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An Xiaomi, to be precise, is An Xiaomi from the previous life.

I made three promises to Xu Zhimu, but they were also three lies.

When she was a sophomore in high school, she faced Xu Zhimu, who had low self-esteem and was paranoid, and even fought for her.

An Xiaomi knew that he could not be allowed to continue like this.

At that time, An Xiaomi was not only worried about her health, but she was also a little arrogant.

After all, An Xiaomi's parents are considered outstanding among ordinary people.

Xiaomi's mother runs her own dance organization, and An's father has climbed from being a police officer to the position of deputy chief.

With the income level of that era, An Xiaomi's family was considered wealthy.

After all, if we go back a few years, the per capita salary is less than one thousand or two thousand, and a family with a small million in savings is considered a petty bourgeoisie. Even people at Wang Jianlin's level say that they can retire if they can earn a small goal.

If An Xiaomi hadn't contracted this disease, she could have lived a life that many people would envy.

Of course, the most important thing is An’s father’s life, just like the cool male protagonist of an online novel.

Born in poverty, with no ability or background, but with his own efforts, he became the school belle and won a scholarship. He was already under key training before he graduated.

He has been working on the front line all year round, "clearing dungeons, killing monsters and upgrading", and using his accumulated military exploits, he climbed to the position of deputy director in just six or seven years.

For a person with no background, to be able to reach this point, he must have extraordinary determination and pride, and the obsession to do everything to the extreme and change his life.

An Xiaomi has been influenced by her father's thoughts since she was a child, and she is actually a very proud person at heart.

An Xiaomi still remembers the night when they first met, Xu Zhimu stretched out his hand to her, and said in a childish but firm voice: "Sister Xiaomi, I will always take good care of you!"

That was the promise Xu Zhimu made to An Xiaomi, and An Xiaomi had been looking forward to the day when the two of them grew up.

In the beginning, as children, they couldn't see anything, but slowly they became aware of their studies and sexual awareness.

The gap between Xu Zhimu and An Xiaomi has actually been slowly widening since elementary school.

An Xiaomi may not care about other people's opinions, but she cannot look at Xu Zhimu and give up her life and ideals because of herself.

Because she knew that Xu Zhimu's potential was not just that.

Loving someone doesn't just mean being devoted to them.

But you should always be able to protect the people you like.

If this continues, Xu Zhimu's future may only become more "ordinary".

If it is true that Xu Zhimu can only be admitted to an ordinary undergraduate degree in the future, and the two of them live in different cities and different universities, no matter how much they like each other, distance and hierarchy will always cause some rifts between the two.

As long as you are human, you cannot avoid it.

Therefore, An Xiaomi doesn't want to see that day, and she also knows the feeling of being ridiculed when two people don't match.

After all, when my father pursued my mother, there were many people talking about me behind my back like a toad eating swan meat, eating soft rice, etc... Even Xiaomi's mother's family felt dissatisfied.

It was not until An Xiaomi's father successfully entered the establishment and was promoted all the way that these voices completely disappeared.

So An Xiaomi didn't want Xu Zhimu to experience what his father had experienced before.

Moreover, An Xiaomi was only a sixteen or seventeen-year-old girl at that time. She was in adolescence, and her appearance, figure, study, and even family were much superior to most of her peers.

Naturally, the girl still had some arrogance in her heart. Xu Zhimu, who could not even fulfill his promise, had low self-esteem and was paranoid, could not live up to her expectations.

However, she is still willing to give Xu Zhimu opportunities again and again, and wants to become better with him.

Because at that time, she also had a little fantasy in her heart. If... she could survive the disaster in the future, then the two of them could really fulfill the promise they made when they were young to be with each other forever.

Therefore, An Xiaomi's first promise to him was that as long as he could get into the key class during the reclassification in his senior year of high school, he could give him an answer.

In fact, this sentence can be regarded as a powerful medicine given to Xu Zhimu by An Xiaomi.

You can imagine how difficult it is to go from the end of the crane to the key class within half a year.

But what An Xiaomi didn't expect was that Xu Zhimu actually improved his grades a lot in one year. When he was reclassified in his senior year of high school, he successfully entered the key class where An Xiaomi was.

This made An Xiaomi even more certain that Xu Zhimu's potential didn't stop there.

Therefore, when Xu Zhimu mentioned the previous promise to An Xiaomi nervously and excitedly.

"Xiaomi, what we said before... is it now..."

An Xiaomi looked at him for a long time, and finally said softly: "Xu Zhimu, although you have been admitted to a key class, college is our final goal."

Xu Zhimu was stunned for a moment. In the past six months, he had hardly slept before twelve o'clock. He often pinched his face in the middle of the night to stay awake. Now he finally arrived at the key class, but the answer he got was...

"Xiaomi, I just want to ask you now, do you like me at all? What I'm talking about is the love between men and women."

Xu Zhimu finally couldn't help but ask. He seemed to have exhausted all his strength. Although the two people already knew each other well, he could really pierce the window paper.

An Xiaomi looked at him. During this period, Xu Zhimu's spirit felt a little haggard. An Xiaomi saw his hard work, but in the end she shook her head gently.

"Zhimu, what I can tell you is that if I, An Xiaomi, would choose someone to accompany me, that person would definitely be you, but I can't agree to it right now."

This sentence sounds like an agreement, but also like a rejection.

This chapter is not over yet, please click on the next page to continue reading! Even giving Xu Zhimu a feeling of being a good guy, Xu Zhimu also suppressed his emotions: "If not now, then when?"

Xu Zhimu looked at An Xiaomi. He really couldn't control the emotions in his heart. He was about to enter his senior year of high school. In the blink of an eye, they might all go their separate ways after college.

He couldn't wait any longer.

"Xiaomi, I like you. I want to be with you. Not as a childhood sweetheart, not as a brother or sister, but as a true love. Xiaomi, can you be my girlfriend?"

When Xu Zhimu said these words tremblingly and excitedly.

An Xiaomi thought blankly for a long time. Her bright eyes held emotions that only she could know. Her lips opened slightly, but she stopped talking many times.

She knew that Xu Zhimu had been holding these words in his heart for more than ten years. If she didn't agree to him now, he might become decadent and paranoid again.

But if she promised him... An Xiaomi didn't know if she would be able to fulfill the promise she made to him today.

Finally, she gently raised her white neck, with a little trembling in pride that others could not hear: "If you want me to be your girlfriend, okay, I will agree when you and I are admitted to Binhai University."

you."

At that moment, Xu Zhimu froze on the spot.

Although Xu Zhimu entered the key class, he was still the last in the key class.

Maybe if you work hard, you can get into a good university, but it is almost impossible to go to a top domestic university like Binhai University like An Xiaomi.

During that time, Xu Zhimu indeed entered a period of confusion.

But An Xiaomi didn't reject him completely. She still helped him review his homework every day. Even when Xu Zhimu made great progress, she would reward Xu Zhimu and go shopping with him...

During this period, Xu Zhimu mentioned the relationship between the two several times, but An Xiaomi always used various excuses to put it aside.

Finally, in the second semester of the third year of high school, the school began to organize a weekly mock sprint exam.

Although Xu Zhimu's grades have improved a lot and can be stabilized at around 20 in the class. It is not a problem to get a similar grade, but he is still far behind if he wants to go to Binhai University.

An Xiaomi's grades and admission to Binhai University are already a certainty.

Seeing that there was only the last semester left, Xu Zhimu couldn't help but feel panic rising in his heart.

Especially after class time, people who are about to take the college entrance examination always gather together to think about their future college life.

"It will be great when you go to college. Then you can fall in love however you want. If you live with someone at home, you won't be able to take care of it."

"If you and your partner fail to get into the same school, you will suffer the same fate. A long-distance relationship must be a long-distance relationship."

"Isn't that right? Even if you can guarantee that you won't change your mind, how can you guarantee that your partner won't change your mind? The teachers in college don't even care about dating. The martyr girl can't stand the gangsters."

"Haha, it's better to be single. Forget about long-distance relationships. After breaking up, it will be good for the four of us."

"Look, July is the breakup season every year. If you want to express your feelings, you should take advantage of these last few months. Otherwise, they will go to other schools, and you will have no chance to have a long-distance relationship..."

Xu Zhimu occasionally listened and felt increasingly uneasy.

He knew that no matter how he studied, Binhai University would be out of reach for him.

As for An Xiaomi, she had already stopped to wait for herself when she was in high school.

He couldn't let her feel wronged and accompany him to read an ordinary book?

If that was really the case, Xu Zhimu would not forgive himself.

But at the age of seventeen or eighteen, how could he completely control his emotions?

Yes, I am about to graduate. If I don’t seize the last opportunity to express my love, I may not have a chance in the future.

That night, Xu Zhimu prepared a love letter. This was the first love letter he had written in the past ten years or so, and he dared to mark it with his name.

When An Xiaomi came to him to review his homework.

Xu Zhimu was holding the love letter under the table, and his palms were sweating a lot.

"What's wrong with you? You're so hot and sweaty."

An Xiaomi looked at his nervous look, picked up a tissue and wiped him gently.

An Xiaomi had just finished taking a shower. Her whole body was fragrant, especially wearing loose pajamas and large patches of snow-white skin. Xu Zhimu, who was still in adolescence, couldn't help but swallow his saliva.

He said nervously: "Xiaomi, can you leave a little later when school is over tomorrow?"

"What's wrong?"

"It's nothing...it's just that I might have to do something and get home a little late."

"Oh, sure, take out today's paper and let me tell you about it..."

The next day, the school bell rang, and An Xiaomi began to pack her things. She picked up her schoolbag, and suddenly found a letter in the middle of the schoolbag.

To be precise, it was a love letter, and the name on it made An Xiaomi suddenly open her eyes.

"Hello everyone, I am Xu Zhimu from Class 2, Grade 3, and I want to announce something..."

Suddenly, a familiar voice came from the campus radio. School had just ended, and most of the students were still in school.

At this moment, all the students in the class pricked up their ears.

"Holy crap! It sounds like that guy Xu Zhimu's voice?"

"Isn't this a campus broadcast? How did Xu Zhimu get in?"

"Isn't it because I got into a fight with someone and was punished again, and was asked to review within the school again?"

No one in the class was in a hurry to leave, and many people in the school were listening with interest.

But An Xiaomi felt something was wrong. She looked at the love letter in her hand. She stood up in a panic and walked to the window.

The sound of the radio continued to come.

"In fact, I have been hiding this matter in my heart for more than ten years. From the first moment I met you, I knew that I can no longer avoid you in this life..."

Xu Zhimu spoke slowly in the broadcast room, and everyone in the school heard it. I'm afraid this was just to express his love.

This chapter is not over yet, please click on the next page to continue reading the exciting content! "What the hell? Who is this Xu Zhimu? How brave is he to confess his love on the radio?"

"Is this young man overwhelmed by too much pressure in his senior year of high school?"

At the same time, the school leaders also heard these voices, and the dean walked out of the office.

He looked in the direction of the broadcasting room. The broadcasting room was usually locked and no one used it after school. Normally, students would not dare to go in at all, let alone sneak in and express their feelings on the radio.

"Who is so good at riding horses?"

The dean was cursing, saying that if something happened, his bonus would be gone this month.

Jogging all the way to the door of the broadcasting room, he saw Xu Zhimu through the door and window, and was immediately furious. He knew this guy, and he only entered the school after looking for connections.

This black sheep has indeed shown its tail.

"What's wrong with you, a student? Turn off the radio immediately and come out!"

He patted the window and scolded him, but Xu Zhimu just glanced at him and put his hand on the switch. Instead of turning it off, he turned the volume button to the maximum.

This scene is like the confrontation between Andy and the warden in The Shawshank Redemption.

The dean banged the door angrily, but it was already locked.

The entire school was excited listening to Xu Zhimu's confession.

Finally, the dean called the security guard and planned to break down the door directly.

Xu Zhimu also said the last sentence.

"I know, maybe today is a confession destined to fail.

However, I also know that if I don't say it, I may not have a chance. Forgive me for being willful, but I must say it.

An Xiaomi from Class 2, Grade 3, I, Xu Zhimu, like you!"

As the voice of confession fell, the door of the broadcast room was also knocked open.

Everyone in the class looked at An Xiaomi by the window.

She held the love letter in her hand, her body trembling slightly, and a tear fell from the corner of her eye.

"Fool!"

Under everyone's gaze, she also ran out of the classroom.

Everyone knows what happened next.

Xu Zhimu was almost expelled. It was An's father who came forward to find the school leaders and finally allowed Xu Zhimu to continue attending school.

Xu's father also directly invited the seven wolves. If Xu's mother hadn't stopped them, they would have been cut off.

Xu Zhimu and An Xiaomi seemed to be in a very embarrassing situation. An Xiaomi didn't say a word to him for half a month.

This confession, which was doomed to fail, naturally failed in the end.

It's just that at that time, Xu Zhimu was only worried about himself and didn't pay attention to a single detail.

Even if An Xiaomi gets angry again and gets into a cold war with him, she won't even review her homework with him at night.

But An Xiaomi never refused the love letter he sent.

The story is very long. Since this confession, it seems to have become a new garden.

The end of that story is the beginning of today's story...

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Zhengcheng, inside the ward.

"This is him and me, everything that has happened in the past twenty years... Sister Ningqing, you should also know what happened later."

An Xiaomi slowly finished the last word, her voice a little dry.

The nearly twenty-year relationship with Xu Zhimu is her biggest trump card.

Now, everything has been revealed without reservation.

Liu Ningqing's mind felt like a long, long movie had passed.

Like an absurd youth comedy, this ending seems regrettable...but it also contains infinite possibilities.

Because in their hearts, two people have never left each other behind.

It can only be said that most of us cannot have youth and the feeling of youth at the same time.

The regrets and misses of youth will wait until one day in the future, after a cup of long-lasting wine, a cup of ordinary tea, a piece of familiar music, a ray of morning sunshine, and a drizzle of rain...

We may suddenly smile knowingly.

Finally, he shook his head and sighed: "It's so silly, so good."

Liu Ningqing reached out her hand and gently wiped away the tears from the corners of An Xiaomi's eyes.

An Xiaomi was stunned for a moment, and unknowingly, she cried.

"I'll get you a glass of water."

Liu Ningqing's voice was gentle. She went to pour a glass of warm water for An Xiaomi. When she came back, she looked at the door for a moment, then slowly turned around and returned to An Xiaomi's side.

"Then you said at the time that you would agree to him if he was admitted to Binhai University. Did you really think so at the time?"

Liu Ningqing suddenly asked this question softly.

An Xiaomi held the water glass, her eyes flashed, and after a while, her cheeks had a look of reminiscence: "At that time, I really wanted to promise him."

Liu Ningqing's eyes moved slightly, and she gently looked in the direction outside the door.

An Xiaomi turned to look at her and suddenly smiled: "Sister Ningqing, has he ever told you the story of what... he is a reborn person?"

Liu Ningqing was lost in thought for a moment, and then she chuckled softly: "I told you."

Every time Xu Zhimu tells this story, it always seems to be true, even though their rationality tells them that such things do not exist in this world.

However, they would always choose to believe Xu Zhimu’s words unconditionally.

"It's true, every time this guy talks about these things, it's as if they are true."

An Xiaomi couldn't help but smile, her eyes dark.

"If according to what he said, in his last life, he chose to repeat his studies and finally got admitted to Binhai University. At that time, I broke the appointment again... Maybe in his heart, I was just perfunctory and even abandoned him in the end.

.”

Liu Ningqing was silent. If Xu Zhimu's previous statement was followed, An Xiaomi in the previous life had indeed suddenly abandoned him and gone to a foreign country.

She looked at Liu Ningqing: "Sister Ningqing, do you still remember that I went to the hospital twice when I was a freshman?"

Liu Ningqing nodded. Of course she remembered that when she first learned that An Xiaomi was hospitalized, she took the initiative to ask Xu Zhimu to go to the hospital to see her.

An Xiaomi pursed her lips slightly: "Actually, when I was hospitalized in the winter, I already felt that my physical condition was getting worse and worse. My parents always said it was because the winter in Binhai is colder than in Zhengcheng.

The reason, but of course I know my own body. A temperature difference of just a few degrees cannot have such a big effect. The only reason is that my own body is worse than before."

This chapter is not over yet, please click on the next page to continue reading! An Xiaomi said with a bitter look on his face: "If what he said is true, by the time he repeats his studies for a year, I will have already spent the first year in Binhai.

One winter, maybe at that time, I knew that my body might be worse than I thought, so I could only miss the appointment again..."

An Xiaomi shook his head, and finally showed a relieved smile: "Actually, what he said is not bad. No matter what the purpose is, in the end, I did break the promise."

Liu Ningqing felt distressed as she listened. She gently touched An Xiaomi's cheek: "I don't blame you. If something like this happened to me, maybe I would make the same decision as you."

In fact, no one is wrong in this matter. They all want the other person to live a better life, but they ignore the other person's mood. It's just that the final ending is a bit regretful.

An Xiaomi smiled and shook her head. She felt the warmth of Liu Ningqing's palm: "Actually, when I first knew you were together, I was really unwilling. I even thought about telling Xu Zhimu the truth and taking him back to me.

By my side..."

Liu Ningqing looked at her softly, remembering the first time the two met in her mind.

In fact, at that time, he and Xu Zhimu had not really established a relationship. If An Xiaomi took the initiative to reveal everything at that time, Xu Zhimu would not be able to let her go.

Liu Ningqing's eyes were complicated, but after a moment, they just turned into a gentle tone: "What happened later."

"Later, I was so anxious that I was admitted to the hospital. He came to the hospital to see me. Later I also found out that it was Sister Ningqing who agreed to his visit. From that moment on, I knew that this guy who had been hurt by me,

Finally found a gentle girl."

An Xiaomi looked at Liu Ningqing gently: "I am unwilling to give in, but at the same time I persuade myself to give in. After all, if he can be with a gentle girl like you, Sister Ningqing, his future life will be happier, even if one day

, if I really leave, he won’t be too sad.”

An Xiaomi's words were like his last words.

Liu Ningqing's chest felt tight, and she stroked Xiaomi's cheek: "No, you'll be fine."

"Sister Ningqing, you don't need to comfort me. In fact, I have already been prepared to face this moment."

An Xiaomi gently held Liu Ningqing's hand in hers: "Sister Ningqing, I am telling you this today to tell you.

Xu Zhimu is indeed a very greedy person, but he is also a very serious person. He will definitely find a way to achieve the decision he makes in the end.

He will definitely do what he promises you."

An Xiaomi looked at Liu Ningqing, and she showed a relieved and peaceful smile: "Sister Ningqing, I know that you have always been very inferior in your heart, and you are always afraid that one day you will be farther and farther away from him, but I can be sure now

Tell you……"

An Xiaomi put a hand gently on his chest: "Using the nearly twenty years of memories between him and me, I promise that that greedy guy will never leave you in his life."

Liu Ningqing's body trembled slightly. In fact, when she heard what Xu Zhimu did for An Xiaomi, she knew that Xu Zhimu was indeed greedy, but he would always prove himself with actions.

Liu Ningqing looked at An Xiaomi and nodded gently: "I believe in you and I believe in him."

An Xiaomi looked at her. At this moment, she seemed to have fulfilled some kind of wish, her bright eyes were slightly lowered at this moment.

"Tired?"

Liu Ningqing looked at the time, and it was indeed late at night.

She gently supported An Xiaomi to lie on the bed. An Xiaomi's face still looked weak, and complex and relieved emotions appeared in her eyes: "Sister Ningqing, can I ask you to promise me one more thing?"

Liu Ningqing held her hand and said softly: "Go ahead."

An Xiaomi raised her head and looked into her eyes: "What I told you today about the memories with him is not to show off, but if I... really can't hold on anymore.

Then please, please carry these memories for me and accompany him to be happy.

Don’t let that promise of spending a lifetime together...be broken again."

As An Xiaomi spoke, her eyelids became heavier and heavier, and the hazy mist gradually invaded her eyes.

Liu Ningqing held her hand, took a deep breath, and finally said softly: "I promise you, but... there are some promises that I'd better wait for you to fulfill together."

I don't know if An Xiaomi heard the second half of the sentence. At this moment, with a relieved smile, it seemed that he could finally sleep peacefully.

Liu Ningqing gently wiped the tears from her eyes and tucked her into bed.

Turning his head, he looked at Xu Zhimu who had already walked into the ward.

"Did you hear all those words?"

Xu Zhimu didn't answer. He looked at An Xiaomi, who looked weak on the hospital bed.

Finally, she gently hugged Liu Ningqing's soft body.

"Thank you……"