Reborn My Name Is Kobe

I am walking on this road, this road leading to the unknown. I know that my results may not be so wonderful. I know that everything I am doing now is very difficult. This is just a

It's just the beginning, it's all about some consequences that haven't been told yet.

But so what, this is a process of my own salvation or redemption. I continue to move forward. I don’t know how long I have been on this road, but I actually don’t care.

How long will it take to walk on such a road? When I have some mental abnormalities, I already know the result. I know that all the efforts I have made may not be so valuable.

As I continue to walk on this road, I know that my own efforts will eventually become some kind of joke, but should I let this continue?

For me, this road is not really a road leading to an unknown world. I actually don’t care about what strange things I will see at the end of this road, because I know that I

I will definitely see those things there, I can understand them, and I can understand what the fate I am about to face is like.

The whispers continued, and the intensity of these whispers became stronger and stronger. I began to no longer believe my own eyes, of course my ears, or my other sense organs. I felt that I should think

I have to find a way to get myself into another state, because if I continue like this, the outcome is probably already doomed.

I slowly turned from running to walking, and from walking to crawling. But when I gradually couldn't crawl anymore, I knew that I was not far away from complete collapse. Why?

Will this happen?

Of course I don't know why this is the case, because this is really something that is hard to explain. Even if I really try hard to do these things, can I really change something?

In fact, I should have known one thing a long time ago, that is, my efforts are meaningless, meaningless, meaningless. Important things must be said three times. I can't escape that kind of thinking.

bound by strength.

I understand now that from the time the crew and I set foot on this island, we could no longer escape. No, from the time the crew and I boarded that damn ship, we could no longer escape.

Those terrible sounds, those sounds that appeared far away, I once thought I could easily understand the meaning of these sounds, but I couldn't, I couldn't really feel it.

Everything hidden behind this sound.

But so what, no one will care about my experience, and no one will care about the experience of those crew members, whether they are alive or not, what kind of situations they encountered on this island, in fact, it is really

No one cares. The reason why I say this is not because I don't care, or because I care. In fact, it doesn't matter at all what I think. It really doesn't matter at all.

The road in front of me became narrower and narrower, and some raindrops gradually fell from the sky. At this moment, everything became so real, and everything became so unreal. Many things in the past

At this time, it slowly emerged in my mind, but I didn't know what these things meant to me.

Those memories are actually not important at all to me. There is actually a reason why I say they are not important, because I have no way to distinguish the authenticity of these memories. If I myself cannot distinguish the authenticity of these memories,

If so, what does everything mean to me?

I walk in the depths of darkness, feeling something that darkness brings to me. In this endless darkness, if I can make better choices, I am willing to pay some price to do these things.

Yes, but I know that it is really not that easy for me to do all this.

My body, my memory, and my thoughts gradually no longer belong to me. This feeling is actually a bit difficult for a normal person to accept, but now I no longer

I understand that I can still be considered a normal person, and if I can no longer be considered a normal person, then what can I be considered?

With such doubts, I was actually quite uncomfortable. Of course, this discomfort did not last too long, because eventually I would give up trust in these memories of myself, and I would no longer be able to believe everything about myself.

Time itself may no longer be important to me. I find that I am in a state of becoming less and less sensitive to time, and I may really have some feelings about these times.

Case.

At this time, everything is no longer so important. When I see that face, that monster with a thousand faces, that monster with a thousand tentacles, that monster with a thousand tentacles.

When it comes to the monster with eyes, the monster with a thousand mouths.

how can i

How to describe my mood?

Anyway, my current mood is no longer important. My soul is no longer mine. The reason why you can read this diary is that I believe you are also experiencing something similar to me.

Do you think it is a bad thing to see this diary of mine? No, believe me, this diary of mine can actually save you.

When you once had the urge to swim on the vast sea, believe me, you must resist your urge, because impulse is definitely not a good thing for you. In this matter

You must believe me, because I didn't believe these things before, but now it's too late.

Do you know the state in which I wrote this diary? Do you know why I spend so much energy and space telling you my experience?

Because at this time I am still trapped in one place. In fact, I hope someone can find me, I hope someone can take my place, because if no one comes here, I will be trapped in this place forever.

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And now that you have seen this diary, I can only tell you, never come to me. I used my last bit of reason to write this diary, but when you actually find me, God knows I have changed.

What has it become?

It’s hard to say whether I still have a human form, but the most important point is that I may no longer have human reason and emotion, and my last trace of sympathy for you may have disappeared. As you read this

After writing the diary, you must destroy it as soon as possible and don't let others see it. Alas, I can't tell you why you should do this, because I can no longer control my thoughts and actions.

Of course, you can also choose not to believe everything I say, because after all, it is all so incredible. In addition, even I don’t know whether everything I say is true. Of course, you can choose not to believe it.

Everything I said, as long as you can find the slightest bit of credibility in what I said, you must destroy this diary and don't let others see it, because everyone who sees it will

Encountered bad luck.

After Jessica and I read this very strange diary, we didn’t know what to say, because this diary seemed inconsistent and had many repeated strange sentences, which reminded me of something.

"Jessica, do you think this diary update is a chapter of a novel, like that novel called Cthulhu style? If it is really a novel, this novel is quite interesting to write, but if you ask me

If I believe that all of this really existed, then I have no way of believing it!"

"Yes, you can indeed choose not to believe all this, and I think it is better for us not to believe the contents of this diary. First of all, you can see that the author of this diary must have been very careful when writing this diary.

He was in a very problematic mental state, and many of the words he used were uncomfortable. But if this discomfort is real, can it be confirmed from another perspective?

What he said is true."

"This is a big problem. At the end of the diary, he asked everyone who read his diary to forget the diary, or to destroy it directly. His behavior is indeed very disturbing.

I feel confused, but if his behavior is a true and objective manifestation, then what should we do, and what methods can we use to change everything?"

"Perhaps we should really destroy such a diary. Its existence is a huge danger to our understanding. You should know what Cthulhu means. If those monsters in Cthulhu culture are true

If they exist in this world, they will definitely exist in this world in some form that is unimaginable to us humans. Once such a state occurs, it will be a huge disaster for us as a human being.

It's such a disaster, I'd rather we didn't know about it."

"Jessica, you are right. We should indeed forget all this, just like we try to forget everything we have experienced before. Well, let's see this tonight. Whether this story is true or not

What has really existed will only do harm to us and not bring much benefit, so we should try our best to avoid such things that are harmful to us from existing in our brains."

Then Jessica put the diary away again. Although there are still some stories in it, at least today we will not understand these stories anymore. What else exists in these stories is no longer known.

No matter how important it is, we will find something better.

Jessica and I went to bed after watching TV for a while. We may have dreams tonight, because after reading these diaries, it is impossible to say that we are not affected at all. Jessica is sleeping

I took a bath before, and it took a long time. Jessica usually likes to take a bath and slowly enjoy the bath in the bathtub, so today should be no exception.

At this time, I was lying on the bed early. In fact, in this era, because there are no computers and mobile phones, the fun in life will often be much less, but it will also bring us some other experiences.

For example, when you go to bed, take a book and read it while waiting for sleepiness to fall.

Jessica also puts a lot of books at home. Recently, I have become a little obsessed with the habit of reading before going to bed. Although this habit may not be a good habit, because it is like playing before going to bed.

Just like talking on the phone or playing with mobile phones before going to bed, looking at mobile phones before going to bed may actually have a certain degree of impact on our bodies and minds. But what should I say? This impact may not be as big as we imagine.

So serious.

After experiencing something, my brain actually needs to fill it with other information, such as these short stories before going to bed, these stories in books.

In my previous life, I actually liked listening to audio novels. I always felt that audio novels were a cool thing. Now I can’t listen to audio novels, but reading the physical book before going to bed is also a good idea.

fine.

Many of the books Jessica bought at home were adventure stories. Of course, I think many of her family’s stories are far more exciting than those in these novels, but Jessica may hope to learn from these novels.

It is not surprising that she can find some spiritual sustenance belonging to her and her family.

Jessica finally finished taking a bath. I hugged Jessica and kissed her deeply. Soon we both fell asleep. It was a sweet and happy night, and I didn’t seem to have anything too bad.

It was a strange dream. When I woke up, I found that it was already morning, and I saw Jessica still sleeping very sweetly next to me. This was indeed a wonderful thing for me.

We have been together for a long time, but our feelings for each other do not seem to fade away because of the passage of time. Instead, in addition to love itself, there is also some family affection in it. Perhaps every couple will experience this.

It is a process of being a child, from the initial love to the later family affection. This is a very interesting process in itself.

I didn't wake Jessica up when I got up. I knew she didn't want me to do that, so I didn't do that. For Jessica and I, the relationship between us is actually

There is some kind of special tacit understanding, and now we will strictly abide by this tacit understanding and face the feelings between each other.

Time is really a very special thing. Sometimes you will feel that time passes too fast, leaving you unable to finish everything you want to do. Sometimes you will feel that time passes too fast.

If you are too slow, you will not be able to fully spend your boring time.

Many times, time is not an absolute concept for us humans. Many times, it becomes a relative concept. I think the most fundamental reason why this happens is that time itself may be a kind of

It's not a reliable standard, but we haven't been able to find a more reasonable and correct standard to replace time.

In fact, everyone's timeline is different. I have already figured this out after reading Einstein's theory of relativity. But what should I say? Sometimes these ideas about time become

Let's talk about some of the less interesting parts of our lives. When we face the choices in our lives, we will always pay some price and make some wrong choices, and then you will regret it. I hope you can change everything.

If you have the chance to regret it, you will think how cool it would be if you could control time.

However, if you are really given the opportunity to manipulate time and space, I can bet that it will definitely not be a pleasant thing, at least not as pleasant as you imagine.

Time is always a relative concept, not an absolute concept. Some scientists even think that there is no such thing as time in this world. The so-called time is actually just a fictitious measurement tool created by us humans.

But there is no such objective thing as time in this world.

From a certain perspective, this seemingly strange theory is actually correct. However, due to certain reasons, not everyone is willing to accept these theories, but when we face

What can be done with these theories? Should we passively accept these problems, or should we find ways to change everything and do something?

In fact, we humans can't change anything. In the face of time, or in the face of the nature of the universe, we may establish a world in which we know our home field. However, the consequences of our subjective world are quite complicated.

Nothing we do can help us live a better life. We will continue to face complex choices and complex lives, and setbacks will make us collapse.

And in the end, when we are mature enough, we will find that all the efforts we have made in the past may not have much meaning.