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Chapter 271 Losing moral character after drinking

While Yan Xin was drunk, Aili asked some questions that had been accumulating in her mind for a long time.

The conclusion drawn is not particularly bad, nor is it particularly good.

She had eliminated Feng Xi as a competitor. It seemed that Yan Xin had a negative view of that girl.

Maybe the original cooperation was just because of the girl's business talent, and it was just a pure investment.

What made her a little disappointed was that Yan Xin didn't like her very much and was actually afraid of getting married and living together with her.

Although it can be attributed to the psychological shadow left on him when he was a child, it is still not good to have such a fear.

But there was nothing Ellie could do to eliminate the fear in his heart.

In terms of emotions, she is not a master, and is even worse than ordinary people, because she has no experience in emotions at all, whether it is friendship or love.

Moreover, she didn’t know what a normal family was like. She only knew that her own family was abnormal.

In this aspect, she is even worse than Yan Xin.

After more than ten minutes of asking and answering questions like this, Yan Xin felt that his brain had turned into a ball of mush, becoming more and more confused. He said to Ellie apologetically:

"Sister Lily, I'm very sleepy now, so I won't accompany you. I'll go back to sleep first."

Ai Lili said, "Then you go back to sleep."

Yan Xin stood up, but he had lost his sense of balance. He almost fell to the ground after taking a step. Fortunately, he held on to the chair next to him, otherwise it would have been a disaster.

Ellie had no choice but to help him walk to the bedroom.

There are only a dozen steps from the dining room to the bedroom, but it is not that easy to walk there while supporting a person.

Yan Xin's center of gravity was unstable and he put an arm around her neck, with most of his weight hanging on her body.

In order to prevent Yan Xin from falling, she had to put one hand around Yan Xin's waist.

As he helped Yan Xin to the bedside, he could feel his body heating up.

Putting Yan Xin down on the bed, Yan Xin said thank you and put his feet on the bed.

Ai Lili yelled to slow down, took off the shoes on his feet, and then let him put him on the bed.

Yan Xin lay on the bed and couldn't move. He didn't know whether he had fallen asleep or was too lazy to move.

Ai Lili shook her head, feeling a little helpless, and helped him pull the quilt away and covered him.

Then, turn on the air conditioner and heating.

It was winter now and the temperature was not that high. Drunk people could easily get cold and catch a cold accidentally, so she had to take precautions.

After doing this, he closed the door and put away the dishes.

In fact, she also has some bosses, but they are not as serious as Yan Xin. It does not affect her work, but at most affects her thinking.

When I was clearing away the dishes, I thought about the person I liked lying on the bed next door, drunk and easily manipulated.

Suddenly some other ideas came to mind.

Yan Xin obviously liked her, so why didn't he dare to take the initiative in this relationship? He already gave her the answer when he was drunk. He was afraid of marriage and didn't dare to take responsibility, so he didn't dare to have an overly ambiguous relationship with her.

But thinking about it on the other hand, does it mean that if there is an ambiguous relationship between two people, he will bear the responsibility?

Once this idea comes up, it is difficult to suppress it.

While washing the dishes, I thought: "If I can take the initiative..."

If he can take the initiative and pierce that layer of window paper, will the relationship between the two people be able to take a further step, and he will have to take responsibility for himself?

This idea is quite tempting.

There was no hesitation in my heart.

Because she knew that while breaking through this layer of window paper, she had to break something else.

Although it is broken, it does not mean that it cannot be repaired, but there is really no way to recover what has been lost.

However, this hesitation is not worth mentioning under the strong temptation.

If she hadn't been drinking, she wouldn't have had such a bold idea.

Alcohol triggered the thoughts hidden in her heart.

She likes the man lying in the next bed.

She wants to be with that person.

And they are together for life.

She didn't know how she could live her life without this person's company.

During the few months when the two were separated, she thought about this person every day, which also made her sure of this - she could not live without this person in her life.

Under the influence of alcohol, her heart was on fire at this moment.

A person in his mid-twenties has both psychological and physical desires.

I finally made up my mind to take this opportunity and use the excuse of being drunk to take the initiative to pierce the window paper.

If Yan Xin is not happy, he recommends red wine.

The more I thought about it, the more I realized it was a perfect decision.

Thinking of what to do next, everyone became excited.

The dishes and chopsticks haven't been washed yet, and her arms are already trembling slightly.

After washing the dishes, he hurriedly wiped his hands, then opened the door and entered Yan Xin's bedroom.

The air conditioner is on in the bedroom and it's quite warm.

At this time, Yan Xin was already asleep, but most of the quilt had been kicked away by him, and most of his body was exposed.

If the air conditioner is not turned on and you sleep like this for an afternoon in this winter, you may catch a cold.

At this moment, Yan Xin's face was flushed, and he looked like he was allergic to alcohol.

Ai Lili's face was also quite red, but not as red as Yan Xin's.

She moved closer to the bed and looked at Yan Xin's face. After looking at it for a while, she couldn't help but reach out and touch it.

I had never dared to have that kind of intimate behavior before.

If she hadn't drank more than half a bottle of red wine, she wouldn't have acted like she did now.

Touching Yan Xin's face with her hand and feeling the warmth of his body, Ai Lili felt as if she had been burned, so she retracted her hand.

But soon, it was placed on Yan Xin's face again.

Then, slowly slide down.

Ellie's face is getting redder and redder.

There is a feeling of fever.

At this moment she felt like she had become a bad woman.

At this moment she longed to do something bad.

When his hand moved to Yan Xin's neck, feeling the warmth transmitted from the flesh, the last trace of reserve in Aili's body disappeared...

Yan Xin drank so much that he fell asleep quickly after lying on the bed.

In a daze, he felt as if someone was touching him, but that touch did not cause him any physical aversion, but instead gave him a very comfortable feeling.

In a daze, he seemed to have returned to his previous life, thinking that the woman who touched his body was his wife Feng Xi in his previous life.

I even had this thought: "It seems too big..."

I can't tell the difference between my previous life and this life, and I can't tell between a dream and reality.

Anyway, I was just so dazed and felt quite comfortable.

I had a lot of dreams.

Different faces, different figures, and different angles flashed through the dream.

Among those faces, there were people I knew in real life, people seen in film and television works, and even the faces of some highly respected teachers in the island country flashed past, matching the corresponding angles.

It was a fancy dream.

In other words, it is a dream composed of many dreams.

He couldn't remember exactly what happened in the dream. He only remembered that it was quite confusing.

Even when he woke up, he found a woman lying next to him, with half of her body pressed against him and an arm around his neck, making his breathing a little uncomfortable.

The touch from his skin told him that it was a woman, and that neither of them was wearing clothes.

At the beginning, my mind was still in a daze, thinking that Feng Xi had sneaked in again?

——On National Day, he encountered two such things, which left a deep impression on him, so the first thing he thought of was Feng Xi.

But those two times, although his hands were quite dishonest, at least both of them were wearing clothes.

As soon as his mind started to move, he gradually woke up, and then he thought that he was in Yangcheng, not his hometown county.

Then I thought about eating with Ellie today, and drank a little wine, and seemed to be drunk.

I was so excited that I broke into cold sweat: "That woman next to me is Sister Lili? I...I slept with Sister Lili?"

When he opened his eyes, what he saw was a slender, white arm.

This arm looks like it belongs to Ellie.

Suddenly a feeling of powerlessness came over me.

He actually put Ellie to bed.

At this time, he didn't feel very happy, but terrified.

He was afraid of hurting Ellie.

What’s even more scary is, will this mean that I will have to be with Ellie for the rest of my life?

Living a life with Ellie seems to be a very happy thing. This woman is beautiful, kind-hearted, gentle, and has good cooking skills.

However, what is in his mind now is not the feeling of happiness, but the painful expression on Feng Xi's face when he proposed divorce to Feng Xi in his previous life, and the first time he saw Feng Xi in this life, she

Holding yourself and crying:

"Why do you have to be so stupid!"

"Why did you leave me!"

"Why do you want to die!"

"How do you want me to live in the future?"

Those words should have been directed at Feng Chen, but at this moment, my mind inexplicably remembered the words she cried and shouted, as if those words were passed down to this life through her crying in her previous life.

generally.

What filled his mind now was Feng Xi's sad and painful expression.

Is the relationship between husband and wife that lasted for several years in the previous life severed like this?

——It was at this time that he suddenly discovered that the couple's life with Feng Xi in his previous life was actually a romantic relationship.

It's not all bickering, there are good moments too.

Not all of them are bored with each other, but they also miss each other.

After he discovered that he had liver cancer in his previous life, he filed for divorce from Feng Xi. Although he had the idea of ​​enjoying the last period of freedom, why didn't he not want Feng Xi to fall into his pit?

Including Feng Xi’s name as the beneficiary of the accident insurance, I also hope that she will not have such a hard life in the future.

Including trying to save Feng Chen after rebirth.

Later, I would fund and cooperate with her to open an online store.

It is repayment of gratitude, but it may not be pure repayment of gratitude.

He just didn't want to admit that he still had a couple's feelings for Feng Xi.

At this time, having such a relationship with Ai Lili after drinking, what he cared about most was Feng Xi's sadness, and he suddenly realized that he actually still had feelings for Feng Xi.

This discovery made him feel heartbroken.

Perhaps, the reason why I have been restrained from being attracted to any woman in my life is not out of fear of marriage, but because I am afraid of seeing Feng Xi sad and crying again.

But now, it's too late to say anything.

Already had such a relationship with Ellie.

If you don't take your responsibility, it will be Ellie who gets hurt.

He also didn't want to hurt Ellie.

Ellie is a very kind woman, and the help she gave him when he was in trouble will be something he will remember throughout his life.

This was definitely not for his sake. At that time, he was just a small security guard from a poor family and had nothing worthy of anyone else's plot.

Just pure kindness.

Such a woman should not be hurt like that.

Ellie's fate in her previous life was very miserable. He hoped to let Ellie avoid that tragic fate in her previous life. He did not want to add new misery to this kind-hearted woman.

He took a long breath and thought to himself: "The things of the previous life should be sealed in the previous life..."

However, when I think of Feng Xi and her face when she was holding him in pain, when she was heartbroken, my heart still hurts.

——Can it really be cut off like this?

He looked up at the sky and let out a long breath.

The arm around his neck moved, and then he heard Ellie's voice:

"I...what...what's going on?"

Yan Xin can't remember clearly what happened after he was drunk, and what kind of conversation the two people had. He only remembers that the two people did have a conversation.

I still remember that Ellie drank more than she did.

It goes without saying that the person who drank less would look like this if he drank too much. Needless to say, what would Aili look like if she drank too much.

It turns out that two people who drank too much did not control their physical needs and acted inappropriately under the influence of alcohol.

He looked at Ellie apologetically: "Sister Lily..."

As soon as he turned his face away, Ellie covered her face with her hands and said shyly: "Don't look over here!"

The two of them were covered with quilts, but when they turned around, the quilt was pulled, and there were some light leaks, and some things that shouldn't be seen were seen.

Ellie's shyness is understandable.

It's just that she covered her face with both hands, making a wider range of movements, pushing the quilt higher, and more space was exposed.

At this time, Yan Xin also complained in his heart: "Shouldn't I be covering other parts with my hands at this time? I covered my face, and I knew it was her."

Those are all reactions under stress, and many times they are not so logical.

Yan Xin didn't dare to look any further, so he lay down flat again, facing the sky, and said awkwardly: "Sister Lily, I drank too much today. I don't even know how this happened."

Ai Lili hummed, and after a while she said quietly:

"I also drank too much, and I don't know what's going on..."

The voice was timid, revealing some guilt.

In Yan Xin's ears, he heard grievance and sadness.

I felt even more depressed.

He really doesn't know how this happened. Is his wine so bad?

The last time I was in my hometown county, I drank too much and even slept in the same bed as Feng Xi, but it didn't reach this point.

He couldn't understand it at all. He was so drunk that he really had the ability to take off two people's clothes and do something like that.

Isn’t it said that alcohol inhibits certain abilities?

But now this is what happened, and he couldn't deny it even if he wanted to.

This time the offense was too great.

She was very uneasy and said seriously: "Sister Lily, I'm sorry, it's all my fault. You can blame me any way you want, you can even call the police and arrest me now."

This can be considered as taking over the responsibility for his drunken behavior.

Ellie's anxious heart was relieved.

If Yan Xin finds out that she is the gangster who lost his moral integrity after drinking, then she really doesn't want to live anymore.

At this time, she had completely sobered up from the drunkenness, and she was thinking about how she had such messy thoughts at that time.

What worried her most was that Yan Xin accused her of taking advantage of him while he was drunk.

She didn't even know how to explain it.

Fortunately, such a terrible thing did not happen. Yan Xin thought it was his own mistake.

He felt relieved and felt much more relaxed, and then said: "I...I won't call the police to arrest you..."

After finishing speaking, he added:

"I am also responsible for this matter... If I hadn't asked for a drink, this thing wouldn't have happened..."

Yan Xin was moved and thought: "Sister Lili is really so kind. She didn't blame me for such a thing."

Adding to his guilt: "Sister Lily, I really can't help you."

Then I heard Ellie say hesitantly: "It's okay... I... I don't blame you... Yan Xin... No matter what you do to me, I won't blame you..."

(End of chapter)