Reckless Youth of Delinquency

"How is it possible..." Su Ze still had a face full of disbelief, but his feet were slowly moving towards He Juan.

Hearing Su Ze's footsteps, He Juan suddenly turned her head and said fiercely: "Don't come over, I'm not He Juan!"

Su Ze stared at He Juan's face carefully, looking at it again and again for two or three minutes, and suddenly exhaled a long breath: "You are really He Juan... I tell you, there was something familiar from the beginning. I felt it, but I didn’t think about you at all.”

I think this is a bit interesting. There is almost no similarity between He Juan now and He Juan in the past. How did Su Ze recognize that she was He Juan? Unconsciously, I asked this question: "How did you tell?"

Su Ze pointed at He Juan's eyes and said, "There is a mole under He Juan's right eyelid. When we were still together, she once told me that it was called a teardrop nevus. She also said that people with teardrop moles will have watery eyes all their lives. Half a lifetime." When he said this, he smiled bitterly: "I told her at the time, how could it be possible? At least I would always be with you..." As if he felt that he had made a mistake, he suddenly stopped and asked: "How could you do it? Has it become like this?" His tone was filled with tenderness.

This really scared me. I originally thought that based on Su Ze's character, she would leave without hesitation after confirming that she was He Juan. I didn't expect that she hadn't left for so long, and that she had talked for so long. if.

He Juan didn't seem to be touched at all, but asked: "Are you still asking me? I want to ask you, how did you become like this? At least I just changed physically. And you, you Even my soul has changed!”

Su Ze was startled, then smiled bitterly and said: "Yes, even my soul has changed. From the inside out, I am no longer the same person."

"Why? Why are you like this?" He Juan asked, she wanted to find out the answer.

"No why." Su Ze said: "How can there be so many whys in this world? In fact, my nature is like this, but I just pretended to be better before. It suffocated me to death when I was with you. I had to pretend to be like this every day. The appearance of a good boy, because I know that's what you like. But how can I keep pretending? There's no way I can keep hiding my true nature for you." He shrugged and said, "That's what happened after that. After I left you, I felt like a fish in water. , life is extremely happy.”

He Juan gritted her teeth and said only three words: "Impossible!" In fact, not only He Juan, but also me thought it was impossible. For some reason, I always felt that Su Ze was lying. When he faced He Juan, even the fat He Juan, her eyes and tone softened. She was completely different from the girl before. , seems like an angel and a devil.

"Nothing is impossible." Su Ze said, "You have always liked the wrong person, so you should give up now. Goodbye." With that, he turned around and prepared to leave. The moment he opened the door, he turned around and said, "I still like your original appearance. Come on, change back. You can do it. You have always been a very perseverant person."

"I can't change back." He Juan said: "To tell you the truth, my current appearance is also the nature I deliberately concealed before. After leaving you, I am still as comfortable as a fish in water. I can eat as much meat as I want, and my life is extremely happy. .”

When he heard these words, he was competing with what Su Ze said before. Su Ze closed the door again, walked up to He Juan and said, "Is it fun for you to do this? Is it fun to destroy your own body?" He Juan straightened her back and asked, "Then is it fun for you to do this? You are destroying yourself. Is it fun to have a soul?" Su Ze is taller than me, but as thin as me, and he looks like a little chicken in front of He Juan. To be honest, I quite enjoyed seeing this scene, it was so damn fun.

"Don't be vindictive." Su Ze turned his face away: "This is boring." But he still didn't get angry at He Juan, maybe because he felt guilty?

"You should stop being vindictive, right?" He Juan said, "Why can't you tell me what happened?"

"What's the use of telling you?" Su Ze shook his head and said, "No one can help me, and I can't go back."

"Even if I can't help you." I suddenly interrupted: "You should tell He Juan the truth. She is still in pain because of this incident. If you don't tell her, she will get fatter. You know She was so beautiful and charming before, can you bear to see her continue like this?" The tone was of course very unkind, trying to dig out more of Su Ze's shame.

When I said these words, the two boys in the corner who had taken off their pants and were peeing suddenly looked in astonishment. Apparently they couldn't believe that this fat man with a fat figure could have been a beautiful and charming girl before? This incident should completely subvert their worldview. They still kept peeing under my command, but of course not a drop of urine came out.

Su Ze looked at He Juan for a long time, then suddenly let out a long sigh, with a very helpless look on his face. Then he leaned against the wall, looked up at the wall lamp on the ceiling, and said quietly: "Do you want to listen? Then I will tell you."

Neither He Juan nor I spoke, we already made our attitude clear. If you speak, we will listen. He Juan was even breathing heavily. The question she had been struggling with for three years suddenly had to be answered. No matter who it was, she would be particularly nervous, right?

I looked at Su Ze calmly. Su Ze looked at me, then at He Juan, then looked into the toilet, and suddenly said in surprise: "Who are you two, and why are you here?" Finally, he noticed that the two people inside had taken off their pants. The boy pissed.

Su Ze didn't know them, but they obviously knew Su Ze. One of them said with a grimace: "Brother Ze, we...we are here to pee." Su Ze looked at them in surprise: "Have you finished peeing? , when you’re done peeing, let’s go!” As if they were pardoned, the two boys said repeatedly: “I’m done peeing, I’m done peeing.” Then they put on their pants and left the toilet as if they were running for their lives.

Now, there are only three of us left in this toilet. Su Ze leaned against the wall and crossed his arms across his chest: "Where should I start? Let's start from the summer vacation when He Juan and I broke up..."

"We were only in the first grade of junior high school at that time. Well, we were only fourteen years old at the time." Then he looked at me and said, "I don't know if He Juan has told you that we were the famous golden boys in the school at that time. Jade Girl is known to almost everyone. He Juan is also famous as the eldest sister in her grade. She knows many, many people and has a wide network. Because of her, I have more and more friends. There are good friends and there are bad friends. The so-called bad friends, you know, are the ones who make you smoke, drink, fight, and make trouble. There are such students in every school, and I always keep a respectful distance from them."

"But they invited me to play together again and again, and I always felt embarrassed. It was okay to always refuse. One day during the summer vacation, I went out with them, and I just wanted to play. This time, I just need to keep my face. They took me to an underground game arcade. You should also know this kind of place. On the surface, it is a game arcade, but in fact, it is a gambling business. All the people playing in it are Bastards, and most of them are bastards in society.”

"They gave me some coins and asked me to play slot machines. They also said that if I lost, it would be theirs, and if I won, it would be mine. I couldn't resist the kindness, so I had no choice but to play. I was really lucky. A few games later, a grand slam!" Su Ze raised his head and smiled bitterly, as if recalling the scene at that time, "When those colorful lights turned on and the exciting music sounded, it almost alarmed the entire game hall. They They all gathered behind me and watched the slot machines clattering and dropping coins."

"I don't know if you have ever experienced that feeling..." Su Ze closed his eyes, with a particularly calm expression on his face: "That was really the happiest time in my life, even more satisfying than getting first in grade in the final exam. There were people's admiration, the sound of coins falling, and the screams of slot machines. I became excited and held the coins with my hands. I couldn't even hold them with my two hands. There were actually some. There is so much money, at least three to four hundred coins!"

"I wanted to call it a day, but my friends said that I was lucky, so I might as well play two more games and simply press more, and win more... You can probably guess what happened next. In half an hour, I lost all the coins in my hand. At that time, I was ashamed and ashamed. I felt very humiliated, as if I had suddenly lost the top spot in my grade. I could even feel the mocking eyes of others. I thought no, I I have to win it back, and I have to prove to them that I can still do it.”

"After I lost all my money, I went to those friends to borrow money. After I borrowed all their money, I had lost four to five hundred yuan. At that time, I was completely discouraged and thought that was it. Forget giving up, just laugh at it. Finally, someone asked me if I wanted to continue playing. He could help me get money. Of course I agreed without hesitation."

"Now that I think about it, this seems to be a premeditated scam. It's not a seeming, but a certainty." Su Ze said decisively: "Otherwise, how could the owner of the arcade give credit to me, a child who came to the arcade for the first time? ?The owner of the game hall is called Lao Ma. Lao Ma came over and said to me with a smile, this is the kid who won a Grand Slam just after playing the slot machine? Not bad, he is born with the luck of winning money. Lend me the money I don’t worry about giving it to you, just go ahead and play with it, it won’t be too late before the money is calculated.”

"With these words from Lao Ma, my confidence doubled. I took the money he lent me and ran to the slot machine again, while my friends stood beside me and cheered me on. I won for a while and then lost. In the last period, generally speaking, I lost more times. Every time I lost everything I had in my hand, Lao Ma immediately sent me the money... It was like my brain was flooded, and I kept playing and playing in a muddle... It wasn't until dawn that I lost the last coin in my hand. As if I suddenly woke up, I suddenly asked: "How much have I lost?" My friends also said they didn't know, so they called Lao Ma over and asked. Asked. Lao Ma looked at the account book and said lightly that it was not much, just seven thousand yuan."

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