Reborn I will never be a dog lick

Entering adolescence is a time when a rebellious phase has just begun to appear.

In the past three years, Xu Zhimu secretly sent letters to An Xiaomi three or four times, but of course there was no letter he dared to write his name on.

At first, Xu Zhimu didn't know what he was feeling guilty about, but later he gradually understood it.

There was nothing in elementary school at the beginning, but since entering junior high school, what many teachers call the phenomenon of diverting students with excellent and poor performance has appeared.

Xu Zhimu's grades were only in the middle of the class. With An Xiaomi's daily tutoring, he could barely reach the top twenty.

An Xiaomi, on the other hand, ranked first or second in the class every time.

And as self-awareness becomes more and more awakened, various ideas continue to come one after another.

Interest in the opposite sex has long surpassed love for learning.

And after entering the third year of junior high school, many people in the school secretly fell in love, even if it was just passing a note in class, secretly holding hands after class, or more serious, it was just a kiss.

But for these young boys who have just awakened to their gender consciousness, it has become the main topic in class every day.

The childhood sweethearts of Xu Zhimu and An Xiaomi gradually became known to most people.

Especially since the two of them always go to and from school together, and eventually it was discovered that the two families live across the street.

Sometimes when the two of them were having lunch, An Xiaomi would give Xu Zhimu some meat so that he could eat more to grow taller. During physical education class, the two of them would always partner with each other. Sometimes when An Xiaomi was sleepy, he would get nervous.

Lean on his shoulder and squint for a while...

For Xu Zhimu, these are already routine.

But in the eyes of others, it is naked envy, jealousy and hatred.

Many boys came over and asked whether the two of them were secretly in love.

An Xiaomi just smiled softly and said nothing every time.

Xu Zhimu was told by his classmates that his mentality had changed.

"Xu Zhimu, you can do it. You have captured all the beauties of our school."

"I heard that you two have been together since elementary school? How far have you gone now?"

"Damn! He can even catch An Xiaomi? I think people regard him as a brother at most."

"That's right, the last time I visited my parents, I heard someone said that An Xiaomi's father got off the police car. It is said that he is a leader, and his academic performance is among the top three in his age. How could he like Xu Zhimu..."

"I think it's Xu Zhimu who keeps pestering me every day and refuses to let go. How can there be pure friendship between men and women nowadays? I think the rich second-generation monitor of their class is very attentive to An Xiaomi every day. Maybe he will give Xu Zhimu to him in the future.

Kicked away."

The various words behind his back were like knives to Xu Zhimu at that time. Although his relationship with An Xiaomi was as usual, Xu Zhimu always felt as if he was worried about gain or loss.

Yes, it is really difficult to maintain a pure friendship between men and women.

But now the relationship between the two is quite special. They are childhood sweethearts, but they also feel a bit like a family, a brother and a sister.

This made Xu Zhimu really unsure of what An Xiaomi was thinking.

Moreover, there are always some boys who want to get close to An Xiaomi, and among them there are naturally some rich second generation, or some who are particularly handsome.

Especially the monitor in the class would always take advantage of some opportunities to chat with An Xiaomi.

Although An Xiaomi never responded to any of his invitations or attentiveness, there would always be only one boy close to her, Xu Zhimu.

But for Xu Zhimu, a rebellious young man who had just entered youth and was very sensitive inside, he still felt pressure and anxiety that he had never felt before.

Moreover, he had no way to express this anxiety to anyone.

It's like a problem that many boys in adolescence encounter.

On the other hand, he wanted to occupy all the space around An Xiaomi, and wished he could be by her side all day long.

But at the same time, he still dared not express his true inner thoughts.

Under this anxiety, his grades became worse and worse, and he also learned the bad habit of smoking and surfing the Internet from some people.

An Xiaomi also chatted with him, but Xu Zhimu always covered it up with hesitant expression.

In order to improve his grades, An Xiaomi would stay in his room to help him study every day after returning home, and would not go back until it was time to go to bed.

Of course Xu Zhimu was happy, but his mind was no longer on studying, he just wanted to spend more time alone with her.

Xu Zhimu continued to "pretend to work hard" until the final exam in the third grade of junior high school, and his grades came down.

Xu Zhimu was originally ranked in the top 20 in the class, but now he has fallen to nearly 40.

With this score, I can't even get into a more focused high school.

And An Xiaomi is still among the top three in his age group.

If so, they won't be able to attend a high school.

When An Xiaomi saw his score in the score column, he was stunned for a long time.

She returned to class to look for Xu Zhimu, but there was no sign of Xu Zhimu.

I heard someone said that he and some people went to the woods on the playground.

That place is a small wall, and many students sometimes sneak out to surf the Internet, or hide in the woods to smoke.

An Xiaomi came to the back of the playground. From a distance, he saw a few people squatting secretly. When he walked closer, he saw a little smoke.

In the small woods on the playground, Xu Zhimu was squatting with a few people and smoking. Actually, he didn't know how to smoke now, but he just thought it looked cool and fit the rebellious stage.

"Damn it, the results are out again, I'm sure I'll be noisy again when I get home."

"I'm used to it. Every time I go home without being noised, the worst I can do is not get into high school and go to a technical school."

Xu Zhimu was silent. He knew that what he was doing was wrong, but once a boy of this age was led astray, it would be too difficult for him to come back with his own willpower.

"Xu Zhimu, your grades are not bad, aren't you? Don't even look at it..."

A boy was about to say something, but suddenly his eyes widened. Several people next to him also looked up and stared behind Xu Zhimu in shock.

This chapter is not finished yet, please click on the next page to continue reading the exciting content! Xu Zhimu also suddenly felt a gust of fragrant wind coming from behind him, and a slender shadow was reflected in front of him. The swaying single ponytail made Xu Zhimu whole

People also became tense.

Xu Zhimu turned around blankly, only to meet those bright misty eyes.

An Xiaomi was holding the notebook that she usually used to organize key knowledge points and exercises for Xu Zhimu. Her white little hands were tightly clenched, and her back was facing the light, so that Xu Zhimu could not see her expression clearly for a while.

However, Xu Zhimu could still feel her whole body trembling.

Xu Zhimu wanted to open his mouth, but some smoke came out.

"Xu Zhimu! You disappoint me so much!"

An Xiaomi said this with a trembling voice, turned around and ran away.

Xu Zhimu forgot to chase her and stared blankly at her back. That slender figure had been engraved in his heart countless times, that white dress, the swaying single ponytail, and the stumbling back.

A drop of coolness fell on Xu Zhimu's face.

There was also a burning pain in his fingers, and Xu Zhimu threw away the cigarette butt in his hand.

He stood up and chased after her, but when he passed by the results column, he looked at the results and saw An Xiaomi's name written in a conspicuous position on the top row.

As for me, I couldn't see my name until the last page.

Xu Zhimu was also a little dazed at this moment. Unknowingly, the gap between the two people had become so wide.

Xu Zhimu was a little dazed. The past time appeared in his mind like a slideshow.

When he came to class, An Xiaomi was already sitting in his seat, lying on the table so that no one could see his expression.

Some people in the class had already guessed some clues, and they all looked over.

Xu Zhimu slowly came to An Xiaomi. In the past, every time he came, An Xiaomi would always make room for him with a smile.

But this time... Xu Zhimu reached out and wanted to pat her shoulder, but suddenly found that her shoulders were shaking slightly.

Cried?

This seemed to be the first time I made her cry.

"Millet……"

Xu Zhimu sat next to her, but An Xiaomi did not raise her head and could only hear her weak sniffling.

It was not until class time that An Xiaomi finally raised her head. There seemed to be no expression on her face.

The slightly red and swollen eyes and the remaining tear stains on his face were like thorns piercing Xu Zhimu's heart.

Xu Zhimu took out a tissue and wanted to pass it to her, but An Xiaomi turned her head slightly.

Xu Zhimu paused and put the tissue next to her hand.

During this class, Xu Zhimu's thoughts were always on An Xiaomi.

An Xiaomi, on the other hand, was always in a daze, a top-notch girl who took a lot of notes in every class.

In this class, I was called on by the teacher several times for wandering off.

When school is over.

Xu Zhimu stopped her and faced An Xiaomi with still red eyes.

Xu Zhimu's voice was also filled with guilt: "Xiaomi, I'm sorry...I'm not making progress during this period...but don't take it for granted that I'm deceiving your own study..."

An Xiaomi packed her schoolbag silently, and finally raised her eyes to look at Xu Zhimu.

"how about you?"

Xu Zhimu opened his mouth, and something stuck in his throat for a moment.

"You asked me to study hard, but what about you? Xu Zhimu, you promised me before that you would go to high school with me. Now...how are you going to go to high school with me?"

An Xiaomi looked at Xu Zhimu, her voice was very soft, but every word was like a heavy hammer.

An Xiaomi stood up, took her schoolbag and was about to leave.

There is still a notebook on the desk.

After An Xiaomi took notes in class every day, she would take her notebook to Xu Zhimu to review her homework every night.

"Xiaomi, this..."

Xu Zhimu suddenly felt a little empty in his heart. He held the notebook on the desk.

An Xiaomi turned around. She looked at the notebook in Xu Zhimu's hand, her eyes moved slightly, and she looked directly into his eyes.

"Do you think I really need to take any notes?"

Xu Zhimu's palms trembled.

An Xiaomi bit her lip. She looked at Xu Zhimu, and the two looked at each other.

In fact, there are many things between each other without words.

"There are still the last few months, so think about it carefully."

After An Xiaomi finished speaking, she looked at him again, turned and left.

Xu Zhimu held the notebook in his hand and leaned back on the chair in a daze.

He took out his schoolbag and his homework book. It had been a long time since he had done his homework properly.

Xu Zhimu praised his schoolbag and walked out of the school gate. The familiar road was always a path where we walked side by side.

At this moment, An Xiaomi was walking forward silently.

Xu Zhimu followed her all the way to her home.

An Xiaomi opened the door and entered her room.

Xu Zhimu stared at the door in confusion for a long time before returning to his room in despair.

Until evening, this was the time when An Xiaomi would come to me to review her homework.

But she hasn't come yet today.

Xu's mother was a little surprised and came over to ask.

"Why didn't Xiaomi come today? I bought you some fruit. The high school entrance examination is about to take place. You guys usually keep your mind at ease. Seeing that Xiaomi doesn't play with his mobile phone or go shopping every day, he will watch you every day to tutor your homework. If you

If you don’t learn well, you will see who you are worthy of..."

Xu's mother nagged a few words, but the more Xu Zhimu listened, the more bitter he felt in his heart.

He opened the notebook alone, and An Xiaomijuan's beautiful handwriting jumped on the paper.

Yes, how could An Xiaomi's grades be used for taking notes?

The notes for each question above are extremely detailed. Even the formulas used and where they came from are clearly marked. It can be said that you just need to follow them to learn.

No matter how poor the basics are, you can still learn.

This notebook is just for Xu Zhimu.

But Xu Zhimu didn’t know until now.

He opened the first page of his notebook and began to slowly study one question after another.

During this period, Xu's mother came in several times and saw Xu Zhimu who was also studying seriously.

This chapter is not finished yet, please click on the next page to continue reading the exciting content! She was even surprised to ask if her son had changed his gender.

Until late at night.

The light on Xu Zhimu's window sill was not extinguished and he was very sleepy, but when he thought of An Xiaomi's eyes today.

Xu Zhimu felt a pain in his heart.

He clenched his fingers, but felt a burst of pain.

Today I was lost in thought while holding a cigarette butt. I was burned by the cigarette and got some blisters.

I kept holding the pen to write the question, and unknowingly I broke the blisters, and there were bits of blood mixed with pus.

Xu Zhimu just wiped it with the paper and continued writing the question.

The lights stay on until early morning.

Xu Zhimu unconsciously fell asleep on the table.

early morning.

Xu Zhimu felt sore all over his body, and he seemed to smell the faint and familiar fragrance of gardenia in a trance.

He slowly opened his eyes, and out of the corner of his eye he saw the figure in a long dress beside him.

An Xiaomi!

At this moment, the girl was holding the questions that Xu Zhimu did last night and was looking at them carefully.

"Xiao Xiaomi... click..."

Xu Zhimu sat upright suddenly, but after sleeping on the table all night, when he moved a little, he felt his neck stiffen and his neck cracked.

Suddenly he grinned in pain.

An Xiaomi's bright eyes flashed when she saw him like this, and she put down the notebook in her hand.

"The error rate is fifty percent."

"I...will write well next time."

Xu Zhimu nodded like a primary school student.

"your hands."

An Xiaomi saw his fingers. The blisters on the burned areas had been broken, but the blood stains remaining on them could still be seen.

"It's okay, this will be fine in a while..."

Xu Zhimu wanted to hide the wound on his hand.

An Xiaomi pursed her lips, turned around and left the room. After a while, she came over with a medical kit.

"I'm really fine, it's just a small wound."

"Hand over here."

An Xiaomi looked at him. Xu Zhimu, the elder brother, actually held out his hand honestly.

An Xiaomi also stretched out her hand and gently held him in her palm.

She looked at the burns on it, and then at the blood-stained pen beside her.

"Are you stupid."

She took out a cotton swab and disinfected it with iodine, and finally couldn't help but say something to him.

"sorry…"

Xu Zhimu whispered.

An Xiaomi glanced at him, pursed her lips and continued to apply the burn ointment on her, and gently wrapped it with a band-aid.

"Xiaomi, I'm sorry. I know what I did was wrong during this period. I won't make you angry in the future."

Xu Zhimu looked at her gentle movements, and his heart kept rising and falling.

An Xiaomi put the band-aid on him, looked at him for a long time, and finally said softly: "It's not that you don't want to make me angry, but that you don't let yourself down."

An Xiaomi called his name again, her voice serious: "Xu Zhimu, you always think that I don't know many things, but actually... I know them all.

However, I really can't give you the answer you want now. The problem lies with you and me.

But I can promise you one thing."

An Xiaomi stood up and looked at Xu Zhimu closely.

Xu Zhimu opened his mouth slightly and looked at Xu Zhimu.

Those eyes were shining with a little luster, carrying deep emotions.

"As long as I can be here one more day, I will never leave you."

"But the premise is that you also have to take care of yourself."

An Xiaomi gently stretched out a finger and looked into Xu Zhimu's eyes.

"Lagou."

Xu Zhimu was stunned, and slowly stretched out his finger.

Just like the first day we met, that snowy night...