Pastor's Tantra

Aiwass was silent for a long time and slowly closed the diary.

Isabel let out a light sigh: "You...don't want to read it?"

There was some surprise in her voice, some surprise, but also some regret.

"Don't watch anymore."

Aiwass turned around and showed a gentle smile: "Because I already understand the source of your fear and know where your heart starts from."

"Do you not want to watch it or... don't need to watch it?"

"No. I won't look at it this time."

Aiwass corrected: "Peeling away your hidden heart and understanding your past; and looking into your secrets and prying into your thoughts... these are two different things.

"You want me to read your diary just because of your fear and palpitations. Your emotions are too complicated now... and I don't want to take advantage of you."

Aiwass said with a smile: "I want to see you wholeheartedly and seriously... tell me all your secrets. Tell me with your own mouth, not this half-truth and half-false diary."

Hearing this, Isabel's cheeks immediately turned red.

It’s still the same sentence – who would keep a diary?

Can what is written in a diary be considered true to the heart?

Not to mention, the essence of "Du Lac Family Diary" is actually a suicide note. Curses and poisons may be chronic or acute. At the slowest, it may take several months to die, and at the fastest, there may be no time to save the person, and he may die suddenly in an instant.

In this case, it is very difficult to leave a suicide note stably. That's why the prince at the beginning chose to let everyone else leave a diary. After you die, this diary will be seen by others, allowing them to understand what you think and what you want to do.

Reading diaries together and sharing secrets will also make the royal family share the same hatred. They can understand each other and are in the same position, so it is not easy for them to fight among themselves.

That prince should be Queen Sophia's eldest son. Being the first to realize this, he is indeed the right person to become a king.

And the same thing... In this case, there will naturally be nothing too secretive in the diary.

Just like Correa's husband and Fili's father, there are traces of restrained emotions in his diary.

But they all took it for granted that they did one thing wrong.

The process of writing a diary is indeed a process of channeling fear and venting anxiety. However, there is a problem here... If the diary must be seen by other people, then the negative emotions contained in it will definitely be conveyed to the next person through words.

In a closed system, this cycle repeats over and over again. The negative emotions accumulated in words will continue to pile up and become more and more.

Hatred, confusion, fear, anger, escape, sadness...

By the time it reached this generation, Isabel couldn't bear it anymore.

It's not her fault. Because she was under too much pressure.

It's not like a doctor would hide his illness from a terminally ill patient - what the Du Lac family did was exactly the opposite. Everyone kept saying "I'm going to die" and "You're going to die too."

Then he witnessed people die one after another until the rooms in the Palace of Silver and Tin became empty one by one.

It's like being in an intensive care unit and can easily lead to depression.

The only person who realizes this is probably the last person in the excerpt from Isabel's diary.

There is power in his words, and he should be an orthodox old knight. He knew what he was going to do, so he chose to comfort others - instead of venting his fear and pain in his diary, he gave others the strength to live.

This kind of knight who can be recognized by the Silver Crown Dragon will definitely become his apostle after death.

This is quite rare.

Even if the royal family of Avalon are descendants of Lancelot who once worked with the Silver Crowned Dragon, not all of them can become the knights of the Crowned Lord. Because the Silver Crowned Dragon is quite picky.

After all, there is no such thing as reincarnation in this world, which generally respects the cycle of nature. But death is not an absolute end.

The soul of a mortal is born together with the birth of the body. It is a gift from the world; and after the death of a mortal, the soul will enter nine different rivers according to the nature, and flow into the realm where the Nine Pillars belong.

Pillar Gods and Tiansi can use their own power to temporarily intercept and preserve the souls of others, or divide part of their origin and power to promote the other person to an apostle. If they don't do this, then the soul will merge into the world again at the end of the river, forming a big cycle.

The paths where souls are most trapped are the path of adaptation, the path of love and the path of twilight.

After the death of those who have adapted to the path, their souls will transform into various grotesque beasts in the forest realm of the Scale Feather Lord. They will fight, devour and evolve with each other in the endless dense forests and wilderness until they become enough. If you are strong, you may be noticed by the Pillar God or Tiansi and taken away to become their apostle.

People on the path of love will enter different realms according to different desires after death. Those who like fighting, violence, and barbarism will enter the shadow realm to continue fighting with others, and will be reborn after death to continue fighting; while those who like sex and food will enter the flesh and blood realm to enjoy endless chaotic and decadent banquets.

Indulge your desires until your soul is completely lost, or you can completely control your desires and be chosen as an apostle by Tiansi.

As for the eternal self, the pillar god of the path of love, the eternal self never dances with others. He will only dance with his own reflection in sorrow forever in the dwelling of the moon. He is the pillar god with the fewest apostles.

The Dusk Path will turn into amber one after another in the amber forest after death. Their past, memories, lives, and souls will be completely preserved by amber, even if it is meaningless.

Except for the "automatic diversion mechanism" for these three paths, the Pillar Gods and Tiansi of other paths will carefully screen them. After all, making an apostle requires dedicating part of one's strength, and only the souls that one particularly likes will be picked up - usually after the pillar gods have been selected, it is the turn of the Tiansi of this path to choose, and after all the Tiansi have been selected, the remaining souls will be picked up. The soul will be recycled by the world.

The Silver Crowned Dragon is a very picky pillar god, even pickier than Sizhu. Only high-quality souls who are loyal, upright, heroic, honest, reliable, tolerant and glorious will be chosen by Him to become His knights. However, he is also the best to his apostles. If the apostles are attacked by other pillar gods or apostles of Tiansi in the dream world, then the Crown Master will directly launch an endless war against the other party.

The knights of the Crown Lord are still quite active.

The knights will exercise, read, and sing in the palace at the foot of the sunny Crystal Mountains, and gallop and fight on the endless emerald grasslands. Occasionally, he would go to the material world as a witness to the oath, or to punish those who broke the oath. Occasionally, he becomes a mortal for a short period of time, travels the world, and acts bravely for justice.

Knights usually do not appear in the form of apostles in temples, unless they are to warn tyrants - the knights of the Crown Lord will protect all rulers, prevent their bloodlines from being cut off, and will also protect the mortal rulers of the material world from being Other apostles attack or control at will from the dream world, maintaining the harmony and separation between the material world and the dream world.

Together with them, there are the apostles of Sand Time Watch guarding the balance between the two worlds.

But against tyrants, knights will withdraw their protection. Part of the reason is because "tyrant" is the domain held by Xiong Tiansi.

The crowned master will silently watch the entire world from the top of the mountain where the blizzard is always blowing. Aiwass doesn't know what he is looking at. And apart from this matter and the selection of knights, He almost doesn't care about anything... He only relies on his own knights as his representatives. Just like King Arthur who sent the Knights of the Round Table out on adventures in the past.

Because of this, Aiwass felt confused and flustered when the Silver Crowned Dragon suddenly looked at him, a mortal.

——What are you looking at me for?

If it was a sand timepiece, he would definitely not panic.

Sand Clock is the Pillar God most closely associated with the material world, and is so good-natured that he can even bargain with mortals who have not embarked on the path to the supernatural. As long as someone calls, even if the ritual is wrong, there is a high probability that He and His Apostles will respond. The power source of the ritual to expel the phantom demon and banish it back to the dream world comes from the sand timepiece.

If Aiwass dies, then he may be taken away by Snake Father or Sizhu; Isabel may not be able to see the twins now. If Sherlock grows up, Weizhe may be able to see the twins. It's possible, but now it's probably not possible.

Bishop Mathers had strayed somewhat from the way of devotion, and Yulia was even more of a newcomer.

Among Aiwass's friends... the only one who might be favored by the Pillar God is probably the Great Guardian. With George's character, strength and achievements, he will definitely become a knight of the Silver Crowned Dragon after his death. And this is also true, so Aiwass called him "Saint George" because he became an apostle after his death.

——Rounding things up, I am making friends with an apostle.

Chapter 2 is a little later~