Unrequited Love

At the end of November, winter came and Beijing was somber all day, making people almost forget what color blue is.

Since the heating in the dormitory was turned on a few days ago, Luo Zhi stayed in the room and did not want to go out.

She didn't eat at night, so she grabbed a box of instant noodles from the snack stock. It was only halfway through eating that there was no taste, and the powdered seasoning package had fallen into the box. She has always been dull and confused these two days. When Luo Zhi hooked the oily transparent small bag out of the noodle soup with a fork, he got goose bumps with nausea.

She was the fastest in instant noodles in high school. Standing by the windowsill of the boiling water room, listening to the gurgling sound of the water heater, he quickly tore open the oil-packed vegetable bag seasoning bag one by one. Sometimes the opening of the oil bag is torn too small, so you can only squeeze the solidified oil into the bowl. At that time, an unknown boy stood aside frowning and watching her squeeze the oil bag. The scene is vivid.

Luo Zhi knew what the boy had never said.

Indeed, things squeezed out like that are very much like stool. The colors, shapes and... dynamic effects are all similar.

However, it went smoothly today, probably because it was too cold and the oil was lumpy. After tearing it apart, a large square fell into the bowl, which was meaningless.

Throw the noodle bowl on the table, and half of the noodles are left in it. Luo Zhi had no appetite. He wiped the seasoning bag with a tissue, and played with him upside down, looking at the seasoning powder and vegetable powder inside, in a daze.

The tablemate in junior high school has a strange habit. He brings a packet of instant noodle seasoning every day, and then pours it into the mineral water bottle that comes with him, shakes it very hard, the vegetable powder is up and down inside, and the color of the water instantly turns brownish-yellow.

Then, he began to drink in a very cherished manner, taking a sip, half-closed his eyes, and naturally he couldn't see Luo Zhi's twisted face.

In the end, she couldn't bear it anymore. One day she asked, where did you get so many seasoning bags?

His eyes widened, with a righteous look. My family cooks noodles every morning, and several packets of instant noodles are cooked together, and the seasoning packets are all put in it. Of course, two packets of seasoning powder can be saved every time the noodles are cooked.

That...is it delicious?

He passed the bottle generously and said, come, taste.

The edges and corners of the mineral water bottle have been rubbed white, and the liquid inside is even more horrible. Luo Zhi's eyes stayed on the water stain on the bottle mouth for a long time, swallowed and said: No, thank you.

The boy's eyes were a little hurt, but he didn't say anything. He plugged the mineral water bottle back into his school bag, and then he fell on the table with an embarrassed expression to do physics problems.

Later, Luo Zhi never saw him drink that kind of drink again. Now that she thinks about it, she feels very sad, why she kept asking about these harmless details of life back then.

But Luo Zhi never apologized. An apology is the second injury. Rather than mentioning it again, it is better to treat it as nothing happened.

However, when she graduated, the same table gave her the whole set of Arale.

"You like watching cartoons, right?"

She put it away carefully and nodded happily.

"Come on for the exam!" The tablemate was a little embarrassed of having nothing to say, everyone in the class was almost gone, and he was still stuck in the aisle.

"You too." Luo Zhi said.

"What can I do? It's good to be able to go to a vocational high school anyway."

Luo Zhi knew that at this time, it was very meaningless to comfort people from all roads leading to Rome, so he could only smile.

After being silent for a while, the tablemate suddenly said: "Luo Zhi, do you hate me?"

She raised her face in surprise: "How come?"

"Really?" The tablemate flushed with excitement, "Great, I like you too!"

Luo Zhi was dumbfounded, as if he had been concealed, but when he saw the happy face at the table, the words stuck in his throat and made no sound.

"You don’t like to talk, and I always do strange things and can’t control myself. Self-study classes often mess up your studies, and drinking strange things makes you feel sick... Then I stopped drinking, and you treated me too. It’s much better. Talk to me too, I'm very happy."

Luo Zhi opened his mouth, completely unable to keep up with his weird thinking.

"I always guess if I make you angry today, and will you be happy tomorrow like this... Hehe, actually, you haven't paid attention to me at all? I only learned later that I told you many things, You don’t remember at all."

The tablemate laughed naively and continued: "In short, you are the best girl I have ever seen, so you must cheer. I especially believe you, you will become the most amazing person."

The most amazing person? How can you ask me so much? However, Luo Zhi didn't say anything, smiled brightly at him, and grabbed a mechanical pencil in his pencil box that had been used for several years.

"I have used it for a long time, my favorite, lucky pencil. I give it to you, I wish you success in the exam, and all the best in the future."

She lied. She always lies. However, Luo Zhi didn't think he had anything wrong with the memory and the most open smile that he would always cherish at the same table.

What's more, she inadvertently let the boy guess her own thoughts, guessing for so long and so long.

Everything now is retribution.

Luo Zhi walked out of the memory, hesitated a little, then firmly poured the seasoning bag into the hot water cup, took a spoon and quickly stirred it, and took a big sip.

It's a bit weird, but it's really not bad.

It rained suddenly outside. There is very little rain in Beijing in early winter, so the rain is particularly cold, and the coolness seems to penetrate into the bones.

Luo Zhi opened the window, and the pedestrians running downstairs screamed strangely. Amid the sound of rain, the smell of mud rushed into his nose. She grinned reluctantly.

Can't laugh.

This is the second time that Sheng Huainan has evaporated.

Later, she mustered up the courage to send him a few text messages, asking him how he had a cold, but the other party did not reply. In Saturday's law instruction class, Luo Zhi was sitting in his seat tangled, seeing him walking through the door from a distance, but he did not look in her direction at first.

Luo Zhi didn't know whether it was sad or angry, she didn't have the ability to react at all.

Even more terrifying is her uncontrollable text message auditory hallucination. Turn off, turn on, there is no new message, turn off and turn on again...

Nokia finally crashed at this moment.

Luo Zhi, are you okay?

She faced the restarting screen and planned to laugh.

After resisting for a few seconds, she suddenly closed the window and fell on the bed in the dormitory. Although the posture was not as exaggerated as Belle, it was essentially the same.

No chant. But tears slowly seeped out, and she gave up resistance. It turns out that when caring about a person, it doesn't make any sense to pretend to be on the surface. The emotions that she once despised came to mind one by one.

If, if Ding Shuijing really cared about her views and attitudes, then she must have not made her feel well during this period of time. Comparing heart to heart, Luo Zhi felt very guilty.

The so-called retribution.

After all, life is not acting in a movie. When the plot in the middle of the movie begins to turn, the time and place are all reversing the protagonist's awakening—of course, she has also awakened. She is full of lies, full of calculations, circuitous but courageous to pursue the boy she loves.

There is no reversal.

God treated her with such cold and hot, and her determination and pride of "finally brave once" was immediately crushed.

She can make a decision, but she really doesn't count.

Finally tired of crying, just like running a circle on the playground to collapse.

Drying her tears, after a while, she opened the word book on the table.

Is the first new word in all vocabulary books in the world "abandon"? Many people arrogantly sign up for TOEFL IELTS GRE, swearing to keep memorizing the words, but the first new word they see is "give up."

But Luo Zhi, Luo Zhi, you have to come on.

Suddenly the phone vibrated on the desk, and it was two times in a row. Luo Zhi was taken aback.

Sheng Huainan, and Zhang Mingrui. The same sentence.

"Where are you? You are not trapped outside by the heavy rain."

She replied to Zhang Mingrui: "Thank you for your concern, I am nestling in the dormitory."

Half an hour later, Luo Zhi rushed into the dormitory from outside, and the heat rushed into his face when he pushed the door. She dropped her schoolbag on the chair and found herself shaking a little. It may be that the weather is too cold. She squatted on the ground and grabbed her arm, her thoughts confused.

I didn't seem to realize that I was holding it too tightly. When I let go, there were a few white marks on my arm, which gradually turned red.

The moment she received the text message, she did not reply to Sheng Huainan, but immediately and calmly put the flat shoes on the cloth bag and put them in the schoolbag, carrying a clean plastic bag, put on the umbrella, and desperately rushed out of the dormitory. Wearing slippers on her trousers, she walked to the small coffee shop near the dormitory. There were many people hiding from the rain at the gate. She quietly entered through the side door, ran to the bathroom to clean the water on her legs and feet, put the umbrella and slippers into the prepared plastic bag, stuffed it into the schoolbag, and replaced it. Flat shoes, put down the trousers.

Very well, I can't see that she ran by in the rain, as if she had been trapped here from the beginning.

The detective novels she read turned into decisiveness in an instant, allowing her to make such a move quickly.

She must seize this opportunity.

Then, look at the phone-Sheng Huainan sent another message: "Where are you?"

She replied: "One Way Street Cafe, it's dead. I have put the plastic bag on my head and am ready to rush out."

send.

Luo Zhi knew that although she was not as calm as everyone saw, she had never been so outrageous.

Her heart is distressed and she always feels that this is the last chance. Quick reply to the message, quick reply to the message. She humbled around in circles.

She was scared that he just replied: "Then you run slowly, Xiaoluotangji."

She accidentally tilted her head and saw through the mirror on the wall the anxiety and pretentiousness on her pale face that could not be concealed. She slowly solidified in place, and then smiled miserably at the mirror.

She is nothing but that.

When his text message arrived, Luo Zhi was already looking as usual.

"Wait for me, I'll be there soon."

Luo Zhi's sneer gradually turned a little bleak. Because I was too scared and expected before, it dilutes the joy that should be. This may be her greatest sorrow.

She sat in a chair and waited. Everyone was watching the rain, and she was watching the palm.

The moment he raised his head, he saw Sheng Huainan standing beside him staring at himself in a daze.

Luo Zhi stood up and smiled. He was carrying a large umbrella, the tip of which was dripping water. Sheng Huainan nodded at her blankly, slowly opened his schoolbag and took out a raincoat. A pink raincoat with a white mouthless cat HelloKitty painted on it, and a blue overalls, he was innocent.

She froze for a moment, and looked up, Sheng Huainan's face had a faint smile, she couldn't understand.

Luo Zhi has always hated that cat. She doesn't like cats without aura. They are dumb and have no soul.

Of course, there are more important reasons. She has seen this raincoat.

"It’s too rainy, and it’s useless to take an umbrella. You put on a raincoat and double protection. Lady boss, do you have a plastic bag? Give me two. Luo Zhi, you wear it on your feet to prevent water from getting in your shoes. I don’t need it. It's soaking wet anyway."

She didn't ask him where he came from, and didn't thank him, she just did what he ordered, and then was dragged away by him. Wearing a raincoat and hat, it will be different when listening to the rain outside, as if you are isolated in your own world. She was too complicated to speak. From receiving his text message to now, it was not unhappy, but the raincoat made her skin burn.

They were wading all the way, Luo Zhi hid in the raincoat, it was very difficult to turn his head, always blocked by the hat.

"Sorry, the shoes are soaked, right?"

Sheng Huainan glanced at his feet and said nothing.

"Is your flu over?"

His expression eased a bit and nodded, or Luo Zhi could vaguely see him nodding through the translucent pink.

"Why don't you speak?" Luo Zhi frowned, suppressing the unhappiness in his heart.

"There is nothing to say." He smiled, and for a moment, there was such a calm smile again.

At the door of the dormitory, Sheng Huainan said, hurry in.

Luo Zhi was speechless, just saying "Thank you really".

"What are you polite?" The standard Sheng Huainan smile, I don't know if it's Luo Zhi's carelessness, she saw malicious teasing and sarcasm in that smile.

Her body stiffened, and she didn't know if it was outrageous. The unbearable anger made her unable to leave in such embarrassment. They stood in silence for a long time, and finally Luo Zhi surrendered, thanked one last time, and then turned around.

In such weather, he remembered her, sent text messages to greet her, and waded in the flood to pick her up.

But why...

"Goodbye." She lowered her head dejectedly, her face still calm.

"Luo Zhi." He finally called her, squinting his eyes and smiling, touching the back of his head with his left hand, just like his sincere smile countless times, but everything looks different today.

"what's up?"

"Can you... remember to return the raincoat to me?"

Luo Zhi suddenly felt a buzzing in his head, like Conan with a flash of inspiration. Conan was very excited to discover the truth, but she was embarrassed.

"Don't worry, it will be returned to you for sure, and it will be returned to you cleanly. I don't like HelloKitty." Luo Zhi lowered his eyes and said coldly.

Sheng Huainan didn't speak, and didn't seem to be surprised by her attitude. He narrowed his eyes slightly, and a trace of disappointment flashed between his eyebrows.

"Why." He didn't use interrogative sentences.

"It's just a pattern, there are so many why." She shook her head.

"Then what do you like?" Sheng Huainan's tone was a little unhappy.

"What do I like?" Luo Zhi heard his tone, suddenly felt very puzzled and wronged.

Luo Zhi, what are you doing out on a rainy day? She held back her tears, smiled, tilted her head and looked at the puddles on the ground: "When I was a child, my father bought me a green raincoat with a little frog. Although it was naive, I liked it very much."

Sheng Huainan finally frowned in confusion. Luo Zhi smiled brighter.

"More importantly, my dad can't buy me a raincoat anymore." She looked at him directly and slowly stopped laughing.

They just looked at each other in the rain for a long time. Luo Zhi felt that all his strength was betting on this inexplicable battle, and he kept seeing Sheng Huainan turning his head in secret.

Turn around, swipe your card, and enter the building.

It feels like a slap in the face, but so.

She remembered the two back figures, the pink HelloKitty, and the green frog with big eyes.

In April of the third year of high school, I went to school in the afternoon to get the grade 2 of the model. She accidentally slipped and fell in the mud at the school gate, looking up to see the pink and green holding hands. When entering the door, the girl took off her raincoat and stuffed it into the boy's hand, and said sweetly—

"You keep it for me, and you will take it with me for the rest of your life."

"why?"

"In this way," she smiled beautifully and somewhat cunningly, "every rainy day in the future, you can come and pick me up."

why? He used his ex-girlfriend's raincoat to pick her up and laughed at her coldly. Why?

However, what stung her most was the raincoat of the big-eyed little frog on Sheng Huainan at that time.

In the deep winter of the five-year-old, there was heavy snow. She received a call at her grandmother's house. Dad said, Luoluo, Dad will pick you up after get off work. The snow is too heavy outside, and the road is not easy to walk. It may be late. But you have to be good, if you stay at home, Dad will buy you a new raincoat, the raincoat of the little frog we saw last time on the second floor of the Third Department Store!

But my mother refused.

Let's not listen to mom, what happened to wearing raincoats in winter? Let's wear it on a snowy day!

She held the phone and called happily, looking forward to the whole afternoon, standing in grandma's kitchen and turning around, knocking over the basin.

She did not wait for Dad.

Dad is dead.