Special Female Soldier

I have to say that Liu Yu'an has also changed a lot, both in appearance and temperament, which are obviously different from when he was in school.

But this night, her performance did not look like a popular actress at all, which made it impossible for Lin Yanxi to regard her as a star.

Seeing her at this time, he asked belatedly, "I ate already at night, even if I didn't eat, I wouldn't have my share."

Liu Yu'an smiled awkwardly, but didn't explain much, emptied the last bit of food, and then looked up at her, "When did you cook so delicious?"

"Find a new job for me?" Lin Yanxi looked at her amusedly, and seeing that her expression had calmed down, she finally asked, "Tell me, what's wrong with you, isn't it?" You have achieved your goal, and now you have achieved what you thought at the beginning, so what is there to be unhappy about?"

When she mentioned it like this, Liu Yu'an couldn't help but fell silent. After a while, he said, "I know it might be hypocritical to think this way, but I really feel a little tired. It's not the same as what I thought... at the beginning."

Lin Yanxi couldn't help laughing when she heard this, "It's indeed a bit hypocritical. At your age, other people are still playing tricks on the set?"

Liu Yu'an nodded, "Yeah, I also know that it's really not easy to become popular. If it's not for luck, maybe I'm still playing tricks. I should be grateful now, and I should work harder."

"But it's one thing to be clear in your heart, but it's another thing when you actually face it." Liu Yu'an looked at her, took a deep breath and complained, "You don't know how much pressure there is in this circle, When you are a newcomer, you have the pressure of a newcomer, and Hua Dan also has the pressure of Hua Dan."

"When you open your eyes every day, you are busy with endless announcements and scripts. In addition to acting, you have to face all kinds of competition from your peers and abuse on the Internet. No matter how good and thorough you are, some people will say that you are not good Well, even attack you with vicious language."

"I just wanted to act at the beginning. I never thought that being an actor would have to face so many troubles, and even have to do so many things that have nothing to do with acting."

"Like today's show, it had nothing to do with me at all, but because it was invested by the same investor, I had to cheer up and answer some questions that I don't know how many times I have answered."

Listening to her complaints, Lin Yanxi was not in a hurry to express her opinion, but just sat there and listened quietly.

It wasn't until Liu Yu'an seemed to express all her grievances, and the complaints in her heart were finally vented, that Lin Yanxi asked, "Xiao An, if you don't like it, forget it, and it's the same if you change careers while you're still young."

Liu Yu'an was taken aback, and couldn't help falling silent.

It took a long time before I couldn't help but said, "But I still like it. I like being an actor and can experience so many kinds of feelings in life. I also like this profession, and I don't want to leave it!"

Lin Yanxi couldn't help laughing, "Since you like it, what else can you not bear? Think about what you feel wronged now. Compared with your liking, what is it?"

"Think about those students who are still playing tricks. Don't they have more pressure and difficulties than you?"

Hearing her words, Liu Yu'an couldn't help but feel a little frustrated, "I also know that I'm like this...it's really hypocritical."

"You're not being hypocritical." Lin Yanxi couldn't help laughing, "And it's understandable, if you were going to school there, but you suddenly became a star that attracts everyone's attention, it would be a bit unbalanced for anyone else. It’s normal to be unable to accept some things in time.”

"Really?" Liu Yu'an looked at her in disbelief.

Seeing her expression like this, Lin Yanxi sighed lightly, thought for a while before asking, "Didn't you always want to know what I have been doing for so long?"

Seeing her nodding, Lin Yanxi asked again, "Do you feel that my state is different from the last few times when I came back this time?"

"Of course." Liu Yu'an immediately nodded, "Last time you...I was a little afraid to admit it. I really don't know what you have gone through, and you will have such a big change."

While talking, he looked her up and down, "Although there is something wrong with you this time, your condition is much better than before."

Lin Yanxi laughed, "But you know what, what I have experienced this time is much more difficult than before, even... much more dangerous and painful."

"Because of the confidentiality regulations, I can't tell you too much detail, but I can tell you... I have experienced fighting, starvation, wandering in the jungle, even gun battles and bombings outside, and I can walk back alive. To say that is something to be proud of.”

Liu Yu'an looked at her in disbelief, and it's no wonder she was so shocked. In this society, in this peaceful time, when you hear about a war, and someone close to you tells you that she just participated in the war, anyone would so shocked.

Seeing her expression, Lin Yanxi was not surprised at all, and continued, "Actually, this is not the first time, it was like this before you saw me last time, I have experienced a war that I have never seen before, experienced life and death. "

"Suddenly I don't know how to face it, I don't know how to face death, and I don't know how to face myself. When I got out of those wars, I didn't even know how to return to the life of ordinary people. Even with you , will feel out of place.”

Lin Yanxi laughed at herself when she said this, "I never thought that I would suffer from post-war syndrome in my life."

"But that's the truth, because a war almost ruined my military career, and even almost destroyed me."

Speaking of this, Lin Yanxi raised her head and looked at Liu Yu'an, "Hearing this, do you feel that your current situation is a bit similar to that of someone who just entered the army and was selected by the special forces, and the same person who was recruited by others at a young age? No matter how many years of hard work, nothing will be achieved.”

"But it's also the same. When I was most energetic, I suffered successive blows, which made me even doubt whether I was really suitable for this job."

"And the me you saw at that time, is it worse than your current condition?"

Liu Yu'an nodded lightly, "Compared to you...my things are really nothing, I really didn't expect..."

Lin Yanxi put it down, "No, our natures are actually the same. If I were to be in your position, maybe I might not be as good as you."

Although Liu Yu'an knew that she was comforting him, he still laughed, "Then... what happened next?"