Wildfire

Because someone came to the door last time, Tao Xiaodong couldn't rest assured that Tang Suoyan would open the door alone when there was a knock on the door, because he was afraid that a stranger would follow the door once the door opened.

However, when the door opened this time, Tangning in a suit and leather shoes was outside after attending the wedding.

Tao Xiaodong was wearing Tang Suoyan's pajamas, and the two had just made it all afternoon, and a glance at them showed that the two people had a tacit understanding and closeness. Look, posture, a look is a lover.

Tangning must have drunk, her face and eyes were a little red. His eyes switched back and forth between Tang Suoyan and Tao Xiaodong behind him. He leaned against the wall by the door, with the back of his head against the wall, looking at them both.

This is the place where he has lived for several years, and he is familiar with every place. Looking at the past in this way, it is a bit like looking at the past life in a trance. The good and the bad, the uncomfortable and the comfortable, are all his life.

Tao Xiaodong took a look and went in, leaving the place where the door was.

Tangning's eyes could tell that he was suffering. This was the first time that Tao Xiaodong could see his undisguised discomfort on Tangning's face. This made Tao Xiaodong a little bit disappointed, and there must be regrets.

But things are different, and the past is the past.

"You today..." Tangning's voice was not smooth. He cleared his throat before continuing to ask, "Why didn't you go today?"

Tang Suoyan glanced at Tao Xiaodong who was sitting at the dining table, turned his head and said politely: "The hospital has something to do, so I can't leave."

Tangning leaned there and smiled, her eyes were a little bit down. After laughing, she said, "Professor Xu...is here."

Before Tang Suoyan could speak, Tangning said again, "You just don't want to see me."

Tang Suoyan didn't deny it either, and just told him, "Go back."

Tangning didn't move, didn't say she wanted to come in, and didn't intend to leave. He closed his eyes for a few seconds, and the person who had drunk spoke with a strong nasal voice: "You...have **** just now."

Tao Xiaodong was taken aback by his sudden words, which were too straightforward.

Tang Suoyan looked at Tangning, frowned, and said in a cold voice, "Tangning."

"You did it." Tangning still smiled, her eyes half closed, "Someone will do what I don't want to do."

He leaned there and looked over with a little smile, the corners of his eyes were all red, and he looked touching and pitiful: "Why do people have to do this? Why do they..."

Tangning sniffed, and her nasal voice became stronger, "Are you really happy? Like an animal...like a dog."

He really drank too much to discuss this at the door of his ex-boyfriend.

"You should know it's inappropriate to speak like this." Tang Suoyan looked at him with a cold expression.

"It caused me so much pain..." Tangning closed her eyes again and touched her heart, "It's too painful."

"I loathe it, I'm afraid of it, and I'm afraid of you too. I'm sick of seeing you when I do it..."

Tao Xiaodong frowned when he heard it inside.

"When I do it, I feel sick, and when I don't do it, I worry about the next time. I'm stuck in a corner, and I feel uncomfortable." Tangning blinked, and when she closed it again, tears rolled down her eyes, "It would be great if there was no such thing what…"

Tang Suoyan nodded on his phone with his head down. Instead of looking up, Tangning could look at him more relaxedly. Looking at this guy who's been together since their early twenties, they've been through so much together. No one knows better than him how good this person is, so Tangning hated herself.

"Every time you touch me...you kiss me...I feel disgusted." Tangning wiped her face with the back of her hand and murmured in a low voice, "It would be great if there were only hugs...."

"—Doctor Tang."

Tao Xiaodong's voice came over suddenly, preventing him from continuing. Tao Xiaodong came over, walked around Tang Suoyan expressionlessly, and walked to the front, blocking him.

Tangning opened her eyes and looked at him quietly. Even though her eyes were red, they were also calm.

"You're drunk and not sober. It stands to reason that I shouldn't speak hard to you at this time. Maybe you feel inappropriate even when you're sober."

Tao Xiaodong brought him a bottle of water, unscrewed it and handed it over.

"But what you said is too much, I can't listen to it." Tao Xiaodong watched him drink his saliva, and continued, "I never ask about the things between you, I respect your past, and I respect you. You If you didn't say it in front of me, I can't hear it, but if you say that and let me hear it, you don't respect me."

Tangning drank the water slowly and kept looking at Tao Xiaodong.

"Don't hurt people when you speak like that, don't you feel panicked when you speak like this?" Tao Xiaodong stretched his hand back and squeezed Tang Suoyan's hand, then let go and continued, "I can't bear to hear you saying 'disgusting' every once in a while. , don’t talk like that. I like it, I can’t wait, if you don’t like it, it doesn’t mean it’s dirty.”

Tangning was still quiet, and smiled again. After a few seconds, she slowly raised her hand, pointed at Tang Suoyan behind him, and said slowly, "The one you are protecting used to be mine."

Tao Xiaodong also smiled, and looked back, Tang Suoyan was also looking at him, the two met their gazes, Tao Xiaodong turned his head and said, "No matter whose it was before, it is mine now."

Tangning took another sip of water, and a drop dripped from the corner of her mouth. Tangning raised her hand to wipe it off.

"You are ahead, I am behind, I am inferior to you in everything, I am not on the same level as you." Tao Xiaodong said frankly, "I can't even chase, and I have to think about whether I can get along with each other if I say a word. Appropriate, because you are too strong, I can't compare with you in front of you."

This time Tangning laughed with a sense of self-deprecation. She shook the back of her head against the wall and let out a soft "chih".

"I don't know if you say this now, whether you regret it or just want to stab him, but neither will work. But as long as I don't let go of what I hold, you can't take it away in this life. Don't even think about it. Stab him again from my hand."

Tao Xiaodong finally said to him: "Brother Yan, it's not easy to talk harshly to you. You are all decent people with qualities, but I don't. I'm going to put it in a harsh way for fear that you won't be able to bear it."

After Tangning finished listening, he listened carefully to every sentence. After listening to it, I was silent for a while, and said, "I didn't want to **** it, I can't **** it away."

He looked at Tao Xiaodong, shook his thumb at him, and moved slowly after drinking alcohol: "You are not inferior to me, you are much better than me. I can't even make up my mind to regret it. I dare not ask in person. I'm afraid I have no face... and I am afraid that he will really come back. Look how twisted I am, you may have never been twisted like this in your life."

Tao Xiaodong nodded and said: "I really haven't, and I don't have the conditions. I have to earn everything by myself, and I have to work hard to get it. There are not so many good things waiting for me."

Tangning raised her hand again and wiped her face with a smile, saying, "I didn't come here on purpose today, I got drunk and gave my address by the way. When I got off the bus and remembered, I took advantage of the alcohol to take a look. I just wanted to ...Look at him, and look at you too. You are really good, I can't compare."

With the help of alcohol, let go of that noble self-esteem and look at a pair of new lovers.

Tao Xiaodong said, "I'll see you off."

Tangning drank the last sip of water in the bottle and said, "Xiaodong, I'll give you a present."

Tao Xiaodong looked at him, waiting for him to speak.

Tangning looked past him and looked at Tang Suoyan behind him. He had been looking at Tao Xiaodong just now.

Tangning smiled and said "Hey" and called him.

Tang Suoyan looked at him, and Tangning said directly, "You are not my first lover."

They are each other's first love for thirteen years. Everyone feels so.

Tangning screwed up the empty bottle, held it in her hand, and raised her voice to Tang Suoyan, "I never...never...never liked you. Maybe I did, but I'm just a naughty person. Finding guilt for myself. I was with you to escape, and even the first time I had sex...was not with you. I was so afraid of doing this, because every time I did it, I knew you were you and he was he."

Tang Suoyan's phone rang, and the valet he had just called had arrived. Tang Suoyan didn't look at his phone, but listened to Tangning finish speaking.

"I had **** for the first time when I was 18 years old in the winter, in the storage room. It shouldn't have happened. I really have a shadow on sexual intercourse, because it shouldn't and can't happen." Tangning chuckled softly, "It's not Because of you, you said your thirteen years...how worthless."

Tao Xiaodong turned his head to look at Tang Suoyan. Tang Suoyan's eyes fell on Tangning. The phone had already stopped ringing, so Tang Suoyan didn't look at it.

After Tangning finished speaking, she stood up straight. The corners of his eyes were even redder than before with the back of his hand. He straightened his coat and stroked the cuffs.

The elevator door opened, and someone came out, looked at the three people, and asked, "Is this the valet driver?"

Before leaving, Tao Xiaodong told the chauffeur to go upstairs and watch Tangning enter the door. After closing the door, he would send a photo and add 100.

Tang Suoyan had already entered, but Tangning didn't look back, she raised her arms and shook Tao Xiaodong.

When the oven time was up, Tang Suoyan took out the chicken and turned it over, brushed it with sauce and honey and put it back to reset the time. Tang Suoyan brought out the steak pan again, ready to fry it. He didn't show anything and was very calm all the time.

Tao Xiaodong sat quietly by the dining table, watching Tang Suoyan doing this in silence.

This gift from Tangning was absolutely incredible.

No matter whether Tang Suoyan has a new love now, no matter whether he has stepped into the next stage, but the first thirteen years were those years when he was really young and good in his relationship. Tang Ning was the primary school boy he fell in love with at first sight. After all these years, Tang Suoyan was worthy of that first love at first sight.

The reason why Tao Xiaodong respects it is because its existence is beautiful. The youngest time and the best lover.

Tangning was completely ruined today. He ruined Tang Suoyan's years worthless.

He trampled the feelings and current dignity of a proud person on the ground and crushed them into powder and slag.

Tao Xiaodong walked over to Tang Suoyan and hugged him while he was leaning on the table and waiting for the steak to be cooked. He wrapped his arms around his shoulders and patted him on the back. The first time he came here and Tangning also came, he hugged him like this.

Tang Suoyan also raised his arms to hug him, and asked softly, "What's wrong?"

"It's nothing, I just want to hug you." Tao Xiaodong said.

Tang Suoyan held him with his right hand, and his left hand was distracted to turn over the steak.

Tao Xiaodong picked it up and did not let go, and did not let go when the other side was fried. Tang Suoyan said, "It is fried."

Tao Xiaodong came up with all his strength, but didn't move. Tang Suoyan smiled helplessly, and raised his hand to turn off the fire.

The two hugged like this, and then Tang Suoyan put down the clip, hugged him with both hands, and buried his face on Tao Xiaodong's shoulder. Tao Xiaodong put his face against his head and kissed his hair.

Hold until the roast chicken is cooked, the soup is cooked, and the steak is cold.

When he let go, Tang Suoyan called "Xiaodong".

"Hey." Tao Xiaodong responded.

Tang Suoyan said, "Sorry for letting you hear this."

Tao Xiaodong went to the drawer to get a bowl of soup, and looked up at him: "I feel so distressed, you can talk well."

Tang Suoyan smiled lightly, touched his ear and said, "Don't feel bad."

The steak was reheated again, it was a bit overcooked, Tang Suoyan cut it and put it in front of Tao Xiaodong.

The surrogate driver sent the photo and made a phone call, saying that the gentleman had gone home. It was Tao Xiaodong who took Tang Suoyan to answer, and then added him to WeChat and transferred a hundred.

Tang Suoyan has been tearing the roast chicken slowly while wearing gloves. He tore Tao Xiaodong and ate it directly from the inside, and said with a smile, "It's too fragrant."

"I like to do it for you often." Tang Suoyan said.

Tao Xiaodong nodded and said yes, and called "Brother Yan" after a while.

Tang Suoyan looked at him and asked him what was wrong.

Tao Xiaodong said: "Buy me a bouquet of flowers tomorrow, I really liked the bouquet last time."