The couple made a living in the 1950s

I was born in 1932, when the magnolias were in full bloom.

I have an older brother and an older sister.

When we were young, my parents always said that there were little devils outside to prevent us from going out to play.

Later, when I grew up, I realized that there were really little devils outside at that time.

My family lived in Beijing, and my grandfather was a teacher in an old private school.

He often liked to say "Books are full of affection like old friends, and they are always close to each other in the morning and evening."

Under his influence, my brother and sister and I started to learn to read and write at a very young age.

My brother and sister took the college entrance examination in a different way from mine.

I was the first college student to be admitted to college by taking the national unified college entrance examination.

In my university, I met many people.

There were teachers I respected, classmates who helped each other, and roommates who loved each other.

There were also Sister Yu and Wang Wei.

I was really going to marry Wang Wei, and I think he thought so at the time.

We are different from many lovers who get married after meeting a few times and having a short time together.

We met on the university campus. I studied at Beijing University and he studied at Huazhong University. In everyone's eyes, we were a perfect match.

We ourselves have always believed so.

My parents are very satisfied with Wang Wei. When I went to his house, his parents were also very kind.

Later, we both waited patiently for graduation and then got married.

At that time, I had no idea that we would not have a future.

I remember the first time we met was at the door of our major classroom.

He was accompanying Sister Yu's husband to the class to help Sister Yu get the test score sheet.

Sister Yu's husband is very charming. He is full of aura just standing there.

Although we know that he is married, we still restrain ourselves from secretly admiring him.

I don't know why that day, I was just going to the door to deliver Sister Yu's report card to my brother-in-law.

But I saw Wang Wei in my heart at first sight.

He is not like Sister Yu's husband, who has a cold and gorgeous light.

Standing there, he was impossible to ignore, but he never warmed anyone.

He was glowing with warmth.

When our eyes met, I could clearly feel my heart about to jump out.

Later, I secretly went to school to see him three times.

So many students walked together during class, and most of them wore black, blue and gray clothes.

But no matter how many people were around him, I could always see him at first sight in the crowd.

It was as if something was guiding me, and I could no longer see anyone else.

Later, we were finally together.

Now I can't remember what I said at the time.

I only remember how I felt when I hesitated for a long time before I mustered up the courage to walk in front of him.

And the light in his eyes when he heard what I said.

The light in his eyes once amazed my whole heart.

I still remember the first time I went to his house to meet his parents. At that time, we were still sophomores and had just been together for a short time.

That day, I brought my carefully prepared gifts and went to his house with joy.

His mother was very gentle, and his father even took a break from work to wait for me to visit him.

I grew up with my grandfather and was the best at pleasing my elders.

The atmosphere in the house was always good, and later Wang Wei's three older sisters and younger sister also came back for dinner.

When we were together, we sometimes talked about family matters.

Naturally, we would talk about our brothers, sisters, and younger sisters.

I also prepared gifts for them early.

They were easy to get along with and smiled at me very gently.

The meals prepared by Wang Wei's mother that day were also very rich.

But for some reason, I always felt uncomfortable getting along with them.

Later, I talked about this with Sister Yu, and Sister Yu said that I had to talk to my mother about this feeling.

I usually listen to Sister Yu. She is kind and knowledgeable, and many of her insights can benefit me a lot.

But this time, I didn't listen to her for the first time.

I still remember that I was lying alone on the bed in the dormitory.

I kept thinking about what happened at Wang Wei's house that day, trying to find out what was wrong.

As I thought about it, I started to laugh. That's it.

His sisters laughed very gently, but they were talking to Wang Wei, not me.

Thinking carefully, they only talked to the two of us when Wang Wei was by my side that day.

When Wang Wei was not around, there was only silence between us.

At that time, Wang Wei was not by my side for too short a time, so I didn't notice it.

After I found the reason, I didn't take it to heart. I thought things would get better as we got to know each other better.

Until one day, Wang Wei suddenly told me that he might go home to stay at night in the future.His elder sister told him that their parents were getting older and he was the only boy in the family.

His elder sisters were married and his younger sister had just graduated from junior high school and started working.

Now it was time for him to stay at home more.

I can’t remember what we said at that time.

I just remember that I didn’t stop him.

At that time I thought I wouldn’t care, but later I couldn’t let it go for a long time.

Our school was not in the city of Beijing.

It took Wang Wei more than two hours to ride a bicycle home from school.

Since he started to stay at home at night, the only time we met every day was at lunch.

Time passed slowly like this.

We seemed to be getting more and more used to it, and we only had lunch together every day.

Time passed, and in a blink of an eye it was time for us to graduate and get assigned jobs.

Wang Wei was assigned to the design institute in the construction engineering department of Beijing as a designer.

I was assigned to the municipal government as an accountant.

In fact, Wang Wei and I always thought that marriage was a natural thing for both of us.

We have completed our studies and have stable jobs, so the only thing left is to get married.

These days, the food rations of each household are not abundant.

I still remember the day when our two families met at his house.

My parents deliberately did not bring my brother and sister, hoping to save more money for their family.

It was not until my parents saw the vegetarian dishes on his table that they changed their faces.

I still remember the look my mother gave me when she turned her head.

The complexity in my mother's eyes at that time was something I saw a long time later.

It was not until my daughter was about to get married that I really understood it.

When Wang Wei and I just graduated, our family discussed the matter of my dowry.

When my sister got married, my parents gave her a sewing machine and 500 yuan as a dowry.

My sister's original watch and bicycle were also allowed to be taken to her own home.

My brother-in-law bought my sister a new watch and a radio.

He also gave my sister a 500 yuan betrothal gift.

All these gifts and dowries were finally taken to my sister's new house.

My parents said that my dowry was the same as my sister's.

No matter how much dowry Wang Wei's family gave, they should be brought back to me.

I didn't have time to say these words to Wang Wei.

The three of us were at that vegetarian banquet.

I heard his eldest sister talk about how difficult his family was and how they could come up with the 66 yuan betrothal gift.

It was their parents who went out to borrow money from relatives and friends.

I still have a vague impression of the surprise in Wang Wei's eyes and the guilt in his parents' eyes.

At that moment, I felt sorry for him.