain.

However, he was not wrong, Bai Shihan did listen.

But she still doesn't have the courage.

reject? What if you say it directly and make others angry?

Her personality is not suitable for conflicts with others, and she also feels that there is no need to get into trouble for such things, and she simply does not want to deal with them.

While doing homework, because Lin Xinyu happened to be leaning over, Bai Shihan could clearly smell the unpleasant smell on his body, which made him feel very uncomfortable. He frowned without being able to control his expression, but quickly recovered. calm.

"Don't you like talking to people?" The other party seemed to sense her rejection and asked directly.

Bai Shihan was stunned for a moment and did not answer.

"Seeing as you are alone every day, don't you want to talk to others?"

Hearing this, Bai Shihan hesitated for a moment and nodded.

"Why is a girl who is obviously very cute not willing to talk to others?" Lin Xinyu sighed.

Bai Shihan lowered her head and continued to do her homework. She actually wanted to answer his doubts, but she didn't know how to answer them, so she had to give up her plan.

"Is there anything left to eat?"

"Yes, some..."

"Sure enough, I can only talk when I ask you for food." Lin Xinyu took the snack she handed over from the drawer, took a bite, and said vaguely.

Bai Shihan said nothing.

Even so, she felt particularly satisfied at this moment.

Talking to others again...

She also wanted to change, or she envied Lin Xinyu very much. No matter who he got along with, he always looked familiar and seemed fearless.

But she couldn't do it because she was afraid.

Fear of loneliness, fear of strangers.

Fear of alienation and indifference from others.

She would rather stay alone at school than have anything to do with anyone else.

This is also the reason why Bai Shihan doesn't make friends. The most important thing is the fear of losing.

Since she was a child, she has been accustomed to living alone, and has gradually developed a timid and timid character.

And now Lin Xinyu suddenly appeared, which really caught her off guard.

Judging from the way she interacted with her before, most of her classmates would leave without even saying a few words to her. Later, when she saw that she was not very enthusiastic, she would leave on her own initiative, leaving her alone to sit quietly in a daze.

But during this time, she felt a little surprised.

Lin Xinyu actually took the initiative to chat with her, and most of them were about innocuous things. The most common one was asking Bai Shihan for snacks.

She had snacks before because she was in a hurry, so she thought of bringing some bread or something to eat, but she didn't expect that it was him, a bad guy, who stole one of her breads.

But the other person was not an unreasonable person, and came to school hungry just like her. After finishing the exercises during recess, Bai Shihan found a lot of snacks given to her by Lin Xinyu in the drawer.

"I don't eat your food for free."

From that day on, Bai Shihan would always put some food in the drawer.

Not candies, just bread.

Sometimes they would prepare milk, but she found that Lin Xinyu rarely drank milk, and mostly drank soda and juice.

Those were not things she often drank, so she didn't go to the supermarket to buy them. Otherwise, the other party would definitely find out that she deliberately prepared these things for him.

After going back and forth like this, Lin Xinyu gradually got used to the small snacks in her drawer. Whenever he was hungry or his mouth felt unbearable and lonely, he would ask.

As time went by, he even said hello directly, and Bai Shihan already reached out his hand without Bai Shihan having to go get it.

Although the two of them didn't talk much, they seemed to have formed a tacit understanding. They knew each other's true thoughts and didn't interfere with each other.

Bai Shihan also fell in love with this ordinary life, but the smell that appeared every day on the other party was really unpleasant.

"Can you, can you, not go to the toilet..."

This was the longest sentence Lin Xinyu heard her say.

The voice is not as repulsive as the rumors say. On the contrary, it is a bit gentle. The overall sound is soft and waxy. I always feel easy to bully?

"Not going to the bathroom? Then you want me to stay away from you all day?"

"No, it's not..."

"What's that? Why do you feel like you're a little afraid of me?"

Hearing this, Bai Shihan's whole body visibly stiffened.

Did he see it? Sure enough, you shouldn't have spoken...

"You actually really want to make friends, right?"

"No, it's not."

How could Bai Shihan, who had been guessed about her true feelings, admit her inner thoughts so easily? Even though she was nervous and stuttered, she still refused.

"This candy is quite delicious, do you want to try it?" Seeing that the other party was unmoved, Lin Xinyu continued, "It's okay, it's the end of get out of class now, there are still ten minutes to go to class, I can finish it before class."

Perhaps out of a guilty conscience, this time Bai Shihan reached out to take the candy he placed on the table and put it into his mouth.

"I'm not lying to you. Isn't it delicious?"

"Um……"

"Did you open your eyes just now? Did you feel a little weird?"

"One, a little bit..."

Through this chat, Lin Xinyu discovered that her deskmate was not who other students said she was. On the contrary, she was very easy to get along with, and there was always a misconception that she wanted to bully her.

"From then on, we will be friends."

"Friend, friend? No, it can't be done!"

Bai Shihan waved her hands quickly, how could she have friends, and she had never made friends before. She didn't know how to maintain a relationship or what friends should do, so she never wanted to make friends.

Still the same sentence: It’s not that I don’t want to, it’s that I’m afraid.

But after spending this time together, Bai Shihan really envied Lin Xinyu and yearned for what he did.

Especially the kind of free and easy and decisive person who clearly knows that it will make others unhappy, but still directly refuses.

This kind of character makes Bai Shihan envious and admired.

She has always acted like an obedient student, so in her heart she wanted to be friends with Lin Xinyu. If she could get rid of his bad habits, that would be the best thing.

It's just...she has never taken the initiative to make friends since she was a child.

Therefore, when facing Lin Xinyu, I always feel that I am very passive, even very reserved, and I don't dare to speak, let alone take the initiative.

"Eat my candy and you will be my friend."

"??"

Why can it still be like this!

Bai Shihan felt more and more that she didn't know enough. Should she be his friend after eating?

and……

"No, it can't be like this."

Bai Shihan felt incredible.

Normally she would never refuse what others said, but this time, she didn't know why. Even she couldn't figure out why she refused Lin Xinyu's request.

"Okay, then we won't be friends."

I don't know why, but Bai Shihan, who should have been happy to hear this, felt a little disappointed for no reason.

Perhaps it was because she wanted to know more about Lin Xinyu.

Seeing her like this, Lin Xinyu couldn't help laughing: "Look, aren't you going to refuse now? I thought you would never refuse."

"No, it's not." Bai Shihan retorted hastily, her face turning red.

Lin Xinyu raised his eyebrows: "Then will you be my friend?"

Bai Shihan opened his mouth to speak, but didn't know what to say.

"So, if you don't like something in the future, just say no."

After saying that, Lin Xinyu sat down and took a seat.

Then he took out his textbook and got ready for class under Bai Shihan's bewildered gaze.

In fact, when Lin Xinyu came back, he saw Li Hua coming to see Bai Shihan. If she was willing, he would definitely not say anything more, but she was obviously unwilling, so why not refuse directly?

He didn't understand this before, but after chatting with her today, he suddenly realized it.

This deskmate who seems to be difficult to communicate with is actually easily bullied by others. He is kind-hearted, but he also has weaknesses.

That is, it is too easy to be restrained.

Just like just now, if he didn't let Bai Shihan step down, she would probably suffocate to death. How could such a simple girl know what reason to refuse.

Also at the same moment.

Bai Shihan carefully wrote three words in his notebook: be friends.